Chapter Eleven- Worth Your Tears.
Another Saturday, another working day.Destiny had already left for work leaving Charity alone, she didn't really say much went she got in and met Destiny.Not like she had to,the fadded masquera which fell on her face told it all,Destiny tried to comfort her as much as she could but their was no use.Both Miguel and Marcus, were doing the usual watching Spongebob and eating cereal, but neither one seemed to really enjoy it.
" were pathetic you know that" Miguel said,as he trew his cereal towards the table, as he looked on to Marcus." look at us sulking, like Jhon was the one cheating on us."
" feels like it.Bastard,I gave him the best three days of my life."Marcus said as he gave a piercing gaze to the telvevision screen.
"two."
" your not making this any better!"Marcus screeched.
"I hate this."
" I know, now one has ever cheated on me before."Marcus continued, as Miguel gave him an awkward look.
" it's okay." he laughed slightly, as he patted Marcus on the back.
" but it hurts so bad!"
"you'll get over it."
"how can I Miguel? how!?"
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Charity laid in her bed, almost lifeless.Her pillow wet with tears tiered of lying down and feeling sorry for herself she decided, to turn on the radio in hopes that it would make her feel better.She got up from her bed and walked over to her radio, and turned it on.
'...and how do you mend a broken heart?
how can you stop the rain from falling down
tell me how can you stop the sun from shinning?
what makes the world go round.
and...' (How can you mend a broken heart? ) Quickly she changed stations.
'...how you gonna up and leave me know?
how you gonna act like that.
how could you just change it up
we just started making up
how you gonna act like that?' (Tyrese~How you gonna act like that) Frustrated she changed stations again.
'I was alright.
For awhile, I could smile for awhile
but then I saw you last night you held my hand so tight.
as you stoped, to say hello.
while you whised me well, you couldn't tell that I've been
crying.Over you.
crying.Over you.
and you, said so long left me standing all alone...
Too frustrated , too drained to turn it off, Charity walked back over to her bed and laid flat on her face."Dammit." she whispered soflty.
alone and crying, crying ,crying.
it's hard to understand, that the touch
of your hand, can leave me crying.
I thought that I was over you,
but it's true so true.
I love you even more than I did before
but darling what can I do
'cause you don't love me, and I'll always be...
crying.Over you.
crying.Over you.
yes now your gone, and from this moment on, I'll be
crying, crying,crying over you.'(Roy Orbison~Crying.)
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"I'm going out."Miguel said, as he got up from the couch and towards the door.
"okay" Marcus said, just getting back into the toons.
He smiled only halfly.He was happy he braught Jhon down, but he did like Charity, not like Marcus or Mrs.Campbell thought he did.It was different.Anyways he liked her, and he felt bad about what Jhon did to her, he wanted to pop over and see how she was holding up, but how? he couldn't just go upfront, she'd know he knew before she did.He thought as he walked down the hallways, as he reached her door he looked around, and then the light shined down on it, and music began to play as he saw a magizine a girls magazine.
"hey," he smiled slyly.
" oh hey Miguel!" the girl said semi-excited, as she read on in her magazine.
"listen, I know this sounds real wierd of me to ask of you," he paused never thinking he'd ever say this to a girl ,ever."can I borrow your magazine?"
the girls eyes widdened as she smiled, Miguel never really taked to her and she's had the biggest crush on him ever since they first past ways through the infamous hallways, 'my friends are gonna die!' she thought as she passed him the magazine.
"you're the best thanks." he smiled as he took it from the girl who had a smile as big, as anything you've ever seen.He knocked on her door, as he leaned against the doorway."go away!" Charity said softly as she was still laying, down in her bed, but the knocking still came,she stumbeled out of bed to answer the door.
"hey" he smiled breefly, before looking at Charity who was practicly lfeless.Astonished at the sight, Miguel tried to pick up what he was trying to say" Destiny,"he started while flashing the magazine in front of her face"she left this with me and Marcus,last night so..."
Charity sniffeled a bit before she answered him" okay, thanks." she finally said in a weak tone, as she walked back to her bed, not noticing she left the door wide open, noticing Charity Miguel followed while closing the door behind him.He took the glittery pink box of klennex, form Charity's night table he walked over to a very depressed Charity who was now sitting upright in her bed.He sighed before,he jumped onto her lap and presented the box of klennex infront of her face, she giggled breefly before saying."Miguel,"
"yeah."he replied still on her lap.
"how much do you weigh?"she asked.
"uh, 210...why?"he asked, confused by her question.
"really, because I'm 110."
"oh."he answered awkwardly.
"Miguel, your hurting me!"she said sofly.
" oh damn! I'm sorry."he started as he slided off her." I just thought..."he stretd as he handed her the kleenex box.
" I know, thanks" she smiled, before she turned her glance to the window.They both sat in silence for awhile, before she started talking again."I was, walking out to meet Jhon, and umm he was with another girl...I thought that was kind of strange, you know we were supposed to be on a date.So I ivesdropped to see what they were talking about"Miguel listened attentively as she continued"she aked him about me, and he..."her faught not to cry."said I was nothing to him, and she wouldn't have to worry about me." she said"he just, came here to break up with me Miguel."she said, as she returned her gaze to the window."all this time." she sighed.
"you've really been toghether a long time huh?"
"yeah, we've known each other ever since we were kids.I always loved him.I always saw him do this to other girls he went out with, I just kept telling myself he wouldn't do that to me.You must think I'm real stupid."she smiled slightly,as she faced him.
"no, what for?"
"for not seeing this before, I mean alll this time he told me he was busy he was probably with some other girl, and I didn't want to see it."
"so, just because Jhon a fool who can't keep it in his pants doeasn't make you the idiot.Honestly, I think he's the idiot."she looked at him in confusion."any guy would have to be an idiot to leave a girl like you."
"that's real sweet of you."she said as she shook her head " but we both know that isn't true." she siad as she looked down and let a tear drop." I mean, I was the shy innocent girl until I got with Jhon.He wasn't just my boyfriend, he was like my everything...I should of never left to go to Boston U, he never liked the idea."
" why not? you love it here.You can't put your happiness on hold for him, he doesn't own you."he said with a tad of aggrivation in his voice.
"but if I stayed back, this might of never happened."
"you said yourself, that Jhon did this to other girls he was with.If you stayed he would of done the same thing.Charity, I know what you're trying to do..." he looked at her as he continued"your trying to prove to yourself that all the stuff Jhon did was your fault, it isn't Jhon's just a bastard and it has absolutely nothing to do with you."She looked at him for awhile, while realizing she just bore her soul to a guy she hardly even knew, something she wouldn't normally do.
"this is crazy!" she giggled, as she wiped away a tear"all you came over to do, is drop off a magazine not play Dr.Phil to my problems.I'm sorry."
"don't be, what are friends for... here." he said as he handed her another klennex.
"I just...don't know what's next," she started"you know I always thought that me and Jhon were gonna have a future toghether...the works, marriage, kids..."
"white picket fence..."he continued while they laughed." you could still have that... just not with Jhon."as he said that Charity began to cry, feeling bad Miguel opened his arms to her, and she fell into them.
"I hate this." Charity sputtered frustratingly"I shouldn't even be crying over him...but look at me."
Miguel didn't really know what to say, he never fell in love; and he certanlly, ever went through the drama of a breakup." see, that's why I don't believe in love..."Charity quickly slided away from him.
"what?" she asked astonished.
" I don't."he said crisply and franqly.
"I can't believe what I'm hearing." Charity said, as she took another klennex."wow...why?"
"I just think it's overrated, life's stressful enough.Think about it, Charity if you didn't love Jhon, you'd never be hurting the way you are now. I mean it's not worth it," he started reffering to Charity's situation."you fall for someone, only to what...be broken hearted."
" that doesn't happen all the time, Miguel."
" but it sure does happen often."Charity sighed with dissapointment, and Miguel's statements.
" it does, I should know I must be poster child for broken hearts; but, I wouldn't change that...for anything.Yeah love hurts sometimes, but other times it's the most beautiful and wonderous thing in the world.Think about it Miguel without love what's life worth."Miguel was about to answer, as he heard his cell ring.
"hello?"
" Miguel! what a surprise to hear your voice!" Marcus exclaimed.
" Marcus, could we do this a little later I'm in the middle of something."
"it's Saturday, Miguel.You know it's that day we WORK."
"sh*t I compleatly forgot about today."
"yeah, anyways you better get down here and quick Kirk is having a hissy fit, and I don't know how much longer I could cover for you."he said" where are you anyway?"
"doesn't matter, I'll be there in a bit."
"alright make it snappy man!"
" yeah," he sighed, as he turned the cell off.
" work?" Charity asked.
" yeah, they'll have my ass if I'm not there." they both laughed.
"I'm sorry for keeping you." Charity said as they both started towards the door.
"you weren't."he smirked."are you gonna be okay?" he asked in a concerned tone.
" yeah." she lied, as she opened the door.
"see you at work tomorow!"
" sure, maybe then I could talk some sense into you about this 'no love' talk."she laughed.
" I doubt that," he started"but for whatever it's worth...you're gonna meet someone else."
" I hope so." Charity smiled, as she looked to the ground.
"and...he's gonna be alot better than Jhon ever was."
"from your lips to God's ears."she said" but thanks for saying that...and for everything."
"hey!it's what I'm here for."he smiled" told you, Destiny didn't know the half of it." he laughed while making his way down the hallway."see you, Charity."
"bye." she said softly, as she watched him dissapear from sight.
Another Saturday, another working day.Destiny had already left for work leaving Charity alone, she didn't really say much went she got in and met Destiny.Not like she had to,the fadded masquera which fell on her face told it all,Destiny tried to comfort her as much as she could but their was no use.Both Miguel and Marcus, were doing the usual watching Spongebob and eating cereal, but neither one seemed to really enjoy it.
" were pathetic you know that" Miguel said,as he trew his cereal towards the table, as he looked on to Marcus." look at us sulking, like Jhon was the one cheating on us."
" feels like it.Bastard,I gave him the best three days of my life."Marcus said as he gave a piercing gaze to the telvevision screen.
"two."
" your not making this any better!"Marcus screeched.
"I hate this."
" I know, now one has ever cheated on me before."Marcus continued, as Miguel gave him an awkward look.
" it's okay." he laughed slightly, as he patted Marcus on the back.
" but it hurts so bad!"
"you'll get over it."
"how can I Miguel? how!?"
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Charity laid in her bed, almost lifeless.Her pillow wet with tears tiered of lying down and feeling sorry for herself she decided, to turn on the radio in hopes that it would make her feel better.She got up from her bed and walked over to her radio, and turned it on.
'...and how do you mend a broken heart?
how can you stop the rain from falling down
tell me how can you stop the sun from shinning?
what makes the world go round.
and...' (How can you mend a broken heart? ) Quickly she changed stations.
'...how you gonna up and leave me know?
how you gonna act like that.
how could you just change it up
we just started making up
how you gonna act like that?' (Tyrese~How you gonna act like that) Frustrated she changed stations again.
'I was alright.
For awhile, I could smile for awhile
but then I saw you last night you held my hand so tight.
as you stoped, to say hello.
while you whised me well, you couldn't tell that I've been
crying.Over you.
crying.Over you.
and you, said so long left me standing all alone...
Too frustrated , too drained to turn it off, Charity walked back over to her bed and laid flat on her face."Dammit." she whispered soflty.
alone and crying, crying ,crying.
it's hard to understand, that the touch
of your hand, can leave me crying.
I thought that I was over you,
but it's true so true.
I love you even more than I did before
but darling what can I do
'cause you don't love me, and I'll always be...
crying.Over you.
crying.Over you.
yes now your gone, and from this moment on, I'll be
crying, crying,crying over you.'(Roy Orbison~Crying.)
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"I'm going out."Miguel said, as he got up from the couch and towards the door.
"okay" Marcus said, just getting back into the toons.
He smiled only halfly.He was happy he braught Jhon down, but he did like Charity, not like Marcus or Mrs.Campbell thought he did.It was different.Anyways he liked her, and he felt bad about what Jhon did to her, he wanted to pop over and see how she was holding up, but how? he couldn't just go upfront, she'd know he knew before she did.He thought as he walked down the hallways, as he reached her door he looked around, and then the light shined down on it, and music began to play as he saw a magizine a girls magazine.
"hey," he smiled slyly.
" oh hey Miguel!" the girl said semi-excited, as she read on in her magazine.
"listen, I know this sounds real wierd of me to ask of you," he paused never thinking he'd ever say this to a girl ,ever."can I borrow your magazine?"
the girls eyes widdened as she smiled, Miguel never really taked to her and she's had the biggest crush on him ever since they first past ways through the infamous hallways, 'my friends are gonna die!' she thought as she passed him the magazine.
"you're the best thanks." he smiled as he took it from the girl who had a smile as big, as anything you've ever seen.He knocked on her door, as he leaned against the doorway."go away!" Charity said softly as she was still laying, down in her bed, but the knocking still came,she stumbeled out of bed to answer the door.
"hey" he smiled breefly, before looking at Charity who was practicly lfeless.Astonished at the sight, Miguel tried to pick up what he was trying to say" Destiny,"he started while flashing the magazine in front of her face"she left this with me and Marcus,last night so..."
Charity sniffeled a bit before she answered him" okay, thanks." she finally said in a weak tone, as she walked back to her bed, not noticing she left the door wide open, noticing Charity Miguel followed while closing the door behind him.He took the glittery pink box of klennex, form Charity's night table he walked over to a very depressed Charity who was now sitting upright in her bed.He sighed before,he jumped onto her lap and presented the box of klennex infront of her face, she giggled breefly before saying."Miguel,"
"yeah."he replied still on her lap.
"how much do you weigh?"she asked.
"uh, 210...why?"he asked, confused by her question.
"really, because I'm 110."
"oh."he answered awkwardly.
"Miguel, your hurting me!"she said sofly.
" oh damn! I'm sorry."he started as he slided off her." I just thought..."he stretd as he handed her the kleenex box.
" I know, thanks" she smiled, before she turned her glance to the window.They both sat in silence for awhile, before she started talking again."I was, walking out to meet Jhon, and umm he was with another girl...I thought that was kind of strange, you know we were supposed to be on a date.So I ivesdropped to see what they were talking about"Miguel listened attentively as she continued"she aked him about me, and he..."her faught not to cry."said I was nothing to him, and she wouldn't have to worry about me." she said"he just, came here to break up with me Miguel."she said, as she returned her gaze to the window."all this time." she sighed.
"you've really been toghether a long time huh?"
"yeah, we've known each other ever since we were kids.I always loved him.I always saw him do this to other girls he went out with, I just kept telling myself he wouldn't do that to me.You must think I'm real stupid."she smiled slightly,as she faced him.
"no, what for?"
"for not seeing this before, I mean alll this time he told me he was busy he was probably with some other girl, and I didn't want to see it."
"so, just because Jhon a fool who can't keep it in his pants doeasn't make you the idiot.Honestly, I think he's the idiot."she looked at him in confusion."any guy would have to be an idiot to leave a girl like you."
"that's real sweet of you."she said as she shook her head " but we both know that isn't true." she siad as she looked down and let a tear drop." I mean, I was the shy innocent girl until I got with Jhon.He wasn't just my boyfriend, he was like my everything...I should of never left to go to Boston U, he never liked the idea."
" why not? you love it here.You can't put your happiness on hold for him, he doesn't own you."he said with a tad of aggrivation in his voice.
"but if I stayed back, this might of never happened."
"you said yourself, that Jhon did this to other girls he was with.If you stayed he would of done the same thing.Charity, I know what you're trying to do..." he looked at her as he continued"your trying to prove to yourself that all the stuff Jhon did was your fault, it isn't Jhon's just a bastard and it has absolutely nothing to do with you."She looked at him for awhile, while realizing she just bore her soul to a guy she hardly even knew, something she wouldn't normally do.
"this is crazy!" she giggled, as she wiped away a tear"all you came over to do, is drop off a magazine not play Dr.Phil to my problems.I'm sorry."
"don't be, what are friends for... here." he said as he handed her another klennex.
"I just...don't know what's next," she started"you know I always thought that me and Jhon were gonna have a future toghether...the works, marriage, kids..."
"white picket fence..."he continued while they laughed." you could still have that... just not with Jhon."as he said that Charity began to cry, feeling bad Miguel opened his arms to her, and she fell into them.
"I hate this." Charity sputtered frustratingly"I shouldn't even be crying over him...but look at me."
Miguel didn't really know what to say, he never fell in love; and he certanlly, ever went through the drama of a breakup." see, that's why I don't believe in love..."Charity quickly slided away from him.
"what?" she asked astonished.
" I don't."he said crisply and franqly.
"I can't believe what I'm hearing." Charity said, as she took another klennex."wow...why?"
"I just think it's overrated, life's stressful enough.Think about it, Charity if you didn't love Jhon, you'd never be hurting the way you are now. I mean it's not worth it," he started reffering to Charity's situation."you fall for someone, only to what...be broken hearted."
" that doesn't happen all the time, Miguel."
" but it sure does happen often."Charity sighed with dissapointment, and Miguel's statements.
" it does, I should know I must be poster child for broken hearts; but, I wouldn't change that...for anything.Yeah love hurts sometimes, but other times it's the most beautiful and wonderous thing in the world.Think about it Miguel without love what's life worth."Miguel was about to answer, as he heard his cell ring.
"hello?"
" Miguel! what a surprise to hear your voice!" Marcus exclaimed.
" Marcus, could we do this a little later I'm in the middle of something."
"it's Saturday, Miguel.You know it's that day we WORK."
"sh*t I compleatly forgot about today."
"yeah, anyways you better get down here and quick Kirk is having a hissy fit, and I don't know how much longer I could cover for you."he said" where are you anyway?"
"doesn't matter, I'll be there in a bit."
"alright make it snappy man!"
" yeah," he sighed, as he turned the cell off.
" work?" Charity asked.
" yeah, they'll have my ass if I'm not there." they both laughed.
"I'm sorry for keeping you." Charity said as they both started towards the door.
"you weren't."he smirked."are you gonna be okay?" he asked in a concerned tone.
" yeah." she lied, as she opened the door.
"see you at work tomorow!"
" sure, maybe then I could talk some sense into you about this 'no love' talk."she laughed.
" I doubt that," he started"but for whatever it's worth...you're gonna meet someone else."
" I hope so." Charity smiled, as she looked to the ground.
"and...he's gonna be alot better than Jhon ever was."
"from your lips to God's ears."she said" but thanks for saying that...and for everything."
"hey!it's what I'm here for."he smiled" told you, Destiny didn't know the half of it." he laughed while making his way down the hallway."see you, Charity."
"bye." she said softly, as she watched him dissapear from sight.