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whats going through Connors head, basically he's going through his memories
so you will all get to know what happened in his final meeting with Carlye.
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Connor woke up to some shaking him. "Go away.too early" He mumbled. "Oh no mister, it's a beautiful day outside and you're not wasting it in bed" someone told him firmly. His eyes snapped open. "Mom?" He whispered hardly daring to believe it. "What honey?" Asked Carlye " Anyway hurry up a bit, I want you up before I go to the hospital" Connor threw his arms round her and hugged her tightly. "Honey, whats gotten into you? You're acting like you haven't seen me in months!" Carlye exclaimed slightly surprised. "Yeah well sometimes it feels like it" said Connor smiling happily.
'It was all a dream' He thought happily 'All a horrible nightmare, moms fine. Oh thank God'
"Ok Connor, I've just got to pick up my test results from the hospital then I'm gonna do the food shopping can you at least pretend you're making an effort to tidy up. Or even better do your laundry! The last pair of your underwear could practically walk to the washing machine!" said Carlye jokingly. Connor grinned.
Suddenly the impact of her words hit him. "Test results? You're sick?" He asked panicking. "Connor you know I had a mammogram the other day." Replied Carlye "Honey are you feeling ok?" She felt his forehead. "You are a little warm.are you feeling sick or anything?" she asked worriedly. "Mom I'm fine" He assured her "perfectly fine" Carlye smiled in relief.
He blinked rapidly. Everything had changed. He was in the hospital a doctor was speaking to him. "Connor, I know this must be hard for you but.your mothers dying. Shes not got long left" said the doctor. "How long? Months?Weeks?Days?" asked Connor hoarsely "We're not sure, but she wont see tomorrow at best" replied the Doctor sadly "I'm sorry Connor, Carlye was a wonderful woman. Everyone here is gonna miss her"
Connor didn't hear, he walked into the side room. "Hiya honey"said Carlye weakly. He went over and hugged her gently. "Hi mom" He whispered. Everything seemed all to familiar, it was strange to say the least. "Connor I've got something important to tell you"she said "I have to tell you before I go" "Aw mom don't talk like that!" said Connor. Carlye surveyed him pityingly. "Now Connor remember when I told you that the man I divorced was your dad?" she asked slowly. Connor nodded. "I lied" She said simply "Your father was a doctor by the name of Benjamin Franklin Pierce. We were a party, we got drunk and woke up the next morning in bed together. It doesn't take a genius to work it out" Connor shuddered 'Urgh thanks for the mental image mom' he thought. "I tried to say that you were my husbands but you look nothing like each other. We divorced. Soon after I found out he'd been cheating on me since we married. Kinda ironic don't ya think" she asked wryly. "Mom what are you saying?"asked Connor his voice trembling slightly. "I want you to find Hawkeye-that's his nickname-theres a letter for him in the sidedrawer in my room" Carlye instructed. "Why are you saying this mom?" asked Connor desperately. "Why now after all these years?" "Connor listen to me"said Carlye weakly "Im dying, don't deny it. I don't want you to be alone. Find your father, I don't want to leave you alone" Connor buried his head in his hands. "Does he know? About me?"He asked finally. Carlye shook her head. " You find him Connor! Swear to me you'll find him!" She exclaimed suddenly. "Why? I'm 18 an adult now! I don't need someone to baby me!" Connor yelled. "Find him! Swear you'll find him!"said Carlye breathlessly. "Fine I swear"He said sullenly "But it wont do any good" Carlye held out her arms. In spite of his annoyance he hugged her. "I'm so sorry Connor, for everything. Its all my fault. I'm sorry I didn't find him earlier, but I felt hurt and used." She whispered "I love you honey don't you ever forget that". 'Oh god I know whats gonna happen next, this like something out the twilight zone' he thought 'I don't belong here, what am I doing here?'
In an instant the room and all its contents disappeared, leaving him in total darkness. 'I'm dreaming' he thought finally 'so to get away all I gotta do is wake up'
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Connor woke up to some shaking him. "Go away.too early" He mumbled. "Oh no mister, it's a beautiful day outside and you're not wasting it in bed" someone told him firmly. His eyes snapped open. "Mom?" He whispered hardly daring to believe it. "What honey?" Asked Carlye " Anyway hurry up a bit, I want you up before I go to the hospital" Connor threw his arms round her and hugged her tightly. "Honey, whats gotten into you? You're acting like you haven't seen me in months!" Carlye exclaimed slightly surprised. "Yeah well sometimes it feels like it" said Connor smiling happily.
'It was all a dream' He thought happily 'All a horrible nightmare, moms fine. Oh thank God'
"Ok Connor, I've just got to pick up my test results from the hospital then I'm gonna do the food shopping can you at least pretend you're making an effort to tidy up. Or even better do your laundry! The last pair of your underwear could practically walk to the washing machine!" said Carlye jokingly. Connor grinned.
Suddenly the impact of her words hit him. "Test results? You're sick?" He asked panicking. "Connor you know I had a mammogram the other day." Replied Carlye "Honey are you feeling ok?" She felt his forehead. "You are a little warm.are you feeling sick or anything?" she asked worriedly. "Mom I'm fine" He assured her "perfectly fine" Carlye smiled in relief.
He blinked rapidly. Everything had changed. He was in the hospital a doctor was speaking to him. "Connor, I know this must be hard for you but.your mothers dying. Shes not got long left" said the doctor. "How long? Months?Weeks?Days?" asked Connor hoarsely "We're not sure, but she wont see tomorrow at best" replied the Doctor sadly "I'm sorry Connor, Carlye was a wonderful woman. Everyone here is gonna miss her"
Connor didn't hear, he walked into the side room. "Hiya honey"said Carlye weakly. He went over and hugged her gently. "Hi mom" He whispered. Everything seemed all to familiar, it was strange to say the least. "Connor I've got something important to tell you"she said "I have to tell you before I go" "Aw mom don't talk like that!" said Connor. Carlye surveyed him pityingly. "Now Connor remember when I told you that the man I divorced was your dad?" she asked slowly. Connor nodded. "I lied" She said simply "Your father was a doctor by the name of Benjamin Franklin Pierce. We were a party, we got drunk and woke up the next morning in bed together. It doesn't take a genius to work it out" Connor shuddered 'Urgh thanks for the mental image mom' he thought. "I tried to say that you were my husbands but you look nothing like each other. We divorced. Soon after I found out he'd been cheating on me since we married. Kinda ironic don't ya think" she asked wryly. "Mom what are you saying?"asked Connor his voice trembling slightly. "I want you to find Hawkeye-that's his nickname-theres a letter for him in the sidedrawer in my room" Carlye instructed. "Why are you saying this mom?" asked Connor desperately. "Why now after all these years?" "Connor listen to me"said Carlye weakly "Im dying, don't deny it. I don't want you to be alone. Find your father, I don't want to leave you alone" Connor buried his head in his hands. "Does he know? About me?"He asked finally. Carlye shook her head. " You find him Connor! Swear to me you'll find him!" She exclaimed suddenly. "Why? I'm 18 an adult now! I don't need someone to baby me!" Connor yelled. "Find him! Swear you'll find him!"said Carlye breathlessly. "Fine I swear"He said sullenly "But it wont do any good" Carlye held out her arms. In spite of his annoyance he hugged her. "I'm so sorry Connor, for everything. Its all my fault. I'm sorry I didn't find him earlier, but I felt hurt and used." She whispered "I love you honey don't you ever forget that". 'Oh god I know whats gonna happen next, this like something out the twilight zone' he thought 'I don't belong here, what am I doing here?'
In an instant the room and all its contents disappeared, leaving him in total darkness. 'I'm dreaming' he thought finally 'so to get away all I gotta do is wake up'
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