Chapter Twenty Six
(Disappointment?)
** Well this is definitely not how I had planned on spending my night. I mean shit I had planned on doing something that I had never done before. That is if I could get up enough never to do it. Man a knock to the head and a Doctor telling you that your pregnant can sure change your plans quick. I had started to doze off in the car on the way back to the hotel after telling Mark I was pregnant. So when we got back Mark carried me in. I wanted to just check on the boys and then go to my room and think. I mean shit I have a hell of a lot on my mind right now. But Glen, Mark, and even John wouldn't hear of it. So I about had a fit till I got them to let me look at the little love of my life. Damn I wasn't even sure how I was going to tell him that he was going to be a big brother. Well they let me walk into Mrs. O'Mallory room to see that my boys were fast asleep. It's funny I consider Ricky to be mine too. I said something like that to Glen and I thought that he might be mad but he laughed and hugged me. He told me that he is glad because then Ricky will have a mom who does care about him. Then he hugged me and kissed me gently on the lips. Damn Glen's kisses just like Marks send my heart racing. So I go over and kiss both boys and then pulled the blanket up over the two of then. Once again I can't help but laugh because they are holding Mark's figure and Glen's in their little hands. I can't help the tears that spring to my eyes. Damn it I turned to find that Mrs. O'Mallory along with Mark, Glen, and John are all watching me closely. As if they are studying my every move to see if I am going to break. I can't even look Mrs. O'Mallory in the eyes, which is killing me. But how is she going to react when I tell her that I am pregnant by a man that I have only known for not even two weeks. Then she asks if I am ok. Which is just how she is. So all I can do is run from the room and I am crying so hard that I can't even see where I am going. Damn it where I'm I running to? I mean hell everyone that I love is in that room. Even John with all his jokes and smiles has found a way into my heart. So here I am running out of the room and away for the people I love. Fuck. Delilah what the fuck are you doing. So all I can do is stop and turn around and land right back into Marks arms. Like they were really were going to let me go anywhere. So now like a fool instead of putting on my own private show of what I brought for Mark and Glen I'm showing them what a fucking cry baby that I am. Shit I'm crying so fucking hard that now Mark won't even listen to me when I tell him I can walk. He is fucking carrying me again. Hell not that I don't like being in his arms it just that right now I just feel stupid. Oh great Glen opens the door to their room. I keep trying to tell them that I want to go to my room and they are telling me that I'm going to spend the night in their room so that they can keep an eye on me. I tell them that I will be fine but Glen tells me to bad I'm staying with them. John and Mrs. O'Mallory come in and I once again can't look her in the eyes. Mark sits me down on one of the beds while Glen grabs a Kane-N-Knight shirt out of his bag. He gives it to me and tells me I can sleep in that tonight. I start to tell him that I have my own room and my own things but Mrs. O'Mallory comes and sits down on the edge of the bed. She places her hand over mine. I look up and all I can see is the concern on her face and the kindness. She hugs me and all I can do is cling to her because she is the close thing to a real Mom that I have ever had. She pats my back and tells me that everything will be ok. I know that I have to tell her but I'm so afraid that I will lose the one person who showed me respect when I wasn't even sure that I deserved it. Well all I can do is tell her because if nothing else she deserves to know the true about me. It's all most as if I can't even breath enough to get the words out of my mouth. **
Lilah: Mrs. O'Mallory I think that you should know that I am.. I am..
** God Delilah just say it already. Hell the most she can do is never speak to you. Or ask you to move out of her house. Or think that you are a low life like the rest of your family is. Shit. Now she is just patting my hand and tell me that what ever it is that I have to tell her is going to be ok. Damn it now I am crying again. Because she says that friends can tell friends anything. **
Lilah: Mrs. O'Mallory I pregnant.
** Oh god she isn't saying anything and all I can do is look down at the ground because I'm afraid to look into her eyes. I don't want to see the disappointment in her eyes. OH shit I can feel Mark sitting down behind me. I know its Mark because he smells of sandalwood and the outdoors. I love that smell on him. Damn it Mark please don't make me look up at Mrs. O'Mallory. Hell he is sitting behind me and is forcing me to put my chin up so that I am looking right into her eyes. **
Mrs. O'Mallory: Child is the baby ok with the fall you took? You didn't hurt her did you?
** Oh my good she isn't judging me but instead was concerned about the baby and me. Oh my god a baby. I must have turned pale because everyone is now hovering over me. **
Lilah: I'm fine I just realized that I'm going to have a baby?
Mark: No Lil...
Lilah: No Mark? What?
Mark: We are going to have a baby. That's my little girl that you are carrying too. My daughter.
Glen: Or Son?
John: Nope it's going to be a little girl just like her mama.
** I can't help it but I am smiling over at John who is grinning back. Then he says that being this is his godchild he is going to spoil her rotten. I must have had a strange look on my face because John is digging in his wallet for something and Mark and Glen are laughing hysterical. Oh my gods these guys are all nut. John has a piece of paper that Mark had signed saying that John has won the right to be his first daughter's godfather. He won it in a card game one night a little over a year ago. Oh my I most have had a far away look on my face because John said that I don't have to honor it, was a joke. I can't help but laugh because I know he would kill to be this baby godfather. I can't help but look at Mark and give him my version of puppy dog eyes. He is smiling that damn sexy grin at me. **
Lilah: Hell John what the hell are you trying to back out on me just because it's my kid. You won it fair and square and I for one think you should honor it.
John: Lilah don't play with an old mans heart.
Lilah: John Bradshaw I don't play I for one would be honor if you would.
** Wow. He just gave me a hug and kiss that brought tears to my eyes to match the tears in his eyes. Now he is hugging Mark and Glen and kissing Mrs. O'Mallory whom is hugging everyone too. OH no now they have all decided that I need to change and get some sleep. And they told me that for the next couple of nights I'm sleeping right here with Glen and Mark. Oh John he said that if I didn't want to say here I could of course always come and stay with him. I love these guys but something tells me that the next nine months is going to be interesting. The funny thing I am wiped out so I am going to change. I can hear the door close while I'm in the bathroom changing into Glen's shirt. I came out expecting to see that John or Mrs. O'Mallory has gone to their room. What I didn't expect to see is that Mark had run out and some how has gotten me two white rose which he laid on my pillow. I can't help but kiss him because I never expected him to be so happy about having a baby. Oh god tied to the roses is a small baby rattle. It's a pink little teddy bear. Damn this man I am once again crying because of him. Oh great now Glen has picked me up and is actually putting me to bed. He has picked me up and is putting me in the bed. Mark is covering me up and John who is standing at the foot is laughing. Mrs. O'Mallory has just come back into the room and has brought me a couple of Tylenols, which I greatly appreciate. John kisses me and tells me that he will see me in the morning. And Mrs. O'Mallory after lecturing Glen and Mark on the fact that I need sleep but that they should wake me every few hours leaves too. So now I have Mark and Glen both standing on different sides of the bed looking at me. It seems that they have decided that Mark would lay with me first why Glen sits in a chair for awhile and then they will wake me like every three hours and then switch places. So Mark climbs in and lay down next to me while Glen sits at my side in a chair. He has put his arms around me and has pulled me into a hug. Glen leans over and kisses me and then sits down in the chair. Oh hell when I look up at Mark he has tears running down his cheek. I lean up and kiss him gently on the lips. **
Mark: I love you little girl and always will. And I will always be there for this little one and Chance and you. Always I promise.
** Well here I go again because I am crying like a fool once more. I guess that I might be doing this a lot over the next nine months. Well I guess only time will tell. I can already feel my eyes start to close. Mark tightly holds me and Glen reaches out and holds my hand while I fall asleep. **
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