Here it is, the 3rd chapter! Thank you to the few who have already reviewed
the first 2 chapters.you don't waste time do you?? Well, reviews are always
welcome : ) shall we move on?
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3. Lost friends
At school, as Shinji had expected, nobody had really bothered to speak to him. Save for Rei, of course. There were students left who hadn't moved away because of the Angels, but the ones who remained scooted out of his general direction when he entered the classroom.
Kensuke followed Hikari around now, since Toji was no longer at school, due to his injuries. Shinji felt sick with guilt whenever he thought of Toji. //Another life ruined because of me//, he thought.
Hikari gave Shinji a nervous look before moving to the other side of the classroom, quickly followed by Kensuke. Shinji made his was to the empty seat next to Rei, there was nobody who would sit next to her either, given their own choice. She was staring out the window, as usual, but turned to look at hie when he sat down next to her.
"Good morning Ikari" was all she said. And a quick "Hi Rei" was all Shinji could come up with. And all he got in return was a small nod of the head before she turned her attention back to the window. Rei Ayanami. She could hardly be called a friend now. Everytime they brought along a new clone of her, she was different somehow. This Rei was rather indifferent, even more than she had been when Shinji had first met her. Talking to her was like talking to a brick wall, so Shinji made do with just having her presence at company. She was truly a doll now, nothing more. And to be honest, Shinji was afraid of her. Shinji's mind was unstable enough without having to take in the concept of her clones. And the whole thing about her being his mother.//Stop it already!// Shinji told himself.
At lunchtime it was the same situation. He sat at a table, completely alone. It reminded him of how it had been only a few months ago. He would have had Toji there, as well as Kensuke and Hikari..who both acted like he didn't exist now. Also, Asuka, and a happier Rei.where were they al now?
So he sat alone, until Rei came along with her tray. "Ikari..." was all she said before she gave her meal her undivided attention. Shinji looked up at Rei several times during his lunch, each time her attention was elsewhere. It was as if she had forgotten he was there.
//Is that how it is with everyone?// Shinji asked himself. //If I dead or disappeared would anyone even notice?//
He felt as if an unbreakable wall had come down between him and the world. He was completely and utterly alone. Not long ago he could have reached out to anyone, had he not been so afraid. Now he couldn't do that, even if he wanted to.
By the end of school Shinji felt even worse. He'd gone to school to take his mind off things, and all he'd done was succeed in realizing how isolated he really was. He had nobody. And the last place he wanted to be was at Misato's. he pulled out his hardly ever used mobile and called Misato at home.
"Hi Misato". "What? Oh, hi Shinji. Whassup? You need a lift from school or something?" Misato sounded as though she had just been asleep until Shinji had woken her up. "No, no, its nothing like that. Its just.I'm staying over a friend's house tonight? So I guess I'll see you tomorrow afternoon." Shinji lied. "Whos? Kensuke's?", "Yeah, Kensuke's". Another lie. "ok, take care. Later." With that she hung up.
Misato hadn't sounded bothered at all. She didn't even know that Kensuke was avoiding Shinji either. From school Shinji headed for the beach. Eventually he came upon the place where he and Kaworu had first met. The first thing he noticed was how different the place seemed without Kaworu. Kaworu's presence seemed to have made the place seem electric, almost alive. Not it was just a normal place, nothing special about it at all.
//Wow, was that only 2 days ago? It seems like it was ages go. I guess so much has happened since then.//. It really did seem like a long time ago, the same way as it had felt like the two boys had known each other for years. Shinji sat down on the sand and stared out to sea.
"I'm sorry Kaworu. I know now that I made a mistake. I only hope that if I see you again, you can forgive me." He felt a stray tear slip down his cheek, he wiped it away angrily. His eyes wondered and eventually came to rest on the piece of debris Kaworu had been sitting on when they first met. It was different. Puzzled, Shinji got up and walked towards it to get a better look.
Indeed, only 2 days ago it had been a shapeless piece of debris. Now it was a statue. A ruined statue, of a broken Angel. It was headless, and only had one wing. Like the head, the wing had been broken off. It was so unexpected that when Shinji realized what it was, he nearly screamed. Shinji didn't know what to think. How did it get there? Who put it there? How could a piece of debris magically change shape and turn into a statue over night? It was too much of a coincidence, it must have had something to do with Kaworu.
It depressed Shinji just to look at it. As though it was there to be noticed and yet Shinji was the only one who knew it existed. And to Shinji only would it have any significance. Maybe it was meant to be that way. Maybe it was there, only for Shinji to notice?
As the sun quickly began to set, Shinji knew that he shouldn't stay any longer. He'd probably start crying again or something. He decided he would visit Asuka.
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Ok, so maybe the whole fic will be slow moving! But that's just how I write! I hate the way I write, a 12 year old could do better..and I dare to call myself an adult! Hahaha..some joke. I'm finding it difficult to write Shinji in any state of mind other that 'angsty'. Because that's the only mood he has! Its official.junior Ikari is teen king of angst. Bless! Anyway.pleeeeeeeease R&R!!!!
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3. Lost friends
At school, as Shinji had expected, nobody had really bothered to speak to him. Save for Rei, of course. There were students left who hadn't moved away because of the Angels, but the ones who remained scooted out of his general direction when he entered the classroom.
Kensuke followed Hikari around now, since Toji was no longer at school, due to his injuries. Shinji felt sick with guilt whenever he thought of Toji. //Another life ruined because of me//, he thought.
Hikari gave Shinji a nervous look before moving to the other side of the classroom, quickly followed by Kensuke. Shinji made his was to the empty seat next to Rei, there was nobody who would sit next to her either, given their own choice. She was staring out the window, as usual, but turned to look at hie when he sat down next to her.
"Good morning Ikari" was all she said. And a quick "Hi Rei" was all Shinji could come up with. And all he got in return was a small nod of the head before she turned her attention back to the window. Rei Ayanami. She could hardly be called a friend now. Everytime they brought along a new clone of her, she was different somehow. This Rei was rather indifferent, even more than she had been when Shinji had first met her. Talking to her was like talking to a brick wall, so Shinji made do with just having her presence at company. She was truly a doll now, nothing more. And to be honest, Shinji was afraid of her. Shinji's mind was unstable enough without having to take in the concept of her clones. And the whole thing about her being his mother.//Stop it already!// Shinji told himself.
At lunchtime it was the same situation. He sat at a table, completely alone. It reminded him of how it had been only a few months ago. He would have had Toji there, as well as Kensuke and Hikari..who both acted like he didn't exist now. Also, Asuka, and a happier Rei.where were they al now?
So he sat alone, until Rei came along with her tray. "Ikari..." was all she said before she gave her meal her undivided attention. Shinji looked up at Rei several times during his lunch, each time her attention was elsewhere. It was as if she had forgotten he was there.
//Is that how it is with everyone?// Shinji asked himself. //If I dead or disappeared would anyone even notice?//
He felt as if an unbreakable wall had come down between him and the world. He was completely and utterly alone. Not long ago he could have reached out to anyone, had he not been so afraid. Now he couldn't do that, even if he wanted to.
By the end of school Shinji felt even worse. He'd gone to school to take his mind off things, and all he'd done was succeed in realizing how isolated he really was. He had nobody. And the last place he wanted to be was at Misato's. he pulled out his hardly ever used mobile and called Misato at home.
"Hi Misato". "What? Oh, hi Shinji. Whassup? You need a lift from school or something?" Misato sounded as though she had just been asleep until Shinji had woken her up. "No, no, its nothing like that. Its just.I'm staying over a friend's house tonight? So I guess I'll see you tomorrow afternoon." Shinji lied. "Whos? Kensuke's?", "Yeah, Kensuke's". Another lie. "ok, take care. Later." With that she hung up.
Misato hadn't sounded bothered at all. She didn't even know that Kensuke was avoiding Shinji either. From school Shinji headed for the beach. Eventually he came upon the place where he and Kaworu had first met. The first thing he noticed was how different the place seemed without Kaworu. Kaworu's presence seemed to have made the place seem electric, almost alive. Not it was just a normal place, nothing special about it at all.
//Wow, was that only 2 days ago? It seems like it was ages go. I guess so much has happened since then.//. It really did seem like a long time ago, the same way as it had felt like the two boys had known each other for years. Shinji sat down on the sand and stared out to sea.
"I'm sorry Kaworu. I know now that I made a mistake. I only hope that if I see you again, you can forgive me." He felt a stray tear slip down his cheek, he wiped it away angrily. His eyes wondered and eventually came to rest on the piece of debris Kaworu had been sitting on when they first met. It was different. Puzzled, Shinji got up and walked towards it to get a better look.
Indeed, only 2 days ago it had been a shapeless piece of debris. Now it was a statue. A ruined statue, of a broken Angel. It was headless, and only had one wing. Like the head, the wing had been broken off. It was so unexpected that when Shinji realized what it was, he nearly screamed. Shinji didn't know what to think. How did it get there? Who put it there? How could a piece of debris magically change shape and turn into a statue over night? It was too much of a coincidence, it must have had something to do with Kaworu.
It depressed Shinji just to look at it. As though it was there to be noticed and yet Shinji was the only one who knew it existed. And to Shinji only would it have any significance. Maybe it was meant to be that way. Maybe it was there, only for Shinji to notice?
As the sun quickly began to set, Shinji knew that he shouldn't stay any longer. He'd probably start crying again or something. He decided he would visit Asuka.
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Ok, so maybe the whole fic will be slow moving! But that's just how I write! I hate the way I write, a 12 year old could do better..and I dare to call myself an adult! Hahaha..some joke. I'm finding it difficult to write Shinji in any state of mind other that 'angsty'. Because that's the only mood he has! Its official.junior Ikari is teen king of angst. Bless! Anyway.pleeeeeeeease R&R!!!!