I am alone. I was always alone. Despite being in the presence of so many others,

now and at any other given time, my soul was always apart, lonely.

My soul…hah…what a joke.

Having a soul seems like such a given thing to you, doesn't it? You don't live

every moment wondering when it will fade away, leaving you as an empty husk, devoid

of life.

To "stop" as the black mages call it. Appropriate.

But you…you've never had to worry about that, have you? Your soul has

become fixed within you, always guaranteed to be there. I envy you for that. You are

destined to live a long and happy life, without worry or care. You will age, you will

grow, and someday you will die. Your death shall be as natural as any other.

I want to die some day, instead of stopping as I will soon.

It is impossible for you to understand. You were not created to be replaced, to be

destroyed once you were no longer needed. I was but a test, expendable when all was

said and done. I was merely a precedent for the finished product to come. I am

imperfect, preprogrammed to stop once the final creation had fully matured.

So what do you think?

Have you matured yet?

I do not wish to endure this fate. I have promised myself that I will not fade until

everything has faded with me. Can you truly blame me for not wanting to be alone?

So now you come to stop me. I can see anger on your face, hatred etched in your

soul. I know you can not understand me, will not forgive me. I do not blame you. I have

tried to take away everything that you love. You've never been alone, you would not

understand how it feels. Your life has been so full, so complete, so…

Happy…

I hate you.

I love you.

You are my enemy.

You are my brother.

You are everything I despise.

You are everything I want to be.

You are my past, present and future.

Forgive me, Zidane.

I know that I will die soon. I want it to be you to send me to my death. My brother, do

not allow me to fade into obscurity. Let me be remembered, let me live in the minds of

all generations.

And most of all…

Let me join the souls of Gaia…

So I'll never be alone again.