The sun sets. I've sneeked out of dinner, and I chose to eat it here, in the crows nest.

I feel a sense of belonging, so strong my eyes water. I know that this is where I want to be. My mind wanders into a daydream.

In my daydream, I am captain of my own ship, "WaveDancer". I hope that day comes soon. After all, I am thirteen, almost a woman.

My monkey is perched on my shoulder, and every now and then he sneaks tibits of my dinner.

I peer out into the mist. Sudennley, I see a ship. It has black sails. I stiffle my terror, but by the time I gather my wit, it is gone.

Somwwhat uneasily, I calm myself, and return to the galley to help Caddie wash the dishes.

I must seem distracted, for first mr. gibbs, then anna-marie, cap'n Caddie, the My parents ask me if anything is wrong.

I smile, and try and be merry. I dont tell them what ive seen, ive convinced myself it was a mirage.

Still, I sleep poorly, and have nightmares.

When morn' comes, My eyes are red-rimmed, and I snap at everyone.

I feel uneasy. What if it wasn't a mirage?