Sano told me two days ago that Miss Kaoru had not belived what had happened
between Miss Megumi and I. But today, raw with suspiscion, she approaches
me, her sweet voice pulling my words painfully from my mouth as I begin to
pace. I feel horrible, and fearful of loosing her, but most of all worry
that Miss Kaoru will make either Miss Megumi or I leave. "Kenshin...How
could you do that? How could you let her do that?" My heart twists in pain,
because I have no reasonable explanation to offer her.
I find an interesting place upon the floor to stare at while taking a seat beside her. "I am truely sorry for what has happened, Miss Kaoru, that I am."
My mouth feels dry, and I know she knows everything that happened. Still, dissapointment and anger flicker through her eyes as swiftly as a deer runs through a meadow in extasy. She sigh, hands pressed to her head as she tried to stand, and I, fearing she may fall, stand also beside her, guiding her so she will not hit the ground. "I cannot repair what has been done, and I feel I cannot make it up to you, but if there is anything you feel I can do Miss Kaoru, I will do it, that I will.."
"You were right...It doesn't work..We can't be together...I love you, but Kenshin...It hurts so much..I can't take the pain..I'm sorry.." Her eyes light upon me for a fraction of a second as I take in the look, then she marches into her room, silence bringing waves of pain along the course of my spine, leaving in me in a chaotic need of realeif, and I head toward the door.
There is Sano, to block my way. I mumble under my breath for him to let me out, and he looks at me, fire in his eyes. "No way! You are not getting anymore saki! Kenshin, you're going to kill yourself! God, man!" I sigh, fumbling with the front of my kimono, avoiding his eyes. I push out the door and there I stand, as Sano heads to his room, to observe me in secret, to keep me from the purchase I crave. But I know he's correct about the saki. And so, as a slight breeze takes hold of me, I let go into it as many of my troubles as I can, the raw pain I feel surrounding me like fog hoovers over the ocean, and I find my arms are outstretched, and head lifted as if greeting the skys. I feel a solitary tear fall from my closed eye and down, lingering breifly in the slight crevise of my dreaded scar, as so many have before. I can hear the clouds complaining as they open, dropping slowely the life bringing drink this place has long desired. Now the wind tuggs harder, and I want to go with it, but I can't bring myself to walk away. My hair I can feel swaying behind me in a rythematic dance to and fro as it is held by the wind. Droplets touch to my face, exploding as they make contact, though the only pain I feel is the long claws of agony ripping though my being.
A touch upon my shoulder steals my eyes, and in the half depleted moonlight, her face glows with beauty and radiance as always it has before. I long to escape from my feelings of dread, to be hers again, but I think it is not possible. She is quickly consumed in the rain as I have been, not a sigle inch of her still dry. My heart bounces in my chest. I drop my arms. "Miss Kaoru.." My voice is weak, but I ignore it, holding in words to remain unsaid.
The way she looks at me says she forgives me, and she holds me, rain dancing so eagerly upon the two of us as I make no hesitation to take her embrace, feeling it could be the last.
I look to the angery sky, chaotic flashes in the clouds suggesting lightning. Still holding her, I leap upon the roof of the dojo, at the exact moment lightning turns the place we had been standing into a crater, belowing as though angery it had missed its target. Miss Kaorus eyes dart to the ground, and she pales severly, so I take hold of her, swinging her so her head touches my shoulder, and her legs fall over the other arm. She trembles slightly, and I jumpfrom the roof, bringing her into her room, placing her on her bed, and then departing.
I stand in the rain outside for but a moment before a wrench of my heart rips me again to her side, and though she has closed eyes, sleep has not yet come. I watch her for what seems an eternity, but is probably only minutes before pulling her blanket up to her chin, touching my lips to her cheek in a kiss, a tear jerked from my eyes, alighting upon her face. Taking her hair with care in my hands, I remove it from under her, letting it hang behind her. I look at her a moment longer, knowing sleepi is pulling her to the world of perfection, and so I go, and also take my nights rest.
I find an interesting place upon the floor to stare at while taking a seat beside her. "I am truely sorry for what has happened, Miss Kaoru, that I am."
My mouth feels dry, and I know she knows everything that happened. Still, dissapointment and anger flicker through her eyes as swiftly as a deer runs through a meadow in extasy. She sigh, hands pressed to her head as she tried to stand, and I, fearing she may fall, stand also beside her, guiding her so she will not hit the ground. "I cannot repair what has been done, and I feel I cannot make it up to you, but if there is anything you feel I can do Miss Kaoru, I will do it, that I will.."
"You were right...It doesn't work..We can't be together...I love you, but Kenshin...It hurts so much..I can't take the pain..I'm sorry.." Her eyes light upon me for a fraction of a second as I take in the look, then she marches into her room, silence bringing waves of pain along the course of my spine, leaving in me in a chaotic need of realeif, and I head toward the door.
There is Sano, to block my way. I mumble under my breath for him to let me out, and he looks at me, fire in his eyes. "No way! You are not getting anymore saki! Kenshin, you're going to kill yourself! God, man!" I sigh, fumbling with the front of my kimono, avoiding his eyes. I push out the door and there I stand, as Sano heads to his room, to observe me in secret, to keep me from the purchase I crave. But I know he's correct about the saki. And so, as a slight breeze takes hold of me, I let go into it as many of my troubles as I can, the raw pain I feel surrounding me like fog hoovers over the ocean, and I find my arms are outstretched, and head lifted as if greeting the skys. I feel a solitary tear fall from my closed eye and down, lingering breifly in the slight crevise of my dreaded scar, as so many have before. I can hear the clouds complaining as they open, dropping slowely the life bringing drink this place has long desired. Now the wind tuggs harder, and I want to go with it, but I can't bring myself to walk away. My hair I can feel swaying behind me in a rythematic dance to and fro as it is held by the wind. Droplets touch to my face, exploding as they make contact, though the only pain I feel is the long claws of agony ripping though my being.
A touch upon my shoulder steals my eyes, and in the half depleted moonlight, her face glows with beauty and radiance as always it has before. I long to escape from my feelings of dread, to be hers again, but I think it is not possible. She is quickly consumed in the rain as I have been, not a sigle inch of her still dry. My heart bounces in my chest. I drop my arms. "Miss Kaoru.." My voice is weak, but I ignore it, holding in words to remain unsaid.
The way she looks at me says she forgives me, and she holds me, rain dancing so eagerly upon the two of us as I make no hesitation to take her embrace, feeling it could be the last.
I look to the angery sky, chaotic flashes in the clouds suggesting lightning. Still holding her, I leap upon the roof of the dojo, at the exact moment lightning turns the place we had been standing into a crater, belowing as though angery it had missed its target. Miss Kaorus eyes dart to the ground, and she pales severly, so I take hold of her, swinging her so her head touches my shoulder, and her legs fall over the other arm. She trembles slightly, and I jumpfrom the roof, bringing her into her room, placing her on her bed, and then departing.
I stand in the rain outside for but a moment before a wrench of my heart rips me again to her side, and though she has closed eyes, sleep has not yet come. I watch her for what seems an eternity, but is probably only minutes before pulling her blanket up to her chin, touching my lips to her cheek in a kiss, a tear jerked from my eyes, alighting upon her face. Taking her hair with care in my hands, I remove it from under her, letting it hang behind her. I look at her a moment longer, knowing sleepi is pulling her to the world of perfection, and so I go, and also take my nights rest.