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Inuyasha Fanfic To Lose the One I Love
By: Chiruken
Chapter 9
She bit her lip, suddenly feeling incredibly guilty. "Inuyasha…" She whispered his name on a soft exhalation as she turned slowly in his arms to face him fully. Placing her arms around him she held him tightly. "It isn't like that, really it isn't." She rested her cheek against his chest and closed her eyes, listening to the steady beat of his heart. How did this conversation get turned around like this? She sighed inwardly and snuggled closer against the hanyou's solid form. How did we go from me asking him how he felt about me to me having to explain that I don't leave him in the way that he so obviously thinks? It just isn't fair… "Mou…Inuyasha…you can be so frustrating at times…"
"What?!" He jerked back as if struck. "Me?" He scowled as he abruptly released her to turn his back, arms folded across his chest. "Keh." He glanced at her, eyes filled with hurt anger. "Who cares what you think anyway?" With that said he turned and stalked away.
Kagome stared at his retreating back in stunned silence. "A-ano…" She bit her lip, realizing that she'd definitely taken the wrong approach to dealing with the temperamental hanyou. "W-wait a minute, Inuyasha!" She hurried after him, expression contrite. "I'm sorry…I didn't mean it to come out like that."
"Keh." He tossed his head, ears flattened against his head in a telltale gesture that she recognized. She'd inadvertently hurt his feelings with her poorly chosen words.
She rolled her eyes but held onto the edges of her already frayed temper firmly. "Please, just listen to me, okay?" He turned his head away, obviously ignoring her. "I didn't mean it to come out the way it sounded." He snorted derisively. "Oh come on…you don't honestly think I'd be that insensitive, do you?" Still he refused to look at her. "Please just listen to me!" She found she had to jog to keep up with his long strides. "Inuyasha, don't make me use the 's' word!"
He halted abruptly and stared straight ahead. She would, too, damn her. He closed his hands into fists at his sides. Why'd she have to go and ask that question? Everythin' was just fine before… "Keh." He didn't really have anything else to say besides his usual all purpose exclamation.
"Mou…Inuyasha no baka." She muttered crossly. She sighed loudly and folded her arms across her chest as she glared at him in annoyance. "What do you take me for? I'm not a coward, Inuyasha. If I didn't want to be around you, I'd just say so. I go home because I have responsibilities there, too, you know. I have to study hard and get good grades so that I can pass the entrance exams for high school. It isn't easy balancing two lives. I'm doing the best I can!"
He gritted his teeth and slowly turned to face her. "I don't understand these things you call exams!" He waved a hand expansively. "I understand fightin' youkai. I understand trackin' down the shards of the Shikon no Tama. I understand defeatin' that bastard Naraku. I don't even know what a high school is!"
"If I don't get into a good high school my chances of getting into a good university are reduced! Inuyasha, my future depends on my grades." She drew in a deep calming breath. "I don't expect you to understand that, all right? But please, try to understand that I'm trying really hard to balance both worlds. I come from the future. I can't stay here forever!"
His eyes widened slightly as he drew in a sharp breath. Suddenly his ears drooped in defeat. "You're right, Kagome. You really don't belong here…" He turned away, expression sad. "I keep forgettin' that you'll be goin' back for good after the Shikon no Tama is restored." And I'll never see her again…
Biting her lip anxiously at his sudden mood change Kagome stepped closer and placed a hand on his arm. "Inuyasha…" She closed her eyes and shook her head. "I'm sorry." She bowed her head and fought back the tears stinging her eyes.
He glanced down at her bowed head. "What for? That's the way it is and there's nothin' that'll change it." He shrugged carelessly and turned his gaze up to the sky to watch the birds circling lazily overhead. "So let's get goin' already. We got shards to find." He turned on his heel and headed back towards camp and their waiting comrades. When she didn't follow he looked over his shoulder. "Oi, you comin'?"
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**To Be Continued…**
Definitions:
Mou: Sound of frustration
Ano: Um…
Hanyou: Half human, half youkai
Youkai: Demon
Inuyasha no baka: Stupid Inuyasha
Oi: Hey
Author's Notes:
I feel for Kagome…trying to balance both worlds must be very difficult. Education is highly stressed in Japan and an individuals entire future depends on it. From what I heard it starts as early as preschool. Wow…talk about stress, ne?
On the other hand, I can see Inuyasha's plight too…he just doesn't understand what Kagome's going through…he couldn't. After all, they do come from two very different worlds, ne?
Thanks again for the comments and reviews. They're greatly appreciated.
Sorry again for the short chapters. I'm working on making them longer…but it doesn't seem to be working out like I planned.
Hope you still enjoy the story…
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Chiruken