Chapter twelve - Different emotions

Harry's POV

Ginny and I walked down the corridor hand in hand. I've had many moments which were the best of my life, overruling all of the bad ones and this was surely a great moment. After all that worrying and fretting about whether Ginny likes me and she does!

When we kissed, I felt things I'd never felt before. Ginny makes me feel so alive and amazing by just being near to her. I looked next to me and stared lovingly at her. She is so perfect. Her hazel eyes are so deep and beautiful and the way her wonderful crimson hair cascades lightly on her shoulders is astounding.

Ginny looked back me and I felt myself blushing slightly. She smiled gently at me and moved closer to me. I felt like I could walk with her all night but then we arrived at the portrait of the fat lady. We said the password and entered through the portrait hole. The common room was deserted so I guess that means that everyone has gone to bed.

We stood in silence for a little while until Ginny spoke. "Well, I'm going to go to bed now, night". Then I felt her soft lips against my own and all of those feelings came rushing back to me. "Night" I replied when we parted lips.

Ginny went up her staircase and I went up mine. I stopped at my dorm room door and looked at Ron and Hermione's. I wonder how their evening was…

Hermione's POV

I awoke the next morning and wondered why I felt so guilty. Then I remembered. I know I should feel happy now that me and Seamus are officially going out together now but I still feel awkward about what happened with Ron.

I sat up in bed and looked over at Ron. He was still sleeping soundly with his chest rising and falling gently. I stood up and went to his bed. He looks so peaceful in his sleep. With a shaking hand, I gently touched his hair and let my hand rest on his cheek. I stayed like that for what seemed like a century until I heard a knock on the door. Ron shot up and climbed out of bed and we both went to answer the door.

"Hello, Harry" I said, noticing who it was. "Hi, ready for breakfast?" Harry asked. I looked down at myself still wearing my pyjamas. "Obviously not" Harry said with a smirk. "We'll meet you at breakfast mate" Ron said in a croaky voice. "Ok, see you" Harry replied, closing the door.

Ron and I got washed and dressed and made our way to breakfast. Ron seemed to be avoiding eye contact with me, which was understandable. We saw Harry and Ginny and I noticed that their hands parted when they saw us. I looked over at Ron but he didn't seem to have noticed, he looked as though he was in a world of his own.

"Hiya" Ginny said to us both as we both took a seat next to each other. "Hi" I said brightly and Ron said it in a toneless voice. I started to butter my toast and saw Harry give Ron a concerned look. "Aren't you going to eat anything?" he asked.

Ron shook his head and replied, looking at his lap. "Not hungry". Harry probably thought it was best not to ask and continued eating his breakfast. "Hello!" said a voice cheerfully. I looked up and saw Seamus beaming at us. "Hi" I replied, smiling and blushing.

"Let's go to Herbology" Ron said suddenly, standing up. "Oh I-" I began but I was already pulled to my feet. "I'll see you there in a bit" said Harry. I nodded at him and was about to say bye to Seamus until I was dragged away by Ron.  

"Why did you do that?" I asked. Ron said nothing and carried on walking. "Please answer me, Ron" I tried again. He still was silent. I began to ask again but finally got a reply. "Don't" he said sternly but there was a quaver in his voice as though he was trying to control something.

We were silent the whole way to Herbology. I spoke again when Harry arrived but kept quiet for the rest of the lesson, surprising quite a few people. My insides felt all twisted and it made me feel a little sick. Why did I feel this bad? Ron asked me to choose so I did and I chose the person I wanted to. Why is that so hard to understand? I think me and Seamus will be quite happy together but if Ron doesn't like that, then that's his problem, not mine.

The rest of the day went by slowly. It was very strange barely answering in lessons but I didn't feel up to it today. Several teachers asked if I was ok but I just muttered that I was fine and just having an 'off day'. Harry seems to be aware that something is going on but he looks as though he has his own thoughts at the moment.

Ginny's POV

Finally my lessons are over! But I don't have anywhere to go and seem to be just wandering the corridors not going in any particular direction, but I don't care because I'm in love heaven! I don't think I've ever been this happy, it's quite hard to describe my emotions at the moment but let me just say, they're great!

Maybe I should go back to the common room and try and find Ron and Hermione. They seem a little distracted today but I can't figure out what's wrong. Suddenly, a hand appeared from no where and I was dragged into a broom cupboard.

I couldn't see anything and became quite frightened. I heard a voice mutter: 'Lumos' and a little light appeared so I could see properly. I saw Harry's face smiling at me in the wand light. I smiled back at him as he pulled me closer and our lips locked again.

After a while of more of this, we emerged from the cupboard slightly flustered. We linked arms and walked up the corridor together to the common room. "Ah, that was nice" I said cheerfully. "Yeah, aren't you glad I dragged you in there now?" Harry asked with a grin. "Of course. Harry, there's something I want to ask you about" I said.

"Sure, what is it?" Harry asked. "Well, do you think we should tell people about us? Like Ron and Hermione?" I said, wondering what he'd say. "Yeah, that seems like a good idea, no point hiding it" Harry replied, kissing me softly on the lips.

"We'd better tell Ron first though otherwise he'll be annoyed, you know what he's like" I said. "Yeah, good idea" Harry replied. At this point, we arrived at the portrait of the fat lady. We entered through the hole and my eyes scanned the common room.

I saw Ron and Hermione sitting next to each other on chairs. Hermione was reading a book and Ron was staring blankly at a piece of paper in his hands. We walked towards them, taking a deep breath and was about to say something until… we noticed Ron's expression.

His face showed a mixture of different emotions but it was plain to see he was deeply hurt and upset. His blue eyes were red as though he'd been crying and it seemed as though he hadn't smiled all day. I looked over at Harry who wore the same concerned expression as I did.

We walked forward and our hands parted. I think we both mentally agreed that now was not a good time to tell him. "You ok Ron?" Harry asked. Ron looked up at us with his troubled expression. He said nothing and merely handed Harry the piece of paper he'd been staring at.

Ron's POV

I gave Harry the note explaining everything about Hermione and Seamus. He gave it to Ginny to read and once she had, she looked at me with deep concern. "I'm so sorry" Harry mouthed. When Hermione wasn't looking, Ginny gave me a quick hug.

Half an hour later, the four of us made our way to the Great Hall for dinner. I was feeling slightly more cheerful thanks to Harry and Ginny but I wasn't sure how long it would last. When we entered the Great Hall, I noticed with disgust that Seamus was there.

He walked over to Hermione, ignored me and gave her a passionate kiss right in front of me. Quite a few people turned around to have a look and were quite stunned. I heard Parvati whisper to Lavender: "I always thought that Ron and Hermione would get together".

My good mood was thwarted and I felt a huge wave of jealousy. I felt like punching Seamus again but I knew it would cause a scene and I didn't want that.

When their lips parted, Seamus gave me a disgusting smirk. Harry noticed it as well and stared daggers at Seamus, Hermione didn't seem to notice. We went to our table and ate and I sat there for the second time watching Hermione and Seamus all over each other.

Harry and Ginny looked disgusted and kept giving me sympathetic glances. I wish they wouldn't though, it's nice of them and everything but it makes me feel pathetic and that I need pity. Finally, Hermione had finished eating (I actually ate this time) and we got up to leave.

When we got to the door, I saw someone I really didn't want to talk to, Malfoy. "So Mudblood, you've got yourself a boyfriend. But Seriously, Finnigan? That's just vile. Even Weasley here would have been a little better, seeing as he's a pure blood. Even if he's not a very good one" Malfoy sneered, looking at me with his grey eyes lit with a malicious delight.

Malfoy looked at me as though he was searching for something written across my face. "Well, well. It seems that Weasley thinks he would have been better with Granger too. Is ickle Ronnie jealous?" Malfoy mocked. Crabbe and Goyle laughed hysterically which was quite alarming.

Malfoy looked at them and raised his eyebrows and they stopped. Everyone looked at me expectantly as though they thought I'd punch Malfoy, or worse. I looked at Hermione who seemed concerned and I did something which surprised even me, I walked away without so much as trying to harm Malfoy.

I just couldn't do it. I didn't feel enough anger in me to and besides, he was right. What would be the point in doing something to him if for once in his existence, he knew the truth. Hermione was dragged along with me as I walked away but she stopped me at the top of the stairs, the very same place I saw her and Seamus kissing.

"Ron, are you ok?" she asked timidly. "Yeah, I'm fine. Don't worry about it" I lied. "Good. Let's go to the common room" Hermione replied. But I couldn't move. I just stood there staring at the floor with tears starting to form in my eyes. "Are you sure you're ok?" Hermione asked worriedly. I looked up at her. "Yeah" I said. "Just great".

But truthfully I don't feel great, I don't feel great at all.

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