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Hawkeye dropped the phone, he could hear Rob faintly calling his name. Horrible scenarios were running through his brain. Like a man possessed he raced around the house trying to find his car keys getting more and more frustrated. Eventually he found them and dived into his car only just managing to remember to lock the door.
He took the route he used to get to and from work every day, although he never expected to be using it for this purpose, true there had always been a tiny part of him that imagined his wife and kids on the guerney in front of him when he was treating some of the injuries.
Hawkeyes mind registered in shock as he realised he was in his usual parking slot outside the hospital. 'I cant remember driving' He thought wildly 'Margaret baby Im coming! Please, please, please be alright'
He skidded through the reception doors. "DAD!" a voice yelled. Seconds later his daughters were hugging him tightly. "Wheres your mom?"He asked worriedly kissing the tops of their heads. "Shes with him now" said Phoebe. "It was horrible dad"said Jo sniffing. "Shes with him?"Hawkeye repeated confused "Whos she with? The doctor?" "Shes with Connor dad, didn't Rob tell you?"Asked Phoebe.
It took a moment for the realisation to hit him. His brain went on fast forward. "There was blood everywhere, I thought he'd died" Jo whispered in a small voice. Hawkeye took a deep breath. "What happened?"He asked calmly. "He was hit by a car" came the reply.
Rob came through the double doors. "Girls why don't you go and sit in the relatives room for a bit, I need to talk with your dad for a sec" he said smiling slightly. Phoebe and Jo disappeared muttering under their breath. "So, you have a son" Rob began. "Rob he turned up on my doorstep this morning, just drop it and tell me how he is" Hawkeye snapped. "Margarets with him, c'mon I'll take you" Rob replied monotone. Hawkeye followed Rob wordlessly into the lift.
"What were you thinking Hawk?" Rob exploded as the doors slid shut. "I was DRUNK!"Hawkeye exclaimed "It was eighteen years ago! Before I even started formally dating Margaret!" "Well congratulations Hawk, you've now got an eighteen year old problem, lying on a hospital bed which will most likely destroy your life" Said Rob sarcastically. "How dare you!" Hawkeye exclaimed angrily "How dare you judge my life! How dare you have the audacity to even question how I conduct my affairs!" Hawkeye was angry beyond words. He had to be truthful never really liked Rob, he was a good doctor but there had always been a certain slyness about him.
Rob led Hawkeye down the corridor to a private room. "I be much obliged if you could please leave me and Margaret alone now" He said through gritted teeth. Rob nodded wordlessly.
Hawkeye opened the door and saw Margaret sat in a chair in the corner gazing at her hands. "Margaret?" he asked uncertainly. Margaret strode towards him. She punched him. Hawkeye reeled backwards slightly. Margarets lower lip trembled and she threw her arms rounds his neck. "It was so awful!"She sobbed "He looks just like you! I couldn't do anything! I didn't have anything to do anything with!" "Shush its ok" said Hawkeye soothingly. "No its not ok!" Margaret snapped. "Look at him! LOOK AT HIM! DOES THAT LOOK OK TO YOU?!"
The slightly irregular beep of the heart monitor penetrated Hawkeyes thoughts. Slowly he looked at Connor. "All he wanted was to find his dad" He said tonelessly "And I talked to him for a while, calmly, unfeelingly. So he ran, now look whats happened" "Im sorry" said Margaret "I was just so angry! I hated you both! Especially you!" "Its me who should be sorry"said Hawkeye quietly. He sat down on the now empty chair. "I'll go to the girls- they need to know Hawkeye"said Margaret before silently slipping out the room.
"Hi kid" said Hawkeye "If you wanted my attention you sure as hell got it now." Hawkeye moved the chair to Connors beside. "Well you've certainly unnerved Maggie anyway. "He joked. Hawkeye took a deep breath. "Listen, Connor. You gotta understand this is hard for me. I never knew about you, I just got on with my life. I've got everything I could ever want."He trailed off. "You know its funny," he laughed "after the girls were born all I really wanted was a son to make my family complete. I didn't expect one to just show up a few years later!" Hawkeye stared at his hands. 'Perfect Hawkeye just tell him everything-while he's unconscious-great plan there mate' he thought 'you cant even look at him properly, you're so pathetic!Life cant just be easy 'cause you want it too! Nooo! It has all these little trials to push up your blood pressure every so often! You got some serious thinking to do boy!'
*Okie dokie, the next chapter is gonna be some flashback memories Connors having in his unconscious state.bbuuuttt!!!I aint gonna put it up unless someone reviews!!! The rating might change as well for the some mild language coming in the next chapter!*
Hawkeye dropped the phone, he could hear Rob faintly calling his name. Horrible scenarios were running through his brain. Like a man possessed he raced around the house trying to find his car keys getting more and more frustrated. Eventually he found them and dived into his car only just managing to remember to lock the door.
He took the route he used to get to and from work every day, although he never expected to be using it for this purpose, true there had always been a tiny part of him that imagined his wife and kids on the guerney in front of him when he was treating some of the injuries.
Hawkeyes mind registered in shock as he realised he was in his usual parking slot outside the hospital. 'I cant remember driving' He thought wildly 'Margaret baby Im coming! Please, please, please be alright'
He skidded through the reception doors. "DAD!" a voice yelled. Seconds later his daughters were hugging him tightly. "Wheres your mom?"He asked worriedly kissing the tops of their heads. "Shes with him now" said Phoebe. "It was horrible dad"said Jo sniffing. "Shes with him?"Hawkeye repeated confused "Whos she with? The doctor?" "Shes with Connor dad, didn't Rob tell you?"Asked Phoebe.
It took a moment for the realisation to hit him. His brain went on fast forward. "There was blood everywhere, I thought he'd died" Jo whispered in a small voice. Hawkeye took a deep breath. "What happened?"He asked calmly. "He was hit by a car" came the reply.
Rob came through the double doors. "Girls why don't you go and sit in the relatives room for a bit, I need to talk with your dad for a sec" he said smiling slightly. Phoebe and Jo disappeared muttering under their breath. "So, you have a son" Rob began. "Rob he turned up on my doorstep this morning, just drop it and tell me how he is" Hawkeye snapped. "Margarets with him, c'mon I'll take you" Rob replied monotone. Hawkeye followed Rob wordlessly into the lift.
"What were you thinking Hawk?" Rob exploded as the doors slid shut. "I was DRUNK!"Hawkeye exclaimed "It was eighteen years ago! Before I even started formally dating Margaret!" "Well congratulations Hawk, you've now got an eighteen year old problem, lying on a hospital bed which will most likely destroy your life" Said Rob sarcastically. "How dare you!" Hawkeye exclaimed angrily "How dare you judge my life! How dare you have the audacity to even question how I conduct my affairs!" Hawkeye was angry beyond words. He had to be truthful never really liked Rob, he was a good doctor but there had always been a certain slyness about him.
Rob led Hawkeye down the corridor to a private room. "I be much obliged if you could please leave me and Margaret alone now" He said through gritted teeth. Rob nodded wordlessly.
Hawkeye opened the door and saw Margaret sat in a chair in the corner gazing at her hands. "Margaret?" he asked uncertainly. Margaret strode towards him. She punched him. Hawkeye reeled backwards slightly. Margarets lower lip trembled and she threw her arms rounds his neck. "It was so awful!"She sobbed "He looks just like you! I couldn't do anything! I didn't have anything to do anything with!" "Shush its ok" said Hawkeye soothingly. "No its not ok!" Margaret snapped. "Look at him! LOOK AT HIM! DOES THAT LOOK OK TO YOU?!"
The slightly irregular beep of the heart monitor penetrated Hawkeyes thoughts. Slowly he looked at Connor. "All he wanted was to find his dad" He said tonelessly "And I talked to him for a while, calmly, unfeelingly. So he ran, now look whats happened" "Im sorry" said Margaret "I was just so angry! I hated you both! Especially you!" "Its me who should be sorry"said Hawkeye quietly. He sat down on the now empty chair. "I'll go to the girls- they need to know Hawkeye"said Margaret before silently slipping out the room.
"Hi kid" said Hawkeye "If you wanted my attention you sure as hell got it now." Hawkeye moved the chair to Connors beside. "Well you've certainly unnerved Maggie anyway. "He joked. Hawkeye took a deep breath. "Listen, Connor. You gotta understand this is hard for me. I never knew about you, I just got on with my life. I've got everything I could ever want."He trailed off. "You know its funny," he laughed "after the girls were born all I really wanted was a son to make my family complete. I didn't expect one to just show up a few years later!" Hawkeye stared at his hands. 'Perfect Hawkeye just tell him everything-while he's unconscious-great plan there mate' he thought 'you cant even look at him properly, you're so pathetic!Life cant just be easy 'cause you want it too! Nooo! It has all these little trials to push up your blood pressure every so often! You got some serious thinking to do boy!'
*Okie dokie, the next chapter is gonna be some flashback memories Connors having in his unconscious state.bbuuuttt!!!I aint gonna put it up unless someone reviews!!! The rating might change as well for the some mild language coming in the next chapter!*