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hopefully this one will be better (I hope-writers block=bad!)~*~
"Hawkeye?" said Connor tiredly "I gotta tell ya summat." "What?" Hawkeye asked looking up from the chart. "Is my rucksack here?" Connor asked trying to sit up. Hawkeye gave him a hand and nodded. "K, in the top pocket there's a letter" said Connor frowning to remember. Hawkeye bent down and pulled out Connors hefty rucksack. "Top pocket?" He asked rummaging through it. "Uh huh, mom left a letter, for you" Connor replied attempting to lean over. "Connor, Doctor Hallenan only fixed your ribs a few days ago, don't wreck his work" said Hawkeye pulling out some small packets. "Hey Im only human" Connor shrugged giving an impish grin. Hawkeye grinned and his hand closed round an envelope. "This it?" He asked handing it to him, Connor raised his hands. "Its not addressed to me" he said simply. Hawkeye looked at the envelope. 'Hawkeye Pierce' was printed clearly on the front. With a mounting feeling of apprehension, he tore it open.
'Dear Benny,
Seeing as you're reading this it must mean Im dead and that our son found you. That's right our son, though knowing Connor by the time you read this, you'll probably know that or it'll have been years since he found you and that he only just remembered. Ben, I know you didn't ask for any of this but I want to know my son is safe. You've probably got your own life and kids, but, Connors your child too. He's been through a lot, he might seem like a funny young guy but he's as much of a kid as you are. He's been incredible this past year, I suppose he had to grow up fast after the first cancer scare when he was twelve. I've always felt guilty that he never had a father figure, there are some things a mother just cant replace.
I guess you're wondering why I never bothered telling you. I thought about it, I nearly called you thousands of times, but I was too afraid. As time went by it just got easier to forget. I suppose I was afraid you'd feel obligated to feel like you should drop everything for us, I knew if you did that you'd resent me the rest of your life, you never wanted to marry me- not in your heart-you were always so free, flitting about not tied down to anything, you weren't ready to settle down.
My husband left as soon as Connor was born, it was obvious from the off that he wasn't his, what with all that black hair and those blue eyes of his. So it was just me and him. I was absolutely terrified, but I coped. We both coped.
Ben, I beg you don't turn Connor away. You and Daniel are the last remaining family he has. I never wanted to leave my son alone, but unfortunately circumstances have changed and obviously I'm six feet under and as much use as a chocolate fireguard! No matter what he is your son and nothing you can do will change that, I know this as been sprung on you, but I just want Connor to have somewhere he can call home when he's not at Med School. I suppose Im just a hopeless dreamer.
Connor is you all over-so you should either get on great or hate each other. I hope this didn't sound too..well needy but my times up and I want my baby to be safe. No matter what I did love you Benny, please just don't turn him away.
With fond memories
Carlye xxx'
"Hawkeye?" Connor called "Are you ok?"
'Oh my god' Connor thought desperately 'What on earth did mom put? He's gone practically catatonic! He's not moving, he's not blinking, he's not speaking! Should I buzz for help? Mind you it might sound pretty lame if a nurse turns up and all I say is my fathers not speaking to me.'
"C'mon Hawk, speak to me!"Said Connor "C'mon its me that gets the attention from gorgeous nurses, you just get to work with them!" Hawkeye looked up. "Connor?" He said. "Oh thank god! You've not moved or blinked for five minutes Hawkeye!" Connor exclaimed. "Connor, I think you can call me dad" said Hawkeye. There was a stunned silence.
"Dad?"Connor whispered. The word felt rusty and unused on his tongue. Then he smiled "I think I can cope with that"HawkeyeHaw
"Hawkeye?" said Connor tiredly "I gotta tell ya summat." "What?" Hawkeye asked looking up from the chart. "Is my rucksack here?" Connor asked trying to sit up. Hawkeye gave him a hand and nodded. "K, in the top pocket there's a letter" said Connor frowning to remember. Hawkeye bent down and pulled out Connors hefty rucksack. "Top pocket?" He asked rummaging through it. "Uh huh, mom left a letter, for you" Connor replied attempting to lean over. "Connor, Doctor Hallenan only fixed your ribs a few days ago, don't wreck his work" said Hawkeye pulling out some small packets. "Hey Im only human" Connor shrugged giving an impish grin. Hawkeye grinned and his hand closed round an envelope. "This it?" He asked handing it to him, Connor raised his hands. "Its not addressed to me" he said simply. Hawkeye looked at the envelope. 'Hawkeye Pierce' was printed clearly on the front. With a mounting feeling of apprehension, he tore it open.
'Dear Benny,
Seeing as you're reading this it must mean Im dead and that our son found you. That's right our son, though knowing Connor by the time you read this, you'll probably know that or it'll have been years since he found you and that he only just remembered. Ben, I know you didn't ask for any of this but I want to know my son is safe. You've probably got your own life and kids, but, Connors your child too. He's been through a lot, he might seem like a funny young guy but he's as much of a kid as you are. He's been incredible this past year, I suppose he had to grow up fast after the first cancer scare when he was twelve. I've always felt guilty that he never had a father figure, there are some things a mother just cant replace.
I guess you're wondering why I never bothered telling you. I thought about it, I nearly called you thousands of times, but I was too afraid. As time went by it just got easier to forget. I suppose I was afraid you'd feel obligated to feel like you should drop everything for us, I knew if you did that you'd resent me the rest of your life, you never wanted to marry me- not in your heart-you were always so free, flitting about not tied down to anything, you weren't ready to settle down.
My husband left as soon as Connor was born, it was obvious from the off that he wasn't his, what with all that black hair and those blue eyes of his. So it was just me and him. I was absolutely terrified, but I coped. We both coped.
Ben, I beg you don't turn Connor away. You and Daniel are the last remaining family he has. I never wanted to leave my son alone, but unfortunately circumstances have changed and obviously I'm six feet under and as much use as a chocolate fireguard! No matter what he is your son and nothing you can do will change that, I know this as been sprung on you, but I just want Connor to have somewhere he can call home when he's not at Med School. I suppose Im just a hopeless dreamer.
Connor is you all over-so you should either get on great or hate each other. I hope this didn't sound too..well needy but my times up and I want my baby to be safe. No matter what I did love you Benny, please just don't turn him away.
With fond memories
Carlye xxx'
"Hawkeye?" Connor called "Are you ok?"
'Oh my god' Connor thought desperately 'What on earth did mom put? He's gone practically catatonic! He's not moving, he's not blinking, he's not speaking! Should I buzz for help? Mind you it might sound pretty lame if a nurse turns up and all I say is my fathers not speaking to me.'
"C'mon Hawk, speak to me!"Said Connor "C'mon its me that gets the attention from gorgeous nurses, you just get to work with them!" Hawkeye looked up. "Connor?" He said. "Oh thank god! You've not moved or blinked for five minutes Hawkeye!" Connor exclaimed. "Connor, I think you can call me dad" said Hawkeye. There was a stunned silence.
"Dad?"Connor whispered. The word felt rusty and unused on his tongue. Then he smiled "I think I can cope with that"HawkeyeHaw