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Chapter 5
"Don't leave me Daddy"
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Tyler finally free himself from Paige, elbowing her in the stomach.
He ran in the living room and said: "Mommy, save him..." He was still crying and his eyes were red because of it.
"LEO...LEO!" Phoebe yelled.
No, she couldn't let him die...She...She loved him for God's sake...
Leo orbed in. He looked at Cole lying on the floor.
"Heal him please." Phoebe whispered.
"I can't Phoebe, he's evil." Leo replied.
"No, not anymore." Phoebe said.
Paige joined them in the living room. She wasn't mad at Tyler for what he did to her.
"Phoebe are you sure of what you're doing? What if it's a trap?" Paige said.
"Paige's right Phoebe." Leo added.
"No, I'm telling you, it's not a trap, I know Cole, I know he betrayed me, but not this time...Trust me." Phoebe said.
She looked at Leo and he healed Cole.
"I have to go." He said before Cole opened his eyes.
Leo looked at Phoebe and said: "You're right, he's human." Then he orbed out.
Cole slowly opened his eyes.
Tyler jumped on him and said: "Daddy!"
"Wow...easy baby." Cole said, as he hugged his baby boy. He was still feeling a little dizzy.
"I thought you were dead. You scared me." Tyler said.
"Sorry." Cole said.
He looked at Phoebe while hugging Tyler and Phoebe looked back at him. They didn't know what to say.
"I'm sorry Phoebe, but we really have to go. I'm dating someone new today and I'm gonna be late." Paige whispered.
"You go, I stay here." Phoebe said.
"What?" Paige asked.
"You heard me Paige, I said I stay here, I need to talk to Tyler." Phoebe explained.
"Piper is going to kill you when she'll learn that." Paige said.
"I know." Phoebe replied to her little sister.
"Go, I'll be fine, I'll call Leo to orb me back to the manor." Phoebe added.
Paige sighed and said, before orbing out: "Fine."
Cole slowly got up, the dizzyness was still here. He walked towards Phoebe, very closed to her, his body almost touching hers.
He puts his hand on her cheek and wiped away the tear which was still on her cheek with his tumb. He kissed her forehead and whispered: "Thank you for saving my life."
Phoebe closed her eyes, his touch was so soft, so warm, she has almost forgotten this feeling in 4 years.
"I did it for Tyler." She said.
Half a lie...The truth was that she did it for her as well, she still loved him...But how could she trust him again after all the things he did?
Tyler smiled, his Daddy, just kissed his Mommy, it's was awesome.
Cole backed up from Phoebe and said: "Even if I'm alive, it doesn't change the fact that Tyler is yours now."
"He still has your powers inside of him and now that I'm human, I can't protect him from evil." He added.
Phoebe nodded.
"I know we can't be together, I know you hate me...That's why I won't bother you, I'm not asking you to have him one day per week or something. He's...I...I have no right to ask something like this after what I did to you." He said.
Cole knelt down in front of his son and said: "Now you're going to live with Mommy, in her house."
"Because you're not a bad guy anymore?" Tyler asked.
Cole nodded and said: "Yeah, that's it baby."
"But, why can't we live here, with Mommy?" Tyler asked.
"Because...huh...I told you that Mommy and Daddy are different, that's why they can't live together." Cole tried to explain.
"But now it's different because the bad guy is gone." Tyler stated.
God, this kid was smart.
"Listen baby, it's a little hard to explain but...uh...It sometimes happens that two persons are not in love anymore, and even if Daddy and Mommy loved each other very much in the past, now it's over, that's why they can't be together." Cole said.
It was the hardest thing to say, Cole loved Phoebe so much...But her love for him was gone 4 years ago...
"No!" Tyler said.
"It's wrong, you told me you still love Mommy." Tyler said.
Cole and Phoebe looked at each others.
"You still love Mommy." Tyler said sadly as he looked down. He deadly wanted his parents to be together.
Now Phoebe knew that Cole was still in love with her, and Cole didn't like it.
They locked eyes for a while then Cole looked at Tyler.
"You're right baby, I still love your Mommy very much, but I can't be with her because I made her felt really sad when you were a little baby." Cole said. How could he explain all the pain he caused to Phoebe? What was he supposed to say to a 4 years old little boy?
"You understand that?" Cole asked.
Tyler shrugged.
Cole looked at Phoebe and he wanted to cry, he wanted to cry because he was in love with her, because she was next to him and he couldn't touch her, he wanted to cry because his baby boy was sad...
"You should go, Piper is probably sick worried about you." Cole said.
Phoebe nodded.
"I want to stay with Daddy." Tyler said.
Cole sighed, it wasn't going to be easy.
"You can't stay with me Tyler." He said.
"Why?" The little boy asked.
"Beacause...because I'm living for a business trip tomorrow morning." Cole lied.
"Okay, then I'm staying with you until tomorrow morning." Tyler stated.
Cole sighed again and said: "Baby, you can't."
"I'm staying." Tyler replied as he covered his ears with his hands and he repeated: "I'm staying.".
"You stubborn." He said.
Tyler smiled and Cole said: "Demons are going to come after you and I won't be able to protect you."
"Mommy is staying too." Tyler said.
"Tyler..." Cole sighed.
"Mommy and I are staying here with you until tomorrow morning." He said.
Cole looked at Phoebe and said: "You try, he won't listen to me."
Phoebe said: "Maybe we can stay here until tomorrow morning."
Tyler smiled and Cole looked surprised. Was he dreaming or did Phoebe just said that she wanted to stay?
"That's...Yeah...it's...uh. Okay." Cole was speechless.
"You...you can sleep in my bed and I'll take the couch." He added.
"COOL!" Tyler said out loud.
Phoebe and Tyler smiled. Tyler jumped in the arms of Cole and kissed him on the cheek.
"This is really awesome." Tyler said.
He looked at Phoebe and said: "You're the best Mommy."
Phoebe smiled. Cole put Tyler down and said: "You should give Mommy a huge kiss to thank her."
Tyler nodded and walked next to Phoebe who bent over her son. Tyler kissed her on the cheek and smiled. He looked at her and said: "Thanks Mommy."
Phoebe messed up his hair and said: "Sure baby."
Tyler smiled even more, then he looked at Cole and said: "Your turn to kiss Mommy."
"Tyler..." Cole said, he knew that the little boy was intentionally saying this even if he knew that they can't kiss each others.
"Pleaaaaaaasssseeeeeee." Tyler said.
Cole looked at Phoebe and said: "You can say no."
Phoebe shrugged.
"Come on Daddy." Tyler insisted.
Cole sighed, this situation was making him feel unconfortable. He walked next to Phoebe and kissed her on the cheek.
"Very good." Tyler said. He was proud of him, he has planned everything, tomorrow morning his Daddy and his Mommy will be back together.
Tyler took Phoebe's hand and dragged her towards his room and he hapilly said: "I'm going to show you my room."
They both walked in Tyler's room. Cole stood in the living room for a while, thinking. Phoebe didn't pushed him away, she let him kissed her...Sure it was only the cheek but she wasn't 'cold' like how she was when he was the Source. Cole smiled and walked in Tyler's room as well. He watched them, seeing them together had always been his dream, and now it was reality.
Phoebe saw Cole looking at them, it looked like he was lost in one of his reverie. She looked in his eyes and something surprised her, something was different. His eyes was blue, of course this was not what was different but, his eyes were now the reflection of his soul. The reflection of Cole Turner, her Cole Turner, the man she felt in love with, her soulmate...No evil, no Belthazor, no Source...Just him...
She smiled at him and said: "Why don't you join us?"
Cole snapped out of his thoughts and said: "No, it's okay, you guys need to share some time together."
"You too." She replied, and she was right.
Cole entered the room and sat down on the bed.
"Can you read me a story Daddy?" Tyler asked.
"Now? It's not time to go to bed." Cole replied.
"I know but I want you to finish the book before you leave me." Tyler said.
Leave me...Cole's heart stopped to beat. Tyler was thinking that his father was going to abandon him...He didn't say, 'before you go' or 'before you leave the town', no he said 'because you leave me'. Cole looked down and tried not to cry.
Phoebe looked at him, she knew what was wrong, she knew Cole was hurt but of what Tyler said.
"Are you okay?" She asked.
Cole nodded.
"I guess I'm just a little dizzy after what happened today." He lied.
Tyler took a book and gave it to his father.
They all sat down on the bed and Tyler crawled in the arms of his father, snuggling up to his chest. Phoebe sat down next to them.
"Can you do the things in my hair Mommy?" Tyler asked.
Phoebe smiled and replied: "Sure."
She rested her head on Cole's shoulder and ran her hand in Tyler's hair.
Cole was surprised by her attitude, was she still in love with him? No, it couldn't be that, after all he did to her...She was probably nice with him for Tyler.
"Harry Potter is my favorite." Tyler said.
"Yeah, we already read all the Harry Potter's books, this one is the last one." Cole said to Phoebe.
Phoebe nodded and smiled. Harry Potter, which book could be more appropriate for a 4 year boy with magical powers?
Cole opened the book and started to read. It was the last time he was reading a story to Tyler, with him in his arms, the last very time...
Tears streamed down his cheeks while he was reading, he thought that nobody will see it...but Phoebe did and she didn't say anything, she knew how it feel to leave someone you love with all your heart. She lost Cole so many times, then Prue and Tyler...She knew how it feels to throw up because your heart is aching too much...She knew all those things too well.
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The book was now over and Cole, Phoebe and Tyler had dinner. They had pizzas and they drunk some wine...
"Tyler, go brush you teeth and get changed into your Pj's baby." Cole said.
Tyler nodded and ran in his room.
"There is no business trip, right?" Phoebe asked.
"No, I had to lie to him, otherwise he would have say that he wanted to live with you and with me in the same time. I know this is not what you want, I know you don't want to share him with me and once again, I won't ask you to do that for me." He answered as he took the plates and put it in the sink.
"Don't worry, I'll be out of your lifes by tomorrow morning." He added with tears in his eyes. It was so hard not to break down now that he was totally human, it was easier when he was half a demon, or the source, there was no emotions.
Phoebe didn't know what to do, she wanted to be with him, to kiss him...But she was scared, scared to be hurt again but the man she loved...Scared to lose him again. Cole had been human once...Then he went back to evil...She didn't want this evil circle to start again...And her sisters will never accept the fact that Cole is back in her life...
"I saw you crying when you were reading the book." Phoebe said. She noticed that Cole was avoiding her stare since the begining of the dinner.
He didn't answered and kept cleaning the table.
She grabbed his arm and said: "Cole look at me."
"No." He replied, looking down.
"Why?" She asked.
"Because it hurts too much, don't you see?" He looked at her and she saw he was crying again.
"Phoebe, I love you, I never stopped loving you since the first day I saw you. Being around you kills me because my heart wants to kiss you and to hold you but my head knows it's wrong." He said as he walked away.
"Cole please..." She said.
"Please what Phoebe?" He said as he turned back towards her, he was almost angry.
"Please stop loving me? I can't, I tried so many times, the Source even tried to, I just can't." He said.
"I would have prefer to be dead right now, I wouldn't feel the pain I'm feeling right now." He added.
"And you know what the best thing is? Everything is my fault... I lost you and I'm losing Tyler because I'm just a evil bastard son of a bitch." He said.
"See, now, I'm just a human being with a broken heart who lost the two persons he loves the most on earth. This is so ironic." He laughed.
"Daddy, I'm ready." Tyler called from his room.
"I'm coming baby." Cole said.
He looked at Phoebe and said: "I have to go."
Phoebe nodded and when Cole started to walked towards Tyler's room she said: "Cole wait."
He stopped and looked at her. She walked towards him and wiped away his tears.
They locked eyes for a while and then she said: "Go now."
Cole nodded and walked in the room of his baby boy.
Tyler was in his bed, with his Teddy bear in his arms. Cole smiled and said: "Ready to sleep baby?"
Tyler nodded and said: "Ready!"
Cole smiled and sat down next to Tyler and he said: "Listen baby, I won't be here when you'll wake up tomorrow, I'll be on a plane for New-York, for my work. I want you to take all your stuffs here and move to Mommy's house, okay?"
Tyler shook his head no and tears were streaming down his face.
"Oh, honey..." Cole said as he took Tyler in his arms. Cole held his son tightly, not wanting to let him go...
"Don't leave me Daddy." Tyler said, sobbing. Cole bursted into tears.
Phoebe was watching them from the doorway, she was crying as well.
Cole kissed Tyler on the forehead and said: "Everything is going to be okay, you know your Mommy loves you, and I'll be back..."
"When?" Tyler asked.
"I don't know, probably for your birthday." Cole said.
"But my birthday is in ten months, it's too long." Tyler pleaded.
"I know, but you're a big boy." Cole said.
"Who is going to read my Harry Potter's books for me?" Tyler asked, trying to find something to make his Daddy stay with him.
"We have read all of them and if you want to read them again then I guess Mommy will be happy to read it for you." Cole said.
Tyler shrugged.
"Okay baby, time to sleep." Cole said.
Tyler was looking down and extremly sad, he laid down on his bed. Cole kissed him on the cheek and said: "I love you."
"Me too." Tyler said.
"Good night." Cole said.
"Good night." Tyler said, he was still sobbing.
Cole got up and walked out of the room. He ran in the bathroom and threw up. He thought that having an athame in the stomach was the most hurtful thing on earth, but it was nothing comparing to this...
He threw up again and Phoebe walked in the bathroom. She put her hand on his shoulder and he said: "Don't touch me, I'm okay."
He got up and walked over the sink to wash himself and put some water on his face.
He slowly sat down on the floor and hugged his knees, he was still crying.
Phoebe walked towards him and knelt down next to him and she hugged him. He didn't resist, he just let her hugged him.
"You should get some sleep." She whispered.
He shook his head no and said: "If I sleep the morning will come faster and I'll have to go."
He got up and help her up and said: "You're the one who needs to get some rest."
Cole took her hand and said: "Let's go." They both walked in Cole's room.
"I guess it's when I have to say goodbye." Cole said.
Phoebe looked down.
"Hey." He said.
"Don't be sad, it's for the best." Cole said.
She looked up at him. She had tears in her eyes. The way she was looking at him, he knew what it meant, she wanted him to kiss her.
Cole kissed her on the lips and put his hands on her cheeks, carressing her with his thumbs. They both were crying as their kiss become more passionate.
Cole suddenly pulled away and said: "We can't...it's not what you want...it's bad."
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Chapter 5
"Don't leave me Daddy"
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Tyler finally free himself from Paige, elbowing her in the stomach.
He ran in the living room and said: "Mommy, save him..." He was still crying and his eyes were red because of it.
"LEO...LEO!" Phoebe yelled.
No, she couldn't let him die...She...She loved him for God's sake...
Leo orbed in. He looked at Cole lying on the floor.
"Heal him please." Phoebe whispered.
"I can't Phoebe, he's evil." Leo replied.
"No, not anymore." Phoebe said.
Paige joined them in the living room. She wasn't mad at Tyler for what he did to her.
"Phoebe are you sure of what you're doing? What if it's a trap?" Paige said.
"Paige's right Phoebe." Leo added.
"No, I'm telling you, it's not a trap, I know Cole, I know he betrayed me, but not this time...Trust me." Phoebe said.
She looked at Leo and he healed Cole.
"I have to go." He said before Cole opened his eyes.
Leo looked at Phoebe and said: "You're right, he's human." Then he orbed out.
Cole slowly opened his eyes.
Tyler jumped on him and said: "Daddy!"
"Wow...easy baby." Cole said, as he hugged his baby boy. He was still feeling a little dizzy.
"I thought you were dead. You scared me." Tyler said.
"Sorry." Cole said.
He looked at Phoebe while hugging Tyler and Phoebe looked back at him. They didn't know what to say.
"I'm sorry Phoebe, but we really have to go. I'm dating someone new today and I'm gonna be late." Paige whispered.
"You go, I stay here." Phoebe said.
"What?" Paige asked.
"You heard me Paige, I said I stay here, I need to talk to Tyler." Phoebe explained.
"Piper is going to kill you when she'll learn that." Paige said.
"I know." Phoebe replied to her little sister.
"Go, I'll be fine, I'll call Leo to orb me back to the manor." Phoebe added.
Paige sighed and said, before orbing out: "Fine."
Cole slowly got up, the dizzyness was still here. He walked towards Phoebe, very closed to her, his body almost touching hers.
He puts his hand on her cheek and wiped away the tear which was still on her cheek with his tumb. He kissed her forehead and whispered: "Thank you for saving my life."
Phoebe closed her eyes, his touch was so soft, so warm, she has almost forgotten this feeling in 4 years.
"I did it for Tyler." She said.
Half a lie...The truth was that she did it for her as well, she still loved him...But how could she trust him again after all the things he did?
Tyler smiled, his Daddy, just kissed his Mommy, it's was awesome.
Cole backed up from Phoebe and said: "Even if I'm alive, it doesn't change the fact that Tyler is yours now."
"He still has your powers inside of him and now that I'm human, I can't protect him from evil." He added.
Phoebe nodded.
"I know we can't be together, I know you hate me...That's why I won't bother you, I'm not asking you to have him one day per week or something. He's...I...I have no right to ask something like this after what I did to you." He said.
Cole knelt down in front of his son and said: "Now you're going to live with Mommy, in her house."
"Because you're not a bad guy anymore?" Tyler asked.
Cole nodded and said: "Yeah, that's it baby."
"But, why can't we live here, with Mommy?" Tyler asked.
"Because...huh...I told you that Mommy and Daddy are different, that's why they can't live together." Cole tried to explain.
"But now it's different because the bad guy is gone." Tyler stated.
God, this kid was smart.
"Listen baby, it's a little hard to explain but...uh...It sometimes happens that two persons are not in love anymore, and even if Daddy and Mommy loved each other very much in the past, now it's over, that's why they can't be together." Cole said.
It was the hardest thing to say, Cole loved Phoebe so much...But her love for him was gone 4 years ago...
"No!" Tyler said.
"It's wrong, you told me you still love Mommy." Tyler said.
Cole and Phoebe looked at each others.
"You still love Mommy." Tyler said sadly as he looked down. He deadly wanted his parents to be together.
Now Phoebe knew that Cole was still in love with her, and Cole didn't like it.
They locked eyes for a while then Cole looked at Tyler.
"You're right baby, I still love your Mommy very much, but I can't be with her because I made her felt really sad when you were a little baby." Cole said. How could he explain all the pain he caused to Phoebe? What was he supposed to say to a 4 years old little boy?
"You understand that?" Cole asked.
Tyler shrugged.
Cole looked at Phoebe and he wanted to cry, he wanted to cry because he was in love with her, because she was next to him and he couldn't touch her, he wanted to cry because his baby boy was sad...
"You should go, Piper is probably sick worried about you." Cole said.
Phoebe nodded.
"I want to stay with Daddy." Tyler said.
Cole sighed, it wasn't going to be easy.
"You can't stay with me Tyler." He said.
"Why?" The little boy asked.
"Beacause...because I'm living for a business trip tomorrow morning." Cole lied.
"Okay, then I'm staying with you until tomorrow morning." Tyler stated.
Cole sighed again and said: "Baby, you can't."
"I'm staying." Tyler replied as he covered his ears with his hands and he repeated: "I'm staying.".
"You stubborn." He said.
Tyler smiled and Cole said: "Demons are going to come after you and I won't be able to protect you."
"Mommy is staying too." Tyler said.
"Tyler..." Cole sighed.
"Mommy and I are staying here with you until tomorrow morning." He said.
Cole looked at Phoebe and said: "You try, he won't listen to me."
Phoebe said: "Maybe we can stay here until tomorrow morning."
Tyler smiled and Cole looked surprised. Was he dreaming or did Phoebe just said that she wanted to stay?
"That's...Yeah...it's...uh. Okay." Cole was speechless.
"You...you can sleep in my bed and I'll take the couch." He added.
"COOL!" Tyler said out loud.
Phoebe and Tyler smiled. Tyler jumped in the arms of Cole and kissed him on the cheek.
"This is really awesome." Tyler said.
He looked at Phoebe and said: "You're the best Mommy."
Phoebe smiled. Cole put Tyler down and said: "You should give Mommy a huge kiss to thank her."
Tyler nodded and walked next to Phoebe who bent over her son. Tyler kissed her on the cheek and smiled. He looked at her and said: "Thanks Mommy."
Phoebe messed up his hair and said: "Sure baby."
Tyler smiled even more, then he looked at Cole and said: "Your turn to kiss Mommy."
"Tyler..." Cole said, he knew that the little boy was intentionally saying this even if he knew that they can't kiss each others.
"Pleaaaaaaasssseeeeeee." Tyler said.
Cole looked at Phoebe and said: "You can say no."
Phoebe shrugged.
"Come on Daddy." Tyler insisted.
Cole sighed, this situation was making him feel unconfortable. He walked next to Phoebe and kissed her on the cheek.
"Very good." Tyler said. He was proud of him, he has planned everything, tomorrow morning his Daddy and his Mommy will be back together.
Tyler took Phoebe's hand and dragged her towards his room and he hapilly said: "I'm going to show you my room."
They both walked in Tyler's room. Cole stood in the living room for a while, thinking. Phoebe didn't pushed him away, she let him kissed her...Sure it was only the cheek but she wasn't 'cold' like how she was when he was the Source. Cole smiled and walked in Tyler's room as well. He watched them, seeing them together had always been his dream, and now it was reality.
Phoebe saw Cole looking at them, it looked like he was lost in one of his reverie. She looked in his eyes and something surprised her, something was different. His eyes was blue, of course this was not what was different but, his eyes were now the reflection of his soul. The reflection of Cole Turner, her Cole Turner, the man she felt in love with, her soulmate...No evil, no Belthazor, no Source...Just him...
She smiled at him and said: "Why don't you join us?"
Cole snapped out of his thoughts and said: "No, it's okay, you guys need to share some time together."
"You too." She replied, and she was right.
Cole entered the room and sat down on the bed.
"Can you read me a story Daddy?" Tyler asked.
"Now? It's not time to go to bed." Cole replied.
"I know but I want you to finish the book before you leave me." Tyler said.
Leave me...Cole's heart stopped to beat. Tyler was thinking that his father was going to abandon him...He didn't say, 'before you go' or 'before you leave the town', no he said 'because you leave me'. Cole looked down and tried not to cry.
Phoebe looked at him, she knew what was wrong, she knew Cole was hurt but of what Tyler said.
"Are you okay?" She asked.
Cole nodded.
"I guess I'm just a little dizzy after what happened today." He lied.
Tyler took a book and gave it to his father.
They all sat down on the bed and Tyler crawled in the arms of his father, snuggling up to his chest. Phoebe sat down next to them.
"Can you do the things in my hair Mommy?" Tyler asked.
Phoebe smiled and replied: "Sure."
She rested her head on Cole's shoulder and ran her hand in Tyler's hair.
Cole was surprised by her attitude, was she still in love with him? No, it couldn't be that, after all he did to her...She was probably nice with him for Tyler.
"Harry Potter is my favorite." Tyler said.
"Yeah, we already read all the Harry Potter's books, this one is the last one." Cole said to Phoebe.
Phoebe nodded and smiled. Harry Potter, which book could be more appropriate for a 4 year boy with magical powers?
Cole opened the book and started to read. It was the last time he was reading a story to Tyler, with him in his arms, the last very time...
Tears streamed down his cheeks while he was reading, he thought that nobody will see it...but Phoebe did and she didn't say anything, she knew how it feel to leave someone you love with all your heart. She lost Cole so many times, then Prue and Tyler...She knew how it feels to throw up because your heart is aching too much...She knew all those things too well.
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The book was now over and Cole, Phoebe and Tyler had dinner. They had pizzas and they drunk some wine...
"Tyler, go brush you teeth and get changed into your Pj's baby." Cole said.
Tyler nodded and ran in his room.
"There is no business trip, right?" Phoebe asked.
"No, I had to lie to him, otherwise he would have say that he wanted to live with you and with me in the same time. I know this is not what you want, I know you don't want to share him with me and once again, I won't ask you to do that for me." He answered as he took the plates and put it in the sink.
"Don't worry, I'll be out of your lifes by tomorrow morning." He added with tears in his eyes. It was so hard not to break down now that he was totally human, it was easier when he was half a demon, or the source, there was no emotions.
Phoebe didn't know what to do, she wanted to be with him, to kiss him...But she was scared, scared to be hurt again but the man she loved...Scared to lose him again. Cole had been human once...Then he went back to evil...She didn't want this evil circle to start again...And her sisters will never accept the fact that Cole is back in her life...
"I saw you crying when you were reading the book." Phoebe said. She noticed that Cole was avoiding her stare since the begining of the dinner.
He didn't answered and kept cleaning the table.
She grabbed his arm and said: "Cole look at me."
"No." He replied, looking down.
"Why?" She asked.
"Because it hurts too much, don't you see?" He looked at her and she saw he was crying again.
"Phoebe, I love you, I never stopped loving you since the first day I saw you. Being around you kills me because my heart wants to kiss you and to hold you but my head knows it's wrong." He said as he walked away.
"Cole please..." She said.
"Please what Phoebe?" He said as he turned back towards her, he was almost angry.
"Please stop loving me? I can't, I tried so many times, the Source even tried to, I just can't." He said.
"I would have prefer to be dead right now, I wouldn't feel the pain I'm feeling right now." He added.
"And you know what the best thing is? Everything is my fault... I lost you and I'm losing Tyler because I'm just a evil bastard son of a bitch." He said.
"See, now, I'm just a human being with a broken heart who lost the two persons he loves the most on earth. This is so ironic." He laughed.
"Daddy, I'm ready." Tyler called from his room.
"I'm coming baby." Cole said.
He looked at Phoebe and said: "I have to go."
Phoebe nodded and when Cole started to walked towards Tyler's room she said: "Cole wait."
He stopped and looked at her. She walked towards him and wiped away his tears.
They locked eyes for a while and then she said: "Go now."
Cole nodded and walked in the room of his baby boy.
Tyler was in his bed, with his Teddy bear in his arms. Cole smiled and said: "Ready to sleep baby?"
Tyler nodded and said: "Ready!"
Cole smiled and sat down next to Tyler and he said: "Listen baby, I won't be here when you'll wake up tomorrow, I'll be on a plane for New-York, for my work. I want you to take all your stuffs here and move to Mommy's house, okay?"
Tyler shook his head no and tears were streaming down his face.
"Oh, honey..." Cole said as he took Tyler in his arms. Cole held his son tightly, not wanting to let him go...
"Don't leave me Daddy." Tyler said, sobbing. Cole bursted into tears.
Phoebe was watching them from the doorway, she was crying as well.
Cole kissed Tyler on the forehead and said: "Everything is going to be okay, you know your Mommy loves you, and I'll be back..."
"When?" Tyler asked.
"I don't know, probably for your birthday." Cole said.
"But my birthday is in ten months, it's too long." Tyler pleaded.
"I know, but you're a big boy." Cole said.
"Who is going to read my Harry Potter's books for me?" Tyler asked, trying to find something to make his Daddy stay with him.
"We have read all of them and if you want to read them again then I guess Mommy will be happy to read it for you." Cole said.
Tyler shrugged.
"Okay baby, time to sleep." Cole said.
Tyler was looking down and extremly sad, he laid down on his bed. Cole kissed him on the cheek and said: "I love you."
"Me too." Tyler said.
"Good night." Cole said.
"Good night." Tyler said, he was still sobbing.
Cole got up and walked out of the room. He ran in the bathroom and threw up. He thought that having an athame in the stomach was the most hurtful thing on earth, but it was nothing comparing to this...
He threw up again and Phoebe walked in the bathroom. She put her hand on his shoulder and he said: "Don't touch me, I'm okay."
He got up and walked over the sink to wash himself and put some water on his face.
He slowly sat down on the floor and hugged his knees, he was still crying.
Phoebe walked towards him and knelt down next to him and she hugged him. He didn't resist, he just let her hugged him.
"You should get some sleep." She whispered.
He shook his head no and said: "If I sleep the morning will come faster and I'll have to go."
He got up and help her up and said: "You're the one who needs to get some rest."
Cole took her hand and said: "Let's go." They both walked in Cole's room.
"I guess it's when I have to say goodbye." Cole said.
Phoebe looked down.
"Hey." He said.
"Don't be sad, it's for the best." Cole said.
She looked up at him. She had tears in her eyes. The way she was looking at him, he knew what it meant, she wanted him to kiss her.
Cole kissed her on the lips and put his hands on her cheeks, carressing her with his thumbs. They both were crying as their kiss become more passionate.
Cole suddenly pulled away and said: "We can't...it's not what you want...it's bad."
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