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Inuyasha Fanfic
WARNINGS: Warning for Inuyasha's potty mouth.
To Lose the One I LoveBy: Chiruken
Chapter 12
The hanyou stared at him with wide eyes for several tense moments. "Chikusho…" He whispered softly, ears flattening against his head. "Chikusho…" The curse emerged louder as his hands closed into fists. "Chikusho!" He shouted and took off at a dead run in the direction of the well. Kagome…I'm sorry…please don't leave forever! Shippou needs you…I need you!
Inuaysha ran at top speed, leaping over rivers and deep ravines, pushing his body to run full out far longer than he'd ever done before. Quickly taking to the trees, he jumped from tree to tree, closing the distance to the Bone Eater's Well rapidly. Don't be gone yet! Please Kagome! Don't be gone! He was tiring, but he refused to slow his breakneck pace. He had to reach Kagome before she went down the well…he just had to!
He reached the well in record time and fell to his knees, exhausted. Gasping to catch his breath he crawled to the edge of the well and leaned against it. He hadn't made it on time. Her scent was very strong…and fresh. She'd already gone through the well to her own time. Closing his eyes, he allowed his body to slide down to the ground and curled up into a tight protective ball. "Ka…go…me…" He whispered her name brokenly. All my fault…it's all my fault. Shippou was right… He trembled and slowly stretched out his legs as he felt his tired muscles begin to cramp. Why can't I ever get it right? Why do I always mess things up with Kagome?
"Inuyasha?" A familiar voice startled him out of his morose thoughts.
"Kaede-babaa…" He replied listlessly, unable to dredge up enough energy to properly hurl insults at the older woman. He refused to move, choosing instead to stay sprawled on the ground beside the well.
"I-Inuyasha…what's happened to you?" Kaede slowly made her way to the hanyou's side, shocked at his unnatural behaviour. "Are you wounded?"
He didn't reply immediately, choosing instead to draw in a shallow breath that he exhaled on a sigh. "Wounded? Ee…you could say that…" He turned away from her to face the wooden boards surrounding the deep well.
"Perhaps I can help…" Her words trailed off as she drew nearer. Frowning she took in his slightly disheveled appearance, unable to detect signs of injury. What's this? Her eyes narrowed on his sadly drooping ears and uncharacteristically somber expression.
"Go away Kaede-babaa…"
Even his voice seems…different…what happened to him? "Inuyasha." She called his name sternly and prodded his shoulder with the tip of her bow to make certain she had his attention. "What's the matter with you? Where are the others? Where's Kagome?" The flash of pain in his amber gaze gave the aging miko her first clue. "What happened to Kagome, Inuyasha?"
"Nothin' happened to her." He stated it dully, turning his gaze up to the clear blue of the sky.
"Then why are you here, of all places? Shouldn't you be with her? You are her protector, Inuyasha. Without you she is in grave danger and you know this. This is no time to be engaging in self-pity and moping! Go to her and protect her like you're supposed to."
He turned back to her, expression stricken as he rose up to tower above the older woman. "I can't! Don't you think that's where I wanna be? By her side? Protectin' her? Keepin' her safe?" His angry shout echoed around them, startling birds from the trees. "But I can't!" He fell to his knees, hands clenching on the material of his red hakama. "She isn't here, Kaede-babaa…and she isn't comin' back." He bowed his head, ears drooping once again as he sighed deeply. "She isn't comin' back…" He repeated softly.
"Not…coming back?" The miko stared at the hanyou in stunned silence for a moment. "Why? What happened?"
Throwing his head back, Inuyasha met her gaze directly, his pain obvious for the older woman to see. "I happened!" He jabbed a thumb towards his chest. "Just like every other time. I do somethin' to fuck things up and she leaves." He bowed his head and covered his face with his hands. "But this time I really messed it up, Kaede-babaa…she's never comin' back…and it's all my fault."
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**To Be Continued…**
Definitions:
Hanyou: Half human, half youkai
Youkai: Demon
Chikusho: Damn it!
-Babaa: a colloquial, rude way of referring to old women; has the connotation of "old hag"
Ee: Yes; yeah
Miko: Priestess
Hakama: Traditional men's trousers resembling culottes