AN: This is just a back ground story. In Heaven's Ghost, I mention that Narcissa died and Lucius forgets his son…so I decided to dwell on it and here it is. And as Lucius is my all time fav character, I wanted him to have some sympathy. Also, I own none of this (tho I would LOVE to own Lucius) only a VERY demented mind. So, enjoy!
Prologue
I stare at the wall, the silence disturbing. Strange…I never found silence disturbing in my manor…but now…I shake myself from those thoughts. Silence. I used to think silence was a gift, but now it haunts me like a curse.
A curse that I myself performed on people all the time. They went silent after the initial scream, so why can't I? I don't know, I honestly don't. I don't know why he did it, I was loyal to him. I was his most loyal Death Eater…why did he do this to me?
The silence is broken only by the sounds of my tears hitting the ebony floor. My tears…I have not cried in a very long time…but the silence is heavy now. I wish it would end. I want noise. Screams, crackers, thousands of bees I don't care, just something to drive away the silence.
I never wished it to happen. Never. I wanted to live my life as a follower to him, but with my family. Now…no, I mustn't think like that.
Draco? Where is Draco? I can't find him…Oh no…please…not him too…I…I just want to live, with them…but he took that away…
Draco? Where are you? Why can't I see you? Draco? Narcissa? Dobby? Anyone? Master, why? Why did you do this to me? Why me, I was loyal, wasn't I?
I was faithful, I wanted you to win…but you didn't believe me…why did you do it? I only wanted to live…
Was it because I never looked for you? How could I have known? I never wanted you to die…that damn Potter boy…I only wished for you to take the magical and muggle world, for you to rule.
No…I didn't. I wanted you to die. Do you hear me Voldemort! I WANTED YOU TO DIE!!! WITH YOU GONE, I COULD LIVE MY LIFE!!!
YOU DESTROYED THAT!!!! YOU DESTROYED EVERYTHING!!! YOU'RE A HEARTLESS MUGGLE-BORN BASTARD!!
DO YOU HEAR ME?!?!? DO YOU!!?? I HOPE YOU DIE YOU SON OF A BITCH!! YOU DESERVE IT!!!
Silence…why is there always silence…Narcissa…Draco…Severus…I'm sorry…I'm so sorry…
AN: So, what do you all think? Sorry its so short.