Beginnings and Endings
Author: Verinthalia
Summary: What happened after Sunnydale sank and when the truth is compelled.
Rated :pg-13
Chapter 3 Lies, Lies, Lies.
Thanks for the wonderful reviews.I know that others feel the same way, that things were left unfinished. As for needing a spell to compel the truth, we have all learned that this bunch can't be honest any other way. The line or order of Aurelius is the 'bloodline' or clan that Darla, Angelus, Druscilla, and William the blood descend from. The Master sired Darla in 1609 then she sired Angelus in 1760, then he sired Druscilla in 1860, and she sired Spike in 1880.Episode 7 Season 2 of Angel covered that when Wolfram and Hart brought Darla back. In the Joss verse vampires of the same 'line' can feel each other, like a psychic link. I do stay very close to cannon; I hate to mess with a good thing. To that end I spend a lot of time at Buffyworld reading transcript of the shows. Joss' characters are wonderfully complex and intriguing. It's almost a literary sin to change them. Please enjoy my work, and keep reading, 'Beginnings and Endings' will probably a nice long story. I'll try to post at least twice, sometimes3 times a week, but real life tends to gets in the way.
***** Now back the story*****
Dawn sat her tale retold, as they all shifted in their seats. Willow cleared her throat.
"That was the same night that the First came to me. It appeared as Cassie, remember the girl that had foresight, and died of a bad heart?" She paused and looked around.
"I was in the UC Sunnydale library studying, and She just walked up and sat down. She said she was here to talk to me for Tara. She knew things.Things only Tara would have known. She asked me questions that Tara would have asked. She said that I could never again use Magic that if I did it would consume me and destroy everything and everyone I knew. To quote her, 'You're not gonna be ok. You're gonna kill everybody'." She said that Giles and the Coven were wrong that the evil was so deep inside that I couldn't control it."
She swallowed hard and continued, "I said I wasn't sure I could do it. Never use magic again. Then she said that there was a way I could be with Tara, and I could be sure I'd never use the magic again. She hinted that I knew how. I asked her how?" She sighed deeply
"She was pushing me to suicide, with the promise that Tara and I could be together forever. That was when I knew it was a lie."
Willows eyes grew hard and glistened, " I asked who she was, why was she hurting me? She said I didn't know what hurting was. That the last year would seem like cake after she was finished with my friends and I. She said she wasn't a fan of easy death, that she was tired of the good vs. evil balance, that she was going for the big finish."
Willow voice grew stronger, "I quoted 'from beneath you it devours' and she answered not it 'me'. Then her began to morph into a big evil grin that turned inside out and disappeared."
" What do you mean morphed? Like in X men or." Xander asked.
Willow shot him a look of disgust. "She made me feel like the old geeky Willow, The fledging witch that always messed up, like you all have made me feel in the past. Every time something weird or hinky or mystical went wrong you all have suspected me. You all remember my mistakes, but you forget it when I do things right, like when I re-souled Angel the first time. I just wish Buffy could have stalled like I asked." She paused.
"Like you asked? Xander said nothing like that to me. He said you said to 'kick his ass'. Do you mean to tell me that . " Buffy spun and stared at the one-eyed man. "You lied to me??"
"Xander! You knew I was casting the spell when you left the hospital that day. I told you specifically to tell her. To warn Buffy to hold off on the killing and stuff." Willow liquid green eyes flashed and she seemed to almost glow. "What else have you lied to us about? Hum? Have you always lied when we didn't do what you wanted? Do you try to control us with misinformation?"
She pinned him to his chair like an insect specimen on display.
"Wills, Buffster, isn't not like that." He stammered.
Giles cut in, "I think it is like that. I think you've bent the truth for over seven years to please yourself to enhance your image. I know you have. You remember everything about your possession by the hyena. You asked me not to tell. Why?"
"Well, I um." He fidgeted.
"Because he tried to rape me, and he was a real ass to Willow and everyone else. If he didn't remember then he couldn't be blamed. Like he blames everyone else for human mistakes." Buffy snapped.
"Time for the truth, why did you leave Anya? Was she right are you just a scared little boy hiding behind dumb jokes? Why do you seem to hate every man I've ever dated with exception of Riley?" Buffy demanded.
"He's the only human you every dated." Snapped Xander.
"I see so it's ok for everybody else to date outside of species but me. Why? You've dated a giant Preying Mantis, a Mummy Girl, A vengeance Demon, and that Goat-eyed thing in the school basement, Willow dated a werewolf, and a computer demon, but I can't. Is it because I turned you down for the Spring Fling in our sophomore year?" Buffy ranted.
"Yes Xander, or is it because you think that if she wouldn't give in and date you no one else is good enough for her? Why did you ignore me for all those years when you knew I had a major crush on you? Why did you torment me with Cordelia? Then when I found Oz, you played with my emotions to the point I almost lost him? Are you that insecure? Do you need a harem of women around you to make you feel strong and masculine?" Willow asked.
"It's because if vampires are good enough for her than I'm less than a demon. The real reason I left Anya is because what that guy showed me. Our future. Anya and me with 2 kids the second one a floppy eared demon hybrid, not mine. The two of us fighting, her blaming me for pushing her away because of Buffy, and Buffy's death. Then she said 'She hated me and hated our life, that she should have left me.' " He sighed.
"In the future we had grown apart, and both of us had turned bitter. Then I became my dad, a mean violent drunk. I couldn't do that to her. I couldn't tell her that yes I love her, but I love Buffy more. I was settling for her." He slumped in his chair.
In a wounded voice he asked, " Why Buffy? Why don't you love me? Why am I just the comic relief in your life? Is it because my dad was right that I'm just a useless excuse for a man? I'm the reason they got married you know. Mom got knocked up, so they got married. Dad hated mom. He felt trapped. She knew it, but in a sick way she loved that, that power to trap him to ruin his life. It gave her a reason to blame him for her mundane existence."
"Willow, I 'm so sorry for the crap I pulled on you. You're right I have a need to have you girls want me around. I craze someone to want me, to need me. I look for value in the way others see me. I guess it's time I grew up and found my own value." He sighed.
***** Bad place to stop, but I need to rethink how I want this to play out. I want Xander to grow up and face life. But I don't want to shred him doing it.
Author: Verinthalia
Summary: What happened after Sunnydale sank and when the truth is compelled.
Rated :pg-13
Chapter 3 Lies, Lies, Lies.
Thanks for the wonderful reviews.I know that others feel the same way, that things were left unfinished. As for needing a spell to compel the truth, we have all learned that this bunch can't be honest any other way. The line or order of Aurelius is the 'bloodline' or clan that Darla, Angelus, Druscilla, and William the blood descend from. The Master sired Darla in 1609 then she sired Angelus in 1760, then he sired Druscilla in 1860, and she sired Spike in 1880.Episode 7 Season 2 of Angel covered that when Wolfram and Hart brought Darla back. In the Joss verse vampires of the same 'line' can feel each other, like a psychic link. I do stay very close to cannon; I hate to mess with a good thing. To that end I spend a lot of time at Buffyworld reading transcript of the shows. Joss' characters are wonderfully complex and intriguing. It's almost a literary sin to change them. Please enjoy my work, and keep reading, 'Beginnings and Endings' will probably a nice long story. I'll try to post at least twice, sometimes3 times a week, but real life tends to gets in the way.
***** Now back the story*****
Dawn sat her tale retold, as they all shifted in their seats. Willow cleared her throat.
"That was the same night that the First came to me. It appeared as Cassie, remember the girl that had foresight, and died of a bad heart?" She paused and looked around.
"I was in the UC Sunnydale library studying, and She just walked up and sat down. She said she was here to talk to me for Tara. She knew things.Things only Tara would have known. She asked me questions that Tara would have asked. She said that I could never again use Magic that if I did it would consume me and destroy everything and everyone I knew. To quote her, 'You're not gonna be ok. You're gonna kill everybody'." She said that Giles and the Coven were wrong that the evil was so deep inside that I couldn't control it."
She swallowed hard and continued, "I said I wasn't sure I could do it. Never use magic again. Then she said that there was a way I could be with Tara, and I could be sure I'd never use the magic again. She hinted that I knew how. I asked her how?" She sighed deeply
"She was pushing me to suicide, with the promise that Tara and I could be together forever. That was when I knew it was a lie."
Willows eyes grew hard and glistened, " I asked who she was, why was she hurting me? She said I didn't know what hurting was. That the last year would seem like cake after she was finished with my friends and I. She said she wasn't a fan of easy death, that she was tired of the good vs. evil balance, that she was going for the big finish."
Willow voice grew stronger, "I quoted 'from beneath you it devours' and she answered not it 'me'. Then her began to morph into a big evil grin that turned inside out and disappeared."
" What do you mean morphed? Like in X men or." Xander asked.
Willow shot him a look of disgust. "She made me feel like the old geeky Willow, The fledging witch that always messed up, like you all have made me feel in the past. Every time something weird or hinky or mystical went wrong you all have suspected me. You all remember my mistakes, but you forget it when I do things right, like when I re-souled Angel the first time. I just wish Buffy could have stalled like I asked." She paused.
"Like you asked? Xander said nothing like that to me. He said you said to 'kick his ass'. Do you mean to tell me that . " Buffy spun and stared at the one-eyed man. "You lied to me??"
"Xander! You knew I was casting the spell when you left the hospital that day. I told you specifically to tell her. To warn Buffy to hold off on the killing and stuff." Willow liquid green eyes flashed and she seemed to almost glow. "What else have you lied to us about? Hum? Have you always lied when we didn't do what you wanted? Do you try to control us with misinformation?"
She pinned him to his chair like an insect specimen on display.
"Wills, Buffster, isn't not like that." He stammered.
Giles cut in, "I think it is like that. I think you've bent the truth for over seven years to please yourself to enhance your image. I know you have. You remember everything about your possession by the hyena. You asked me not to tell. Why?"
"Well, I um." He fidgeted.
"Because he tried to rape me, and he was a real ass to Willow and everyone else. If he didn't remember then he couldn't be blamed. Like he blames everyone else for human mistakes." Buffy snapped.
"Time for the truth, why did you leave Anya? Was she right are you just a scared little boy hiding behind dumb jokes? Why do you seem to hate every man I've ever dated with exception of Riley?" Buffy demanded.
"He's the only human you every dated." Snapped Xander.
"I see so it's ok for everybody else to date outside of species but me. Why? You've dated a giant Preying Mantis, a Mummy Girl, A vengeance Demon, and that Goat-eyed thing in the school basement, Willow dated a werewolf, and a computer demon, but I can't. Is it because I turned you down for the Spring Fling in our sophomore year?" Buffy ranted.
"Yes Xander, or is it because you think that if she wouldn't give in and date you no one else is good enough for her? Why did you ignore me for all those years when you knew I had a major crush on you? Why did you torment me with Cordelia? Then when I found Oz, you played with my emotions to the point I almost lost him? Are you that insecure? Do you need a harem of women around you to make you feel strong and masculine?" Willow asked.
"It's because if vampires are good enough for her than I'm less than a demon. The real reason I left Anya is because what that guy showed me. Our future. Anya and me with 2 kids the second one a floppy eared demon hybrid, not mine. The two of us fighting, her blaming me for pushing her away because of Buffy, and Buffy's death. Then she said 'She hated me and hated our life, that she should have left me.' " He sighed.
"In the future we had grown apart, and both of us had turned bitter. Then I became my dad, a mean violent drunk. I couldn't do that to her. I couldn't tell her that yes I love her, but I love Buffy more. I was settling for her." He slumped in his chair.
In a wounded voice he asked, " Why Buffy? Why don't you love me? Why am I just the comic relief in your life? Is it because my dad was right that I'm just a useless excuse for a man? I'm the reason they got married you know. Mom got knocked up, so they got married. Dad hated mom. He felt trapped. She knew it, but in a sick way she loved that, that power to trap him to ruin his life. It gave her a reason to blame him for her mundane existence."
"Willow, I 'm so sorry for the crap I pulled on you. You're right I have a need to have you girls want me around. I craze someone to want me, to need me. I look for value in the way others see me. I guess it's time I grew up and found my own value." He sighed.
***** Bad place to stop, but I need to rethink how I want this to play out. I want Xander to grow up and face life. But I don't want to shred him doing it.