A/n: Inuyasha got knocked out by the foggy/gassy/cloudy thing remember? I
know I know, it was pretty dumb but how else was I supposed to get him out
of the picture so that I could get the Kag/Sess thing out? I was trying to
avoid creating a plot hole big enough to fit a cranky hanyou through okay?
Okay. Ergg, I need a venting place other than my Author's notes, but
unfortunately you either have to pay for journals or know the right people.
I know no one. [Hehe that sounded funny. But yeah.] Im anti-social cant
help it, always been like this. Since child hood. Okee dokee now done with
huge paragraph size Note, on with it. I guess.
Warning: Super duper Angsty- ness ahead. And wow I am updating quickly!
THANKS FOR REVIEWS, -*coughs after screaming all loud and stuff*- im glad one person didn't want me to delete. Thank you.
Tra la la, [can anyone else tell im stalling-cursed writer's block. GAHHH!]
Disclaimer: I think I have gone over this before, numerous times. No I do not own Inuyasha. K? Got it? Good.
Part 10- Her Betrayal
As the sun rose in the sky and the dew settled throughout the forest Sesshomaru and Kagome awoke, realizing what they had done. They said nothing as they dressed each other, actually being gentle trying not to break the silence that was slowly engulfing them. The demon lord watched his sudden lover curiously as she pulled his discarded armor and robes from the floor. Delicately separating each piece and then helping his slender frame shrug into them. He was at a loss for words, he wasn't sure what he was feeling, or what she was feeling. For maybe the first time in his life he was bewildered, confused by some human wench who was overly kind, insanely beautiful and who practically belonged to his brother.
Mindful of his claws Sesshomaru pulled Kagome's kimono tightly around her, brushing away stray strands of hair that threatened to obscure his view of her face. He hoped that the spell was now broken, but he couldn't be sure, at least for the moment it seemed most of its effects had finally worn off. Kagome looked into his face teary eyed. She was scared, waiting for him to react violently out of nowhere, waiting for Inuyasha to barge in and ruin this serene moment. . .
'Inuyasha, this is the first time I have thought about him. . . uh oh.'
Sesshomaru watched her as her eyes traveled over his thin face, she seemed to be memorizing his every feature. Committing it to memory for whatever reason, she wasn't sure. Some part of her knew, or at least thought that she would never seem looking this peaceful and caring ever again. After she walked out of this cave that would be it, things would return to normal, well at least for the most part. She wasn't sure if her sadness at losing him so suddenly were the effects of the spell or the effects of her own heart. It didn't matter; the part of her that he had healed was slowly breaking once more.
"You should bathe before you find Inuyasha. . . He will know . . ." Sesshomaru practically whispered as he watched her through his bangs.
The tears that had been threatening to spill forth did so, out of anger and sadness she clenched her hand into a fist and thrust it into the dirt. Suddenly she didn't care if Inuyasha knew, she didn't want to leave this place no matter what. She would be perfectly content just staying here forever with Sesshomaru just like they were now. Of course, the youkai lord misunderstood this as anger towards him or anger at their strange situation. He huffed turning away from her he stood, preparing to leave.
"Don't go yet, " she whispered, pleading with him, her eyes still downcast. Her tears made strange patterns in the dirt and as Sesshomaru turned to look at her once more he too felt like crying at the scene before him. But he didn't react the way she wanted.
"I have to. This can't continue. It has to end now. Spell or no spell, this will never happen again. This is over and you are nothing to me." He made his voice sound as hard as possible. There he had said it, he told her what he assumed she was waiting for. It actually hurt him to say such things to her, but it had to be done. She had to return to his worthless brother, his brother who was so undeserving of her, she could not be his, and he wasn't sure if he wanted her to be. 'She's human,' he reminded himself once more. 'Yes, but she is different. You want to keep her but you wont admit it.' Another part whispered at him from the dark recesses of his heart and mind. 'She wants to be yours, look at her. . .'
Kagome watched him, her anger rising for every second that his face remained cold, and unfeeling.
"No," he said aloud, not thinking, just wanting to shut up that voice in his head.
The young miko looked confused for a second at his slight outburst. "No?!"
"I must go," he said hastily, turning away from her again, he left her then, hoping it was forever as he exited the cave and ran away from the one person he wanted to love, but he couldn't let himself. He just couldn't, it was too complicated to think about. Besides it was pointless to do so, it would never work anyway.
*/
Kagome found Inuyasha moaning and groaning about his head underneath the tree he had fallen out of. She sighed, just looking at him exhausted her at times, but she did still love him even though he looked like an idiot fussing over himself like that. He rubbed his head, and cursed up a storm, barely noticing Kagome as she wandered up to him. He glanced over at her, noticing how strange and beautiful she looked with her hair still wet from bathing, and her white kimono sticking to her in places. Something was strange and different about her, but he wasn't exactly sure what.
"Are you alright Inuyasha?" She asked him as he slowly stopped grumbling to himself.
"Yeah I guess. Not that you care after nearly killing your friends and telling me to go away."
She sighed again, "Inuyasha. . ." She began in a slightly annoyed tone.
He flinched slightly, preparing to be 'sat'. When it didn't happen he peeked at her through his hair, noticing how she suddenly looked so sad, and wounded.
"Kagome. . .? What's the -"
Before he even had time to ask she was pushing herself against his chest trying to steal some of his warmth. "What're you . . . " he began again. "Sorry," he muttered instead, slowly wrapping his arms around her trembling frame. He hated it when women cried over nothing, well he wasn't sure what she was crying about, but he assumed it was something stupid. She always cried over little things.
She tried to push herself tighter against him and he held onto her as if his life depended on it. Her tears flowed like rivers from her eyes; suddenly she could no longer hold any of those tears in. Her mind was consumed by thought of her attack, of Inuyasha, Sesshomaru, again Inuyasha, then Sesshomaru once more. She was so confused, she loved Inuyasha, but suddenly she had feelings for his brother that had never surfaced before. 'It has to be the spell, but why am I still feeling this way?' How was she supposed to tell him about what happened without him hating her forever?
Inuyasha pressed his face into her hair, closing his eyes, taking in her scent.
His eyes shot open, something wasn't right here.
He pulled away from her slightly, looking deep into her eyes for the answer to the question that was now screaming and pounding its way through his brain. More tears flowed from her beautiful dark eyes as he examined her. Her lip quivered and she prayed that he would stop analyzing her. She knew he knew, she assumed at any moment he was going to throw her to the dirt and scream at her, maybe even hurt her. Inevitably leaving her behind forever this time, leaving her for Kikyo.
But he did none of these things. Instead he looked deep into her eyes, and sought out an answer that made her betrayal seem less painful on his heart. He switched it around so that it wasn't her treachery but his brothers. This would explain her tears, and the strange way in which she was behaving.
"What did he do to you, Kagome?"
She looked up at him horrified. He didn't honestly think that Sesshomaru. . . that he. . . raped her did he? Only for a brief moment did she actually contemplate lying to Inuyasha, telling him what he wanted to hear. But she pushed that thought away; she couldn't lie, not about Sesshomaru, not to her best friend either. She was unable to speak, so instead she shook her head from side to side. Inuyasha looked confused for a moment, and then once again taking her actions the wrong way he held her again. "Please Kagome. I am so sorry I didn't protect you, please tell me."
She pulled away from him slightly, looking up into his golden eyes. "Please understand Inuyasha," she sobbed pressing her face once more against his chest. "It was the spell, we couldn't stop. We had no choice. The spell it forced us . . ." Her tears stained the front of his kimono as she spoke through choked gasps and sobs. "Please, please, don't hate me. Please?"
Inuyasha said nothing as he stared off into the forest. In his mind he turned over and over what Kagome had just told him. It started out as a low hum but the volume of the words increased as the seconds passed. Soon that small sound turned into something so loud and sickening it had almost driven him insane. His right eye twitched slightly, and he began to involuntarily dig his claws into Kagome's arms, but he still held her tightly against him.
"Inuyasha. . . Inuyasha. . . Are you in there? Say something!" She pleaded, looking up into his angry face.
She didn't know what to do, and she didn't have it in her to 'sit' him. Reaching up slowly, she gently tugged on one of his ears, hoping that this at least would bring him around. She wondered what was going on inside that head of his, but she knew she would never know. He would never reveal that to her. She gasped and pulled her hand away quickly as she saw his head turn ever so eerily in her direction as he glared down at her. Hate, anger, and fire flashed in his amber eyes and all of a sudden Kagome was very afraid of him. For the first time ever she wanted to run away. Without warning he released her. She backed away carefully and slowly. He looked at her once more, and as his eyes bore into hers she saw what he was feeling.
Betrayal.
Betrayal. But who, who had betrayed him? Was it Kagome? If what she said was true then, it wasn't her fault or his brothers. It was a spell, a spell he assumed designed to rip him apart. Practically everyone in his time knew of his strong relationship with the girl from the future. Of course they had done all of this to aggravate him, to get under his skin, and it pissed him off. How dare they use Kagome like this?
He growled, and Kagome shuddered, more tears escaped her as she crumbled to the ground. Inuyasha watched her collapse but he didn't go to her, he couldn't. Instead he ran, he ran as fast as he could, faster than he had ever traveled before and escaped the awkward situation for a time.
His heart and head pounded in unison as he bolted along. 'Must find Sesshomaru, and kill him.'
Warning: Super duper Angsty- ness ahead. And wow I am updating quickly!
THANKS FOR REVIEWS, -*coughs after screaming all loud and stuff*- im glad one person didn't want me to delete. Thank you.
Tra la la, [can anyone else tell im stalling-cursed writer's block. GAHHH!]
Disclaimer: I think I have gone over this before, numerous times. No I do not own Inuyasha. K? Got it? Good.
Part 10- Her Betrayal
As the sun rose in the sky and the dew settled throughout the forest Sesshomaru and Kagome awoke, realizing what they had done. They said nothing as they dressed each other, actually being gentle trying not to break the silence that was slowly engulfing them. The demon lord watched his sudden lover curiously as she pulled his discarded armor and robes from the floor. Delicately separating each piece and then helping his slender frame shrug into them. He was at a loss for words, he wasn't sure what he was feeling, or what she was feeling. For maybe the first time in his life he was bewildered, confused by some human wench who was overly kind, insanely beautiful and who practically belonged to his brother.
Mindful of his claws Sesshomaru pulled Kagome's kimono tightly around her, brushing away stray strands of hair that threatened to obscure his view of her face. He hoped that the spell was now broken, but he couldn't be sure, at least for the moment it seemed most of its effects had finally worn off. Kagome looked into his face teary eyed. She was scared, waiting for him to react violently out of nowhere, waiting for Inuyasha to barge in and ruin this serene moment. . .
'Inuyasha, this is the first time I have thought about him. . . uh oh.'
Sesshomaru watched her as her eyes traveled over his thin face, she seemed to be memorizing his every feature. Committing it to memory for whatever reason, she wasn't sure. Some part of her knew, or at least thought that she would never seem looking this peaceful and caring ever again. After she walked out of this cave that would be it, things would return to normal, well at least for the most part. She wasn't sure if her sadness at losing him so suddenly were the effects of the spell or the effects of her own heart. It didn't matter; the part of her that he had healed was slowly breaking once more.
"You should bathe before you find Inuyasha. . . He will know . . ." Sesshomaru practically whispered as he watched her through his bangs.
The tears that had been threatening to spill forth did so, out of anger and sadness she clenched her hand into a fist and thrust it into the dirt. Suddenly she didn't care if Inuyasha knew, she didn't want to leave this place no matter what. She would be perfectly content just staying here forever with Sesshomaru just like they were now. Of course, the youkai lord misunderstood this as anger towards him or anger at their strange situation. He huffed turning away from her he stood, preparing to leave.
"Don't go yet, " she whispered, pleading with him, her eyes still downcast. Her tears made strange patterns in the dirt and as Sesshomaru turned to look at her once more he too felt like crying at the scene before him. But he didn't react the way she wanted.
"I have to. This can't continue. It has to end now. Spell or no spell, this will never happen again. This is over and you are nothing to me." He made his voice sound as hard as possible. There he had said it, he told her what he assumed she was waiting for. It actually hurt him to say such things to her, but it had to be done. She had to return to his worthless brother, his brother who was so undeserving of her, she could not be his, and he wasn't sure if he wanted her to be. 'She's human,' he reminded himself once more. 'Yes, but she is different. You want to keep her but you wont admit it.' Another part whispered at him from the dark recesses of his heart and mind. 'She wants to be yours, look at her. . .'
Kagome watched him, her anger rising for every second that his face remained cold, and unfeeling.
"No," he said aloud, not thinking, just wanting to shut up that voice in his head.
The young miko looked confused for a second at his slight outburst. "No?!"
"I must go," he said hastily, turning away from her again, he left her then, hoping it was forever as he exited the cave and ran away from the one person he wanted to love, but he couldn't let himself. He just couldn't, it was too complicated to think about. Besides it was pointless to do so, it would never work anyway.
*/
Kagome found Inuyasha moaning and groaning about his head underneath the tree he had fallen out of. She sighed, just looking at him exhausted her at times, but she did still love him even though he looked like an idiot fussing over himself like that. He rubbed his head, and cursed up a storm, barely noticing Kagome as she wandered up to him. He glanced over at her, noticing how strange and beautiful she looked with her hair still wet from bathing, and her white kimono sticking to her in places. Something was strange and different about her, but he wasn't exactly sure what.
"Are you alright Inuyasha?" She asked him as he slowly stopped grumbling to himself.
"Yeah I guess. Not that you care after nearly killing your friends and telling me to go away."
She sighed again, "Inuyasha. . ." She began in a slightly annoyed tone.
He flinched slightly, preparing to be 'sat'. When it didn't happen he peeked at her through his hair, noticing how she suddenly looked so sad, and wounded.
"Kagome. . .? What's the -"
Before he even had time to ask she was pushing herself against his chest trying to steal some of his warmth. "What're you . . . " he began again. "Sorry," he muttered instead, slowly wrapping his arms around her trembling frame. He hated it when women cried over nothing, well he wasn't sure what she was crying about, but he assumed it was something stupid. She always cried over little things.
She tried to push herself tighter against him and he held onto her as if his life depended on it. Her tears flowed like rivers from her eyes; suddenly she could no longer hold any of those tears in. Her mind was consumed by thought of her attack, of Inuyasha, Sesshomaru, again Inuyasha, then Sesshomaru once more. She was so confused, she loved Inuyasha, but suddenly she had feelings for his brother that had never surfaced before. 'It has to be the spell, but why am I still feeling this way?' How was she supposed to tell him about what happened without him hating her forever?
Inuyasha pressed his face into her hair, closing his eyes, taking in her scent.
His eyes shot open, something wasn't right here.
He pulled away from her slightly, looking deep into her eyes for the answer to the question that was now screaming and pounding its way through his brain. More tears flowed from her beautiful dark eyes as he examined her. Her lip quivered and she prayed that he would stop analyzing her. She knew he knew, she assumed at any moment he was going to throw her to the dirt and scream at her, maybe even hurt her. Inevitably leaving her behind forever this time, leaving her for Kikyo.
But he did none of these things. Instead he looked deep into her eyes, and sought out an answer that made her betrayal seem less painful on his heart. He switched it around so that it wasn't her treachery but his brothers. This would explain her tears, and the strange way in which she was behaving.
"What did he do to you, Kagome?"
She looked up at him horrified. He didn't honestly think that Sesshomaru. . . that he. . . raped her did he? Only for a brief moment did she actually contemplate lying to Inuyasha, telling him what he wanted to hear. But she pushed that thought away; she couldn't lie, not about Sesshomaru, not to her best friend either. She was unable to speak, so instead she shook her head from side to side. Inuyasha looked confused for a moment, and then once again taking her actions the wrong way he held her again. "Please Kagome. I am so sorry I didn't protect you, please tell me."
She pulled away from him slightly, looking up into his golden eyes. "Please understand Inuyasha," she sobbed pressing her face once more against his chest. "It was the spell, we couldn't stop. We had no choice. The spell it forced us . . ." Her tears stained the front of his kimono as she spoke through choked gasps and sobs. "Please, please, don't hate me. Please?"
Inuyasha said nothing as he stared off into the forest. In his mind he turned over and over what Kagome had just told him. It started out as a low hum but the volume of the words increased as the seconds passed. Soon that small sound turned into something so loud and sickening it had almost driven him insane. His right eye twitched slightly, and he began to involuntarily dig his claws into Kagome's arms, but he still held her tightly against him.
"Inuyasha. . . Inuyasha. . . Are you in there? Say something!" She pleaded, looking up into his angry face.
She didn't know what to do, and she didn't have it in her to 'sit' him. Reaching up slowly, she gently tugged on one of his ears, hoping that this at least would bring him around. She wondered what was going on inside that head of his, but she knew she would never know. He would never reveal that to her. She gasped and pulled her hand away quickly as she saw his head turn ever so eerily in her direction as he glared down at her. Hate, anger, and fire flashed in his amber eyes and all of a sudden Kagome was very afraid of him. For the first time ever she wanted to run away. Without warning he released her. She backed away carefully and slowly. He looked at her once more, and as his eyes bore into hers she saw what he was feeling.
Betrayal.
Betrayal. But who, who had betrayed him? Was it Kagome? If what she said was true then, it wasn't her fault or his brothers. It was a spell, a spell he assumed designed to rip him apart. Practically everyone in his time knew of his strong relationship with the girl from the future. Of course they had done all of this to aggravate him, to get under his skin, and it pissed him off. How dare they use Kagome like this?
He growled, and Kagome shuddered, more tears escaped her as she crumbled to the ground. Inuyasha watched her collapse but he didn't go to her, he couldn't. Instead he ran, he ran as fast as he could, faster than he had ever traveled before and escaped the awkward situation for a time.
His heart and head pounded in unison as he bolted along. 'Must find Sesshomaru, and kill him.'