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Inuyasha Fanfic
WARNINGS: Warning for Inuyasha's potty mouth and OOCness.
To Lose the One I LoveBy: Chiruken
Chapter 20
"Not that again! Mou, Inuyasha…what's so special about the way I smell?" Wriggling underneath of him she tried to get away from the tickling of his breath against her ear. Giggling at the sensation she pushed against his shoulders. "S-stop! Th-that tickles!"
Nuzzling against her neck the hanyou sighed happily. "Kagome…" He whispered near her ear, smiling as her struggles ceased. "I-I have somethin' to tell you." He paused and gently nipped at her earlobe, reveling in the way her scent became infused with surprised excitement. "Kagome…I-I l-lo---" His voice failed him and he stuttered to a halt. Squeezing his eyes shut tight he drew in a deep, calming breath and tried again. "I l-l-l-l-l---" What the hell is wrong with me?! Why can't I say it? Clearing his throat nervously he took another deep breath. "See, Kagome, it's like this. What I'm tryin' to say is I-I l-l-l-lo---" He winced when his voice failed him once again. With a deep sigh he slowly moved off of her. As nice as she smelled and as much as he wanted stay where he'd been he knew that he couldn't. "I'm sorry, Kagome. I just can't say it right." Bowing his head in dejection he heaved a deep sigh, ears drooping unhappily. "I-I'll just leave you alone now." Standing quickly he turned and dashed out the door, putting on a burst of speed he headed straight for his forest.
"I-Inuyasha…" Kagome stared at the door in shock and slowly sat up pressing her hand against her chest over her rapidly beating heart. What was he trying to do? W-was he trying to tell me that he…that he loves me? Blinking back tears she stood and hurried after him. "Inuyasha no baka!" Why did he have to run off like that? Mou, Inuyasha… She knew exactly where he was going…back to his forest and the god tree. No doubt about it. That's where he always went when he was upset. Laughing softly she shook her head slowly. Like I'm any better? I get upset and I head straight for the Bone Eater's Well…he goes to the god tree. We're so predictable. Entering the forest she noticed that it was unnaturally quiet. "Eh?" Looking around with a frown she finally shrugged. It was probably first Inuyasha's passage and then her own that had the birds so silent. Still, she had to admit that it was more than a little creepy. Suppressing a shiver she continued along the familiar path hoping that she'd been right about the hanyou's intended destination.
Inuyasha stood before the god tree and scowled furiously. "Why can't I just say it?!"
"Inuyasha." Sesshoumaru stepped forward from around the tree. "What have you done this time?"
Sighing deeply he knelt and rested his forehead against the rough bark. "It's not what I said, Sesshoumaru…it's what I didn't say."
One eyebrow quirking upwards the youkai lord stared at his younger brother with an impatient expression. "And what is it that you wished to say?" Suddenly his head snapped up and his gaze fell on Kagome. Scowling he motioned her to stay where she was. She was close enough to hear, yet the wind was blowing her scent away. As long as she remained silent her presence would go undetected by the hanyou for the time being.
"I…" He paused and closed his eyes tightly. "I always fuck things up…"
Sesshoumaru rolled his eyes. "A truer statement has never been spoken. Do continue."
Casting a nasty glare up at his elder brother Inuyasha snorted. "Keh. Are you gonna listen or are you gonna insult me?"
"Both. Get on with it."
"I tried to give Kagome the flowers Rin gave me…but she sat me at least a dozen times before I could…"
"Eh? Sat? What do you mean by that?"
Grabbing the rosary around his neck he held it outwards for Sesshoumaru to see. "This thing. Kaede-babaa put a spell on it…a subduing spell. Only Kagome can activate it." Sighing softly he allowed the beads to fall back against his chest. "When she says 'sit' I slam face first into the ground."
Smirking, Sesshoumaru decided he'd enjoy seeing that just once. "I see. What did you do to deserve it?"
"Huh? Oh…I…" Swallowing he closed his eyes. "I accidentally walked in on her when she was gettin' dressed."
Waving his hand dismissively the inu youkai shook his head. "No. Why was it placed on you in the beginning?"
"Oh. That. I…er…I tried to kill Kagome."
"You did what?!" He stared at his younger half-brother in open disbelief. "Why would you go and do something like that?"
"It seemed like the right thing to do at the time! So I was an idiot. Happy? I admit it."
"At least we agree on something. So…she subdued you…what does that have to do with why you're here looking miserable?"
"I wanted to tell her…I really did…but the words just wouldn't come out."
"Tell her? Tell her what?" Sesshoumaru tilted his head to the side and sent a quick look towards the human girl in question. Good. She's listening. That hanyou no baka had better appreciate this.
"I wanted to tell her how I feel…about her…" Bowing his head again Inuyasha ears seemed to droop even more. "But I couldn't get the words out. They stuck in my throat and my tongue got all twisted…I ended up stutterin' like a baka." Looking up at his brother he couldn't hide the misery in his expressive eyes. "And my ears hurt."
"Your ears…" Scowling down at him he decided that his younger brother truly was pathetic. "What about your ears? What's wrong with them?" Leaning closer he peered at the appendages in question. "They look fine to me."
"Never mind. I didn't expect you to understand."
"Just tell her, Inuyasha. That is the only way this will be resolved."
"'Just tell her' he says. Easy for you to say!" Shaking his head he sat back on his heels. "It isn't easy for me to say what I feel. I don't have the words to say it right and I always say the wrong thing at the wrong time."
"Fine. Do what you want. I've helped you more than I intended to in the first place."
"I never asked for your help!" Inuyasha jumped to his feet and glared at him before his eyes narrowed suspiciously. "Just why did you anyway?"
Shrugging carelessly Sesshoumaru turned on his heel and began to stride away. "Because I chose to."
"Keh. What kinda answer is that?" Shaking his head he slowly turned and froze. "K-Kagome?!"
"Inuyasha." Stepping forward she smiled gentle. "What were you trying to tell me back at the village?"
Unable to find his voice he nodded. How long was she here? Did Sesshoumaru know? What's she gonna do to me now? The panicked thoughts swirled through his mind as he backed up until he was pressed against the god tree. "Please, Kagome…don't 'sit' me again!" He held his hands out to her in supplication, a definite whine to his voice. He hated begging…but these were extraordinary circumstances. His ears were still ringing from the shrillness of her voice earlier and his back ached from his neck down into his legs. He had a very high tolerance to pain, but he certainly didn't want to push his luck.
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**To Be Continued…**
Definitions:
Mou: Sound of frustration
Inuyasha no baka: Stupid Inuyasha
Hanyou: Half human, half youkai
Youkai: Demon
-Babaa: a colloquial, rude way of referring to old women; has the connotation of "old hag"
Inu: Dog
Hanyou no baka: Stupid hanyou
Baka: Stupid; idiot; fool
Author's Notes:
Ok…I'm feeling this urge to just scream "get on with it already!!!". However, despite his brash bravado, I really believe Inuyasha to be shy…at least when it comes to declaring matters of the heart.
Again, Sesshoumaru is OOC…I apologize to anyone who prefers his "cannon" characterization. For the purposes of this story, he's a nice guy.
Hopefully things will speed up soon…and I'm still debating over whether or not to have a "lemon" chapter. Let me know your thoughts and feelings on this matter, 'k? I'm not so great at writing lemons, just to forewarn you…I blush through the whole thing and have a tendency towards being a bit of a prude, but I'm willing to try, that I am.
^_^x
Chiruken