Chapter Twenty Five
(Oh Well Life Has To Move On)
** Oh fuck. Shit just what the hell I needed right now is that goddamn smell and now I am going to be sick. Great I can feel hands helping me to turn over and this way I am not getting sick and dying from it. God I wish I was dying. I mean maybe its all a dream. Shit it ain't no damn fucking dream because Dr. Allen is telling me to breathe deeply and the ER doctor is holding the damn pan for me to get sick in. After I'm done a nurse who must have been the one holding my back wipes my mouth and face off. They are all looking at me with a lot of concern in their eyes. Concern for the stupid little girl who's not even twenty-one yet and is pregnant for the second time. Damn I just want to close my eyes and forget that this is really happening. Oh damn that is just what I need now I can hear Mark and Glen both demanding to be let back into the room. I have just got to sit up but the doctors are trying to get me to lay back down. Fuck no I want up and that is where I am going to be. Well I must have given them one hell of a look because they have both backed off and is allowing that nurse to help me up. There are both looking at me as if they expect me to fall over again. I try to smile at them I won't but all I do is start to cry. The nurse tells me that everything will be all right. Damn I wish that I knew it would be. I mean Mark and I have only been hanging out for not even two weeks and here I am pregnant. Maybe I shouldn't tell him just yet. Hell maybe I should quit the WWE and run. Maybe I should never tell him that I am going to have his child. Yeah right like Glen would let me disappear with Chance. Fuck like I could even do that to Chance. I mean him and Ricky are as if they are twins because they do everything together. Now the doctors are telling me that there are opinions open to a young woman who is unmarried and in my condition. Shit it's like they are afraid to even say the word. PREGNANCY!!! Like maybe they think I will faint again just from hearing the word. Hell I might just do that, but hell Lilah you have a life that is just to damn busy to let you be a wimp. So tell the doctors to move on because girl with or without help there is only one opinion open for you. Hell. Shit the thing is I know that we were having fun this last two weeks but will he want to stay in my life now? I mean shit I know he didn't sign on to spend the rest of his life with me. Shit I just hope that he will be a part of this brand new life that is growing in me. I mean shit every child deserves to have it's Dad. Oh well, Lilah they are looking at you like maybe you are going to lose it again. So what else can I do but get up off the table and walk towards the door. **
ER Doctor: Ms. Desman maybe it would be better if you stayed for at least the night so that we could keep an eye on you. I mean you did hit your head pretty hard.
Lilah: Thanks Doctor but I will be find. I really need to go back to the hotel and check on my son.
ER Doctor: Maybe your family could help you ok?
** Oh now that is a fucking laugh if ever I heard one. I can't help but laugh out loud. And once again they are looking at me as if I am nuts. Oh well, Lilah maybe in some sense you are but then they don't know that your family runs the biggest porn business in Mississippi. **
Lilah: Sorry Doc but I don't have any family so to speak of. At least none that I would ever ask help from. Hell I sooner as the devil him self for help.
Doctor Allen: Lilah you know that I will have to tell the McMahon's that you are pregnant?
Lilah: Yeah Doctor I figure that you would. Does this mean that I won't be able to go out and Valet?
Doctor Allen: No not at all it just means that your job will have to become less physical as you get closer to term. Also that because of what we do it will be up to the writers if they write it into the story line. I will also be in charged of your care so I will want to see a lot of you.
Lilah: Well I will first have to see how the father reacts to this first. Can I go?
Nurse: You have to sign these forms first and then I will get a wheel chair to take you down.
Lilah: Ok.
** Damn the forms are signed and the nurse just went to get the chair. I heard her tell Mark and Glen that she would be out with me in just a few minutes. That they needed to give me a minute to get myself ready to go. The ER Doctor tells me that if I have any trouble that I should come right back in. Yeah right like that is going to happen. I mean hell if I have any trouble I would go and see Doctor Allen. But then with the trouble that I'm expecting I don't think that any Doctor am going to be able to help me. I mean fuck there isn't like a pill that I could just give Mark so that I didn't have to tell him that I was going to have his child. God!!! What I'm I going to do shit. I know I'll just look him calmly in the eye and tell him. Yeah right. And now Doctor Allen asks if I would like to tell Linda and Vince or did I want him too. Shit it my problem I think I should be the one to do it. But first I owe it to Mark to tell him first. Damn which means that I will have to get my courage up by the time we get to the hotel and just do it. Fuck I guess in a way as my Mother used to say, you made the bed now lay in it. Oh well here is the nurse with the chair and I can see that both Mark and Glen along with Steve and a few of the other wrestlers are waiting out in the hallway for me. Shit this just isn't what I need right now. Oh well I guess that there isn't to much that I can do about it other then put a smile on my face and hope I can get out of here without busting into tears again. The two Doctors help me into the chair and Doctor Allen opens the door for me. He tells me if I need him during the night to just call. He also tells me that he will see me tomorrow and well decide then if I can work or not. Shit. Here goes nothing because the Nurse puts a reassuring hand on my arm and then asks if I'm ready to go? No but I shake my head yes any way because what else is there to do. Steve comes up to me before she even gets me barely out the door. He is so sweet he kneels down next to the chair and hugs me. **
Steve: Kid I am so sorry. Are you sure that you shouldn't be spending the night?
Lilah: Steve there wasn't any thing that you could have done and I'm fine the Doctors said I could go home.
Steve: Yeah but?
Lilah: I'm fine. How is your hand?
Steve: Hell it just fine because STONE COLD SAYS SO!!
** Damn I can't help but laugh because that is just how Steve is. And now a few of the other wrestlers are coming up and asking if I'm ok. I tell them all that I am fine which most of them except as the fact. I see that Doctor Allen has stopped and is talking to Mark and Glen. Damn my heart is in my throat and the thing is that I know he can't tell them anything. He is most likely just telling them to keep an eye on me for the rest of the night. Damn it I didn't see John standing at the back of the crowd. He is just standing there staring at me as if he knows. I can't even look at him in the eyes. Damn it I can tell that he has moved closer as the nurse has it moving the chair to the exit. I can hear him telling Mark and Glen that one of them should go and get the car. Car what car. Oh wait I bet that they borrowed one of the guys whom drives cars. A bunch of the wrestlers are heading out to the parking lot and John leans down and looks me straight in the eyes. Glen must have gone for the car because I can see that Mark is standing just off to the side and is watching us. Damn I so don't know how but I know in my heart that John does know. Some how this bad ass Texan knows that I'm pregnant. **
John: Tell him darling you might be surprised.
Lilah: How??
** Damn this Texan has one of the sweetest smiles and laugh. I can see the twinkle in his eye. **
John: Hell darling I have five kids and three different wives and they all were sick on the buses at night. Something about trying to sleep while the bus bumps along. I figured it out about a week ago. So tell him.
Lilah: Yeah but what if he..
John: Don't sell him short before you give him the chance. Hell he might just surprise you. And if he doesn't I could always beat him senseless. And then I will take care of you little girl along with that baby girl you're carrying.
** Damn him and that poker face of his. I mean I don't know whether he is serious or just pulling my leg. And why does he think this one will be a baby girl. I turn to look at him again but he just tells me he knows. But then he leans over and kisses my cheek and then does something that even Mark raises an eyebrow at. He picks me up and carries me out to the car that Glen is behind the wheel of. He sets me in the back seats and then turns to Mark and tells him to ride in the back because he is taking shot gun and that everyone else is on their own which makes some of them laugh. Then he gets into the front and Mark walks around the car and gets into the other side. I saw the raised eyebrows that pass between Glen and John. Then Mark does a sweet thing he pulls me over close to him so that my head is resting on his chest. I am shivering slightly because even though we are in an almost warm state I am still in the short black dress. John takes his long rustler style coat off and hands it to Mark to cover me with. It's warm and smells of the things I love. Leather and the outdoors. I close my eyes because I know that I need to do this now but I am not sure if I can. I start to cry softly because I can't help it and Mark pulls me in even closer. He then asks what he can do to make me stop crying. Which of course is only making me cry harder. Finally I choke out that please don't hate me. He forces me to look at him and I can see the worry and pain so all I can do is say it. Right here and right now. **
Lilah: Mark please don't hate me.
Mark: Lil I could never hate you why would you even think that?
Lilah: Because I have something to tell you.
Mark: What Lil. Please just tell me and I know what ever it is we can work it out?
** Fuck and now I am crying so hard that I have the damn hiccups which is only making me feel as if I am going to get sick. To say that it isn't helping the headache that I have going either. Shit I have to have Glen pull over so that I can get sick. Which he barely does in time and I almost end up falling out of the car. John jumps out and catches me just as I fall out. He then helps me to the side of the road so that I can get sick. I hear Mark coming up and I now start to cry even harder. John tells Glen to get Mark back in the car and to just give me a moment. Which Glen does with a lot of protest coming from Mark. After a few more moments the damn hiccups are gone and I can breathe without feeling sick. John picks me up even though I say I can walk it. He puts me back into the back seat and tells Mark to wrap me up in his coat. Him and Glen then get back into the car too. I look up at him and see the concern for me in his eyes and all I can hope is that by the time I tell him what I have to that he won't hate me. So I take a deep breath. **
Lilah: Mark?
Mark: Lil please tell me?
Lilah: Doctor Allen just told me I'm just about two weeks pregnant.
** There it is out and all I can do is quickly look down at the ground. I can't look in his eyes and see the hatred that I am sure is going through them. He hasn't even said anything and I haven't heard anything from Glen or John either. Then all of a sudden Mark lets out a scream and hugs me to him. He then forces my chin up so that I can see his eyes and he has tears going down his face. He then bends downs and kisses me hard on the mouth. And then gently whispers in my ear that he is going to be a Daddy. He then turns me around so that I am leaning against him and he gently places his hand on my stomach. I look up and see that the car has pulled over and that we have stopped. Glen is looking back and is smiling at me. So is John with that I told you so look on his face. Then Glen says something that blows me away. Well Mark, it looks like John was right the other night on the bus. And I'll be damned if Marks words about me being a little mama and he being there to watch over me come back to me. I look over at John and he just smiles that damn smile that he has when he knows he is right and turns back around. Glen reaches back and pushes a piece of hair out of my eyes and I can't help but to smile. At least for now I am feeling as if I am on the top of the world. Glen turns back around and pulls back onto the road and I close my eyes for some much need rest. **
Author Notes: Please read and review. I know it wasn't a shock about her being pregnant but I still have a few things up my sleeve. Like maybe the long lost parents or that threesome. Heck she doesn't have to worry about getting pregnant now does she. Let me know if you think I should do one with Glen and Mark not that I am promising anything just thinking.
Thanks,
Cat Lea
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