Lost, Confused, Unkind (Sequel To "Freaked")
Chapter 21
"So?"
"Well I left a message we'll just have to wait and see I guess!" I handed him his phone back, he still hadn't let go of my hand & I was so greatful he was there to support me!
"It'll be ok y'know?"
I looked up into his eyes & tears started to well up in my own. "I thought,…" I sighed, "I thought this was over Jeff! I don't think I can take this again…I feel…" he pulled me close & put his arms around me, "I feel so scared & lost! Like this is happening to someone else & I'm just watching it on a TV screen!"
"Hey come on! Shhh!" he stroked my hair, "It's ok! He can't get to you this time I promise!"
I pulled my head off his shoulder & looked at him through my tears, "How can you promise that? You can't possibly promise me that!"
"Hey come on Bec! I'm not about to sit back & let this happen to you! I just…..I won't leave your side if that's what it takes to nail this son of a bitch!"
I smiled, "You are so not coming into the bathroom with me!" I laughed a little through my sobs & Jeff smiled.
"Yeah & I think Matt might have something to say about me sharing a bed with the two of you!"
I let out another laugh & then sniffed. "Thank you Jeff!"
"Hey I won't pretend I'm doing this ALL for you! I want to get my hands on that bastard for purely selfish reasons as well!"
I wiped my face, "Yeah I know! He was your friend, you're bound to feel this way!" I sniffed again.
"Ok let's get out of this damn room!" He stood up & went to his suitcase for a shirt.
"And go where exactly?"
"I dunno. Anywhere but in here or I'm going to go as crazy…..as….as a pet coon!" he grinned.
"A what?" I chuckled.
"A pet coon? A raccoon? Ah it doesn't matter it's one of JR's saying!" he laughed.
"Reckon I'm going to have to start watching Raw!" I stood up, "Oh Jeff let me just go & get my jacket from my room! Won't be long!"
"Hang on I'll come with you!" he said hopping as he tried to put his other boot on!
"I'll only be a minute! I'll meet you in the hall!"
Before he could protest I went out of the door & back to my own room. I went and did a quick spruce up in the mirror before I unleashed myself on the world & heard Jeff coming in behind me.
"I'm in the bathroom! Won't be a tick!"
I straightened my hair & clothes & went to get my jacket. "Man it didn't take you long to follow…." I looked around the room, "Jeff?" There was no one there! I got goose bumps all over my body as my eyes darted around the room. "Jeff?" I said again quietly, but I knew he wasn't there! Deep down I knew it wasn't Jeff that had followed me into the room but I prayed I was wrong! My heart speeded up & I tried not to breathe so I could listen for any sounds that would indicate I wasn't alone. My legs felt like lead as I slowly took a step towards the bed, then I noticed something on my pillow, it looked wet! I carefully edged my way around the bed & lifted the pillow to my face. The smell instantly hit the back of my throat & made me gag & I threw the pillow onto the bed. It was Tommy! I started to shake from head to toe & then my body took over my mind & before I knew it I'd grabbed my jacket & had one arm in it as I headed for the door! I had the jacket on as Jeff stepped into the room & I reached into my pocket for my key to lock the door.
"Let's go! Just get out of here right now!" I grabbed Jeff's arm & dragged him out of the door, slamming it behind us quickly.
"What's goin on….Bec , what have you done to yourself?" Jeff grabbed my hand & held it up so I could see it. It was red, deep red & droplets stained my jacket.
"I….I haven't done anything Jeff…..it's not…Oh GOD!" I looked down & saw my jacket covered in red sticky liquid. "Shit Jeff!" I started to panick, "It's in my pocket!! There's something in my pocket!! Oh Jesus! OH God!"
Jeff dragged my quickly back to his room & slammed the door. "Ok calm down!"
"Fuck! Aw fuck Jeff get it out!!" I screamed & jumped up & down!
"Ok! Ok!" Jeff placed both of his hands on my shoulders to stop me from jumping around. "But I have a feeling it's not what you think it is!" he reached into my pocket.
"Oh shit! I'm gonna puke Jeff!" I squeezed my eyes shut, "What is it? What the fuck is it? I don't wanna see! I don't wanna…"
"Open your eyes!"
"I can't!"
"Open your eyes Bec!" slowly I opened my eyes as Jeff held up the broken bottle of Manick Panick hair dye!
"Wha…..wha…" I stammered. "Manick Panick?" I stared in disbelief!
Jeff looked at his feet where red splodges were appearing on the carpet. "It aint just any bottle of Manick Bec!"
"What do you mean?"
"Erm…look at my hair!" Jeff was almost shouting! When I looked at his hair I saw that it was red! He'd dyed it red!! "What's the bets that…" he went into the bathroom, "Yup!" I followed him in, "It's my bottle!" He threw his hands up in the air then threw the smashed bottle into the bin & put his hands on his hips!
"Oh…"
"Yeah, I left it right there!" he pointed to the counter beside the sink.
"Oh!" I gulped again.
"I'm gonna kill the bastard!"
"No Jeff you're not killing anyone!" I looked at my jacket, my hands it was even in my hair when I'd rubbed my hands through it not realizing! Everything was blood red!
"I knew I recognized the smell!"
"The smell!" My eyes widened, "Jeff go back to my room & smell my pillow!"
"Excuse me?"
"I'm serious! Smell my pillow & tell me what it smells like! Please?!"
Jeff started to wash his hands. "Jesus ok! I'll go sniff your pillow but if Matt comes in my ass is grass!"
"Just do it!" I pushed him out of the bathroom & started to clean myself up. God this stuff looked just like blood! I was still shaking as I took off my jacket & threw it into the bin in the bathroom. The stuff was all over one side of my shirt & jeans. I rolled my eyes & sat on the side of the bath trying to take it all in! I looked at my hands which were still stained red with one dribble that ran all the way to my elbow! I looked in the mirror at the patch of my hair, which would now be dyed red & the tears threatened to come again but I took a deep breath & held them at bay! I gathered up my shirt & ran the stained part under the tap but the more I tried to wash it out the worse it became until almost all of shirt was pink!
"Ok it smells of erm.." Jeff walked into the bathroom, "What ARE you trying to do?"
"What does my pillow smell of?"
"It smells of shampoo with a feint undertone of your perfume and since when did you start to wear Channel Number 5?
"Cute! Very cute!" I snapped, as I attempted to wring the water out of my shirt, getting less scared & more angry by the minute! "Matt bought me it at the airport and since when did you start to notice my perfume?" I grabbed a towel & tried to dry off. Jeff leaned against the doorframe & grinned.
"That's beside the point, what was it meant to smell of?"
"Tommy Hillfiger….dammit I'll never get this out! Go get me a shirt from my case will you? I don't want to go back in there!"
Jeff rolled his eyes, "I'll lend you one of mine!" He walked into the bedroom & bent down to look in his case.
"You have hair dye all over your ass!" I said as I came out of the bathroom. Jeff tried to turn around to see it.
"Aww shit!" he said when he finally saw it, "Anyway since when did you start to notice my ass!" he grinned.
"Oh SHUT UP JEFF!"
Chapter 21
"So?"
"Well I left a message we'll just have to wait and see I guess!" I handed him his phone back, he still hadn't let go of my hand & I was so greatful he was there to support me!
"It'll be ok y'know?"
I looked up into his eyes & tears started to well up in my own. "I thought,…" I sighed, "I thought this was over Jeff! I don't think I can take this again…I feel…" he pulled me close & put his arms around me, "I feel so scared & lost! Like this is happening to someone else & I'm just watching it on a TV screen!"
"Hey come on! Shhh!" he stroked my hair, "It's ok! He can't get to you this time I promise!"
I pulled my head off his shoulder & looked at him through my tears, "How can you promise that? You can't possibly promise me that!"
"Hey come on Bec! I'm not about to sit back & let this happen to you! I just…..I won't leave your side if that's what it takes to nail this son of a bitch!"
I smiled, "You are so not coming into the bathroom with me!" I laughed a little through my sobs & Jeff smiled.
"Yeah & I think Matt might have something to say about me sharing a bed with the two of you!"
I let out another laugh & then sniffed. "Thank you Jeff!"
"Hey I won't pretend I'm doing this ALL for you! I want to get my hands on that bastard for purely selfish reasons as well!"
I wiped my face, "Yeah I know! He was your friend, you're bound to feel this way!" I sniffed again.
"Ok let's get out of this damn room!" He stood up & went to his suitcase for a shirt.
"And go where exactly?"
"I dunno. Anywhere but in here or I'm going to go as crazy…..as….as a pet coon!" he grinned.
"A what?" I chuckled.
"A pet coon? A raccoon? Ah it doesn't matter it's one of JR's saying!" he laughed.
"Reckon I'm going to have to start watching Raw!" I stood up, "Oh Jeff let me just go & get my jacket from my room! Won't be long!"
"Hang on I'll come with you!" he said hopping as he tried to put his other boot on!
"I'll only be a minute! I'll meet you in the hall!"
Before he could protest I went out of the door & back to my own room. I went and did a quick spruce up in the mirror before I unleashed myself on the world & heard Jeff coming in behind me.
"I'm in the bathroom! Won't be a tick!"
I straightened my hair & clothes & went to get my jacket. "Man it didn't take you long to follow…." I looked around the room, "Jeff?" There was no one there! I got goose bumps all over my body as my eyes darted around the room. "Jeff?" I said again quietly, but I knew he wasn't there! Deep down I knew it wasn't Jeff that had followed me into the room but I prayed I was wrong! My heart speeded up & I tried not to breathe so I could listen for any sounds that would indicate I wasn't alone. My legs felt like lead as I slowly took a step towards the bed, then I noticed something on my pillow, it looked wet! I carefully edged my way around the bed & lifted the pillow to my face. The smell instantly hit the back of my throat & made me gag & I threw the pillow onto the bed. It was Tommy! I started to shake from head to toe & then my body took over my mind & before I knew it I'd grabbed my jacket & had one arm in it as I headed for the door! I had the jacket on as Jeff stepped into the room & I reached into my pocket for my key to lock the door.
"Let's go! Just get out of here right now!" I grabbed Jeff's arm & dragged him out of the door, slamming it behind us quickly.
"What's goin on….Bec , what have you done to yourself?" Jeff grabbed my hand & held it up so I could see it. It was red, deep red & droplets stained my jacket.
"I….I haven't done anything Jeff…..it's not…Oh GOD!" I looked down & saw my jacket covered in red sticky liquid. "Shit Jeff!" I started to panick, "It's in my pocket!! There's something in my pocket!! Oh Jesus! OH God!"
Jeff dragged my quickly back to his room & slammed the door. "Ok calm down!"
"Fuck! Aw fuck Jeff get it out!!" I screamed & jumped up & down!
"Ok! Ok!" Jeff placed both of his hands on my shoulders to stop me from jumping around. "But I have a feeling it's not what you think it is!" he reached into my pocket.
"Oh shit! I'm gonna puke Jeff!" I squeezed my eyes shut, "What is it? What the fuck is it? I don't wanna see! I don't wanna…"
"Open your eyes!"
"I can't!"
"Open your eyes Bec!" slowly I opened my eyes as Jeff held up the broken bottle of Manick Panick hair dye!
"Wha…..wha…" I stammered. "Manick Panick?" I stared in disbelief!
Jeff looked at his feet where red splodges were appearing on the carpet. "It aint just any bottle of Manick Bec!"
"What do you mean?"
"Erm…look at my hair!" Jeff was almost shouting! When I looked at his hair I saw that it was red! He'd dyed it red!! "What's the bets that…" he went into the bathroom, "Yup!" I followed him in, "It's my bottle!" He threw his hands up in the air then threw the smashed bottle into the bin & put his hands on his hips!
"Oh…"
"Yeah, I left it right there!" he pointed to the counter beside the sink.
"Oh!" I gulped again.
"I'm gonna kill the bastard!"
"No Jeff you're not killing anyone!" I looked at my jacket, my hands it was even in my hair when I'd rubbed my hands through it not realizing! Everything was blood red!
"I knew I recognized the smell!"
"The smell!" My eyes widened, "Jeff go back to my room & smell my pillow!"
"Excuse me?"
"I'm serious! Smell my pillow & tell me what it smells like! Please?!"
Jeff started to wash his hands. "Jesus ok! I'll go sniff your pillow but if Matt comes in my ass is grass!"
"Just do it!" I pushed him out of the bathroom & started to clean myself up. God this stuff looked just like blood! I was still shaking as I took off my jacket & threw it into the bin in the bathroom. The stuff was all over one side of my shirt & jeans. I rolled my eyes & sat on the side of the bath trying to take it all in! I looked at my hands which were still stained red with one dribble that ran all the way to my elbow! I looked in the mirror at the patch of my hair, which would now be dyed red & the tears threatened to come again but I took a deep breath & held them at bay! I gathered up my shirt & ran the stained part under the tap but the more I tried to wash it out the worse it became until almost all of shirt was pink!
"Ok it smells of erm.." Jeff walked into the bathroom, "What ARE you trying to do?"
"What does my pillow smell of?"
"It smells of shampoo with a feint undertone of your perfume and since when did you start to wear Channel Number 5?
"Cute! Very cute!" I snapped, as I attempted to wring the water out of my shirt, getting less scared & more angry by the minute! "Matt bought me it at the airport and since when did you start to notice my perfume?" I grabbed a towel & tried to dry off. Jeff leaned against the doorframe & grinned.
"That's beside the point, what was it meant to smell of?"
"Tommy Hillfiger….dammit I'll never get this out! Go get me a shirt from my case will you? I don't want to go back in there!"
Jeff rolled his eyes, "I'll lend you one of mine!" He walked into the bedroom & bent down to look in his case.
"You have hair dye all over your ass!" I said as I came out of the bathroom. Jeff tried to turn around to see it.
"Aww shit!" he said when he finally saw it, "Anyway since when did you start to notice my ass!" he grinned.
"Oh SHUT UP JEFF!"