Bron's eyes quickly darted around the room desperately scanning all the
smiling faces searching for someone to talk to. She had just arrived at a
farewell party for a colleague of Ben's but he was nowhere to be found.
'Alone again', she thought to herself, realising she had no one to talk to.
Bron seated herself at a nearby table, ordered a drink and waited. With a
few drinks under her belt and still no sign of Ben she started to grow
impatient. Ben had promised he would be there.
Bron had told him it was a bad idea for her to go, she just knew this would happen. But oh no, as usual Bron caved in wanting to make Ben happy. So here she was, sitting at a party she didn't want to go to in the first place, all alone "and slightly tipsy" she giggled to herself. She looked around taking in the atmosphere. Everyone was so happy, talking and laughing with each other. Not taking the time to come say hi or in the newer members case..get to know her. Bron grinned and started to wave at Kath who seemed to be making her way over. "Hi Kath, how's things?" she asked. Kath walked straight past her not even acknowledging Bron's existence. This made her blood boil. Sure she had given up being an ambo to go back to nursing but that was no reason for her supposed 'friends' to ignore her. "Jeez," she said out loud. "They're his bloody friends, I'm not even an ambo anymore." "I'm not an ambo anymore." She repeated it slowly, almost choking on the words. It had been such a mistake and she knew it, she just wouldn't admit it. After everything they had been through together she still couldn't admit that she loved him. Jared had told her to follow her heart, not her mind. Bron pondered this thought for a while. She had spent many a night creating elaborate fantasies in her mind, imagining their lives together.
A grin crept across her face as she thought of all the times she had practised writing 'Bron Markham'. She slumped in her chair sighed and cast a downward glance. She had to make a decision about what she wanted and where she thought her life was going to go. She knew how Ben felt, he had told her many times but she could never face up to her feelings. Fear and her own insecurities always got in the way. The more she sat and thought about it the more her heart was telling her to go for it and for the first time her mind wanted what her heart craved. Tonight's the night she decided. Tonight is the night I tell him how I feel, that I love him with all my heart and can't imagine life without him. That he is the reason I wake up smiling, the one thing that gets me through..and the only thing I know I can depend on no matter what life throws my way. 'Pity I can't depend on him to be on time' she giggled to herself.
A smile grew across her face and she got comfortable in her chair. Bron fixed her gaze on the door and waited. She could feel her body quivering beneath her, the excitement and fear of what was to come getting the better of her. Bron was so focused on watching for Ben she didn't look up and see the man watching her from the corner, waiting to make his move.
Bron had told him it was a bad idea for her to go, she just knew this would happen. But oh no, as usual Bron caved in wanting to make Ben happy. So here she was, sitting at a party she didn't want to go to in the first place, all alone "and slightly tipsy" she giggled to herself. She looked around taking in the atmosphere. Everyone was so happy, talking and laughing with each other. Not taking the time to come say hi or in the newer members case..get to know her. Bron grinned and started to wave at Kath who seemed to be making her way over. "Hi Kath, how's things?" she asked. Kath walked straight past her not even acknowledging Bron's existence. This made her blood boil. Sure she had given up being an ambo to go back to nursing but that was no reason for her supposed 'friends' to ignore her. "Jeez," she said out loud. "They're his bloody friends, I'm not even an ambo anymore." "I'm not an ambo anymore." She repeated it slowly, almost choking on the words. It had been such a mistake and she knew it, she just wouldn't admit it. After everything they had been through together she still couldn't admit that she loved him. Jared had told her to follow her heart, not her mind. Bron pondered this thought for a while. She had spent many a night creating elaborate fantasies in her mind, imagining their lives together.
A grin crept across her face as she thought of all the times she had practised writing 'Bron Markham'. She slumped in her chair sighed and cast a downward glance. She had to make a decision about what she wanted and where she thought her life was going to go. She knew how Ben felt, he had told her many times but she could never face up to her feelings. Fear and her own insecurities always got in the way. The more she sat and thought about it the more her heart was telling her to go for it and for the first time her mind wanted what her heart craved. Tonight's the night she decided. Tonight is the night I tell him how I feel, that I love him with all my heart and can't imagine life without him. That he is the reason I wake up smiling, the one thing that gets me through..and the only thing I know I can depend on no matter what life throws my way. 'Pity I can't depend on him to be on time' she giggled to herself.
A smile grew across her face and she got comfortable in her chair. Bron fixed her gaze on the door and waited. She could feel her body quivering beneath her, the excitement and fear of what was to come getting the better of her. Bron was so focused on watching for Ben she didn't look up and see the man watching her from the corner, waiting to make his move.