Chapter Twelve
(The Next Morning)
** Without even opening my eyes I slowly stretch feeling his strong arms around me and am I thinking? Damn I am thinking about how hot that he is making me feel even why we are asleep. Fuck. Oh no maybe I shouldn't even think that word right now. I slowly open up my eyes and I have to smile because I know it wasn't just a dream. I am still nude and laying in his arms under the covers of my bed. I am almost afraid to move because I don't want to wake him up. I also don't want to have to move out of the warmth and strength of his arms. But something in me wants to turn over just so that I can watch him sleep. Oh hell and when I do to my surprise he is looking down at me smiling. Apparently he has been watching me sleep. He is smiling that damn sexy smile of his down at me and I feel that I am already melting to his wishes. He is pulling me slowly up his body so that we can kiss. God how I love the feel of his lips on my own. To say nothing of how good it feels to feel his skin against my. I feel so warm and safe when own lips touch. He is slowly started to kiss from my lips down my neck to my throat. He is slowly going under my blanket when damn it the phone starts to ring. We both groan and start laughing. Mark comes up out of my blanket and smiles at me as I reach for the damn phone. I glance at the clock and see that it is almost twenty to nine o'clock in the morning. Damn I know we didn't finally drift off to sleep till sometime after five this morning. Mark places his head on my stomach and watches me as I answer the phone. And to my surprise it is Linda on the other end of the phone. **
Lilah: Hello?
Linda: Hello Lilah, Hi I'm sorry to call you so early especially since Vince told you that you didn't have to be back here till about two today.
Lilah: That's ok Linda what can I do for you?
** Mark all of a sudden starts licking a trail down the center of my chest making me to squirm. I shot him what I hope to be my most threatening look that I have. I try not to laugh and smack him lightly on the top of the head. He stops what he is doing but is grinning like crazy at me. **
Linda: Well Ron and I would like you to sit in on a writing meeting today. That is in less you changed your mind about wanting to write and Valet both.
** I glance down at Mark just as an evil thought goes popping into my evil little mind. I try not to smile so that Mark doesn't know that I'm pulling one on him again. Not that he doesn't have it coming but good. Hell I still owe him for running his hand up my skirt as I was getting out of the limo last night. And he still has my panties to boot. Anyway I hope that I can pull this off without laughing. **
Lilah: Well Linda now that you mention it I am have second thoughts on being able to do just that. I mean the writing part is what I have always wanted to do but...
** I can hear the intake of breath from Linda. Damn I hope that Linda has a sense of humor. Mark is glancing up at me with a serious look on his face. **
Linda: You made a beautiful Valet yesterday. Just what Vince and I was hoping for.
Lilah: Thank you Linda.
Linda: So what is it that you are worried about Lilah? What can we do to make it work for you?
Lilah: What I'm worried about is well I don't think that Mark and Glen will be happy with me in the long run. I'm not the right kind of girl. I mean I'm a mom who doesn't know too much about wrestling. And I don't think I'm the kind of girl that should be out there with them.
Linda: Why not?
Lilah: I'm not high class and beautiful. I'm hell I came for low class people...
** Mark starts to frown and leans forward touching my face. Damn I didn't mean for it to come out that way. I guess in some ways I am having some doubts and without meaning to I just voiced them. Damn I try to look away from those beautiful green eyes but he won't let me. **
Linda: Lilah I know that both Mark and Glen want you. Hell Glen called here this morning with a few ideas that we want to bounce off of you and then Mark. I had tried to call Mark but he's not in the hotel and his cell is off right now so I'm not sure were he is at.
** God I sure as hell ain't going to tell her that right now he is laying next to me with his leg between mine slowly running his had in patterns on my stomach. Hell just his touch is making it had to concentrate on what Linda is saying. **
Linda: That is the reason I was hoping that you could be here by about twelve thirty for a lunch meeting?
** I finally look away from Mark but I can feel him watching me still. I wish I could get up and walk out of the room but I'm still a little shy. Damn it I guess all I can do is ask Linda and be damned about the fall out. **
Lilah: Linda are you sure that I'm the kind of girl that you and Vince want for such a job. I mean especially with shit I mean..
Linda: Yes we want you. Hell I think that you getting soaked by our limo was gods way of bring you to us. And Damn it Lilah you are the same as everyone else that is part of this family. And you are just that part of a family now.
Lilah: I never really been a part of a family before.
Linda: Well you are now.
** Damn it now I have tears running down my cheeks. A family if only Linda knew how badly I have wanted just that? To belong some where. Chance is my family and Mrs. O'Mallory too but I have always hoped for more. I don't want Chance to feel like I did growing up. I know that I will be there and that nothing at this point could stop me from being the best damn Valet that the WWE has ever had. Hell I wonder if I could get someone to show me a little bit of how they wrestle too. I'll have to ask Linda at the meeting later. **
Lilah: Linda I will be there and thank you so much for the chance to be there.
Linda: You're welcome Lilah and Thank you for giving us what you have and what I'm sure you will give in the future.
** Damn. After hanging up the phone I turn back to Mark who is now sitting up and staring at me. I can tell just by the look on his face that he has questions for me. As much as I don't want to I know that I will have to tell him why? Why hell I am going to blow this before I even have a real chance to start. Before he can ask me anything I tell him that I have to be to the arena in Moline by 12:30 instead of 2:00. It's just about ten to nine so I hope that by leaning forward and kissing him that I can distract him. I know that he want to know about me just like I want to know about him. But I'm scared. I'm shaking so much that he reaches over and hugs me to him telling me that it will be ok. That nothing or no one is going to hurt me. God how I wish that he was telling the truth. I finally push away from him because I know that it is either now or never. I am going to share parts of myself that I have never shared with another person. I look in his eyes and can read what looks like love in them. Love? God girl don't you have an imagination. Well here goes nothing. **
Lilah: Shit Mark there are something that I think you should know about me. Some things that I am not proud of but maybe if I tell you well then maybe you will understand me.
Mark: Ok.
Lilah: I just hope that it doesn't ruin our relationship when I tell you.
Mark: Lilah we're friends and will always be friends. Nothing you are going to say will change that.
** He smiles at me causing me to smile back at him. Well here goes nothing because this is going to be one of the hardest things I have done in a long time. So for the next almost an hour I tell Mark things about myself that I have never told anyone else. I tell him about growing up in the shit hole of a town where my mom and dad make porn films for a living. How my four bothers and two other sisters all star in them with others from our town. I tell him about how for my seventeenth birthday how my parents gave me a garter belt and a cut bra and then told me how it was my turn to join the family business. I can tell by the look in his eyes how mad he is getting and I must have looked scared because he pulled me into his arms and just held me why I finish my story about my family. I told him how I told my parents that I wouldn't do it that there was no way they could make me. I then told Mark how they said then to get out and that I was dead to them. That I was nothing and never would be anything. God Mark just keeps hugging me closer and rubbing my back and now I can't stop the tears from falling. I tell Mark how my father got me fired from my job by telling my boss who as a deacon in the church how I was sleeping with all the boys in the choir. And how I was doing it right there in the church parking lot. They figured that if I didn't have a job then I would have no other choice but to do what they wanted. They were wrong hell damn wrong. I told Mark how I went home and how that night with out saying good bye I packed my little junk of a car with the few belongings that I had. How they watched and said that I would be back with in a month begging to be let back in. I head out of town that night not looking back. Mark pushes me back gently so that he can see into my eyes. **
Mark: Lilah you are so brave and so special. God little girl why would you think that someone wouldn't still like you?
Lilah: Mark my parents..
Mark: Darling you don't chose whom you're parents are. And nothing that they do is your fault. Hell you were just a kid. Hell for that fact how old are you?
Lilah: I'll be twenty-one in a little over two weeks.
** Mark then let out a slow whistle. Just by the look on his face he thought that I was at least a few years older. He smiles down at me. I can tell that he is trying to do some math in his head. So I might as well make it ease for him and I tell him that I got pregnant the day after my seventeen birthday. **
Mark: Lilah what about the father of Chance?
Lilah: I met him in a little bar on the out skirts of town.
** I was not going to tell him the story of my knight in shining armor but I do anyway. I tell Mark how I had stopped for a drink in a little dive. How my knight had saved me from a drunk and we ended up sitting and not really talking but just being there with him helped me. I think it helped him too or at least I hope that I did. I tell Mark also how we ended up in his motel room later that night to the early morning hours just having sex. Mark just holds me again while I tell him how this man, this knight in shining armor was my first. He was the first man I was ever with and how when I left his room how I was pregnant and wouldn't even know it till almost two months later. I even tell him how I went back to see if I could find out who he was because we never even exchanged our names. But that the hotel couldn't help me because some group had rented a whole block of rooms and they didn't know who was in which. I also tell him that when I went with the man that it wasn't about love but just the need to be with someone to be touched by someone who only wanted to be touched back. I also tell him that how I have never been sorry that I went to that Motel with my knight and that he had given me more to live for then anyone else ever had in my life. How without Chance I wouldn't have made it here today. I look down because I'm afraid to look into Marks eyes. Afraid that he will think that I am a low life just like my family was. I jump when Mark finally talks. Not because he talks loud but because his voice is soft and has a lot of emotion in it. **
Mark: Lil look at me.
** I look up at him and there are tears in his eyes and a few even on his cheeks. In a soft husky voice filled with tears Mark tells me that I am special and that he would bet that some how I help my knight as much as he helped me. And that he better never hear me talk down about myself again because from here on out I'm his girl. Damn this man is going to be the death of me because I don't know weather to laugh or cry. I have never been any ones girl before but in my heart I liked the idea. I can't help but grab him and kiss him. He kisses me back just as deeply as I just kissed him. I look at the clock and know that we don't have a lot of time especially if I wanted to call and talk to Chance before going to the arena being I won't see him to Glen gets him to the arena tonight. So I grab onto Marks hand and pull him out of bed and toward the shower with me. This makes Mark laugh and he picks me up and carries my down the hallway to the shower. I know that we have to be quick but I also know that it will be fun. **
Author Notes: Please Read and Review because I have been blocked on this story and want to know if this chapter makes sense.
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Cat Lea
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