Disclaimer: Ya'll know the deal
Dedication: All my reviewers!
Note: I need some OC's for a story...so if you have any please send them to me...THANKS! And yes I am still workin' on Dream. A/N: this is Ororo's diary entry after the date
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Chapter 4 - 4am
Depressed. That is how I have felt for the past couple days. Completely unloved, though not in the platonic sense. My life is filled with platonic love and it is wonderful of course. It used to be enough to get me through my days, until recently.
Even with all the people around me I felt completely alone. Yes, me the one worshipped as a goddess and rides storms with ease. I felt alone.
The weather was beginning to show my distress. The normally sunny afternoons were darkened with ominous gray clouds. Small tear-like drops dripped from these clouds representing the tears I dare not shed.
I kept my head up and forced a smile to form on my lips, but the dark clouds lingered. After my talk with Jean, I spoke with no one else about it and the rain just got heavier. The one day I forced the rain to stop was merely for a simple distraction. The gray sky was only depressing me even further, so I forced it to stop. But the clouds stayed within me.
Until recently. Now those clouds are beginning to part. Sitting here at four in the morning, with the songs we danced to floating through my mind, I can't help but think how happy I am. And yet the fact that the night is over now saddens me.
It is not that I had never noticed Logan, but instead it seemed he never noticed me. Ok, I know I am not making much sense, right? Brown skin, blue eyes, and white hair on the same person are impossible to ignore right? But I felt as if I was no more than the fuzzy background in a photograph.
I found myself attracted to him, but ignored those feelings when I saw him flirting with my best friend. I was not heart broken. I had no reason to be. Logan was just a friend to me. Or at least that what I convinced myself. I know I have feelings for him, but I am not sure who he feels about me.
After last night I am even more confused where our relationship is.
Are we still only friends?
Or is this becoming something more?
Was last night a date?
Or were we just out as friends?
If it was a date it would explain how nervous he was. I have never seen him nervous before...
Alright, I am not going to obsess over this. It is 4:30am and i have been out all night. I am going to rest and see what happens later on.
~Ororo
a/n: sorry that was so short.... Responses to Chapter 3 part 2 reviews:
TheWolf: Thanks as always!!!!!
Brandy: Glad you enjoyed it!
Lady Moon: Did you get my email?
Galandria: lol hope you enjoyed this chapter!!!
Responses to Chapter 3 part 1 Reviews:
Darlin: lol had to try and beat the Sabertooth flower comment ;)
Miranda: hope you liked part 2 and 4am!!!!!
Tiny Dancer: Thank you so much!!!
Bluemist Heatherfield: yeah this took awhile to update.I'll try to hurry next time! (
Dedication: All my reviewers!
Note: I need some OC's for a story...so if you have any please send them to me...THANKS! And yes I am still workin' on Dream. A/N: this is Ororo's diary entry after the date
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Chapter 4 - 4am
Depressed. That is how I have felt for the past couple days. Completely unloved, though not in the platonic sense. My life is filled with platonic love and it is wonderful of course. It used to be enough to get me through my days, until recently.
Even with all the people around me I felt completely alone. Yes, me the one worshipped as a goddess and rides storms with ease. I felt alone.
The weather was beginning to show my distress. The normally sunny afternoons were darkened with ominous gray clouds. Small tear-like drops dripped from these clouds representing the tears I dare not shed.
I kept my head up and forced a smile to form on my lips, but the dark clouds lingered. After my talk with Jean, I spoke with no one else about it and the rain just got heavier. The one day I forced the rain to stop was merely for a simple distraction. The gray sky was only depressing me even further, so I forced it to stop. But the clouds stayed within me.
Until recently. Now those clouds are beginning to part. Sitting here at four in the morning, with the songs we danced to floating through my mind, I can't help but think how happy I am. And yet the fact that the night is over now saddens me.
It is not that I had never noticed Logan, but instead it seemed he never noticed me. Ok, I know I am not making much sense, right? Brown skin, blue eyes, and white hair on the same person are impossible to ignore right? But I felt as if I was no more than the fuzzy background in a photograph.
I found myself attracted to him, but ignored those feelings when I saw him flirting with my best friend. I was not heart broken. I had no reason to be. Logan was just a friend to me. Or at least that what I convinced myself. I know I have feelings for him, but I am not sure who he feels about me.
After last night I am even more confused where our relationship is.
Are we still only friends?
Or is this becoming something more?
Was last night a date?
Or were we just out as friends?
If it was a date it would explain how nervous he was. I have never seen him nervous before...
Alright, I am not going to obsess over this. It is 4:30am and i have been out all night. I am going to rest and see what happens later on.
~Ororo
a/n: sorry that was so short.... Responses to Chapter 3 part 2 reviews:
TheWolf: Thanks as always!!!!!
Brandy: Glad you enjoyed it!
Lady Moon: Did you get my email?
Galandria: lol hope you enjoyed this chapter!!!
Responses to Chapter 3 part 1 Reviews:
Darlin: lol had to try and beat the Sabertooth flower comment ;)
Miranda: hope you liked part 2 and 4am!!!!!
Tiny Dancer: Thank you so much!!!
Bluemist Heatherfield: yeah this took awhile to update.I'll try to hurry next time! (