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My question definitely shocked him—he definitely wasn't expecting that, but his shock lasted only for a moment before he moved. He seemed eager enough to oblige me. In one fluid motion Kaname sat down next to me on the bed, pulling me onto his lap so I was straddling his thighs. The sudden shift in momentum causing me to gasp as the world spun around me. Kaname held my face in his hands and then very gently—suddenly—pressed his soft, full lips against mine in a smooth, captivating kiss.My breath immediately caught in my throat, unable to believe that this was actually happening. I know I was the one who had asked for this, but I never in a million years thought that he would oblige me.We always, always, seemed worlds apart.How many times have I pictured this exact moment, dreamed of it even, and now that it was actually happening I was too dumbfounded to actually be able to enjoy it.Kaname moved his lips slowly against mine at first, patiently, as if he were trying to guide my more clumsier mouth against his. I've never in my entire life been kissed before. His thumb brushed lightly along my jaw in a reassuring line—making me shiver against him as warmth spread through me. His other hand cupped the back of my head, keeping me thoroughly trapped to him. Not that it mattered. I was a willing prisoner. His lips parted then, his tongue brushing lightly across my lower lip, tantalizingly. Shyly, I parted my lips and he slipped his tongue inside, savoring the contours of my mouth and deepening our kiss.It was so foreign, and yet my body immediately was craving more.He was unhurried, to say the least. Kaname's mouth was so warm and soft against mine, taking his time to slowly taste my lips. I still couldn't catch my breath, gasping and clinging onto his broad shoulders, trying to process that he wanted this too and that it wasn't just me being pushy. My heart was beating so fast—slamming against my ribs almost painfully. Surely, he could hear it. How did he seem so calm right now when I was clearly such a mess?I felt him smile against my mouth. "Relax, Yuuki." he whispered against my lips, finally breaking our clumsy kiss to look down into my eyes.My vision felt so hazy as I gazed back up at him. It felt like the heat in my cheeks had flooded into my eyes, making my vision blur.I swear there was nothing but love in his wine-colored eyes.But how could I possibly relax right now? I never expected things could go this way, so suddenly. Even though I had asked for his kiss, I never imagined he'd grant my request so immediately, and that it'd be so intense."Wait!" I protested when his lips left mine—still gasping for the air that I couldn't quite seem to hold on to—reluctant for the moment to end so quickly before I got the chance to thoroughly enjoy kissing him, fearing I had turned him off from the whole affair with my embarrassing reaction. Reality couldn't hold a candle to that dream. I wasn't ready for this to end just yet.I wasn't left waiting for very long, though. Kaname tilted my head to the side, trailing slow, very deep kisses down the length of my neck, stopping at my collar bone, focusing on the spot where my pulse was throbbing the strongest, apparently intent on leaving a mark of his own behind.His long fingers twisted into the back of my hair then, pulling my head back more to gain better access to my throat as he lavished my neck with warm kisses. He was definitely making breathing impossible, like this. I shouldn't be surprised that he was so quick to also realize I liked having my hair pulled. Not that I even knew, until then, until now.Kaname gently sucked on the flesh of my throat, the tips of his fangs slightly scraping against my skin. He followed the length back up my neck even slower with his warm tongue in a sensuous line, lightly nipping my ear with his teeth. I moaned loudly at the sensation—clutching onto him tighter, digging my fingers in his shirt, feeling heat pool between my thighs, covering my mouth with the back of my hand, embarrassed at the involuntary sound I had just made.It was so loud and needy sounding. I couldn't believe it came from me. I was suddenly very away that I was straddling his thighs as more and more heat built up between my own.He must be aware of this, too.Dark red eyes stared down into mine. I had never seen Kaname's eyes look so red before, so raw and intense with emotion. He was hiding nothing from me now. They were completely different from that child monster's red eyes. I don't know how I could think to compare them to each other in a moment like this. Kaname was actually in control of his own actions, unlike that creature's desperate hunger. That simple fact took away any fear those blood red eyes may have held. It was incredibly erotic, if anything else. Those eyes had a way of stealing every thought away from me. I couldn't look away from them, not that I wanted to. They felt all consuming, like he could see right into my soul, and they stole away all coherent thought.Kaname gently pulled my hand away from my mouth. He brought my trembling fingers up to his lips, never breaking eye contact with me as he kissed each and every one of my fingertips."Did you enjoy that, Yuuki?" he asked sensuously between kisses, gesturing at the sound I had just made.I visibly trembled in response to his suggestive question—blushing all the harder, still trying to catch my breath as I watched him tease my fingers with his lips and tongue, not fully believing that this was all actually happening. Even though he was making me feel so shy, I didn't want to look away from him. In fact, I was certain looking away was impossible at this point. It would break the spell we had cast over each other.I nodded. "I don't want you to stop." I admitted, ready to be honest. We've been dancing around our hearts for years. I wrapped my free hand around his tie as I attempted to pull him closer against me, afraid that the moment might be over and he might disappear from my hands, that this might actually be another one of my lucid dream. I already needed more of him.Kaname gathered me into his arms, pulling me further up onto the bed with him. I sunk down into the soft sea of pillows."If you keep talking like that, my love, I won't be able to stop." he admitted, removing his tie and vest before tossing them carelessly onto the floor.Am I your love?I still can't ask it."Your eyes." I mentioned breathlessly as he settled his weight comfortably in-between my thighs on the bed, trapping me underneath the full weight of him. My skirt had bunched up around my waist at this point. I was so exposed to him right now, more than I ever had been. I couldn't help biting down on my lower lip now again—a nervous habit— feeling suddenly nervous about what we were doing. I had truly never felt so captivated before, not even by him. Blood red eyes bore down deeply into mine, such a deep, unadulterated shade of swirling crimson red. I had never before been so fully aware that he was a vampire—a Pureblood vampire—until right now, as I lay here underneath him, so completely at his mercy."Are you afraid now, Yuuki?" Kaname's eyes searched mine, looking for any visible indication that I might be regretting this now.I leaned forward and pressed my lips against his, attempting to pull him closer to me again, holding his face in my hands. They were shaking. If I said I wasn't nervous or scared, I'd be lying. But more than anything, I was so in love with him that I didn't want there to be any more space in-between us. I tugged gently on his lower lip with my teeth—trying to express to him how badly I wanted him—how I wasn't afraid of him. Not now, not ever.Maybe that was too expressive of me, though. I was definitely being eager. I've been wanting to kiss him for so long now. My notions caused Kaname to moan, low and seductive in the back of his throat. He grabbed onto the mattress near my head for support and rolled his hips purposefully into mine. I gasped, feeling him harden against my inner thigh as he pressed more firmly against me again. My gasps quickly became a moan as he brushed up against the most sensitive parts of me.It wasn't enough. I needed that foreign spark again. "Would...would you do that again?"He chuckled then, sounding strained and seemingly resigned. Kaname's hands slid slowly down my bare sides to grasp my hips and he moved against me again, over and over again in a steady rhythm that soon left me gasping for breath, pleasing us both."I am always so foolishly yielding to your every whim, aren't I?" Kaname leaned forward until his forehead pressed to mine. "You command my heart so easily; with a simple word, a wave of your delicate hand, just your sweet smile. Do you know how I lie awake at night, consumed with nothing but thoughts of only you? How desperately I yearn for you?"He had barely touched me and I was already coming undone against his soft ministrations.How can I make him understand that it's the same for me? That he is all that is in my heart, my mind? So much so that it's physically painful when he isn't near me.I dug my nails into his back, clinging to him tightly, tears blinding my vision."I love you."