Lost, Confused, Unkind (Sequel To "Freaked")
Chapter 13
When we pulled into the parking lot it was full of fans! There were
literally a hundred people all wearing wrestling shirts and getting
into a frenzy when they saw the cars pull up! I nervously scanned the
throng of people, my eyes darting from one face to another searching
for that one familiar & dreaded face that haunted my every waking
moment, but I couldn't see him. Matt got out of the car & came around
to let me out but he was surrounded by arms waving pieces of paper &
camera bulbs flashing like strobe lights at a disco! I sat in the car
& my mind was on overload as my fingers nervously curled around the
door handle, but no matter how hard I willed them to move I just
couldn't open the door! I didn't want to get out of the car & be in a
position where I was vunerable, where Matt couldn't protect me, where
anything could happen. The choice was taken away from me when the car
door opened & Jeff held his hand out to help me out of the seat. I
nervously looked up at him, squinting to see his face in the bright
sunshine.
"Come on!" he said softly, "Before they see me!"
I took hold of his hand & he pulled me onto my feet.
"JEEFFFFF!" a voice shouted & suddenly we were surrounded by kids all
yelling & holding out posters & markers. Jeff started to sign
autographs & I backed up against the car door & tried to take in
every eager face that appeared before me. Jeff looked up from his
signing & saw the state I was in, shaking & sweating & biting on my
lip. He immediately reached through the crowd & jerked me towards him.
"Sorry guys! Gotta go to work!"
"Why are you here Jeff?" someone yelled as he pushed through the mass
of bodies dragging me behind him by my arm.
"Ahh you'll have to wait and see!!" he smiled. We reached the door to
the arena where security came to greet us. Jeff looked back, "MATT!"
he called & Matt's face appeared above the surrounding heads. Jeff
made a gesture to the door & Matt raised his hand then shouted, "2
minutes!!"
Once the door was closed behind us it was virtually silent in the
corridor. I tried to breathe normally not wanting Jeff to realise
just how panicked I'd been out there, but the more I tried to slow
down my breath the more I gasped.
"Come on!" Jeff said, putting an arm around my shoulder & leading me
into a locker room, "Sit down!" I did as I was told & wiped my face
with my hands. "Can I get you anything? Glass of water?" I shook my
head, "Ok you wanna talk then?" I looked up sheepishly & Jeff sighed
& sat down beside me. "Ok what's going on?"
"I don't know!"
"Well…it's obvious something is freaking you out, talk to me Bec!"
I leaned forward and put my head in my hands, "It's Mick," I
sighed, `I think he's back!"
"Mick's out of jail already?"
"Well I don't know…but if he isn't then he's getting someone to do
his dirty work for him, again!"
"Damn!" Jeff took hold of my hand, "No the wonder you looked scared
out there!" He rubbed the back of my hand with his thumb, "What does
Matt think?"
I laughed sarcastically, "He thinks I'm losing my mind!" I looked at
the celing, "He doesn't know Jeff!"
"And what do you think?"
"I'm starting to agree with him!" I smiled.
"Right, maybe you should call home see if your folks know anything!"
My smile quickly faded & I looked into Jeff's eyes. "I'm so scared
Jeff! I can't go through this shit again I swear I'll end up in an
institution!" A tear rolled down my cheek & Jeff gently wiped it away
with the sleeve of his shirt.
"It's gonna be ok Bec! We won't let that happen again I promise!" He
took me into his arms & held me tightly, "Me & Matt won't let that
bastard hurt you again!" He said as he softly stroked my hair. His
shirt was soft on my face & I closed my eyes & breathed in his scent.
Damn he smelled good! I suddenly realized where my thoughts were
taking me & pulled back quickly.
"Well…" gulped & cleared my throat, "I guess you're right! I should
go & find a phone!" I stood up & made for the door & Jeff caught my
arm.
"Bec?" For a moment we were locked together, his eyes were as
entrancing as Matt's & for a few seconds I found myself completely
lost to him. "I…I won't let this happen ok?" I nodded slowly, unable
to tear my eyes away from his. "It won't happen!" he said softly and
then looked towards the window. I had a sinking feeling in my stomach
that I knew exactly what he meant & he wasn't talking about Mick! As
soon as he looked away it was as if the spell had been broken & I
turned & left the room without saying a word!
I wandered along the corridor in a half-dazed state! I could still
smell Jeff, his cologne wason my clothes & I tried to block out the
thoughts it was weaving into my mind!
"Beth right?" said a voice.
"Wha…erm…"
"You're Matt Hardy's girlfriend? We met last night?"
"Shane! Oh yeah no I mean.." I took a deep breath as Shane McMahon
stood in front of me looking totally confused! "What I mean is yes
I'm Matt's girlfriend but it's Bec not Beth!" I smiled.
"Oh man! I am so sorry Bec! I'm hopeless with names!" he shook his
head & smiled.
"Oh it's ok really! I kinda had my mind elsewhere!"
"Anything I can help you with?"
"Well um yeah actually I need a phone!"
"Well then, step into my office!" He smiled & led me to a nearby door.
"Are you sure? It's long distance? I need to call home, kind of a
family emergency!"
"Go for your life hun!" he went for the door, "I'll leave you to it!"
he winked & left the room.
With my hands shaking and all thoughts of Jeff totally forgotten I
nervously lifted the receiver & dialed home!
"Hello?" said a warm & familiar voice!
"Mum! Hi Mum it's me!"
"Bec! Sweetheart! So nice to hear from you! Where are you?"
"Erm..how did you know I wasn't in Cameron?"
"I called the Jameson's place yesterday & Mary told me you'd gone
away with Matt! Jake is having a fit that you're going to shows!" she
laughed.
"Ah right! Well tell him I'll have some surprises for him when I see
him next! Is he there?"
"Well actually he's at school but he'll be home in half an hour!"
"Oh right yeah! Sorry I didn't think!"
"That's ok honey it's just good to hear from you!"
"Yeah, you too mum! I'm missing you guys so much!" I bit on my lip &
looked at the celing to stop the tears coming.
"Are you ok Bec? You seem a little distracted?"
"I'm fine Mum! Having the time of my life infact!" I lied. "Erm…..mum
have you heard anything about Mick recently?" Silence, "Mum? Are you
still there?"
"Y..yes sweetheart I'm still here!"
"Well?"
"Erm….Mick you say? No I haven't heard anything! What made you ask
about Mick?"
"Oh no reason, just thinking that's all!"
"Well no need to think about that scum! Now you just get on with your
life & forget about Mick you hear?"
"Are you not telling me something here Mum?"
"what do you mean?"
"I mean if, well if Mick had been released or something you would
tell me wouldn't you?"
"Of course I would!! Look I have to go darling there's someone at the
door!"
"Oh right! Love you Mum!"
"Love you too Bec! Have fun & Just call me when you get back to
Cameron & we'll talk ok?"
"Sure Mum! Bye then."
As I replaced the receiver I couldn't help but think that she was
holding something back, I could always tell when Mum was lying to me!
Chapter 13
When we pulled into the parking lot it was full of fans! There were
literally a hundred people all wearing wrestling shirts and getting
into a frenzy when they saw the cars pull up! I nervously scanned the
throng of people, my eyes darting from one face to another searching
for that one familiar & dreaded face that haunted my every waking
moment, but I couldn't see him. Matt got out of the car & came around
to let me out but he was surrounded by arms waving pieces of paper &
camera bulbs flashing like strobe lights at a disco! I sat in the car
& my mind was on overload as my fingers nervously curled around the
door handle, but no matter how hard I willed them to move I just
couldn't open the door! I didn't want to get out of the car & be in a
position where I was vunerable, where Matt couldn't protect me, where
anything could happen. The choice was taken away from me when the car
door opened & Jeff held his hand out to help me out of the seat. I
nervously looked up at him, squinting to see his face in the bright
sunshine.
"Come on!" he said softly, "Before they see me!"
I took hold of his hand & he pulled me onto my feet.
"JEEFFFFF!" a voice shouted & suddenly we were surrounded by kids all
yelling & holding out posters & markers. Jeff started to sign
autographs & I backed up against the car door & tried to take in
every eager face that appeared before me. Jeff looked up from his
signing & saw the state I was in, shaking & sweating & biting on my
lip. He immediately reached through the crowd & jerked me towards him.
"Sorry guys! Gotta go to work!"
"Why are you here Jeff?" someone yelled as he pushed through the mass
of bodies dragging me behind him by my arm.
"Ahh you'll have to wait and see!!" he smiled. We reached the door to
the arena where security came to greet us. Jeff looked back, "MATT!"
he called & Matt's face appeared above the surrounding heads. Jeff
made a gesture to the door & Matt raised his hand then shouted, "2
minutes!!"
Once the door was closed behind us it was virtually silent in the
corridor. I tried to breathe normally not wanting Jeff to realise
just how panicked I'd been out there, but the more I tried to slow
down my breath the more I gasped.
"Come on!" Jeff said, putting an arm around my shoulder & leading me
into a locker room, "Sit down!" I did as I was told & wiped my face
with my hands. "Can I get you anything? Glass of water?" I shook my
head, "Ok you wanna talk then?" I looked up sheepishly & Jeff sighed
& sat down beside me. "Ok what's going on?"
"I don't know!"
"Well…it's obvious something is freaking you out, talk to me Bec!"
I leaned forward and put my head in my hands, "It's Mick," I
sighed, `I think he's back!"
"Mick's out of jail already?"
"Well I don't know…but if he isn't then he's getting someone to do
his dirty work for him, again!"
"Damn!" Jeff took hold of my hand, "No the wonder you looked scared
out there!" He rubbed the back of my hand with his thumb, "What does
Matt think?"
I laughed sarcastically, "He thinks I'm losing my mind!" I looked at
the celing, "He doesn't know Jeff!"
"And what do you think?"
"I'm starting to agree with him!" I smiled.
"Right, maybe you should call home see if your folks know anything!"
My smile quickly faded & I looked into Jeff's eyes. "I'm so scared
Jeff! I can't go through this shit again I swear I'll end up in an
institution!" A tear rolled down my cheek & Jeff gently wiped it away
with the sleeve of his shirt.
"It's gonna be ok Bec! We won't let that happen again I promise!" He
took me into his arms & held me tightly, "Me & Matt won't let that
bastard hurt you again!" He said as he softly stroked my hair. His
shirt was soft on my face & I closed my eyes & breathed in his scent.
Damn he smelled good! I suddenly realized where my thoughts were
taking me & pulled back quickly.
"Well…" gulped & cleared my throat, "I guess you're right! I should
go & find a phone!" I stood up & made for the door & Jeff caught my
arm.
"Bec?" For a moment we were locked together, his eyes were as
entrancing as Matt's & for a few seconds I found myself completely
lost to him. "I…I won't let this happen ok?" I nodded slowly, unable
to tear my eyes away from his. "It won't happen!" he said softly and
then looked towards the window. I had a sinking feeling in my stomach
that I knew exactly what he meant & he wasn't talking about Mick! As
soon as he looked away it was as if the spell had been broken & I
turned & left the room without saying a word!
I wandered along the corridor in a half-dazed state! I could still
smell Jeff, his cologne wason my clothes & I tried to block out the
thoughts it was weaving into my mind!
"Beth right?" said a voice.
"Wha…erm…"
"You're Matt Hardy's girlfriend? We met last night?"
"Shane! Oh yeah no I mean.." I took a deep breath as Shane McMahon
stood in front of me looking totally confused! "What I mean is yes
I'm Matt's girlfriend but it's Bec not Beth!" I smiled.
"Oh man! I am so sorry Bec! I'm hopeless with names!" he shook his
head & smiled.
"Oh it's ok really! I kinda had my mind elsewhere!"
"Anything I can help you with?"
"Well um yeah actually I need a phone!"
"Well then, step into my office!" He smiled & led me to a nearby door.
"Are you sure? It's long distance? I need to call home, kind of a
family emergency!"
"Go for your life hun!" he went for the door, "I'll leave you to it!"
he winked & left the room.
With my hands shaking and all thoughts of Jeff totally forgotten I
nervously lifted the receiver & dialed home!
"Hello?" said a warm & familiar voice!
"Mum! Hi Mum it's me!"
"Bec! Sweetheart! So nice to hear from you! Where are you?"
"Erm..how did you know I wasn't in Cameron?"
"I called the Jameson's place yesterday & Mary told me you'd gone
away with Matt! Jake is having a fit that you're going to shows!" she
laughed.
"Ah right! Well tell him I'll have some surprises for him when I see
him next! Is he there?"
"Well actually he's at school but he'll be home in half an hour!"
"Oh right yeah! Sorry I didn't think!"
"That's ok honey it's just good to hear from you!"
"Yeah, you too mum! I'm missing you guys so much!" I bit on my lip &
looked at the celing to stop the tears coming.
"Are you ok Bec? You seem a little distracted?"
"I'm fine Mum! Having the time of my life infact!" I lied. "Erm…..mum
have you heard anything about Mick recently?" Silence, "Mum? Are you
still there?"
"Y..yes sweetheart I'm still here!"
"Well?"
"Erm….Mick you say? No I haven't heard anything! What made you ask
about Mick?"
"Oh no reason, just thinking that's all!"
"Well no need to think about that scum! Now you just get on with your
life & forget about Mick you hear?"
"Are you not telling me something here Mum?"
"what do you mean?"
"I mean if, well if Mick had been released or something you would
tell me wouldn't you?"
"Of course I would!! Look I have to go darling there's someone at the
door!"
"Oh right! Love you Mum!"
"Love you too Bec! Have fun & Just call me when you get back to
Cameron & we'll talk ok?"
"Sure Mum! Bye then."
As I replaced the receiver I couldn't help but think that she was
holding something back, I could always tell when Mum was lying to me!