I can't help but wonder why you cry at night, then act like everything is
okay. Quietly I slip inside your room, there you are thrashing about, your
also crying. Why so many tears? Is it because of me? Are you crying
because you don't know who I am? I assure you, you would cry harder if you
ever learned the truth.
I sit on your bed trying to clam you, oh so slowly your tears subside, I can hear your steady breathing, so I run my hand through your hair. "It's okay, Oniisan is hear." I say quietly, glade you are asleep.
The next morning you act like you hadn't had a bad dream or a nightmare. But I watch you closely I know your hiding something. I can't help but wonder what the dream was about. I will ask you but first I have to find you.
You aren't in your room. But I can smell something, what was that? Was it - blood? That is what I can smell is blood. I decided to follow the scent, what is a knife doing under your pillow? I decide I'll ask but leave that there. Then I begin to think if you had one knife you probably have more. I search your room. I find more, there is one under your bed, and a dagger in your drawer. I can't find anymore. But I'm curious. Where could you be though, you aren't at the temple.
I leave through your window. After a while of jumping form tree to tree I find you watching some dogs. You leave looking disgusted. I can't help but wonder what is wrong. Finally I ask what your doing out so late. "I just felt like a late night walk." You answer happily, but I can see the sadness in your eyes. I decide it best to walk you home.
I couldn't stand the silence any longer so I ask you, Why? Why the knife under your pillow. You break eye contact and refuse to look at me, I can only look on with concern. You wrap your arms around your waist in silent- self-protection, "It doesn't matter, I just got frightened when I heard a noise one night. I put it there for protection."
I look at you and think, didn't you know Genki and I would protect you no matter what, what are you playing at? I tell you what I'm thinking that we would protect you, that you shouldn't worry. A weak smile crosses your lips at my words but you look kind of scared. You walk into the temple slowly, then to your room. I follow silently trying hard to understand what is wrong.
You walk over to the window that I had left open in my haste, you just sit there and stair out at the rain, the wind blows your hair, I smile softly to myself; but I frown when I hear a tear gem hit the floor. Without thinking I crosses the room and pull you into a soft embrace, slowly your tears subside. I try to pull away but you keep hold of me, "What is wrong Yukina?" I ask softly.
You reach up to brush the hair the wind had blown back behind your ear, but your sleeve falls. No I know for sure. You have been hurting your self. But why? "Why did you cut yourself?" My voice was harsher then I had intended. You don't answer, the ground seems to have come to your attention. I narrow my eyes and suppress a growl. "Fine," I said showing no emotion. "I don't think you'll be needing this then." I take the knife from under your pillow and hug you softly. I bid you good night, I hear your soft reply, "Yes, good night oniisan." I pause at the door, how did you know? But I leave it at that as you have fallen asleep; I'll talk to you tomorrow. I leave the room and lean up against the door.
I hear you get out of bed, quietly I open the door. You are looking in your drawer for your dagger. "I told you I'd protect you." I say simply. Your reply is so soft that if I wasn't a demon I would not have heard it. I never realized how alone your really felt until now.
"You have never given me a reason not to want to protect you." I reply. I reach out with my Jagan, listening as your thoughts wander to why I shouldn't love and protect you. Of course I love you, I didn't to say my thoughts out loud, but after wards I'm glade I did. You smile, it was a really smile, you smiled strait down to your could, I could see it in your eyes.
"I love you to Hiei." We embrace once more and I tuck you in. I walk to the door then without thinking turn around before I turn off the light, just to have one last look at you. I smile at you, a true smile something I hadn't done for a long time. Now and days all I did was smirk. "Good night Yukina." I say softly before turning off the light then speaking through the darkness I speak again, "Sleep now and we will talk about it in the morning."
I leave the room and go to mine next door, tomorrow, I will devote all my time to you. You wont feel sad or along. Maybe we will train a little together for once, instead of you just watching me in silence. But no matter what tomorrow you wont be fighting you fears, you past, your memory's, or even the secrets you have by yourself. I will be by yourself to protect you, from everything that could ever bring you harm, including yourself.
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SSW: Well I was thinking, and I realized that this is called Koorime's Thoughts. Which means that I can put Hiei's thoughts about the situation with his sister in. Well I just thought you would be interested. TTFN! Tah Tah For Now!
I sit on your bed trying to clam you, oh so slowly your tears subside, I can hear your steady breathing, so I run my hand through your hair. "It's okay, Oniisan is hear." I say quietly, glade you are asleep.
The next morning you act like you hadn't had a bad dream or a nightmare. But I watch you closely I know your hiding something. I can't help but wonder what the dream was about. I will ask you but first I have to find you.
You aren't in your room. But I can smell something, what was that? Was it - blood? That is what I can smell is blood. I decided to follow the scent, what is a knife doing under your pillow? I decide I'll ask but leave that there. Then I begin to think if you had one knife you probably have more. I search your room. I find more, there is one under your bed, and a dagger in your drawer. I can't find anymore. But I'm curious. Where could you be though, you aren't at the temple.
I leave through your window. After a while of jumping form tree to tree I find you watching some dogs. You leave looking disgusted. I can't help but wonder what is wrong. Finally I ask what your doing out so late. "I just felt like a late night walk." You answer happily, but I can see the sadness in your eyes. I decide it best to walk you home.
I couldn't stand the silence any longer so I ask you, Why? Why the knife under your pillow. You break eye contact and refuse to look at me, I can only look on with concern. You wrap your arms around your waist in silent- self-protection, "It doesn't matter, I just got frightened when I heard a noise one night. I put it there for protection."
I look at you and think, didn't you know Genki and I would protect you no matter what, what are you playing at? I tell you what I'm thinking that we would protect you, that you shouldn't worry. A weak smile crosses your lips at my words but you look kind of scared. You walk into the temple slowly, then to your room. I follow silently trying hard to understand what is wrong.
You walk over to the window that I had left open in my haste, you just sit there and stair out at the rain, the wind blows your hair, I smile softly to myself; but I frown when I hear a tear gem hit the floor. Without thinking I crosses the room and pull you into a soft embrace, slowly your tears subside. I try to pull away but you keep hold of me, "What is wrong Yukina?" I ask softly.
You reach up to brush the hair the wind had blown back behind your ear, but your sleeve falls. No I know for sure. You have been hurting your self. But why? "Why did you cut yourself?" My voice was harsher then I had intended. You don't answer, the ground seems to have come to your attention. I narrow my eyes and suppress a growl. "Fine," I said showing no emotion. "I don't think you'll be needing this then." I take the knife from under your pillow and hug you softly. I bid you good night, I hear your soft reply, "Yes, good night oniisan." I pause at the door, how did you know? But I leave it at that as you have fallen asleep; I'll talk to you tomorrow. I leave the room and lean up against the door.
I hear you get out of bed, quietly I open the door. You are looking in your drawer for your dagger. "I told you I'd protect you." I say simply. Your reply is so soft that if I wasn't a demon I would not have heard it. I never realized how alone your really felt until now.
"You have never given me a reason not to want to protect you." I reply. I reach out with my Jagan, listening as your thoughts wander to why I shouldn't love and protect you. Of course I love you, I didn't to say my thoughts out loud, but after wards I'm glade I did. You smile, it was a really smile, you smiled strait down to your could, I could see it in your eyes.
"I love you to Hiei." We embrace once more and I tuck you in. I walk to the door then without thinking turn around before I turn off the light, just to have one last look at you. I smile at you, a true smile something I hadn't done for a long time. Now and days all I did was smirk. "Good night Yukina." I say softly before turning off the light then speaking through the darkness I speak again, "Sleep now and we will talk about it in the morning."
I leave the room and go to mine next door, tomorrow, I will devote all my time to you. You wont feel sad or along. Maybe we will train a little together for once, instead of you just watching me in silence. But no matter what tomorrow you wont be fighting you fears, you past, your memory's, or even the secrets you have by yourself. I will be by yourself to protect you, from everything that could ever bring you harm, including yourself.
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SSW: Well I was thinking, and I realized that this is called Koorime's Thoughts. Which means that I can put Hiei's thoughts about the situation with his sister in. Well I just thought you would be interested. TTFN! Tah Tah For Now!