Title: It's Just A Crush
" I thought we were together. You sure as hell acted like it." Mark starts to pace around the room. " I'm sorry but have I introduced you to anyone as my girlfriend?" I get pissed off and kneel on the bed; my drunken haze is starting to fade very quickly. " Why in the hell would you introduce me to people as your girlfriend when the only people we see are our friends. I think they have figured things out on their own now." Mark comes over to stand in front of me. " My personal life is my business, what goes on between us is private. I've already been married and I'm not looking to do it again any time soon. So if you had any hopes of a fairy tale ending you're looking in the wrong place." I get off of the bed and poke Mark in the chest. " First off you're an asshole. I never even implied anything about marriage you dumbass." By now the tears are streaming down my face.
" I'm in love with you damn it, there I said it. I thought maybe you had some feelings for me but all I've figured out is that you're an excellent actor. So I guess what you wanted all along was to sleep with me right? That would be quite a notch on your bedpost, taking your best friend's niece's virginity. You would be a king among all your friends. And to think I wanted you to be the first, I am so stupid." Mark has a look of regret in his eyes and tries to wipe my tears away but I pull away. " Don't touch me, you've proven to me that I mean nothing to you. I do have to give you credit for that act you pulled when I was knocked out. You probably figured out Steph would tell me about it and I would feel bad for you and that's exactly what I did."
" Chloe it wasn't like that and you know it." My mouth drops open in shock. " How am I supposed to know it wasn't like that? What have you done to show me otherwise? You left with your ex-wife, not even sparing me a glance. You flip out if I even speak to Hunter but you leave with Rebecca to talk and when I come back into the room you look at me in anger, well fuck you. Wait a minute is that why you wanted me to stay at Shawn's? Did you guys want to get in one last fuck? Was she here while I was gone? Tell me was it good, was it everything you remembered?" Mark grabs my shoulders and starts to shake me.
" Will you listen to yourself? Rebecca told me she wanted to talk things out she misses me. She said the only reason she cheated on me was because I was on the road all the time and she wanted attention. It's my fault my marriage ended. She gave me a spare key to her house and told me to meet up with her later. But I'm here aren't I?" Mark takes the key out of his pocket and throws it on the bed. "She told me that you said we were together. I don't even know what is going on with us but yet you already made up my mind for me. Instead of talking things out with me you decided to come home drunk. I hate to say it but Rebecca acted more like an adult then you did."
I pull away from Mark. By now my vision is blurry because I am crying so much. I angrily wipe away some of the tears. " Oh yeah Mark she is just the perfect example of how an adult should act. Does that also include picking on teenagers? That's what she did to me Mark. You thought Rena was bad but hell she could of learned from Rebecca. Rebecca would always tell me how ugly I was and that you only spoke to me out of pity. You felt you owed it to my uncle because you guys are best friends. Do you have any idea how that made me feel? She promised me she was going to marry you and when she did you wouldn't speak to me anymore. That's why I stopped visiting. I couldn't stand the thought of you telling me you didn't want to speak to me. She got her way and she is getting it now. All I did was make an innocent comment and you flipped out. I never did anything to deserve this except love you and look what that has gotten me, absolutely nowhere."
I fall to my knees and sob. The pain in my heart is so bad. I look up when I feel Mark's hands on my face. He looks like he is going to cry. " How you could think that I would ever stop talking to you? I've always cared about you Chloe. It hurt me a lot when you stopped visiting. Even when Glen would be on the phone with you, you never asked to speak to me. I thought I had pushed you away some how. Now look at us, you can barely look me in the eyes. All I've done is yell at you because you force me to look at my feelings for you. I am disgusted with myself. I don't deserve your love Chloe." Mark releases my face and stands up.
" I need to get out of here. I will be back later on; you should try to get some rest. I promise I won't bother you." I sit on the floor crying and I jump when I hear the front door slam. He's gone and so are my chances with him. I unsteadily get up and as I walk past his bed to leave I notice Rebecca's key is gone. I laugh bitterly; well at least I know where he went. Rebecca wins again. I walk down the hallway to my old bedroom. I change for bed and crawl under the covers. I eventually cry myself to sleep.
Review as always. I hope this chapter was full of enough emotion.
" I thought we were together. You sure as hell acted like it." Mark starts to pace around the room. " I'm sorry but have I introduced you to anyone as my girlfriend?" I get pissed off and kneel on the bed; my drunken haze is starting to fade very quickly. " Why in the hell would you introduce me to people as your girlfriend when the only people we see are our friends. I think they have figured things out on their own now." Mark comes over to stand in front of me. " My personal life is my business, what goes on between us is private. I've already been married and I'm not looking to do it again any time soon. So if you had any hopes of a fairy tale ending you're looking in the wrong place." I get off of the bed and poke Mark in the chest. " First off you're an asshole. I never even implied anything about marriage you dumbass." By now the tears are streaming down my face.
" I'm in love with you damn it, there I said it. I thought maybe you had some feelings for me but all I've figured out is that you're an excellent actor. So I guess what you wanted all along was to sleep with me right? That would be quite a notch on your bedpost, taking your best friend's niece's virginity. You would be a king among all your friends. And to think I wanted you to be the first, I am so stupid." Mark has a look of regret in his eyes and tries to wipe my tears away but I pull away. " Don't touch me, you've proven to me that I mean nothing to you. I do have to give you credit for that act you pulled when I was knocked out. You probably figured out Steph would tell me about it and I would feel bad for you and that's exactly what I did."
" Chloe it wasn't like that and you know it." My mouth drops open in shock. " How am I supposed to know it wasn't like that? What have you done to show me otherwise? You left with your ex-wife, not even sparing me a glance. You flip out if I even speak to Hunter but you leave with Rebecca to talk and when I come back into the room you look at me in anger, well fuck you. Wait a minute is that why you wanted me to stay at Shawn's? Did you guys want to get in one last fuck? Was she here while I was gone? Tell me was it good, was it everything you remembered?" Mark grabs my shoulders and starts to shake me.
" Will you listen to yourself? Rebecca told me she wanted to talk things out she misses me. She said the only reason she cheated on me was because I was on the road all the time and she wanted attention. It's my fault my marriage ended. She gave me a spare key to her house and told me to meet up with her later. But I'm here aren't I?" Mark takes the key out of his pocket and throws it on the bed. "She told me that you said we were together. I don't even know what is going on with us but yet you already made up my mind for me. Instead of talking things out with me you decided to come home drunk. I hate to say it but Rebecca acted more like an adult then you did."
I pull away from Mark. By now my vision is blurry because I am crying so much. I angrily wipe away some of the tears. " Oh yeah Mark she is just the perfect example of how an adult should act. Does that also include picking on teenagers? That's what she did to me Mark. You thought Rena was bad but hell she could of learned from Rebecca. Rebecca would always tell me how ugly I was and that you only spoke to me out of pity. You felt you owed it to my uncle because you guys are best friends. Do you have any idea how that made me feel? She promised me she was going to marry you and when she did you wouldn't speak to me anymore. That's why I stopped visiting. I couldn't stand the thought of you telling me you didn't want to speak to me. She got her way and she is getting it now. All I did was make an innocent comment and you flipped out. I never did anything to deserve this except love you and look what that has gotten me, absolutely nowhere."
I fall to my knees and sob. The pain in my heart is so bad. I look up when I feel Mark's hands on my face. He looks like he is going to cry. " How you could think that I would ever stop talking to you? I've always cared about you Chloe. It hurt me a lot when you stopped visiting. Even when Glen would be on the phone with you, you never asked to speak to me. I thought I had pushed you away some how. Now look at us, you can barely look me in the eyes. All I've done is yell at you because you force me to look at my feelings for you. I am disgusted with myself. I don't deserve your love Chloe." Mark releases my face and stands up.
" I need to get out of here. I will be back later on; you should try to get some rest. I promise I won't bother you." I sit on the floor crying and I jump when I hear the front door slam. He's gone and so are my chances with him. I unsteadily get up and as I walk past his bed to leave I notice Rebecca's key is gone. I laugh bitterly; well at least I know where he went. Rebecca wins again. I walk down the hallway to my old bedroom. I change for bed and crawl under the covers. I eventually cry myself to sleep.
Review as always. I hope this chapter was full of enough emotion.