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Inuyasha Fanfic
WARNINGS: OOCness abounds!
To Lose the One I LoveBy: Chiruken
Chapter 18
"K-Kagome?" He stared after her with wide eyes and shook his head sadly, ears drooping forlornly. "I always mess things up…say the wrong things…I'm sorry." The words emerged on a whisper as he slowly followed behind her. He had to find a way to fix things between them. The recent experience had taught him something…he didn't just want Kagome as a friend anymore. He wanted something more and knew that he had to resolve this with her and fast. He wanted her as his mate…and was determined to have his way. The only problem was that he didn't know how she'd react to something like that. "Keh. Who cares? This is the way it is." He nodded firmly though his expression remained troubled as one thought kept circling through his mind: What if she doesn't feel the same way? What if she doesn't want to be my mate? What does Kagome want? He thought he'd made his intentions clear to her before Sesshoumaru interrupted them. He'd told her that he wanted to be with her…always. She said she loves me…but… Sighing softly he shook his head and slowly made his way to the village. I have to talk to her…tell her how I feel…and I can't freeze again. But…how? How do I say what needs to be said? How do I tell her the truth?
Slowly making his way to the village he tried to get his thoughts in order. Somehow he had to find a way to convey his thoughts and feelings to her in a way that wouldn't sound…stupid. Sighing softly he tucked his hands into the sleeves of his haori, a thoughtful frown tugging his brows down over his troubled amber eyes. Kagome needs to hear the words…and I don't know how to say them. She needs… Scowling he stopped and looked up at the sky, watching a bird circling lazily above him. What does she need? Slowly lowering his gaze he stared at the village as it came into view and stopped. I have to find a way… Turning his steps abruptly back towards the forest he increased his pace until he was running. Nice things…she needs nice things. Words aren't gonna be enough this time…
Disappearing into the trees he didn't notice the narrowed gaze following his departure nor did he hear the soft snort. "Ne, Sessoumaru-sama…" Lowering his gaze to the child tugging at his robes he waited for her to continue. "Kagome-neesan looked angry, didn't she?"
Returning his gaze to the path his younger half-brother took he nodded slowly. "It appears that Inuyasha is making a fool of himself again."
"Should we help him?" Rin followed the direction he was looking in. "Inuyasha-niisan wants to make Kagome-neesan happy, ne?" When she didn't receive a reply the child frowned thoughtfully. "He needs to give her flowers."
"Flowers?" Sesshoumaru was intrigued by the girl's strange logic. "Why flowers?"
"Because they're pretty and smell nice." Smiling happily she turned away and began picking the wild flowers growing around them. "I'll pick them for Inuyasha-niisan."
"Rin." He waited until she looked at him again. "Stay with Jaken." He was gone in an instant, not waiting for a reply, knowing that she would obey him without question. Hanyou no baka…still messing up your life I see. Why he should care what the baka did was beyond him…and he felt no need to analyze his feelings on the matter. Swiftly closing the distance he stepped into the hanyou's path and regarded him coolly. "Inuyasha."
Halting abruptly, Inuyasha stared at the youkai lord for a moment before he rolled his eyes. "What do you want now?"
"What are you doing?" Sesshoumaru's tone was almost bored.
"What does it look like? I'm walkin'." Resting his hand on the hilt of Tetsusaiga he glared at his older half-brother. "Get out of my wa---"
"Baka no hanyou." Sesshoumaru made no move to reach for his own weapon, choosing instead to continue to watch the younger man closely. "What are you running from this time? Is it that human? Honestly, don't you ever learn from your previous mistakes?"
"What's that supposed to mean?" He didn't like the way Sesshoumaru was looking at him. Nor did he like the current topic of conversation. "Why don't you mind your own business?"
"Flowers."
"Eh? Come again?" Blinking in confusion he released the hilt of his sword and tilted his head to the side curiously.
"Rin says to give her flowers." Having delivered his message he strode passed the dumbfounded hanyou. As he passed him he glanced at him from the corner of his eye, lips quirking upwards in the barest of smiles. "Really, Inuyasha…a child has more intelligence than you do in some things."
Clenching his hands into fists at his sides he growled in annoyance. "Like you know!" He shouted and stepped into the youkai's path. "Betcha didn't know that either!"
"I have no need to have knowledge of how to please a human."
"Yeah right. What about that kid? Huh? Don't you want to make her happy? Or is she just some pawn of yours?" Scowling at his elder brother Inuyasha snorted. "I never thought I'd see the day you'd protect a human…but that's what you're doin', right?"
"My affairs are none of your concern." Sesshoumaru scowled in irritation.
"Then why're you keepin' her with you?" Rolling his eyes again he folded his arms across his chest and glared. "Kids like toys…and sweets."
"What?"
"Just what I said." Turning his back he smirked as he strode away savoring the moment he'd finally been able to see Sesshoumaru shocked speechless. Flowers, huh? Pausing he glanced back over his shoulder to see his brother still staring at him with a blank look. "What kinda flowers?"
"What kind of toys?" Was the immediate reply.
Shrugging he halted his steps. "Ano…" Frowning thoughtfully he thought of Shippou. "Spinnin' tops…" Remembering his own childhood he smiled. "And balls."
"Ahh…" Frowning he stepped closer to the hanyou. "Rin is picking wildflowers for you."
Surprised, Inuyasha stared at him in amazement. "Why?"
"Because that is her wish. Where does one obtain…spinning tops?"
"Villages…human villages." Looking up at the treetops he sighed softly. "I'll get you one." A sudden grin lit up his expression. "Kagome can bring some sweets from her time…Shippou likes 'em…maybe Rin will too."
"Shippou? The kitsune youkai you travel with?" Glancing at the hanyou from the corner of his eye the youkai lord found the situation ironic. This was the first actual conversation they'd had where they weren't trying to kill each other. It was almost…pleasant. Snorting softly to himself he concluded that being around Rin had made him soft.
"Ee…" Placing his hands behind his head as he walked his smile widened into a grin. "Oi. Sesshoumaru." He waited until he felt the older man's gaze on him again. "Thanks."
"For what?"
Shrugging, Inuyasha stared straight ahead, feeling a little uncomfortable. "I don't know…just thanks."
"That human…" He began slowly, choosing his words with care. "You are thinking of making her your mate."
Ears drooping again at the reminder of his current troubles he nodded slowly. "Ee…"
"I see." You'll never learn, Inuyasha. Wasn't the miko fair enough warning? "Be careful." By now they'd reached the edge of the forest and the human child was easily spotted. "Rin."
"Sesshoumaru-sama!" The child ran up to him clutching a handful of wildflowers. Smiling brightly she held them out to the hanyou. "Inuyasha-niisan! Here!"
Looking down into her openly smiling face he felt a smile spreading across his own. "Thanks." Kneeling before her he accepted the bouquet. Glancing back up at the imposing youkai lord he grinned before turning his attention back to the child and lowering his voice to a conspiratorial whisper, knowing full well that this elder brother would hear every word clearly. "Take good care of Sesshoumaru." Standing abruptly he turned his back on the small group and headed towards the village…and Kagome…and waved over his shoulder carelessly. "Ja…"
This day just gets weirder and weirder…first with Kagome…now with Sesshoumaru. What does he have to gain by helpin' me? No matter which way he chose to look at the situation he could see no immediate benefit to the youkai lord of the western lands. His actions just weren't…logical. But he did have to admit that it was nice to actually talk to him civilly for a change. On the edge of the village he halted and stared straight ahead sightlessly. How am I gonna find him to give him the toys? And better yet…how am I gonna explain why I want 'em in the first place? Sighing softly he decided to face one problem at a time…first he had to deal with the mess he'd cause with Kagome…then he'd worry about Sesshoumaru.
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**To Be Continued…**
Definitions:
Ne: Say…; …right?
-Sama: Very respectful form of address; equivalent to Sir, Lady, Lord, etc.
Neesan: Quite polite, and can have the meaning of "miss" when used for young women.
Hanyou no baka: Stupid hanyou
Hanyou: half human, half youkai
Youkai: Demon
Baka: Stupid; idiot; fool
Ano: Um…
Kitsune: Fox
Ee: Yes; yeah
Oi: Hey
Miko: Priestess
Ja: Later
Author's Notes:
**gyah** I KNOW! Not very plausible…but I like Sesshoumaru and I think there's more to his character than the show allows us to see. I believe him to be a very complex individual…and though he probably does hold resentment towards Inuyasha, I doubt he truly hates him…not in the same sense as Naraku does at least. And by being around Rin I think his heart is softening…at least just a little.
Ok…now that I've tried to justify my blatant disregard for the "canon" characterization, I just have to say that I thought it would be nice to have them friendly for once rather than trying to tear each others throats out yet again.
Besides…I think Rin is just so kawaii!
^_^x
Chiruken