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Inuyasha Fanfic To Lose the One I Love
By: Chiruken
Chapter 22
"Inuyasha! Sit!" Rushing over to his side when he slammed into the ground she knelt beside him. "Don't just walk away after saying something like that! You didn't even give me a chance to answer. You can't just ask a girl to marry you…or be your mate…and then walk away without waiting for her to say yes or no! At least let me answer the question before you run off, okay? My answer…" She paused and gently cupped his face in her hands. "Do you want to hear my answer now, Inuyasha?"
It's now or never. If I don't listen, I might miss somethin' really important. I asked…and now I have to face the consequences of it. But…what if she says no? What'll I do then? Closing his eyes tightly he nodded, fists clenching beneath him. The spell was wearing off, but he made no move to rise, choosing instead to stay down and wait. What if she says yes? What then? Does she even know what bein' my mate means? Does she know that it's forever? I should've told her that. I should've told her a lot of things. I should've told her how much she means to me. I should've told her… Sighing softly as his ears swiveled towards her to catch every sound, he gritted his teeth in an effort to remain still and silent.
Smiling at his obvious discomfort and nervousness Kagome leaned forward and lowered her voice to the barest of whispers, knowing that he'd hear every word with his sensitive hearing. "My answer, Inuyasha, is…" She paused and drew in a deep calming breath, feeling her heart beat frantically against her ribs. She was afraid that after she gave her answer that he'd sit back and laugh, telling her that it was a joke. I have to take a chance. I have to believe in him…just like I always do. "Yes." The word emerged on a breath, the sound nearly lost to the slight breeze rustling the leaves of the trees surrounding them.
He didn't react immediately. Instead he concentrated on mundane things…like breathing. Slowly he opened his eyes and looked up at her, his heart too full to form the words he wanted to say. She said yes… He was stunned at the immensity of his reaction. He heart was pounding frantically, as if he'd just been in a battle for his life and nearly lost. For a moment, he forgot how to breathe. One thought kept swirling through his mind… She said YES! Kami, she said yes… Suddenly galvanized by the scent of salt water…a sure indication that she was about to cry…he reared up and pulled her against him in a crushing embrace. "Kagome…" He whispered, his voice tight with barely controlled emotion. "My Kagome…" Tilting her face up to his he gently pressed his lips to hers in a tender kiss.
Kagome froze, feeling a tingling sensation begin in her lips from the contact with his and slowly spreading out to engulf her whole body. So this is what it's like… She thought dazedly. My first kiss… She'd been terrified at first when he'd remained silent. She'd been certain that she'd just made a fool of herself and that he was about to laugh at her. And then he'd looked at her. All doubts had fled at the warmth in his eyes…and the depth of emotion revealed to her in that single glance.
Slowly pulling away and breaking the gentle kiss he smiled…his first truly happy smile in too many years to count. "Kagome…I-I…" He paused and tried to form the words he desperately wanted to say…words that would convey the depth of his feelings for her. His heart was so full that he didn't know where to begin.
Placing her fingers against his lips she smiled gently. "Shh…it's all right, Inuyasha. I understand. You don't have to say it…" Leaning forward she kissed him lightly, the barest of touches. "Sometimes words aren't enough, ne?"
"Kagome…" Her name emerged on a soft sigh as his face lit up with a smile. No one's ever understood me…not until now. Only Kagome…my mate…
Frowning thoughtfully and biting her lip lightly she pulled back a little. "So…what do we do now? Is there a ceremony we have to perform?"
Ceremony? "A-ano…" He looked at her blankly. A snapping twig drew his attention immediately. He recognized the scent of the intruder instantly and stifled a groan.
"She doesn't understand, Inuyasha. You'll have to explain it to her." Sesshoumaru strode passed his younger half-brother and his chosen mate, studiously avoiding looking at them.
"S-Sesshoumaru?!" Kagome squeaked in alarm, feeling her face redden with embarrassment to be caught in such a private moment by someone who had, until recently, been one of their most implacable enemies.
"S-Sesshoumaru-sama! Wait for me!" Jaken hurried to follow in his master's wake, casting a narrowed glare at the young couple as he passed them as well.
"Inuyasha-niisan!" Rin paused briefly to smile widely at the hanyou before looking at Kagome. Returning her exuberant gaze back to the young man she clapped her hands in obvious delight. "See? Flowers make everyone happy, ne Kagome-neesan?"
"Rin." Sesshoumaru called with the barest of smiles gracing his lips carefully hidden from all. "Come."
"Yes, Sesshoumaru-sama!" She rushed away, pausing to wave back at the two still kneeling beneath the god tree. "'Bye!"
Staring in the direction they'd departed in, Kagome could feel the heat radiating from her face. "That was…strange." Glancing back at Inuyasha she smiled at his disgruntled expression. "So…what do you need to explain to me?"
Placing a hand behind his head in embarrassment the poor hanyou tried to smile. "Ano…" Shaking his head with a rueful grin he acknowledged that he would've had to explain the situation regardless if the youkai lord had arrived or not. "It isn't really a ceremony, Kagome."
Frowning in bewilderment she turned to face him fully. "I don't understand."
"Humans have ceremonies…youkai don't." He explained slowly.
Rolling her eyes in exasperation she snorted. "I gathered that. So what is it that youkai do then?"
"We claim our mate by marking them."
"Marking?" She scrunched up her nose envisioning having a tattoo across her forehead declaring her to be 'Property of Inuyasha'. "Ano…will it hurt?"
He nodded slowly. "It usually does the first time."
"F-first time?!" She stared at him aghast. Does he mean I'll have to go through it more than once?! "I-I don't know, Inuyasha…" She immediately regretted her hesitation when his expression fell, his ears drooping sadly. She hastily waved her hands. "No, no! I didn't mean it that way!"
"I understand if you don't want to be claimed by me, Kagome." He tried to hide his hurt and forced a smile.
"Inuyasha no baka." She huffed in irritation. "Always jumping to conclusions. That's going to get you in trouble one of these days." Sighing softly she covered his hand with her own. "Okay. How do we do it?"
He felt his eyes bug out. She doesn't know how?! "Kagome…do you understand what I just said?"
She nodded quickly. "You have to mark me. I understand."
"Ano…you have to mark me, too." He eyed her skeptically for a moment. Humans weren't made for this…will she be able to?
"Really?" She grinned, thinking of placing a tattoo on his forehead declaring him 'Property of Kagome' and started giggling at the mental image.
"Oi. What's so funny?" He had a feeling she was missing the point entirely. Sighing in resignation he leaned back against the tree. "Kagome, I think you misunderstood somethin'." Shaking his head with a slight smile he gestured for her to move closer. "Youkai mark their mates with a bite."
"Bite?" It sounded a little better than a tattoo…but she was still worried. Biting sounded a lot more painful than being tattooed.
Opening his mouth he pointed to his fangs. "Ee…a bite." He then pointed to her shoulder. "There." He watched as she absorbed this bit of information and then shrugged, quickly unbuttoning her blouse and moving the material away. "What are you doin'?"
"Well, you can't bite through my clothes, ne? So…I'm helping." She reached for his haori. "You, too."
Groaning in frustration he shook his head. "Kagome…you still don't understand."
Sitting back she folded her arms over her chest with a scowl. "Well, that's because you aren't explaining it very well."
"I'm tryin' to!" He threw up his hands in exasperation. "We mark each other when we…er…when we mate."
"I…see…" She whispered softly and stared at him blankly. "The nice way of putting it is saying 'when we make love', Inuyasha." She informed him numbly. Now I understand…first time…painful…oh yeah. I get it now.
"Whatever. It's the same thing." He tilted his head to the side curiously, noting the slightly glazed look in her eyes. "Are you all right?"
"Ano…how permanent is this?"
He scowled and leaned forward. "It's forever, Kagome." Was she having second thoughts? Kami I hope not. I don't think I can take much more of this…
"Okay." Smiling widely she launched herself into his arms. "That's good because I don't want to be with anyone else." Sobering for a moment she gave him a fierce glare. "And I don't want to share…with anyone."
"Fine by me." He pressed his lips to her lips briefly and then placed light kisses along her jaw, pausing at her ear. "Cause I don't wanna share my mate either."
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**To Be Continued…**
Definitions:
Kami: God
Ne: Say…; …right?
Ano: Um…
-Sama: Very respectful form of address; equivalent to Sir, Lady, Lord, etc.
Hanyou: Half human, half youkai
Youkai: Demon
Neesan: Quite polite, and can have the meaning of "miss" when used for young women.
Oi: Hey
Ee: Yes; yeah
Haori: Short jacket worn over kimono
Author's Notes:
Ok. The next chapter is going to be a real toughie for me. Please be patient if it takes a little longer to come out. I want to do it tastefully and I'm not entirely certain of my ability to write 'tasteful' lemons. (Yes, the next chapter is going to be a lemon.)
Well, it took them long enough, ne? Finally they've said all there is to say and now comes the REALLY hard part. (Well, for me as the author it's hard…)
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Chiruken