Author's Note: Hey all! Sorry it took me a while to update again. Big thank you`s to everyone who has reviewed so far! It really does mean a  lot to me. Just as a small head's up, I'm going to be out of town for a week in March (the 15th through the 21st… I think *grins*) Ummm…yesh. I think that's all… just a great big thank you to my beta, Aerith! These things would be much more unbearable if it weren't for you! *grins* I hope the chapter is good and please everyone review!

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November 22nd

After I woke up, the world was a blur to me. Everything made me hurt; the light gave me a headache, noise made me sick, standing made me dizzy.

The phone rang once and I thought my ears were going to explode. Is this what X was supposed to do to you? I wish I didn't need to know. I wish I had never gone to that damn party.

I wish Trunks wasn't being the perfect boyfriend…especially since he wasn't mine. I swear, that boy is odd. He was acting as if I could drop dead at any moment.

"Trunks… " I mumbled at him as he was walking into the kitchen. "You're making me dizzy from watching you… Come sit with me and keep me company."

He raised an eyebrow but did as I had asked him. Trunks plopped down next to me on the couch and put my legs across him so I could still lie down.

Then we got to talking. We talked about damn near everything; school, weather, clothes, jobs, Damien…

"I gotta ask you, Marron. Why did you waste your time with that creep?" He was looking into my eyes and I don't think I could have lied to him if my life depended on it.

"Because he gave me what I thought I needed." Trunks raised an eyebrow and I decided to clarify myself. "Well, it started out that he was just there when I 'needed' someone to hold on to me. Then I found out that he smoked too and he could give me the weed
that I 'needed'." There was no point in holding back now. "I guess he was just a boyfriend… or whatever you want to call him… because of convenience."

"Mm-hmmm." He was looking into his lap and I could tell that he had a question on his mind that he was scared to ask. He looked up and I caught his eyes. "You'll probably slap me for this… but did… did you guys have sex?"

Am I good or what?

"Yeah. We had sex." What can I say? I'm blunt. "He wasn't my first though, if that's whatcha wanna know."

"How many guys have you been with?"

Ok, I am not a tramp, but I've slept with a few people. Moreover, I planned to keep the 'I'm not a tramp part clear'. "I slept with three people total… but one of them doesn't count." I had to look down before I went on because the shame overwhelmed me. "I was raped when I was thirteen."

I heard him catch his breath. "By who?"

I looked back up at him. "Jason. Jason Torte."

A wave of anger quickly swept over his face. "He was my friend… my best friend."

"I know… but after you left, there was no one who would hold him back. No one knew but me... and then Uub and Pan because they were the only ones I trusted. They talked me into getting put on birth control." It didn't sound like something Marron Chestnut
would say. "I've been on birth control now for about three years."

I sat up and stared ahead with, no doubt, a blank look. I could remember all the things I had just talked about.

I had pushed them out of my mind and pretended they had never happened, but now they were there again… but now they didn't hurt as bad.

"This isn't how I saw my life when I was still growing up. None of this was supposed to happen. I was supposed to fall in love and have a perfect little kid that looked like me and my beautiful husband and we were just supposed to be happy." I felt tears
forming in my eyes and wiped them away.

I'm sure Trunks didn't know, but I had just told him my fantasy of his life joined with mine from when we were much younger. Of course, I left out the pieces where my child had lavender hair and my eyes and the last name . But he didn't need to know
that; it would probably never happen; especially now.

I looked over at him and he was thinking; I could tell. "How many girls have you been with… " Enough about me for while.

He looked up, shocked, I think. "Five."

"Did you love them?" I know, I pry way too much, but I couldn't help it.

He opened his mouth and then closed it before thinking of what to say. "No. I didn't. It was all fun."

I nodded before returning to my own thoughts. I looked at the clock and to my amazement, the day was almost over; it was 8:27pm.

I looked at him and almost felt bad about the question; he looked almost guilty. I'm not sure if it was the effects of the drug, but he looked really good. His hair was sticking out in odd positions and his eyes were larger than normal.

I laid down again, this time; I let my head rest in his lap. I closed my eyes and I could feel him running his soft fingers through my hair.

The phone rang and he gently lifted my head so he could answer it. I heard him say something along the lines of 'Yeah, she's doing better? `real tired.'

I looked up in time to see him hang the phone up. I'm guessing it was either Panny or Uub.

He smirked down at me with my raised eyebrows. "Goten. I called him while you were sleeping this morning. He sends his love and demands that you come out to visit us sometime soon."

I smiled. I miss my friends. Namely Trunks and Goten. Geez, we were the ultimate trio; then we made friends with Pan and Uub and Bura joined and we were the all time trouble-causers. Good times.

I moved my legs up to my body and Trunks sat down next to me. He looked at and smiled lightly with a look in his eyes that I had never seen before. It was as if he needed something.

I couldn't take it anymore. I sat up and we caught each other's lips. I let his tongue explore my mouth as I pulled him down on top of me and let him take a hold of me.



I may be a lot of things, but crude is not one of them… well, not right now at least. Lets just keep it clean: me and Trunks made love and lets just say it was the most love I have ever felt.

Maybe things will turn around for me now?


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A/N: Ok, that`s all for now. I hope I didn't make anyone upset with all that! Please review and tell me what you thought! Thanks again and I`ll try to update within a week if I can! *grins*… but you know me!

Asanra