I'm sure you all weren't too worried about it anyway, but I'm sorry that
this chapter took a while to put up. Art seems to get in the way of
everything! Thank you to everyone, who reviewed, I didn't expect anyone to
at all, so it was nice. Especially to Shella, your criticisms have been
noted ;). I hate my writing style anyway, but at least I try! And I know
the last chapter was pretty dreadful! I hope to make this one not so bad.
'Hope' being the operative word in that sentence!
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Chapter 6. On the other side.
Death. For Shinji, everything he had heard about had been a lie. His life hadn't flashed before his eyes, and he hadn't found himself standing before the gates of Heaven. Looking back on it, it seemed more like sleeping rather than something as ultimate as death.
His 'sleep' had only been interrupted by a feeling of weightlessness. Floating, as if he was being carried to some other place. And he had felt someone else with him. It had felt so much like when he had felt his mother inside his Eva. That time he had been trapped inside the Angel. That time he had felt like she was rescuing him. And here she was doing it again.
The feeling of weightlessness, it could have been called a dream, expect Shinji had been quite sure it was real. As real as he was now. And he was here, wherever 'here' was.
Shinji was woken by the sound of the sea, the lapping of water against the sand. He could feel warmth against his face, but he couldn't open his eyes just yet. He wanted to wake up properly before he faced wherever he was.
He was surprised he had woken up at all. The last thing he could remember was feeling the blood trickle down his face, the pain. And Misato's panicked screaming, crying his name. //Misato. Where are you now? Will I see you again?// he answered his own question. //Of course not. Your dead remember?//. It didn't come as much of a shock as he brought himself to the realization of this. Where could he be other than in death? Realistically, he couldn't be alive at all. Surely he'd be broken, nobody would live through what had happened to him.
He had known he was dead anyway really, it just hadn't come to the front of his mind,. But now that it had, he was surprised to find he wasn't as devastated as he had imagined he'd be. Not that he'd imagined himself to be 'anything' once dead. The life he had left had been his life, but it had still ended up going from bad to worse. //My life sucked// he stated to himself in his mind. He made it real. "I must be dead" he slowly spoke out loud, as he opened his eyes.
He found himself staring up at a sky. A strange sky, it seemed more purple than blue, without a cloud in sight. He didn't have to look around to know he was lying down. Strange. He was in his school uniform. //I was in my plugsuit when I was in my Eva.//. He didn't argue, his plugsuit would only be drenched in blood anyway.
He looked over his feet, and saw the sea. Clear and perfect. The sun reflected down on it, making the surface dance with silver ripples. It was truly like a dream. He laid his head back again, and stared up at the purple sky, eyes half-closed in thought. //What am I meant to do now?//
As if in answer something brushed gently against his hair. Shinji's eyes flew open in surprised, being brought out of his thoughts and grabbed automatically at whatever it was. He turned to his hand to find he was holding onto a pale skinny wrist. He looked up and found himself staring up into pale red eyes. "Kaworu??". It was then when Shinji located exactly where he was. His head had been resting in the other boy's lap the whole time and he hadn't even noticed. "Hey." Kaworu replied, smiling down at him.
Shinji let go of his wrist and scrambled up onto his knees to face the other boy. Find a place on the sand next to him, Shinji gently rested his head on Kaworu's shoulder. He felt a blush appear on his cheeks, for not noticing that the other boy was there sooner. They sat for what felt like hours like this, not talking. Shinji smiled when his hand found Kaworu's.
Finally Shinji broke the silence. "So..am I really dead?", he asked. He didn't even know if he was asking Kaworu this or himself, but it was Kaworu who answered him. "Yes. But I didn't imagine you'd be here so soon. It doesn't make you unhappy does it?" Kaworu asked. He turned to Shinji then, concern in his eyes as he scanned his face for any emotions. He didn't want Shinji to be unhappy. Shinji looked down at their fingers entwined. "No. Well, maybe a little." He turned to face Kaworu. " It was still my life, no matter how much I hated it. I suppose I'll miss everyone. Although, Misato and Rei are the only ones I could call friends in the end. Everyone else hated me. And Asuka hadn't woken up. I hated it there without you, I hate being without you anyway."
Shinji smiled then, but he felt the familiar sting of tears. He wiped at his eyes, angry with himself for crying again. Kaworu smiled then again wrapped his arms around Shinji much like he did the last time they had seen each other, while Shinji tried to stifle his tears. Shinji slowly relaxed a bit, shoulders still shaking, as he looked up at the gray haired boy. "I'm really sorry, I'm not unhappy..its just all a bit of a shock.". "Of course it is, I understand that. I'm glad you're not upset, I'd hate for you to feel that way. And I did wait for you." Kaworu replied.
Shinji smiled then, still a bit amazed that he'd found someone so caring in his life. He brought Kaworu into his own embrace then and smiled to himself. "Yeah, you did. I knew I would see you again anyway. I trust you that much." Shinji blushed furiously as he kissed Kaworu's cheek, and one hand came up to run through his soft gray hair, Kaworu smiled at the contact. Shinji felt his cheeks becoming even hotter when he said, "I love you." He had no doubt that Kaworu believed him, but he just felt like he had to keep on telling him. "I love you too. I always loved you. I won't stop."
Shinji felt more comfortable then, but he looked up at his love, puzzled. "Does this mean we'll be here together? All the time?" Kaworu laughed. "Yeah koi. Forever." Shinji smiled back at him, a genuine smile. "I like the sound of that."
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Rar, the end! *bows* I have no idea where it all came from. My mind thinks it up, then I write it down. I hope you all enjoyed it, even if only a tiny bit!
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Chapter 6. On the other side.
Death. For Shinji, everything he had heard about had been a lie. His life hadn't flashed before his eyes, and he hadn't found himself standing before the gates of Heaven. Looking back on it, it seemed more like sleeping rather than something as ultimate as death.
His 'sleep' had only been interrupted by a feeling of weightlessness. Floating, as if he was being carried to some other place. And he had felt someone else with him. It had felt so much like when he had felt his mother inside his Eva. That time he had been trapped inside the Angel. That time he had felt like she was rescuing him. And here she was doing it again.
The feeling of weightlessness, it could have been called a dream, expect Shinji had been quite sure it was real. As real as he was now. And he was here, wherever 'here' was.
Shinji was woken by the sound of the sea, the lapping of water against the sand. He could feel warmth against his face, but he couldn't open his eyes just yet. He wanted to wake up properly before he faced wherever he was.
He was surprised he had woken up at all. The last thing he could remember was feeling the blood trickle down his face, the pain. And Misato's panicked screaming, crying his name. //Misato. Where are you now? Will I see you again?// he answered his own question. //Of course not. Your dead remember?//. It didn't come as much of a shock as he brought himself to the realization of this. Where could he be other than in death? Realistically, he couldn't be alive at all. Surely he'd be broken, nobody would live through what had happened to him.
He had known he was dead anyway really, it just hadn't come to the front of his mind,. But now that it had, he was surprised to find he wasn't as devastated as he had imagined he'd be. Not that he'd imagined himself to be 'anything' once dead. The life he had left had been his life, but it had still ended up going from bad to worse. //My life sucked// he stated to himself in his mind. He made it real. "I must be dead" he slowly spoke out loud, as he opened his eyes.
He found himself staring up at a sky. A strange sky, it seemed more purple than blue, without a cloud in sight. He didn't have to look around to know he was lying down. Strange. He was in his school uniform. //I was in my plugsuit when I was in my Eva.//. He didn't argue, his plugsuit would only be drenched in blood anyway.
He looked over his feet, and saw the sea. Clear and perfect. The sun reflected down on it, making the surface dance with silver ripples. It was truly like a dream. He laid his head back again, and stared up at the purple sky, eyes half-closed in thought. //What am I meant to do now?//
As if in answer something brushed gently against his hair. Shinji's eyes flew open in surprised, being brought out of his thoughts and grabbed automatically at whatever it was. He turned to his hand to find he was holding onto a pale skinny wrist. He looked up and found himself staring up into pale red eyes. "Kaworu??". It was then when Shinji located exactly where he was. His head had been resting in the other boy's lap the whole time and he hadn't even noticed. "Hey." Kaworu replied, smiling down at him.
Shinji let go of his wrist and scrambled up onto his knees to face the other boy. Find a place on the sand next to him, Shinji gently rested his head on Kaworu's shoulder. He felt a blush appear on his cheeks, for not noticing that the other boy was there sooner. They sat for what felt like hours like this, not talking. Shinji smiled when his hand found Kaworu's.
Finally Shinji broke the silence. "So..am I really dead?", he asked. He didn't even know if he was asking Kaworu this or himself, but it was Kaworu who answered him. "Yes. But I didn't imagine you'd be here so soon. It doesn't make you unhappy does it?" Kaworu asked. He turned to Shinji then, concern in his eyes as he scanned his face for any emotions. He didn't want Shinji to be unhappy. Shinji looked down at their fingers entwined. "No. Well, maybe a little." He turned to face Kaworu. " It was still my life, no matter how much I hated it. I suppose I'll miss everyone. Although, Misato and Rei are the only ones I could call friends in the end. Everyone else hated me. And Asuka hadn't woken up. I hated it there without you, I hate being without you anyway."
Shinji smiled then, but he felt the familiar sting of tears. He wiped at his eyes, angry with himself for crying again. Kaworu smiled then again wrapped his arms around Shinji much like he did the last time they had seen each other, while Shinji tried to stifle his tears. Shinji slowly relaxed a bit, shoulders still shaking, as he looked up at the gray haired boy. "I'm really sorry, I'm not unhappy..its just all a bit of a shock.". "Of course it is, I understand that. I'm glad you're not upset, I'd hate for you to feel that way. And I did wait for you." Kaworu replied.
Shinji smiled then, still a bit amazed that he'd found someone so caring in his life. He brought Kaworu into his own embrace then and smiled to himself. "Yeah, you did. I knew I would see you again anyway. I trust you that much." Shinji blushed furiously as he kissed Kaworu's cheek, and one hand came up to run through his soft gray hair, Kaworu smiled at the contact. Shinji felt his cheeks becoming even hotter when he said, "I love you." He had no doubt that Kaworu believed him, but he just felt like he had to keep on telling him. "I love you too. I always loved you. I won't stop."
Shinji felt more comfortable then, but he looked up at his love, puzzled. "Does this mean we'll be here together? All the time?" Kaworu laughed. "Yeah koi. Forever." Shinji smiled back at him, a genuine smile. "I like the sound of that."
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Rar, the end! *bows* I have no idea where it all came from. My mind thinks it up, then I write it down. I hope you all enjoyed it, even if only a tiny bit!