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Alec woke up the next morning with an unusual feeling. There was something warm lying on top of him. What did I do last night? he thought to himself. I don't remember picking anybody up? Then his body stiffened and his eyes snapped open, Max, he thought. He looked down at her lying on his chest, she looked so small and so lost. He thought about all the things that they had talked about last night, she had told him all about her family, Manticore, the only thing that they hadn't talked about was Logan and he didn't really want to bring the geezer up. Max seemed so sad when she talked about him and as soon as she realized that she was expressing the sorrow she closed herself up like they were all taught to. Alec hated seeing her like that, all shut away, keeping herself away from everyone. That's why he annoyed her so much, he loved the way she was so alive and if getting her mad was the only way to see her like that then he was gonna get her mad any chance he could. And he usually did. Too bad this also meant that he was gonna get hit at least five times a day. Oh well, he thought to himself, it's worth it, he grinned. Max stirred on his chest and he looked down at her, she opened her eyes sleepily and stared at him.
She felt her body moving up and down and it was a really comfortable feeling. She didn't know what was causing it but she liked it. She opened her eyes and found herself staring at someone's chest, whose chest? she thought sleepily and she looked up to find a pair of hazel eyes staring into her own. Alec, she thought. She sat up on his body and stretched, he was really nice to sleep on. She looked down at him and saw that he was still staring at her, not saying anything which was really strange for Alec, so she told him so. He just smiled but continued staring at her.
"What's wrong?" she asked him, slightly worried.
"Nothing's wrong, I was just thinking, that's all," he replied.
"About what?" she asked, as she got up off him.
"Us," he replied, looking down at the area she had been lying on and thinking that he now felt cold without her.
She froze when she heard his answer but when she looked over at him he was staring at his chest. "What do you mean us?" she asked cautiously.
"I know that I screw up a lot Max but..." he started.
"Alec I know that I've said a lot of harsh things to you but I didn't really mean them. It's just that when I get angry I cant really control what's coming out of my mouth and you know," she trailed off. She didn't know what to say to him, she knew she had been unfair but the idea that she might lose him, that was too much to handle.
He looked at her in shock, he never thought that he would live to see that day when Max would tell him that she was wrong. "So you're saying that I'm not a screw up?" he asked, confused. It was just such a big difference to what she usually said.
"No," she corrected, "I said that SOMETIMES you are and sometimes you aren't."
"Close enough," he grinned up at her. "I think I'm gonna head off, I mean I've been here for almost half a day and you haven't hit me yet, don't want my luck to run out," he said cheekily.
She smiled at him as they made their way out of her building and then said, "You should probably lay low for while."
"Yeah, I might head over to Joshua's for a while. Think he'll mind?"
"Are you kidding? He'll love it."
Alec thought for a little while and then said, "Must be hard huh? Having me around. Some guy with Ben's face?"
"Yeah well, it's probably why I'm such a bitch to you," she replied slightly embarrassed.
"Or maybe," he moved to put his arm around her, "it's because I'm such a pain in the ass sometimes."
She smiled up at him, glad that he wasn't angry with her. "Be careful," she said.
"Always," he replied, giving her his usual cocky smile. But she knew the truth now, he wasn't the person that he tried so hard to be, he was someone else. Someone that she wanted to get to know, she wanted to know the real Alec. She turned to head back into her building, not noticed the pair of ice blue eyes that had watched them intently, the entire time.
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No please, not her, she thought. Take me, just don't take her! She thrashed around still stuck in her dream and finally woke up to age-old sound of breaking glass, yet again. She sat up in bed and calmed herself down. She hated that dream, it was so real. It was like it really happened and yet she knew that nothing like that could've happened. Yet sometimes she got flashes. Flashes of people that had never been in her unit, flashes of moving shadows, of laughter which was something that had never been allowed in Manticore. She had flashes of a life that she knew never would have been allowed in Manticore and yet she longed for it. Well I have it now, she thought to herself. No one is going to hurt any of my units anymore, she was going to keep them safe. But there was something missing, she didn't know what it was but it seemed that every time she talked to her soldiers, she felt like even though she was with them, she wasn't a part of them. She remembered that it had taken them so long for any of them to actually even speak to her when she was transferred to their compound. They had all avoided her like the plague and she didn't know why but she was better than they were. At hand to hand, at shooting, everything. So after a while they stopped it and started respecting her and speaking to her. She didn't know what it was that put them off her to start off with but she knew that nothing was going to get between them now. They were a part of her and she was a part of them, which was why she knew that the other soldiers wouldn't have listened to her in the first place but she had to try. She had to unite them, bring them all together or there was no chance any of them could survive. She just wished that she wasn't so lonely, she was constantly surrounded by people and yet she knew that they weren't like her. The only person that she felt comfortable around was Max and she barely even knew the girl. She didn't know why she felt safe around Max but she did. She didn't understand it, the only other people she ever felt safe around were units, but Max was never a part of her unit. Oh, she sighed to herself, you're thinking too much. She rubbed her temples to try and get rid of the headache she knew was coming. You think too much.
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"Josh! Josh buddy where are ya?" Alec yelled, looking around the empty house. He walked around searching each of the empty rooms until he heard some movement out in the living room and walked in to find Joshua just standing there.
"Hey roomie!" Alec said brightly.
"Roomie?" Joshua asked confused. Not really understanding and kinda not wanting to understand.
"yeah, I gotta lay low for a while, thought I might stay here you know?" alec said looking around. "So, where's your TV?"
"TV?" Joshua said in surprise, he looked around then room and then his face brightened. "No TV, Alec can read instead," he said gently knocking a book against his buddy's head.
"What do you mean you don't have a TV? I need my boob tube," Alec said, looking around hoping to find a set hiding somewhere behind the dusty curtains. He looked up at Joshua, who was looking slightly amused. "Oh, don't worry I know hwere I can get one."
He walked over to the window so that he could get some reception when he noticed joshua rush over and block something from view. "What's that? Joshua no.348?" he asked, trying to peer behind the bigger guy.
Joshua sighed and moved out of the way. "Annie," he whispered.
Alec looked at him and then at the painting again. He could feel Joshua's pain inside him like it was his own. He opened his mouth to speak but Josh beat him to it.
"She's blind Alec. She cant see. No running, no screaming," Joshua said dejectedly, his head hanging low.
Alec didn't know what to do. He decided to call Max, hopefully she would know what to do. He sat down with Joshua and waited for her. He didn't know what to say to Joshua, the guy looked so down. Alec knew how he had felt but he didn't know how to say anything to help the poor guy get through it. Max arrived and she took him off to say some words to him while Alec decided to make his way down to the basement. All this talk about having a love that was unattainable just brought back memories that he didn't want to have or need to have now. He started playing and felt himself calm down, he finished the piece and just sat there staring at the keys.
He found himself thinking about Max, he could just hear her murmering to Josh and he knew that if he just strained a little he would be able to hear her but he didn't want to. She's probably talking about her and Logan, he thoguth bitterly to himself. He sat there morosely, he didn't like Logan and only put up with him because he was supposed to be Max's 'not like that' boyfriend. Oh well, they're supposedly broken up now, he thought, whatever that means in Logan and Max language, he rolled his eyes.
He heard her exit the house and went upstairs to see Josh. He sat down next to the big guy and patted his back, Josh looked over gratefully. Alec knew he didn't want to talk so he just sat there, assuring Josh with his presence but never letting the guy know that Alec needed his presence as well. Love, it gave all of the nothing but pain, he didn't know why anybody bothered. He didn't know why he bothered, he tried not to care about anyone when he had come out of Manticore. Going with a different girl every night helped, he made sure there was no way he could connect with anyone, well anyone but Max. He needed Max and he was starting to think that he wanted more from her than friendship. It was a bad thing to realize, he knew that Max only wanted Logan, no matter how hard she lied to him and herself but he hoped that after what happened last night, they would get closer. A lot closer.
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Alec woke up the next morning with an unusual feeling. There was something warm lying on top of him. What did I do last night? he thought to himself. I don't remember picking anybody up? Then his body stiffened and his eyes snapped open, Max, he thought. He looked down at her lying on his chest, she looked so small and so lost. He thought about all the things that they had talked about last night, she had told him all about her family, Manticore, the only thing that they hadn't talked about was Logan and he didn't really want to bring the geezer up. Max seemed so sad when she talked about him and as soon as she realized that she was expressing the sorrow she closed herself up like they were all taught to. Alec hated seeing her like that, all shut away, keeping herself away from everyone. That's why he annoyed her so much, he loved the way she was so alive and if getting her mad was the only way to see her like that then he was gonna get her mad any chance he could. And he usually did. Too bad this also meant that he was gonna get hit at least five times a day. Oh well, he thought to himself, it's worth it, he grinned. Max stirred on his chest and he looked down at her, she opened her eyes sleepily and stared at him.
She felt her body moving up and down and it was a really comfortable feeling. She didn't know what was causing it but she liked it. She opened her eyes and found herself staring at someone's chest, whose chest? she thought sleepily and she looked up to find a pair of hazel eyes staring into her own. Alec, she thought. She sat up on his body and stretched, he was really nice to sleep on. She looked down at him and saw that he was still staring at her, not saying anything which was really strange for Alec, so she told him so. He just smiled but continued staring at her.
"What's wrong?" she asked him, slightly worried.
"Nothing's wrong, I was just thinking, that's all," he replied.
"About what?" she asked, as she got up off him.
"Us," he replied, looking down at the area she had been lying on and thinking that he now felt cold without her.
She froze when she heard his answer but when she looked over at him he was staring at his chest. "What do you mean us?" she asked cautiously.
"I know that I screw up a lot Max but..." he started.
"Alec I know that I've said a lot of harsh things to you but I didn't really mean them. It's just that when I get angry I cant really control what's coming out of my mouth and you know," she trailed off. She didn't know what to say to him, she knew she had been unfair but the idea that she might lose him, that was too much to handle.
He looked at her in shock, he never thought that he would live to see that day when Max would tell him that she was wrong. "So you're saying that I'm not a screw up?" he asked, confused. It was just such a big difference to what she usually said.
"No," she corrected, "I said that SOMETIMES you are and sometimes you aren't."
"Close enough," he grinned up at her. "I think I'm gonna head off, I mean I've been here for almost half a day and you haven't hit me yet, don't want my luck to run out," he said cheekily.
She smiled at him as they made their way out of her building and then said, "You should probably lay low for while."
"Yeah, I might head over to Joshua's for a while. Think he'll mind?"
"Are you kidding? He'll love it."
Alec thought for a little while and then said, "Must be hard huh? Having me around. Some guy with Ben's face?"
"Yeah well, it's probably why I'm such a bitch to you," she replied slightly embarrassed.
"Or maybe," he moved to put his arm around her, "it's because I'm such a pain in the ass sometimes."
She smiled up at him, glad that he wasn't angry with her. "Be careful," she said.
"Always," he replied, giving her his usual cocky smile. But she knew the truth now, he wasn't the person that he tried so hard to be, he was someone else. Someone that she wanted to get to know, she wanted to know the real Alec. She turned to head back into her building, not noticed the pair of ice blue eyes that had watched them intently, the entire time.
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No please, not her, she thought. Take me, just don't take her! She thrashed around still stuck in her dream and finally woke up to age-old sound of breaking glass, yet again. She sat up in bed and calmed herself down. She hated that dream, it was so real. It was like it really happened and yet she knew that nothing like that could've happened. Yet sometimes she got flashes. Flashes of people that had never been in her unit, flashes of moving shadows, of laughter which was something that had never been allowed in Manticore. She had flashes of a life that she knew never would have been allowed in Manticore and yet she longed for it. Well I have it now, she thought to herself. No one is going to hurt any of my units anymore, she was going to keep them safe. But there was something missing, she didn't know what it was but it seemed that every time she talked to her soldiers, she felt like even though she was with them, she wasn't a part of them. She remembered that it had taken them so long for any of them to actually even speak to her when she was transferred to their compound. They had all avoided her like the plague and she didn't know why but she was better than they were. At hand to hand, at shooting, everything. So after a while they stopped it and started respecting her and speaking to her. She didn't know what it was that put them off her to start off with but she knew that nothing was going to get between them now. They were a part of her and she was a part of them, which was why she knew that the other soldiers wouldn't have listened to her in the first place but she had to try. She had to unite them, bring them all together or there was no chance any of them could survive. She just wished that she wasn't so lonely, she was constantly surrounded by people and yet she knew that they weren't like her. The only person that she felt comfortable around was Max and she barely even knew the girl. She didn't know why she felt safe around Max but she did. She didn't understand it, the only other people she ever felt safe around were units, but Max was never a part of her unit. Oh, she sighed to herself, you're thinking too much. She rubbed her temples to try and get rid of the headache she knew was coming. You think too much.
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"Josh! Josh buddy where are ya?" Alec yelled, looking around the empty house. He walked around searching each of the empty rooms until he heard some movement out in the living room and walked in to find Joshua just standing there.
"Hey roomie!" Alec said brightly.
"Roomie?" Joshua asked confused. Not really understanding and kinda not wanting to understand.
"yeah, I gotta lay low for a while, thought I might stay here you know?" alec said looking around. "So, where's your TV?"
"TV?" Joshua said in surprise, he looked around then room and then his face brightened. "No TV, Alec can read instead," he said gently knocking a book against his buddy's head.
"What do you mean you don't have a TV? I need my boob tube," Alec said, looking around hoping to find a set hiding somewhere behind the dusty curtains. He looked up at Joshua, who was looking slightly amused. "Oh, don't worry I know hwere I can get one."
He walked over to the window so that he could get some reception when he noticed joshua rush over and block something from view. "What's that? Joshua no.348?" he asked, trying to peer behind the bigger guy.
Joshua sighed and moved out of the way. "Annie," he whispered.
Alec looked at him and then at the painting again. He could feel Joshua's pain inside him like it was his own. He opened his mouth to speak but Josh beat him to it.
"She's blind Alec. She cant see. No running, no screaming," Joshua said dejectedly, his head hanging low.
Alec didn't know what to do. He decided to call Max, hopefully she would know what to do. He sat down with Joshua and waited for her. He didn't know what to say to Joshua, the guy looked so down. Alec knew how he had felt but he didn't know how to say anything to help the poor guy get through it. Max arrived and she took him off to say some words to him while Alec decided to make his way down to the basement. All this talk about having a love that was unattainable just brought back memories that he didn't want to have or need to have now. He started playing and felt himself calm down, he finished the piece and just sat there staring at the keys.
He found himself thinking about Max, he could just hear her murmering to Josh and he knew that if he just strained a little he would be able to hear her but he didn't want to. She's probably talking about her and Logan, he thoguth bitterly to himself. He sat there morosely, he didn't like Logan and only put up with him because he was supposed to be Max's 'not like that' boyfriend. Oh well, they're supposedly broken up now, he thought, whatever that means in Logan and Max language, he rolled his eyes.
He heard her exit the house and went upstairs to see Josh. He sat down next to the big guy and patted his back, Josh looked over gratefully. Alec knew he didn't want to talk so he just sat there, assuring Josh with his presence but never letting the guy know that Alec needed his presence as well. Love, it gave all of the nothing but pain, he didn't know why anybody bothered. He didn't know why he bothered, he tried not to care about anyone when he had come out of Manticore. Going with a different girl every night helped, he made sure there was no way he could connect with anyone, well anyone but Max. He needed Max and he was starting to think that he wanted more from her than friendship. It was a bad thing to realize, he knew that Max only wanted Logan, no matter how hard she lied to him and herself but he hoped that after what happened last night, they would get closer. A lot closer.
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