Kaoru's eyes slowly opened, the sun was just rising and from the view from her window the sunrise was beautiful. It was a mixture of pink and purple and even some red and yellow, she smiled and sighed "what at dream" she said to herself as her dream replayed in her mind over again.

' "She has a high fever Mr. Kamiya and she's been out for two days," said a man, "you know how much I love your daughter, and would do anything to save her correct?" "yes old friend I know" said Mr. Kamiya. "Well then all we can do now is pray for her life, as only time will tell" said the old man, Mr. Kamiya nodded his head slowly and then they disappeared. '

Kaoru smiled but wondered what they had been talking about "oh well," she sighed, "since I can't get back to sleep might as well go get breakfast ready" with that she dressed into a yellow kimono that had small red flowers on it and placed on a purple obi. She put her hair up in a high ponytail and wrapped a green bow around it as usual. She smiled before she closed her small window so the cold winter air wouldn't freeze the room. It was the fifth week of the winter season and it still hadn't snowed yet, "oh well better get breakfast ready before I start hearing yells and cries."

She then walked out into the hall into the kitchen, she looked around the kitchen for something to make they had had tofu for the past week and she was getting tired of it. Finally she found something "it'll be their problem if they don't like this but it's all I have" she sighed before turning on the small fire stove that she had.

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Kenshin sighed as he woke up "I promised myself I would tell her today and I will" he frowned, he really didn't want to tell her right now but she seemed like she was ready to hear him. He sniffed the air "what's that smell?" he asked walking out of his room into the kitchen.

"Is this all?" he heard Yahiko say, he and Sano were looking at something "what are you looking at?" Kenshin asked as he looked past them, his eyes bugged out and he had the same expression of shock that Sano and Yahiko had. There on the small fire stove lay a fish...one fish...one small fish. "Is this supposed to be breakfast?" Sano asked "yes it is," Kaoru said as she entered the room, "and I suggest you be great-full for me letting you eat that last fish." Sano and Yahiko had tears in their eyes; this defiantly wasn't enough to fill their stomachs.

Kenshin smiled and said "Miss Kaoru's right Sano" "what are you talking about?!" Sano cried "she is being kind enough to let us eat this fish and it is the last one we have right now, that it is." Sano sighed and looked back at the fish, Kenshin turned back to face Kaoru who was looking at the floor she didn't want to look at him, at any of them. Kaoru turned and walked out of the kitchen "I'm sure Kenshin that you can handle the fish, I need to get something" she called behind her shoulder before disappearing. "Kenshin" Yahiko said quietly "yes Yahiko?" Kenshin asked turning to face him, Yahiko looked in Kenshin's eyes before looking down "uhhh...it's nothing never mind." Kenshin looked at Yahiko before he heard Sano say, "Kenshin, you do realize that the fish is on fire right?" Kenshin looked down and they all looked at each other "quickly get some water!" "save yourselves!" Sano and Yahiko cried running out of the room.

Kenshin watched them run out and just as quick Yahiko ran back in with a bucket of water dumping all it's contents onto the fried fish. Kenshin watched as smoke rose and a small crackling like sound came from where the fish was, "so now what are we gonna eat?" Sano asked. Kenshin and Yahiko looked at him and sweat dropped.

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Kaoru walked onto the dojo porch and sighed, she pulled her jacket tighter and stepped onto the ground. She smiled and twirled in a circle before looking up at the sky, and then she felt something cold touch her, then something else she looked up at the sky and her smile widened as she screamed "IT'S SNOWING!" A snowflake touched her, then another, then another, and another, "Kenshin, Sano, Yahiko!" she called out happily as the three came running out "Miss Kaoru what i..." Kenshin froze in mid sentence as he felt the small white flakes fall onto him. "It's snowing" Yahiko smiled as he jumped off the porch and let the cold flakes touch his bare arms and face. Sano simply watch the site, Kenshin was holding out his hand and looking up at the sky, Kaoru was holding out her tongue and spinning around, while Yahiko held out his tongue also laughing with Kaoru. Sano saw Kenshin turn to face him, there was something about Kenshins look that kind of surprised him. He had a mixture of happiness and sadness, and through the snowflakes, which had gotten heavier Sano saw it Kenshin was actually crying.

Kenshin looked around and ran back inside the dojo his shoes leaving prints on the snow, covered ground. Kaoru stopped twirling and Yahiko turned to face the dojo entrance where Kenshin had opened the door and didn't bother to close it, Kaoru with a worried expression on her face ran into the dojo closing the door behind her. She walked around where she found Kenshin in his room looking out the window, "Kenshin are you alright?" Kaoru asked walking in. "Please leave Miss Kaoru" he said "what?" she asked in shock "please Miss Kaoru it's only more painful please leave" Kaoru frowned at those words but turned around and passed through his door that she had left open. Before closing it though she said to him "Kenshin you'll have to tell us sometime, I don't care how bloody your past is Kenshin but you can't always keep everything to yourself, you can't always keep things bottled up inside you, sometimes Kenshin you have to tell people how you feel." With that said she closed his door and left, 'sometimes Kenshin you have to tell people how you feel' Kenshin sighed and turned to face the door, it was time.

Kaoru walked away from Kenshin's door sadly, halfway down the hall she heard Kenshin calling to her "Miss Kaoru," he cried, "please come back."

Kaoru turned and looked at Kenshin, she walked over to him and walked into his room. "Miss Kaoru," Kenshin said, "I knew I would have to tell you sooner or later, I knew that this moment would come soon, Miss Kaoru..." Kenshin stopped, he couldn't continue, something was stopping him from telling her the truth he shook his head slightly. "Miss Kaoru I'm going too...I have too..." he looked into her eyes, they were filled with a mixture of sadness and happiness, but her face showed worry.

Kenshin quickly turned away from her and stood up tall, he had to do this there wasn't any other way, he sighed "Mis..." he began but Kaoru stopped him "Kenshin wait," she said, "I don't know what your going to tell me whether it's good news or bad news but I promised myself that I would tell you today that Kenshin...well I...I love...I love you" she finally got out.

She had finally said it, she had finally told him she loved him, but there was one more thing she had to tell him and said it with much more confidence "Kenshin I love you and I don't care if you don't love me back, like I said before Kenshin I will never take place of Tomoe, and I never will try." Then Kaoru got up and hugged Kenshin her face buried in his yukata, Kenshin looked down and saw her small hands intercepting. He didn't move at all, his mind told him to stay still he had made his decision and had to go through with it but then again his heart told him something different, it was telling him to understand that Tomoe had meant what she said when she told Kenshin he had to move on, but Kenshin didn't want to listen to his heart, so he listened to his mind. His hands reached and touched Kaoru's arms she gasped when he took her arms off his chest and turned to her. There was something different about him that Kaoru took in, his eyes weren't amber, he still had that long red hair tied in a low pony tail, then it struck her, Kenshin Himura had tears in his eyes. He looked her up and down "you're right Miss Kaoru," he sniffed before his voice went cold, "you won't the place of Tomoe" Kaoru gasped as Kenshin pushed her down on the floor, she gasped as he pulled out his sword.

Kaoru shook in fear his eyes...were amber and yet they were filled with tears. She looked at him and closed her eyes tight and sniffed when she heard the blade flip, "Miss Kaoru," Battousai said angrily, "I hope you lived what little a life you had."

Kaoru opened her eyes, and looked into the Battousai's, blue into amber, amber into blue, she looked at Battousai and sighed and said as the Battousai raised his sword in the air "you will always live your life in sorrow after this Kenshin, you will never be able to get rid of the pain no matter what you do." Battousai brought his sword down straight toward her he froze right before his sword chopped her in half, he looked at Kaoru she showed no fear almost as if ready too accept her death. He took a step back and held his head all those memories were coming back, the memories that he had finally gotten rid of had come back.

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'A young boy walked along the road next to a woman riding on a horse, they smiled at each other before they were attacked by a band of bandits, the woman quickly got off her horse and covered the red headed child. "Close your eyes Shinta don't look" she said but Shinta was able to see through an opening in her arms, "please spare him" cried another one of the women that had taken care off him, he closed his eyes when the a bandit sliced her in half. "You must run Shinta," cried the women that covered him, "you must live, we three have been able to chose our paths in life but you haven't you must live on Shinta." Shinta looked at her "run away and don't look back Shinta for you must live, you still have a life to go through you must..." she froze as a sword flew through her neck. She held it in shock "you must live" she finished before the sword was pulled out of her neck and she fell dead.

Shinta looked at the band in shock, he was filled with anger he looked around and saw a sword he picked it up and held it ready to attack. And then the next thing he knew he was staring at three rocks with a man standing next to him "so what's your name kid?" the man asked "Shinta" Shinta replied "Shinta huh? to soft for a swords man from on you will be called Kenshin" announced the man "Ken...shin" Shinta repeated. "I have found a student consider yourself lucky." It was Hiko when they had first met when Kenshin had been a mere child.

Kenshin stood there looking at a girl named Tomoe "you really make it rain...rain of blood" she whispered fainting in his arms. Then the next moment he was in the snow his sword jabbed through her stomach, she had run in the way of the attack and got hit herself, she fell in his lap and cut his cheek with her dagger making a cross shaped scar on his left cheek. She smiled and blood from his cheek her onto her face then her arm dropped the dagger fell out of her hand into the snow "Tomoe" Kenshin cried, the woman he loved was dead.

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Kenshin's eyes shot open, he was staring into blues eyes filled with worry, he dropped his sword and held his head and screamed "get away from me Kamiya Kaoru, get lost I don't ever want to see you again ever again!" he cried. Kaoru's eyes filled with tears and she ran out of the room crying.

She ran out of the dojo not bothering to put on her jacket, she ran out and fell in the snow but quickly got up again and ran. But everywhere she ran she remembered Kenshin. As she was running past the Akebeko she slowed down into a walk, "Kaoru what are doing out her without a jacket?!" Kaoru turned and saw Tae looking at her. Kaoru sniffed and ran over and fell into Tae's arms crying, she felt alone afraid. She couldn't speak to Sano, Yahiko, Megumi, or anyone about what happened, but she felt like she had to tell someone and the only person that was there for her right now was Tae.

Tae led Kaoru into the Akebeko to warm up, "where on earth were you heading?" Tae asked as they sat by the fire, "I don't know" Kaoru whispered. "Well you need to get a jacket here have the spare and you should head back to your dojo we're supposed to have heavy snow tonight and we don't want you wandering out there in the cold now do we?" Tae asked. Kaoru sniffed "thanks Tae, I'll see ya soon" Kaoru walked out, she couldn't tell Tae...not yet she just wasn't ready to tell her. Kaoru ran out of the Akebeko it was a lot colder then before and it had started to snow harder. "Maybe I should head back to the dojo like Tae said" Kaoru said to herself holding the jacket closer to her skin, 'get away from me Kamiya Kaoru, get lost I don't ever want to see you again ever again!' Kaoru frowned as she remembered those words. He had really hurt her, he had really hurt her heart there.

She turned around to walk back to the dojo when she felt a strong wind blow on her 'it's too cold to be out here,' she thought, 'I'll have to put up with him or I'll freeze to death.' How had it gotten so cold so quickly? She sighed and took a step, she was cold, she was very cold, another step, her face was practically white, another step, her lips dried and her body was numb, another step......very numb. Kaoru Kamiya was frozen stiff, the weather was almost unreal and then she fell, face down in the snow, cold and alone. 'What a terrible way to die,' she thought sadly, 'what a terrible way to die when the last thing you were told by the one you loved they never wanted to see your face again...is that what's gonna happen... I feel weaker by the second...slowly...so tired' Kaoru couldn't think, she couldn't, she was lifeless she was gone.

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Two weeks had passed since Kaoru had fallen in the snow, her body was never gone and Kenshin was mesmerized by what he had said to her. Why had he said that? He hadn't meant it, so why? He frowned and looked outside the snow had melted quite a bit and it seemed as if the weather was fake but it hadn't been Mother Nature had just been late in the season and it was getting warmer, it felt like it was summer but it wasn't. There were still cold winds and there was still no Kamiya Kaoru. 'I told you before I don't care at all about your past and I meant it' Kaoru had said that to him on the day they had first met. He shook his head in sadness why was his life like this? First Tomoe and now Kaoru when would the one's he loved ever be safe, why did Kaoru have to die and Tomoe die why...why...?

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Sano and Yahiko sat on the porch, things just weren't the same with out Kaoru around "it's so quite now" Yahiko said "it's almost as if we never met her" Sano sighed. Kenshin walked outside "it's amazing what silence does to you, that it is," he said quietly, "but I feel as if Miss Kaoru's still alive still there waiting for us to find her but no one's found her" Kenshin sat down. Sadness in his eyes he sighed, life just wasn't the same any more. He had gotten so used to Kaoru being around her laughter and yells, her screams and cries, her figure gone it was just not it just wasn't. Kenshin sighed and his eyes turned amber, someone was here watching them but it wasn't Kaoru no it was someone else, he quickly stood up "I'll be right back" he said to Yahiko and Sano before running off. The two looked at each other before going back to doing absolutely nothing but sitting there.

Kenshin ran out the dojo gates and made a turn "I know you're there so come out now" he called there was nothing, he definitely wasn't in the mood for this, "get out here before I go find you myself" he yelled pulling out his Reverse Blade Sword. "You've gotten quite angry haven't you Kenshin?" came a familiar female voice, a dagger flew right at him but he dodged it just in time. He saw it fly past him and get stuck in part of the dojo wall. He turned back to where the dagger had come from but no one was there anymore, they were all gone....he turned back to the dagger and pulled it put, it looked exactly like Tomoe's had...it was like he could smell white plums. There was even blood on the tip like when she had cut his cheek, he sighed and took off the note "what is up with people doing that?" he asked as he skimmed the note.

Dear Battousai,
Kaoru is alive....I have her....it's time for revenge.....this time I won't lose....blah blah blah.

Kenshin gasped 'Kaoru is alive.....I have her' he smiled and frowned at the same time, 'they were right it was time for revenge, and he would kill them just as he had killed Kenosha. With that he ran back to the dojo "this is going to be very interesting that it will" Kenshin said as he ran into his room.

Sano rolled a toothpick lazily around his mouth "man I'm bored and I don't have any money to gamble...I'm going out to eat" he said getting up and looking into the sky as he walked off to the Akebeko to eat. Yahiko stared after him as he left the dojo, he missed Kaoru, he missed calling her Busu, heck he just plain missed her in total. Every time he walked into the training hall he would remember Kaoru, every time he practiced he would remember her, every time he walked around in the dojo he felt her, he saw her smiling, oh how much he missed calling her Busu, he just felt so empty and alone. He sighed and pulled out his sword and began to swing but he just dropped it in annoyance as he thought of Kaoru punishing him.

He sniffed a little but walked back in the dojo leaving his bokken in the grass, slowly it began to rain.