This is the final chapter. There is angst, yay angst. Now anyway, I still
don't own Kenshin. But I still have his clone. The only problem is, I'm not
sure what he likes to eat. He won't talk. I think I scare him. I guess he
gets peanut butter^^
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The branches on the trees reached for me as I ran. The long fingers upon each branch scraped against me, trying to hold me back, trying to keep me with her. I almost gave into them. I didn't want to leave Kaoru. But if I hurt her as I did that man, I would never forgive myself. I decided what I was going to do. It would keep them all safe. It would break their hearts, but atleast they would be intact. I hated myself for the desision, but I had no chioce. I just hoped she would understand. That she wouldn't be the one to find me. I didn't want her to see. In my own way, I was protecting her. Kaoru, please understand.
My feet had taken me to the river. I decided I could have a bit of peace, some time to think, before what I had chosen to do had to take place. I knew in my heart I was stalling. I knew I wanted to see her again before I had to leave. Just once more. But it would hurt her to see me. She would see what I did to myself, then. I didn't want her to be hurt, even though I was hurting her as well.
A blanket of stars had made their way into the black sky, I could see them in the depths of the water that held me fascinated. They were so calm, it seemed unfair that something inanimate should be able to find peace, when a war raged within me. I didn't want to leave, but at the same time, I did. The sweet escape, the finality of it. I was, in truth, no matter how much I hated it, looking foreward to it, too. But I feared it as well.
My thoughts were shattered as soon as her hand had made its way upon my shoulder. She urged in a shakey whisper my name to touch my ears. She sat beside me, looking with concern upon me. She knew what I planned. Greif pulled through me. I didn't want her to be hurt. Yet she was here, trying to bring me back. But I couldn't go back. The man I had killed, I knew had killed Megumi. She had been avenged. But still I couldn't go back. Because, I could loose controll again. And then, they would be hurt. I had made up my mind. I couldn't return.
"Koaru.." She looks so tired, so fearful. It hurt me. It scared me. I hated me. It was my fault, after all. I had done this to her. I dropped my gaze from her, guilty for what I had done. I was startled whne suddenly her head rested upon my shoulder. Even without thinking about it, I pulled her closer. I wanted to comfort her, even if it was too late for me.
I was surprised to feel a tear making its way down my cheek, as my gaze lifted again from her, toward where we had ccome. She brushed it away. Her touch, I needed it. I felt like a child, but there was reason for. I leaned foreward, burying my face in the crook of her neck. I felt myself quivering, as she pulled me closer, evidently wishing to be a comfort as well.
Before I left, I had wanted to see her. I had gotten it. Slowely, I pulled from her, gazing apon her. She looked so peaceful. Her eyes flickered open, and she met my gaze. A small frown touched upon my lips, as I thought about what I would be doing, and what it would do to her. I wanted her to know I still loved her, that it was not her fault. I leaned toward her again, my lips brushing against hers, and I pulled her closer, noting I had found her tongue with my own. I couldn't let the moment last long, it would only hurt worse for her whan I took away my own life. And so I pulled away again, moving instead toward her ear, breathing into it the words I dreaded saying, sighing softly as I did. "I am sorry, Kaoru, that I am. I do love you."
And so I moved away again, noting the fearful frown pinned to her features. I hated doing this to her. My gaze slid from her to my hip, where I knew my sword was still fastened. "Kenshin..No.."
"I want you to leave now..Please....Do not watch...I do not deserve to live, having taken so many lives. I could hurt you. I killed that man, and cannot be excused, that I cannot. Please, Kaoru, do not watch.."
"No..." My hand had made its way to the sword, and it remeained there. No matter how much I hated what I was going to do, I wanted to do it as well. "Kenshin, don't.." I shook my head saddly. I didn't like the pain in her words. All I was going to do was bring her more pain. I pulled the sword from the sheath, listening to it as it brushed against the sheaith while being removed.
I needed to leave. And I wanted to. I wanted to stay as well, but I couldn't. I could never stay after what I had done. I had lost controll. There was no way I could stay, when there was risk of hurting Kaoru. My eyes lingered upon the sword, and I touched the metal to my abdomen, not feeling its cold, due to the gi I wore. In a fainty whisper, I said good bye. And I plunged the sword into me, until I felt the pain sear entirely through me, the blade having peirced through the flesh even upon my back, and then exited. I slowely removed the sword, eyeing the trails of my blood upon it.
The sword fell from my hand, and I fell backward, into the tree. "KENSHIN!"
Kaoru. She hadn't left. No...She had watched.. My gaze flickered to her. I couldn't believe what I had done to her. "Kaoru.." I whispered, before my eyes fell closed, and I drew a final breath, noting that there had been roses upon the ground.
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"KENSHIN! KAORU! Damn it!! Yahiko! Go! Go to the dojo, Yahiko! NOW!" SAno, eyed the boy in his fury, before Yahiko could see the two. Yahiko seemed to get the hint, and scurried back in the direction he had come. The older man, eyed his friends again. "Why did you do this? How could you both do that? We find a dead man at the dojo, and then you here. Damn it! Why did you leave us! What kind of a family is this!" Kenshin leaned still against the tree, his eyes closed, a grimmace of sorrow upon his face. Kaoru layed face first in the dirt. Between them was the sakabatou, stained with blood. As were they.
Tears burt Sanosukes eyes, and he growled, slamming his fist into the dirt, this not tained black with blood. He noted beside his hand the black roses. He looked again to his friends, knowing probably Kenshin had gone first. "I'll take care of Yahiko. Because I have no choice. Damn it. Why? WHY?!" Biting his lip, the man picked up the roses, rolling Kaoru over, to find in relief her eyes were closed too. Teas now upon his cheeks, he placed a rose upon her chest. And then he gentally moved Kenshin, sprawling him beside Kaoru, so they both layed upon the dirt. And thus the other rose found a home upon Kenshins chest. "Atleast you're together.." He mumbled, before sitting on the dirt, tears flowwing still.
-------------- What you think? It's over. I don't much like the Sano part, butr I figured someone had to find them. Stupid Megumi being dead. It would have been best had she found them Eh. Atleast I remembered to include the man Kenshin killed had been her killer. I'm going to write another Kenshin fic, but I'm not sure what to do in it yet, so ya'll sit tight, and wait patiantly, m'kay?
The branches on the trees reached for me as I ran. The long fingers upon each branch scraped against me, trying to hold me back, trying to keep me with her. I almost gave into them. I didn't want to leave Kaoru. But if I hurt her as I did that man, I would never forgive myself. I decided what I was going to do. It would keep them all safe. It would break their hearts, but atleast they would be intact. I hated myself for the desision, but I had no chioce. I just hoped she would understand. That she wouldn't be the one to find me. I didn't want her to see. In my own way, I was protecting her. Kaoru, please understand.
My feet had taken me to the river. I decided I could have a bit of peace, some time to think, before what I had chosen to do had to take place. I knew in my heart I was stalling. I knew I wanted to see her again before I had to leave. Just once more. But it would hurt her to see me. She would see what I did to myself, then. I didn't want her to be hurt, even though I was hurting her as well.
A blanket of stars had made their way into the black sky, I could see them in the depths of the water that held me fascinated. They were so calm, it seemed unfair that something inanimate should be able to find peace, when a war raged within me. I didn't want to leave, but at the same time, I did. The sweet escape, the finality of it. I was, in truth, no matter how much I hated it, looking foreward to it, too. But I feared it as well.
My thoughts were shattered as soon as her hand had made its way upon my shoulder. She urged in a shakey whisper my name to touch my ears. She sat beside me, looking with concern upon me. She knew what I planned. Greif pulled through me. I didn't want her to be hurt. Yet she was here, trying to bring me back. But I couldn't go back. The man I had killed, I knew had killed Megumi. She had been avenged. But still I couldn't go back. Because, I could loose controll again. And then, they would be hurt. I had made up my mind. I couldn't return.
"Koaru.." She looks so tired, so fearful. It hurt me. It scared me. I hated me. It was my fault, after all. I had done this to her. I dropped my gaze from her, guilty for what I had done. I was startled whne suddenly her head rested upon my shoulder. Even without thinking about it, I pulled her closer. I wanted to comfort her, even if it was too late for me.
I was surprised to feel a tear making its way down my cheek, as my gaze lifted again from her, toward where we had ccome. She brushed it away. Her touch, I needed it. I felt like a child, but there was reason for. I leaned foreward, burying my face in the crook of her neck. I felt myself quivering, as she pulled me closer, evidently wishing to be a comfort as well.
Before I left, I had wanted to see her. I had gotten it. Slowely, I pulled from her, gazing apon her. She looked so peaceful. Her eyes flickered open, and she met my gaze. A small frown touched upon my lips, as I thought about what I would be doing, and what it would do to her. I wanted her to know I still loved her, that it was not her fault. I leaned toward her again, my lips brushing against hers, and I pulled her closer, noting I had found her tongue with my own. I couldn't let the moment last long, it would only hurt worse for her whan I took away my own life. And so I pulled away again, moving instead toward her ear, breathing into it the words I dreaded saying, sighing softly as I did. "I am sorry, Kaoru, that I am. I do love you."
And so I moved away again, noting the fearful frown pinned to her features. I hated doing this to her. My gaze slid from her to my hip, where I knew my sword was still fastened. "Kenshin..No.."
"I want you to leave now..Please....Do not watch...I do not deserve to live, having taken so many lives. I could hurt you. I killed that man, and cannot be excused, that I cannot. Please, Kaoru, do not watch.."
"No..." My hand had made its way to the sword, and it remeained there. No matter how much I hated what I was going to do, I wanted to do it as well. "Kenshin, don't.." I shook my head saddly. I didn't like the pain in her words. All I was going to do was bring her more pain. I pulled the sword from the sheath, listening to it as it brushed against the sheaith while being removed.
I needed to leave. And I wanted to. I wanted to stay as well, but I couldn't. I could never stay after what I had done. I had lost controll. There was no way I could stay, when there was risk of hurting Kaoru. My eyes lingered upon the sword, and I touched the metal to my abdomen, not feeling its cold, due to the gi I wore. In a fainty whisper, I said good bye. And I plunged the sword into me, until I felt the pain sear entirely through me, the blade having peirced through the flesh even upon my back, and then exited. I slowely removed the sword, eyeing the trails of my blood upon it.
The sword fell from my hand, and I fell backward, into the tree. "KENSHIN!"
Kaoru. She hadn't left. No...She had watched.. My gaze flickered to her. I couldn't believe what I had done to her. "Kaoru.." I whispered, before my eyes fell closed, and I drew a final breath, noting that there had been roses upon the ground.
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"KENSHIN! KAORU! Damn it!! Yahiko! Go! Go to the dojo, Yahiko! NOW!" SAno, eyed the boy in his fury, before Yahiko could see the two. Yahiko seemed to get the hint, and scurried back in the direction he had come. The older man, eyed his friends again. "Why did you do this? How could you both do that? We find a dead man at the dojo, and then you here. Damn it! Why did you leave us! What kind of a family is this!" Kenshin leaned still against the tree, his eyes closed, a grimmace of sorrow upon his face. Kaoru layed face first in the dirt. Between them was the sakabatou, stained with blood. As were they.
Tears burt Sanosukes eyes, and he growled, slamming his fist into the dirt, this not tained black with blood. He noted beside his hand the black roses. He looked again to his friends, knowing probably Kenshin had gone first. "I'll take care of Yahiko. Because I have no choice. Damn it. Why? WHY?!" Biting his lip, the man picked up the roses, rolling Kaoru over, to find in relief her eyes were closed too. Teas now upon his cheeks, he placed a rose upon her chest. And then he gentally moved Kenshin, sprawling him beside Kaoru, so they both layed upon the dirt. And thus the other rose found a home upon Kenshins chest. "Atleast you're together.." He mumbled, before sitting on the dirt, tears flowwing still.
-------------- What you think? It's over. I don't much like the Sano part, butr I figured someone had to find them. Stupid Megumi being dead. It would have been best had she found them Eh. Atleast I remembered to include the man Kenshin killed had been her killer. I'm going to write another Kenshin fic, but I'm not sure what to do in it yet, so ya'll sit tight, and wait patiantly, m'kay?