I must apologise for the long delay in this next chapter. I have been
without the internet for a week and it killed me. I couldn't update my
story or read any new ones so I apologise.
Note for:- Bookstitch and Jasonsgurl :- I'm sorryt hat I killed Carter but other people seem to write stories where Abby gives birth and then dies. I just thought I would try the other way round.
The following morning dawned bright and sunny. It was the height of summer I suppose but here I was in a dark place. My husband was dead and I was burying him tomorrow. Our daughter lay beside me. She had been awake quite a bit in the night, so I brought her in beside me. She seemed to sense where she was and had been quiet since she lay down. She was lying on his side of the bed. Wonder if she knows. Maybe it's his smell, maybe that's what is keeping her calm.
I walked down the stairs and into the kitchen. Amanda and Helen stood working. Helen busied herself over the stove while Amanda was working at the sink. "morning." I said, letting them know I was in the room.
"Morning Mrs Carter, breakfast will be in a minute." Helen told me. Then she saw Ellie. "Would you look at this little one. Mrs Carter she is adorable. She looks like you."
"Thank you Helen. Amanda, do you know when Mr and Mrs Carter will be arriving?" I asked the young girl.
"Algeirs said he was going to the airport at ten to collect them both. They called this morning to say what time their planes were arriving."
"Thanks. Helen , if you don't mind I'll skip breakfast. I'm not all that hungry this morning. Ellie and I will be in the garden." I walked out the back door and down into he garden. You could easily get lost which was good when you didn't want to be found. Which is exactly what I wanted today. I couldn't deal with John's mom and dad. I know I have an obligation but I am dealing with my own grief. I gave birth four days ago and dealt with the death of my husband two days ago.
Ellie had drifted back off to sleep in my arms. I didn't want to be parted from her. I couldn't put her down during the day. I had to have her beside me, close to me, the way John used to be. He was always beside me. Arms were always wrapped round me. Kisses always placed on the hollow of my neck. Hands on the small of my back leading me to secret places.
Closing my eyes I could imagine him here with us. Sitting under this tree with me in his arms and Ellie in my arms. It was something we had always talked about while I was pregnant. We loved sitting under this tree. Especially at night. Watching the stars, trying to name as many of them as we could. John could always name more than me.
I eventually went back into the house in the evening. Ellie and I had been outside all day. I didn't care that I hadn't seen John's parents, I was planning on avoiding them further. I sneaked past the lounge where I could here them talking. Upstairs I didn't bother putting Ellie in her nursery, I wanted her with me. I lay her down on the bed while I changed for bed. She had slipped into a dreamy looking sleep as I lay down beside her.
After a few moments I could hear a faint knock on the door. "Abby, are you okay?" It was John's mother. I stayed quiet to give her the thought I was asleep. I must have worked because I heard her feet move away from the door. I would have to deal with them in the morning. The morning would come, tonight, I just wanted to be on my own.
Note for:- Bookstitch and Jasonsgurl :- I'm sorryt hat I killed Carter but other people seem to write stories where Abby gives birth and then dies. I just thought I would try the other way round.
The following morning dawned bright and sunny. It was the height of summer I suppose but here I was in a dark place. My husband was dead and I was burying him tomorrow. Our daughter lay beside me. She had been awake quite a bit in the night, so I brought her in beside me. She seemed to sense where she was and had been quiet since she lay down. She was lying on his side of the bed. Wonder if she knows. Maybe it's his smell, maybe that's what is keeping her calm.
I walked down the stairs and into the kitchen. Amanda and Helen stood working. Helen busied herself over the stove while Amanda was working at the sink. "morning." I said, letting them know I was in the room.
"Morning Mrs Carter, breakfast will be in a minute." Helen told me. Then she saw Ellie. "Would you look at this little one. Mrs Carter she is adorable. She looks like you."
"Thank you Helen. Amanda, do you know when Mr and Mrs Carter will be arriving?" I asked the young girl.
"Algeirs said he was going to the airport at ten to collect them both. They called this morning to say what time their planes were arriving."
"Thanks. Helen , if you don't mind I'll skip breakfast. I'm not all that hungry this morning. Ellie and I will be in the garden." I walked out the back door and down into he garden. You could easily get lost which was good when you didn't want to be found. Which is exactly what I wanted today. I couldn't deal with John's mom and dad. I know I have an obligation but I am dealing with my own grief. I gave birth four days ago and dealt with the death of my husband two days ago.
Ellie had drifted back off to sleep in my arms. I didn't want to be parted from her. I couldn't put her down during the day. I had to have her beside me, close to me, the way John used to be. He was always beside me. Arms were always wrapped round me. Kisses always placed on the hollow of my neck. Hands on the small of my back leading me to secret places.
Closing my eyes I could imagine him here with us. Sitting under this tree with me in his arms and Ellie in my arms. It was something we had always talked about while I was pregnant. We loved sitting under this tree. Especially at night. Watching the stars, trying to name as many of them as we could. John could always name more than me.
I eventually went back into the house in the evening. Ellie and I had been outside all day. I didn't care that I hadn't seen John's parents, I was planning on avoiding them further. I sneaked past the lounge where I could here them talking. Upstairs I didn't bother putting Ellie in her nursery, I wanted her with me. I lay her down on the bed while I changed for bed. She had slipped into a dreamy looking sleep as I lay down beside her.
After a few moments I could hear a faint knock on the door. "Abby, are you okay?" It was John's mother. I stayed quiet to give her the thought I was asleep. I must have worked because I heard her feet move away from the door. I would have to deal with them in the morning. The morning would come, tonight, I just wanted to be on my own.