Lost, Confused, Unkind, (Sequel To "Freaked")
Chapter 18
The show was……well I can't remember all that much about it to be honest!! Sitting beside Brendan Frasier was a little distracting to say the least! He was a very nice guy & although I didn't say all that much to him we seemed to get along ok! I was slightly star struck (OK I was totally star struck!) but still I had an absolute ball! For once in my drab little, insignificant life I felt just a tiny bit important, just a little bit noticed & I can tell you that feeling was good!
Back in the locker room the guys were joking around saying how Matt was definately going to get laid that night! I just laughed it off although I was hoping they were right! Matt was in the shower & the rest of the guys left so I took the opportunity to grab Jeff!
"Hey listen sorry about before, in the airport! I didn't mean to get you all freaked out like that!"
"That's ok!" Jeff smiled, "I would have put money on that guy being Steve!"
"Yeah me too!"
"So have you called that cop yet?"
I shook my head, "I haven't had a minute to even think about it since we got here!"
"Oh yeah! Friend of the stars!" Jeff laughed!
"Yeah, how cool was that?!" I beamed. "Me, boring Bec gets to sit beside Brendan Frasier for a whole 2 hours and 37 minutes exactly!!" I laughed & Jeff shook his head, smiling.
"Yeah go figure! So is he a nice multi-millionaire then?"
I rolled my eyes, "Very, very nice guy!"
We sat down on the bench & I glanced at the bathroom door. I could still hear water running so I knew we were ok to talk, for now!
"Listen you have to call her first thing oK?"
"Yeah I know! I will!"
"Bec, I get the feeling you maybe don't wanna call her? Like maybe you'd rather not know? But…" he took my hand in both of his, "…You have to call, make sure he's still inside! It's for your own safety!"
"Yeah I know! And I will call her Jeff I promise!"
"Promise?"
I looked into his eyes, bad move! I would have promised him I'd walk over fire just then! "I promise!…..DAD!" I laughed trying to make a joke out of it.
"Don't give me that crap Bec I'm worried about you!" my smile faded.
"Jeff look if it is Steve then he's just playing games! He's trying to mess with my mind, it's his style! Trying to screw me up like before but it's not going to work Jeff, not this time!" I put my other hand on top of his & looked at his face, he looked sad & he looked scared & I didn't like what I saw in his eyes. "I'm not the same person as I was the last time he fucked me up! I'm stronger than that and I'm not going to let him do it to me again ok? Just don't worry! I'll call Smithurst first thing in the morning and then we'll know for sure! If it isn't Steve, well then I don't know what I'll do next!"
Jeff nodded, "Until then do me a favour and just watch your back ok? If you see or hear anything you don't like just come & get me.." he looked me in the eye, "…I'll never be far away ok?"
"Yeah, thanks Jeff!" I kissed his cheek & we looked at each other for a second…..
"BEC! ARE YOU STILL OUT THERE?"
"Um YEAH MATT!"
"CAN YOU PASS ME A TOWEL OUTA MY BAG PLEASE HUN?"
I gave Jeff a slight smile & got Matt his towel. Before I went into the bathroom I put my hand on Jeff's shoulder "Thanks again Jeff, just for being here! Someone to talk to y'know?"
He patted my hand & smiled, "Anytime!" He stood up & left.
******
Matt grabbed me as I walked into the bathroom with his towel.
"Hey! Ew you're all wet!" I playfully pushed him away & he grabbed me again, "MAAAATT!" I laughed.
"Come here you!" He kissed me, "I just wanna make sure all this mingling with the rich & famous hasn't turned your head!" he laughed.
"Moi? Oh please……who are you again?" I stuck my nose in the air & he tickled me. "Listen I'm gonna go out to the lot for a cigarette!"
"Awww I was hoping you'd want a shower with me again!"
"Save it stud!" I winked, 'Won't be long!"
I eventually found the back door & lit up a cigarette. The night air was cool & made the hairs on my arms stand on end! I shivered & wrapped my arms around my chest, rubbing them to keep them warm. I took a drag on the cigarette & I thought I heard someone whispering. I turned around quickly but there was no one there, I turned back to my origional position, still nothing. Come to think of it the lot was unusually quiet considering the show had only been finished for an hour! Usually there'd be people everywhere running around trying to pack everything up! I figured talking to Jeff had freaked me out & I shook my head & took another drag ignoring my racing heart beat!
"Beeeeccc!"
I whirled around quickly! I definatly heard my name!
"Who's there?" Silence. I started to back up towards the door. My eyes darting back & forth over the empty parking lot. The breeze got a little stronger & whipped my hair around into my face. "Steve?" I said out loud, "Steve if that's you this is just stupid man!" Still silence. "STEVE! This is it! I've had enough you hear?" I continued to back-step towards the door & I threw my half smoked cigarette on to the ground. Again I heard my name whispered & I couldn't even tell which direction it was coming from. I quickened my back-pacing, "Who's there?" I shouted again, "Just go away….please!" I scanned the lot again looking for anything that would give away someone's hiding place but I couldn't see a thing! I took one more step backwards & turned to run into the building but I ran into someone & they grabbed both of my arms! "GET OFF!" I screamed & frantically hit out at whoever had me trapped!
"Woah! Hey!"
I looked up into the face of Adam! "Adam! Jesus!" I turned around again to check behind me. "Shit!" I was shaking uncontrollably & gasping for air!
"Hey it's ok! What's wrong? What happened?"
I looked up at him again as tears rolled down my cheeks but no words would come out!
"Come on, INSIDE!" he put his arm around me & turned to look around the lot before he led me inside!
Chapter 18
The show was……well I can't remember all that much about it to be honest!! Sitting beside Brendan Frasier was a little distracting to say the least! He was a very nice guy & although I didn't say all that much to him we seemed to get along ok! I was slightly star struck (OK I was totally star struck!) but still I had an absolute ball! For once in my drab little, insignificant life I felt just a tiny bit important, just a little bit noticed & I can tell you that feeling was good!
Back in the locker room the guys were joking around saying how Matt was definately going to get laid that night! I just laughed it off although I was hoping they were right! Matt was in the shower & the rest of the guys left so I took the opportunity to grab Jeff!
"Hey listen sorry about before, in the airport! I didn't mean to get you all freaked out like that!"
"That's ok!" Jeff smiled, "I would have put money on that guy being Steve!"
"Yeah me too!"
"So have you called that cop yet?"
I shook my head, "I haven't had a minute to even think about it since we got here!"
"Oh yeah! Friend of the stars!" Jeff laughed!
"Yeah, how cool was that?!" I beamed. "Me, boring Bec gets to sit beside Brendan Frasier for a whole 2 hours and 37 minutes exactly!!" I laughed & Jeff shook his head, smiling.
"Yeah go figure! So is he a nice multi-millionaire then?"
I rolled my eyes, "Very, very nice guy!"
We sat down on the bench & I glanced at the bathroom door. I could still hear water running so I knew we were ok to talk, for now!
"Listen you have to call her first thing oK?"
"Yeah I know! I will!"
"Bec, I get the feeling you maybe don't wanna call her? Like maybe you'd rather not know? But…" he took my hand in both of his, "…You have to call, make sure he's still inside! It's for your own safety!"
"Yeah I know! And I will call her Jeff I promise!"
"Promise?"
I looked into his eyes, bad move! I would have promised him I'd walk over fire just then! "I promise!…..DAD!" I laughed trying to make a joke out of it.
"Don't give me that crap Bec I'm worried about you!" my smile faded.
"Jeff look if it is Steve then he's just playing games! He's trying to mess with my mind, it's his style! Trying to screw me up like before but it's not going to work Jeff, not this time!" I put my other hand on top of his & looked at his face, he looked sad & he looked scared & I didn't like what I saw in his eyes. "I'm not the same person as I was the last time he fucked me up! I'm stronger than that and I'm not going to let him do it to me again ok? Just don't worry! I'll call Smithurst first thing in the morning and then we'll know for sure! If it isn't Steve, well then I don't know what I'll do next!"
Jeff nodded, "Until then do me a favour and just watch your back ok? If you see or hear anything you don't like just come & get me.." he looked me in the eye, "…I'll never be far away ok?"
"Yeah, thanks Jeff!" I kissed his cheek & we looked at each other for a second…..
"BEC! ARE YOU STILL OUT THERE?"
"Um YEAH MATT!"
"CAN YOU PASS ME A TOWEL OUTA MY BAG PLEASE HUN?"
I gave Jeff a slight smile & got Matt his towel. Before I went into the bathroom I put my hand on Jeff's shoulder "Thanks again Jeff, just for being here! Someone to talk to y'know?"
He patted my hand & smiled, "Anytime!" He stood up & left.
******
Matt grabbed me as I walked into the bathroom with his towel.
"Hey! Ew you're all wet!" I playfully pushed him away & he grabbed me again, "MAAAATT!" I laughed.
"Come here you!" He kissed me, "I just wanna make sure all this mingling with the rich & famous hasn't turned your head!" he laughed.
"Moi? Oh please……who are you again?" I stuck my nose in the air & he tickled me. "Listen I'm gonna go out to the lot for a cigarette!"
"Awww I was hoping you'd want a shower with me again!"
"Save it stud!" I winked, 'Won't be long!"
I eventually found the back door & lit up a cigarette. The night air was cool & made the hairs on my arms stand on end! I shivered & wrapped my arms around my chest, rubbing them to keep them warm. I took a drag on the cigarette & I thought I heard someone whispering. I turned around quickly but there was no one there, I turned back to my origional position, still nothing. Come to think of it the lot was unusually quiet considering the show had only been finished for an hour! Usually there'd be people everywhere running around trying to pack everything up! I figured talking to Jeff had freaked me out & I shook my head & took another drag ignoring my racing heart beat!
"Beeeeccc!"
I whirled around quickly! I definatly heard my name!
"Who's there?" Silence. I started to back up towards the door. My eyes darting back & forth over the empty parking lot. The breeze got a little stronger & whipped my hair around into my face. "Steve?" I said out loud, "Steve if that's you this is just stupid man!" Still silence. "STEVE! This is it! I've had enough you hear?" I continued to back-step towards the door & I threw my half smoked cigarette on to the ground. Again I heard my name whispered & I couldn't even tell which direction it was coming from. I quickened my back-pacing, "Who's there?" I shouted again, "Just go away….please!" I scanned the lot again looking for anything that would give away someone's hiding place but I couldn't see a thing! I took one more step backwards & turned to run into the building but I ran into someone & they grabbed both of my arms! "GET OFF!" I screamed & frantically hit out at whoever had me trapped!
"Woah! Hey!"
I looked up into the face of Adam! "Adam! Jesus!" I turned around again to check behind me. "Shit!" I was shaking uncontrollably & gasping for air!
"Hey it's ok! What's wrong? What happened?"
I looked up at him again as tears rolled down my cheeks but no words would come out!
"Come on, INSIDE!" he put his arm around me & turned to look around the lot before he led me inside!