Ok people. I'm going to say this once. It doesn't mean to be rude to anyone, but I HAVE A LIFE! My world does not revolve around my fanfics, so stop leaving mean reviews that tell me to update! You try doing renovations and writing at the same time! Thanks to those who actually submitted nice reviews. I mean, I get it if you ask me to update, just try and do it politely.
Alter Ego
It was in the early hours the morning after the incident at the club. The entire mansion was silent, as Sakura observed from her room. I swear you could almost hear a fucking pin drop! she fumed silently. Sakura didn't like the lack of noise. It left far too much for the mind to think about.
Wincing at the remembrance of her encounter with Tomoyo, Sakura rolled over in an attempt to get comfortable. It was very hard to get a decent night's sleep, what with all the info running through her head, but even more when she had realized what day it was today.
Today was the anniversary of her parents' death. It had been exactly thirteen years since she had found them mangled in their bed. Though she wouldn't admit it to anyone, she was still haunted by that scene. God knows if it would ever go away, but that doesn't mean she wouldn't try to get rid of it.
I hate this fucking silence! her mind screamed as she rolled over yet again, hoping to find the slumber that seemed to evade her that night. Crystalline tears began to form in Sakura's mind as she realized that she would find to release tonight.
Sighing loudly in exasperation, Sakura violently kicked off her covers and got out of bed. Since she couldn't sleep, why not pound out her frustration? Completely ignoring the fact that she was wearing her red silk pajama bottoms and a white tank top, she opened her door and walked down the hall, careful to be quiet. The last thing she needed was Syaoran, Eriol and Meiling on her case.
The training room was in the basement, away from prying eyes. How would it look if someone where to show up and see a room full of not only exercise equipment, but also guns, daggers and other things of that sort? Not too good...
Walking as though in a trance, Sakura found that the room was growing closer without her noticing. Imagine her surprise when she found that she had already arrived at her destination. I guess that's the price for letting your mind wander.
The training room was an impressive room, with mats covering the floor and walls. On the wall opposite to the door, there hung a variety of weapons, including several katanas, some wakazashi, nunchaku, and shuriken. There were also a large number of guns. Throughout the room, there was exercise equipment, ranging from treadmills to weightlifters. There was also a small sparing area, for martial arts duels.
There was a stereo on a stand next to the door. Perfect. Checking to make sure it was the CD she wanted, she pressed play and let the words flow through the air.
I see a red door and I want it painted black.
No colors anymore, I want them to turn black.
II see the girls walk by dressed in their summer clothes.
I have to turn my head until my darkness goes.
Heading straight for the punching bag, she took a fighting stance and punched it for all it was worth. With each punch she forgot a little of how fucked up her life was, until all she saw was the bag (which was strangely similar looking to Anubis' face).
I see a line of cars and they are all painted black.
With flowers and my love both never to come back.
I see people turn their heads and quickly look away.
Like a newborn baby, it just happens everyday.
I look inside myself and see my heart is black.
I see my red door and it's heading into black.
Maybe then I'll fade away and not have to face the facts.
It's not easy facing up when your whole world is black
Boy was that that true. It seemed like her whole life was just one big fucked up mess, and there was no way to fix it. It had been hard before, what with all the pretending and holding back, but Sakura realized it was only going to get harder - and deadlier - now that Anubis was back. If she knew Anubis (and she did), he would stop at nothing to get the only thing that he couldn't possess... her.
I wanna see it painted, painted, painted black, oh baby
I wanna see it painted, painted, painted black, oh baby
I wanna see it painted, painted black, oh
Black as night, black as coal
I wanna see the sun blotted from the sky
Painted, painted, painted black oh baby
Painted painted, painted black
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Punching with such fury, the poor punching bag looked like it was about to fall apart. Damn that fucking asshole Anubis! He's the only one that makes me lose my cool! Sakura thought bitterly. She gave the bag a roundhouse kick that left it swaying dangerously, creaking the whole way.
Sakura was breathing hard and dwelling in her thoughts. Maybe this was the reason that she didn't hear the figure that walked up behind her.
"Have a nice workout? I could hear it all the way from upstairs," came the mocking deep voice from behind her. Spinning around, Sakura almost collided with her "cousin's" chest. He was wearing a smirk, and his eyes held deep amusement. "I am ashamed to call you a Black Wolf. You couldn't even hear me coming!"
"Go to hell," spat Sakura, attempting to pass him. It didn't' work as Syaoran blocked her with his arm.
"I never knew Anubis could get you so fired up," he remarked, looking at her accusingly. "It would be bad for the gang if you were to lose your head in a fight. It could mean disaster for the lot of us."
Not really in a mood to argue, Sakura said, "I won't okay? Just let me pass. I would kind of like to get out all of my frustration right now, and you aren't helping. You're just giving me more frustration. So buh bye!" She waved her hand pointedly in front of his face.
Putting his hands into the pockets of his pajama bottoms, Syaoran said casually, "So fight me."
Giving him a look of disbelief, Sakura proceeded to laugh. "Fight you? I don't think so. I wouldn't want to injure you more than I already have today." She smirked at him. "I've given you quite a beating today, ne? Just shows who the better Wolf is"
Growling, Syaoran pushed her against the wall and pinned her there. "Just because you hurt me when I wasn't expecting it, does not mean that you are the better Wolf! I have trained longer and harder than you ever will!"
Those words, however, were lost to Sakura. Suddenly feeling dizzy, she tried not to let the strange emotions sweep her away, but with little use. The young woman couldn't help but notice just how strong he was, cute his hair looked, or how great his body looked.
Anger slowly dissipating, Syaoran also began to make observations. Sakura's supple breasts where heaving up and down as she panted, partly out of anger and partly because of her earlier workout. Her mouth was partially open and he could just catch a glimpse of a pink tongue. It was then that Syaoran felt his body starting to respond. Damn! She got me twice in one day! He let go of her and left before anything else could be said.
"Well that was different," Sakura muttered to herself. Her stomach tingled in a way that she hadn't felt since...
That's crazy! Sakura admonished. She turned off the stereo and made her way back to her room where she finally found sleep.
Cursing the sunlight that awoke her, Sakura rolled over and pulled the covers over her head. Today, she was going to wallow in self-pity, right in the comfort of her own bed, and nothing was going to make her get up.
"Sakura! Your new car is in!"
Damn it anyways! thought Sakura, jumping up from bed, pulling on some clothes, she rushed downstairs. At the bottom was Meiling looking extremely pleased with herself. It was then that Sakura figured something was amiss.
Turning away from her, Meiling called out, "See? I told you it would work! If there is one Sakura-chan can't resist, it's a new car! Whose da bomb?!"
Realizing that this was all a plot to get her out of her room, Sakura quickly turned around and started to up the stairs when a pair of arms grabbed her. It was Eriol and he was wearing a most amused expression.
"Eriol, let me go this instant," Sakura growled, wishing she had avoided temptation and stayed in bed where she was safe from her crazy family. "That's an order!"
"Sorry couz, but I got my orders from the head cheese," grinned Eriol. "He said, and I quote, 'make sure Sakura can't stay in her room all day. Do whatever it takes to get her out, and don't you dare let her get away.' Besides, Syaoran bet Meiling and I that we couldn't get you to stay out here, and I'm looking forward to that money in my pocket."
Cursing her uncle and cousins, Sakura relented and let Eriol pulled her down the stairs and into the kitchen. On the counter was a plate of her favorite breakfast foods. Sighing exasperatedly, she sat down on the counter stool and began to slowly eat her breakfast.
Meiling came and sat beside her. "Listen Sakura, for what it's worth, I'm sorry. I know this is a tough day for you... I can't even begin to imagine what you went through, and I don't think I want to. Listen, I'm here for you, no matter what. If you need to cry, just~"
Roughly standing up, Sakura looked at Meiling, and at Lang, Syaoran, Eriol and Tomoyo who had just entered. They were all looking at her with pitying looks (except for Syaoran, but he was at least without his usual glare).
"Don't look at me like that!" Sakura yelled. "I don't need your pity! I don't need anything from you! You say you're sorry and that you know what it's like, but you don't! I was five! Five mother fucking years old when I found them, so just shut the hell up!"
She shook her head and sprinted out of the room, grabbing her jacket and car keys from their designated spots and ignoring the cries coming from the other room. Heading out to the garage, she stepping into her silver BMW Z4 Roadster. Roaring the engine to life, she pulled out and zoomed past the family member that had articulated on the driveway trying to stop her.
Speeding down the streets, Sakura wove in and out of traffic, earning many of honks and swears out open windows. These all fell on deaf ears. As slow tears streamed down her cheeks - something that hadn't happened in a long while - she realized where she was heading. Swerving onto the off ramp, she was making her way to the little town of Tomoeda.
It had been so long since she had been there, and yet that's where her parents were buried. Sakura wondered why she hadn't even gone to see the gravesite in all the years she'd been living with her uncle. Probably because she felt like she could have protected them... as crazy as that sounds, Sakura blamed herself for the murder of her parents. Why didn't she hear the people when they came into her house? Why didn't she wake up and call the police? Why, why, why?
Snapping out of her thoughts and not wanting to dwell on them further, Sakura turned on her radio. The music was a welcomed relief on her poor mind. It let her forget everything, and soon she found herself drumming her fingers along with the beat.
Forty-five minutes later, the roadster was parked in front of a small graveyard that was littered with cherry blossom trees. All the tombstones were white rock, spanning in various shapes and sizes. Following the cobblestone path, she came to the middle of the graveyard where one of the large trees was situated. At the bottom of the tree were two tombstones. As she approached she read:
Beloved husband
Beloved Father
Beloved Friend
Nadeshiko Kinomoto
May the stars shine down on your beauty
both inside and out
Falling to her knees in front of the markers, Sakura's tears began to flow once again. "Otou-san... Okaa-san... It's been a long time, ne? Sorry I didn't come and see you sooner, and that I don't even have some flowers to leave with you. I kind of came here without thinking. I - I want to apologize for not being able to help you so many years ago. I should have heard, and I'm sorry."
"What a touching reunion," came the seductive voice dripping with sarcasm from behind her. Whirling around, Sakura came face to face with the one man that she did not want to see at that particular moment... or anytime for that matter.
Anubis.
A/N: I was going to make it longer but I just didn't feel up to typing anymore, so I decided to post what I did have. Hope you enjoyed.