Title: It's Just A Crush
It's been a month since I have been home. I've kept in touch with everyone except Mark. He still hasn't called me yet. As I pick up the phone it's time for my weekly check in with Stephanie. " Hey Steph, how's it going?" Tonight is a pay per view so things are always chaotic. " Busy as usual but I'm glad you called, it gives me an excuse to take a break." We make small talk for a few minutes. Every time I have spoken to someone they never mention Mark, I guess it's because they are trying to look out for my feelings. " Um Steph, I have a question and I want the truth ok?" She tells me she is always honest with me. " That's true, in fact your brutally honest. Anyway I've been wondering how Mark is? I still haven't heard from him and if he has found someone new then I want to know."
I don't know what to make of Stephanie's hysterical laughter. " What the hell is so damn funny?" She finally calms down. " I'm sorry Chloe, I didn't mean to laugh its just that when you suggested Mark found someone new I found it funny. I haven't mentioned anything to you sooner because I wasn't sure you even wanted to hear his name." Little does Stephanie know I watch Raw and Smackdown religiously just so I can see him. " Ever since you have been gone he has been nothing but a miserable bastard. He snaps at everyone and doesn't hang out with anyone anymore. Glenn finally dragged him out to a club the other night and Mark stayed for about an hour then went back to the room. Chloe I think he is really missing you. Maybe you should give the poor guy a call? Sometimes I see him just sitting in the stands before a show just staring into space, looking so lost."
I hate to hear Mark is suffering but at least that means he might be thinking about me. " Steph I can't call him. I refuse to be the one that caves in first. I told him when he came up with his answer to call me." I tap my chin in thought. " But you know what maybe I can put in an appearance tomorrow at Raw. Think you can set everything up without anyone knowing?" Stephanie starts to laugh reminding me she is a McMahon. " I'm sorry for ever doubting your powers Steph. Call me back later with the info ok? Bye."
Later on as I am packing Steph calls back to give me the information I need. Once I'm done packing I sit down to enjoy the pay per view. When I see Mark come out on his bike my heart tightens up in my chest just like it always does when I see or think about him. Everything Stephanie said replays in my mind and I lean closer to the television to get a closer look at Mark and I realize he looks tired and his eyes look lifeless. I shake my head to get rid of those thoughts and just focus on the match. After the show is over I go to bed and think about what tomorrow may bring.
When I get to the arena the next day I straighten my skirt before going in. I have to thank Steph when I see her for sending a limo to come get me. I show the security guard my ID and he gives me my pass Steph had left for me. I figure I better find her first to see how everything is going. I sneak down the hallway and luckily find her office. I knock and when I hear the call to come in, I stick my head through the door to make sure she is alone. When she sees it's me she jumps up from her desk and pulls me into the room. " Stephanie I love you but you're hugging me a little too tightly." She lets me go and steps back. " Someone looks all dressed up today. Is it for anyone special?" I smack her arm and go stand in front of the mirror she has. " Do you think it's too much?" I have on a black skirt with knee high black boots and a black lace tank top with my leather jacket on over it. I decided to leave my hair down. Stephanie tells me I look great. " So no one knows I'm here right?" She shakes her head no. Her phone starts to ring so I tell her I will see her later. I quickly ask her before I leave where the guys are and she says more then likely they are in Hunter's dressing room together.
I ask a stagehand where his room is and he points me in the right direction. When I find Hunter's locker room I stick my ear up to the door and I can hear them all talking in there. I take a deep breath and open the door. " If anyone is naked too bad because the bitch is back." The guys jump when I slam through the door. Before I can go to say anything else Hunter picks me up into a big hug. " What the hell are you doing here Chloe? Why didn't you call one of us to tell us you were coming?" I kiss his cheek and tell him it was supposed to be a surprise. " Um excuse me but do you think you can hand over my niece?" Hunter still has me picked up in his arms so he turns to my uncle and hands me over. " I'm not a baby you can pass around you know." I hug my uncle and before I know it he has passed me around to Steve, Shawn, and Kevin. " Kevin please put me down. I'm afraid of heights." He sits down with me in his lap. " Well it's nice to see you're still a smart-ass." I pinch his arm. "I love you too." I take my jacket off and throw it against the back of the couch.
We sit there talking for a while but I can see Hunter keeps staring at me. " If you have something to say Hunter then say it." He jumps when I speak directly to him. " I was just wondering when you are going to go see him." I don't try to pretend like I don't know who he is talking about. " I don't plan on seeking him out, if I run into him over the next two days then great, if I don't then that's just too damn bad." The guys can see how serious I am so they let the subject drop. Before we know it its almost time for Raw to start and they all have to start getting ready. I tell them I am going to get a drink.
When I find the beverage table I grab myself a bottle of water. I twist the cap off and take a big sip. " I figured you would come back sooner or later." I try not to jump when I hear his voice. I try to mask my emotions in my eyes before I turn to him. " Hello Mark." God he looks amazing. He has on black jeans and a Deadman Inc. vest he has yet to button. I have a quick flashback of me running my hands down his stomach and I quickly snap myself out of it. " All you have to say is Hello Mark? I don't think so." Before I can say anything to him Mark is grabbing my arm and pulling me outside. It had started to rain after I had gotten there. " Mark its raining damn it. If you want to talk we'll talk inside." I try to walk away but he pulls me back. " No we are going to talk right here, right now."
As the rain starts to come down even harder I start to shiver. My jacket is still in the arena. " Fine you want to talk so talk." I look up at Mark and can see the anger in his face. " Why didn't anyone tell me you were coming?" Like it's any of his business. " I didn't realize you were supposed to be updated on my whereabouts. Remember I come and go as I please. But just so you don't flip out on someone, my visit was a surprise only Stephanie knew about it." Mark grabs my arms and pulls me to him. " Why haven't you called me?" I fling my head back to get my wet hair out of my face. " I told you last time we spoke I wasn't going to call you. Do you have an answer for me?"
Mark let's me go so quickly I stumble but regain my footing. " I told you before what do you want me to say to you." I stamp my foot, frustrated. " Why do you keep doing this to me Mark? It is some kind of sick game? I have feelings and you keep messing with them. One minute you want me and the next you are yelling at me. So I leave thinking it would make everything better and I guess is hasn't." Mark whips his head around to stare at me. " You thought leaving would make everything better? As far as I can tell you ran away like a little child that didn't get her way. Did you think if you left everything would be forgotten, that I could be forgotten? What did you hope for Chloe, that I would come chasing after you like some damn knight on a white horse? I told you before not to expect a fairy tale ending from me. Did you come back for one last fuck because if you did then I can at least accommodate you with that."
I stand there staring at him. I can't believe he nailed it right on the head. I had wanted him to come chasing after me like some fairy tale. And as I stand here I realize he won't ever do that. The pain in my chest just gets worse so I decide if he wants to hurt me then I will hurt him. " You're right Mark I did come back to get fucked just not by you. I came back hoping Hunter could help me out with that. Yeah you and me had our night together but it wasn't anything to brag about. So I figured I would come back and have a real man." I watch Mark eyes and he's not fast enough to hide the anger and hurt I see in them. Mark leans down so he is right in my face. " Oh so now you're a whore. I compared you once to Rebecca and I thought I was wrong but now I realize I was right the first time." Before I realize what I'm doing I slap Mark across the face. The look of surprise on his face tells me he didn't see it coming. " I hate you Mark, I hate you so much, and I never want to see you again as long as I live." As soon as I say those words I want to take them back. The look of pain and hurt on Mark's face makes me regret it so much. I go to apologize but Mark walks away from me.
The rain is coming down so hard I can't tell where he went till I hear the engine of his bike turn on. I see his headlights then I see him ride off out of the parking lot. I scream for him to come back and either he don't hear me or he just doesn't care. I wipe at my face, I can't tell where the rain drops start and my tears end. I stand out in the rain crying for a while before I go back inside. When I step inside the arena the cold air makes me start to shiver. I walk down to Hunter's locker room and when I walk in all of the guys look at me. " What the hell happened Chloe?" I go to answer Kevin's question but as soon as I open my mouth I start to sob. Steve is the closest to me and pulls me into his arms. I must stand there crying in Steve's arms for a good ten minutes. When my uncle's cell phone starts to ring he walks to the other side of the room to answer it. I look up when I hear him start to yell. When he flips his phone shut he looks at me and I get a sick feeling in my stomach. " There's been an accident."
I start to shake but luckily Steve is holding me up. " It's Mark isn't it?" My uncle can only nod at me. Kevin asks how bad it is. My uncle says he doesn't know for sure, they wouldn't tell him. My uncle's cell phone is Mark's in case of emergency number. My uncle tells us it was in his wallet. Obviously it has to be bad if Mark couldn't call himself. Hunter goes to get Vince and Stephanie. When they come into the room my uncle tells them what's happened and asks if he can leave to go to the hospital. They tell him to go and I tell him I am going with him. Stephanie gives me a quick hug before we leave.
We must have gone five blocks in the car when we see flashing lights. I look out of the window and see that there was a three-car accident and as I look at the ground I start to sob because lying on the floor is Mark's bike. My uncle grabs my hand and holds it all the way to the hospital. I cry silently the entire way there. When we pull into the parking lot my uncle takes my hand and pulls me into the emergency room. He tells me to sit down and goes to the desk. He tells the nurse he is here about the accident. I start rocking back and forth in my chair telling myself Mark is ok. My uncle comes over to me and wraps his arms around me. A few minutes later a doctor comes out and we both get up. " Are you here about the accident?" We nod our heads and judging by the look on the doctor's face it's not good. " Doctor please just tell us how badly he is hurt and how long it will take him to get better." The doctor just looks at me. " I'm so sorry, we did everything we could but he didn't make it. He's gone."
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It's been a month since I have been home. I've kept in touch with everyone except Mark. He still hasn't called me yet. As I pick up the phone it's time for my weekly check in with Stephanie. " Hey Steph, how's it going?" Tonight is a pay per view so things are always chaotic. " Busy as usual but I'm glad you called, it gives me an excuse to take a break." We make small talk for a few minutes. Every time I have spoken to someone they never mention Mark, I guess it's because they are trying to look out for my feelings. " Um Steph, I have a question and I want the truth ok?" She tells me she is always honest with me. " That's true, in fact your brutally honest. Anyway I've been wondering how Mark is? I still haven't heard from him and if he has found someone new then I want to know."
I don't know what to make of Stephanie's hysterical laughter. " What the hell is so damn funny?" She finally calms down. " I'm sorry Chloe, I didn't mean to laugh its just that when you suggested Mark found someone new I found it funny. I haven't mentioned anything to you sooner because I wasn't sure you even wanted to hear his name." Little does Stephanie know I watch Raw and Smackdown religiously just so I can see him. " Ever since you have been gone he has been nothing but a miserable bastard. He snaps at everyone and doesn't hang out with anyone anymore. Glenn finally dragged him out to a club the other night and Mark stayed for about an hour then went back to the room. Chloe I think he is really missing you. Maybe you should give the poor guy a call? Sometimes I see him just sitting in the stands before a show just staring into space, looking so lost."
I hate to hear Mark is suffering but at least that means he might be thinking about me. " Steph I can't call him. I refuse to be the one that caves in first. I told him when he came up with his answer to call me." I tap my chin in thought. " But you know what maybe I can put in an appearance tomorrow at Raw. Think you can set everything up without anyone knowing?" Stephanie starts to laugh reminding me she is a McMahon. " I'm sorry for ever doubting your powers Steph. Call me back later with the info ok? Bye."
Later on as I am packing Steph calls back to give me the information I need. Once I'm done packing I sit down to enjoy the pay per view. When I see Mark come out on his bike my heart tightens up in my chest just like it always does when I see or think about him. Everything Stephanie said replays in my mind and I lean closer to the television to get a closer look at Mark and I realize he looks tired and his eyes look lifeless. I shake my head to get rid of those thoughts and just focus on the match. After the show is over I go to bed and think about what tomorrow may bring.
When I get to the arena the next day I straighten my skirt before going in. I have to thank Steph when I see her for sending a limo to come get me. I show the security guard my ID and he gives me my pass Steph had left for me. I figure I better find her first to see how everything is going. I sneak down the hallway and luckily find her office. I knock and when I hear the call to come in, I stick my head through the door to make sure she is alone. When she sees it's me she jumps up from her desk and pulls me into the room. " Stephanie I love you but you're hugging me a little too tightly." She lets me go and steps back. " Someone looks all dressed up today. Is it for anyone special?" I smack her arm and go stand in front of the mirror she has. " Do you think it's too much?" I have on a black skirt with knee high black boots and a black lace tank top with my leather jacket on over it. I decided to leave my hair down. Stephanie tells me I look great. " So no one knows I'm here right?" She shakes her head no. Her phone starts to ring so I tell her I will see her later. I quickly ask her before I leave where the guys are and she says more then likely they are in Hunter's dressing room together.
I ask a stagehand where his room is and he points me in the right direction. When I find Hunter's locker room I stick my ear up to the door and I can hear them all talking in there. I take a deep breath and open the door. " If anyone is naked too bad because the bitch is back." The guys jump when I slam through the door. Before I can go to say anything else Hunter picks me up into a big hug. " What the hell are you doing here Chloe? Why didn't you call one of us to tell us you were coming?" I kiss his cheek and tell him it was supposed to be a surprise. " Um excuse me but do you think you can hand over my niece?" Hunter still has me picked up in his arms so he turns to my uncle and hands me over. " I'm not a baby you can pass around you know." I hug my uncle and before I know it he has passed me around to Steve, Shawn, and Kevin. " Kevin please put me down. I'm afraid of heights." He sits down with me in his lap. " Well it's nice to see you're still a smart-ass." I pinch his arm. "I love you too." I take my jacket off and throw it against the back of the couch.
We sit there talking for a while but I can see Hunter keeps staring at me. " If you have something to say Hunter then say it." He jumps when I speak directly to him. " I was just wondering when you are going to go see him." I don't try to pretend like I don't know who he is talking about. " I don't plan on seeking him out, if I run into him over the next two days then great, if I don't then that's just too damn bad." The guys can see how serious I am so they let the subject drop. Before we know it its almost time for Raw to start and they all have to start getting ready. I tell them I am going to get a drink.
When I find the beverage table I grab myself a bottle of water. I twist the cap off and take a big sip. " I figured you would come back sooner or later." I try not to jump when I hear his voice. I try to mask my emotions in my eyes before I turn to him. " Hello Mark." God he looks amazing. He has on black jeans and a Deadman Inc. vest he has yet to button. I have a quick flashback of me running my hands down his stomach and I quickly snap myself out of it. " All you have to say is Hello Mark? I don't think so." Before I can say anything to him Mark is grabbing my arm and pulling me outside. It had started to rain after I had gotten there. " Mark its raining damn it. If you want to talk we'll talk inside." I try to walk away but he pulls me back. " No we are going to talk right here, right now."
As the rain starts to come down even harder I start to shiver. My jacket is still in the arena. " Fine you want to talk so talk." I look up at Mark and can see the anger in his face. " Why didn't anyone tell me you were coming?" Like it's any of his business. " I didn't realize you were supposed to be updated on my whereabouts. Remember I come and go as I please. But just so you don't flip out on someone, my visit was a surprise only Stephanie knew about it." Mark grabs my arms and pulls me to him. " Why haven't you called me?" I fling my head back to get my wet hair out of my face. " I told you last time we spoke I wasn't going to call you. Do you have an answer for me?"
Mark let's me go so quickly I stumble but regain my footing. " I told you before what do you want me to say to you." I stamp my foot, frustrated. " Why do you keep doing this to me Mark? It is some kind of sick game? I have feelings and you keep messing with them. One minute you want me and the next you are yelling at me. So I leave thinking it would make everything better and I guess is hasn't." Mark whips his head around to stare at me. " You thought leaving would make everything better? As far as I can tell you ran away like a little child that didn't get her way. Did you think if you left everything would be forgotten, that I could be forgotten? What did you hope for Chloe, that I would come chasing after you like some damn knight on a white horse? I told you before not to expect a fairy tale ending from me. Did you come back for one last fuck because if you did then I can at least accommodate you with that."
I stand there staring at him. I can't believe he nailed it right on the head. I had wanted him to come chasing after me like some fairy tale. And as I stand here I realize he won't ever do that. The pain in my chest just gets worse so I decide if he wants to hurt me then I will hurt him. " You're right Mark I did come back to get fucked just not by you. I came back hoping Hunter could help me out with that. Yeah you and me had our night together but it wasn't anything to brag about. So I figured I would come back and have a real man." I watch Mark eyes and he's not fast enough to hide the anger and hurt I see in them. Mark leans down so he is right in my face. " Oh so now you're a whore. I compared you once to Rebecca and I thought I was wrong but now I realize I was right the first time." Before I realize what I'm doing I slap Mark across the face. The look of surprise on his face tells me he didn't see it coming. " I hate you Mark, I hate you so much, and I never want to see you again as long as I live." As soon as I say those words I want to take them back. The look of pain and hurt on Mark's face makes me regret it so much. I go to apologize but Mark walks away from me.
The rain is coming down so hard I can't tell where he went till I hear the engine of his bike turn on. I see his headlights then I see him ride off out of the parking lot. I scream for him to come back and either he don't hear me or he just doesn't care. I wipe at my face, I can't tell where the rain drops start and my tears end. I stand out in the rain crying for a while before I go back inside. When I step inside the arena the cold air makes me start to shiver. I walk down to Hunter's locker room and when I walk in all of the guys look at me. " What the hell happened Chloe?" I go to answer Kevin's question but as soon as I open my mouth I start to sob. Steve is the closest to me and pulls me into his arms. I must stand there crying in Steve's arms for a good ten minutes. When my uncle's cell phone starts to ring he walks to the other side of the room to answer it. I look up when I hear him start to yell. When he flips his phone shut he looks at me and I get a sick feeling in my stomach. " There's been an accident."
I start to shake but luckily Steve is holding me up. " It's Mark isn't it?" My uncle can only nod at me. Kevin asks how bad it is. My uncle says he doesn't know for sure, they wouldn't tell him. My uncle's cell phone is Mark's in case of emergency number. My uncle tells us it was in his wallet. Obviously it has to be bad if Mark couldn't call himself. Hunter goes to get Vince and Stephanie. When they come into the room my uncle tells them what's happened and asks if he can leave to go to the hospital. They tell him to go and I tell him I am going with him. Stephanie gives me a quick hug before we leave.
We must have gone five blocks in the car when we see flashing lights. I look out of the window and see that there was a three-car accident and as I look at the ground I start to sob because lying on the floor is Mark's bike. My uncle grabs my hand and holds it all the way to the hospital. I cry silently the entire way there. When we pull into the parking lot my uncle takes my hand and pulls me into the emergency room. He tells me to sit down and goes to the desk. He tells the nurse he is here about the accident. I start rocking back and forth in my chair telling myself Mark is ok. My uncle comes over to me and wraps his arms around me. A few minutes later a doctor comes out and we both get up. " Are you here about the accident?" We nod our heads and judging by the look on the doctor's face it's not good. " Doctor please just tell us how badly he is hurt and how long it will take him to get better." The doctor just looks at me. " I'm so sorry, we did everything we could but he didn't make it. He's gone."
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