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VI The accident and the vengeance

Lena spent another sleepless night sitting on the windowsill. Oliver came home very late, very drunk and smelling distantly of strong perfume – he didn't even notice that Lena wasn't in the bed. Somehow Lena thought it was a relief that Oliver treated her so badly; after all, she didn't want to carry on their marriage and now she had some proper reasons to claim a divorce.

Next morning was rainy and seemed to be reflecting her mood. She had been thinking of Remus all night and the more she thought about it, the more convinced she became that Remus could never forgive her. She went to her work, tired and irritated. Luckily, the cold and rainy weather meant less customers in the Ice-Cream Parlour and she didn't have to deal with all the people who couldn't decide what they wanted. Or people with cranky children.

At noon came her friend Arabetta. She looked really angry and worried about something. She was breathing hard as though she had been running. "Lena? I need to have a word with you. It's about Oliver." Lena invited her to the staff room and offered her some coffee. She was quite sure she knew what was coming. And she wasn't wrong.

"Listen, Lena. I know this must be a shock for you and believe me, it really was a shock for me, but… I thought you ought to know. I came here in the minute I find out about them. It's horrible, the girl is so young, she can't be a day older than twenty!" Lena tapped Arabetta's hand and tried to calm her down. "Breathe, Arabetta. What are you trying to say?"

Arabetta took a deep breath and said in an undertone: "I saw him… saw him kissing that Clearwater girl. The shop assistant, you know, Penelope Clearwater. I can't understand how he dares – in the broad daylight! But how are you, my dear? This must be awful to you!" Arabetta looked at Lena eyes full of worry. Lena sighed. "No, actually it isn't. I knew he had something going on with someone, so it's really a relief he finally got caught."

She frowned slightly. "Who was it again? Penelope Clearwater? Is she the one with short, blond hair?" Arabetta shook her head. "No, she's the one with long, curly hair. She is actually quite pretty" she continued thoughtfully, looking then really horrified. "Sorry, I didn't mean it that way, of course she's nothing compared to you, really, I don't understand what Oliver sees in her!" Lena laughed. "Don't worry, I'm okay. I think I'd better get back to work, Florean is going to sack me if I "don't fulfil the requirements", like he has said." Arabetta rose quickly and hurried out of the room. "Yeah, that's true I'm sorry I'm still here, don't be mad at me, please? Are you sure you'll be fine?" Lena nodded. "Positive. And hey, I won't be mad at you!"

Lena walked slowly to the counter. So this was it. End of their marriage. Lena thought back in her life and couldn't remember when she would have been happy with Oliver. At first their relationship had only been a vengeance to Remus. Then being with Oliver had become an easy way to protect her from cracking under the pressure of pain and dark thoughts. Oliver had fallen desperately in love with her and suddenly she had found herself married to him. She had never been truly unhappy with him, but there had always been something missing.

With Remus it had all been so perfect – but it had only lasted for three weeks. Three weeks they had been happily together and then had come the full moon. Lena hadn't told Remus the fact that she knew his secret or that she was an Animagus. So, when the full moon had come, Remus had disappeared telling that he had to go and visit his aunt who had suddenly got ill.

Lena had gone to the grounds as a fox that night, intending only to watch the three guys run with the werewolf. It had been a starless night but moon had been shining brightly in the dark sky. Lena remembered the feeling of being left alone – there was his boyfriend and three other friends, sharing the same secret and having great time together and she was bound to hide in the bushes, watching it all with envy.

Then something unexpected had happened; a herd of centaurs had come to the wood square they were in. Confusion and fear had spread between the three guys because Remus had started to move restlessly. Lena could still remember the unasked questions in the air: How would the werewolf react to the centaurs? A werewolf isn't danger to animals but the centaurs were half-human…

Sirius and James had decided to lead the centaurs away from the werewolf. It hadn't been too easy because the centaurs were thinking creatures and because of the werewolf Sirius and James couldn't transform into humans to explain themselves. At last they had managed to get the centaurs follow themselves and roamed deeper to the forest.

Lena had seen Remus in the square, left alone with frightened Peter Pettigrew that had transformed into a rat. She had seen her chance to meet the werewolf, to finally show them her true form. She had carefully approached Remus and at first everything had gone very well. The werewolf had been mildly interested in the small fox and they had been staring at each other for some time.

Then Lena had made her worse mistake ever. She still felt physical pain when she only remembered her own stupidity. She had thrown away all the precaution and transformed into human. Remus had become a furious beast the very moment he had seen her flaming red hair and her green, hypnotizing eyes. With no time at all he had clutched her hand and sunk his sharp teeth in her neck. She remembered the horrible pain she had felt. She had been so sure she was going to die.

Suddenly Remus had released his grip and she had fallen to the ground. James had become to her help by kicking the werewolf into his chest. The silent night had suddenly   been full of noise: Sirius's barks, Peter's squeaks and Remus's growls. She had almost passed out because of the pain but had managed to transform into the fox to stop Remus attacking her again. And even after all these years she remembered the expression on Remus's face when he had understood what he had done. She could still see the ultimate, breaking pain in his eyes. Wolf's eyes. She didn't know for sure what had happened next but she remembered distantly being carried to the castle by James.

Lena had been told later that she had been unconscious for three days and no one had known if she would ever wake up again. When she had woken up, everyone had been very relieved but their worries had not been over yet. The bite of a werewolf always meant that the victim would also become a werewolf, but Lena still hadn't had the symptoms that usually came right after the bite. No one knew for sure what had happened when she had transformed into a fox right after the bite. Maybe it had been the blood of the fox that saved her or maybe something else had happened, but when the moon came full again she didn't transform into a werewolf.

Lena had had to spend five weeks in the hospital wing before Madam Pomfrey allowed her to leave. Remus had never come to see her during her time in the hospital wing. Lena had met James once when he had come to visit her with Lily but he had refused to talk about the accident or Remus. He had seemed a bit angry and she had seen the question "Why?" in his eyes.

She still couldn't understand why she had done it. It had seemed to be such a good idea when she had done it, but it had ruined everything. Remus had accused himself of what had happened. Lena knew that it had been her, and only her fault but Remus still seemed to forbid that fact.

Every day, she had been waiting for Remus to come and kiss all the pain away. He had never come. Lena had become bitter and angry – hadn't it been her who had had to spend five weeks lying in bed? Hadn't it been her who had had to suffer incredulous pains because of the cuts in her neck? Hadn't it been her who had almost become werewolf? She had completely forgotten the fact that none of those things would have happened if she had remained in the bushes that fatal night. 

She had wanted to revenge on Remus. He had seemed to have totally forgotten her so she had decided to forget him as well. Oliver Prewett had asked her out couple of times before she had started dating Remus and now she had accepted Oliver's invitation. They had started dating and Lena never spoke to Remus again. She had suffered internally but her haughtiness had made her blind – she had refused to accept the fact that it had been her fault and that it should have been her duty to go and apologize Remus.

"It must've been a nightmare to him" she said quietly to the lemonade machine. But maybe it wasn't too late to apologize. Maybe everything could be repaired. It needed time, yes, but it was worth trying. She smiled to the water can. "I will make it better. I know that I can."

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