Lost, Confused, Unkind (Sequel To "Freaked")
Chapter 24
I'd only been in my room for 5 minutes when there was a knock on the door. I'd taken off one soaking shoe so I hobbled over to answer it & found Matt standing in the corridor!
"You'll have to try harder to get rid of me!" he smiled.
"Come in you idiot!" I laughed.
"They gave me the damn key to 205! I just walked in on my brother in his jocks!" Matt shuddered & I laughed, "Jeff says you saw a rat?"
"Huh?" I said as I sat on the edge of the bed trying to pull off the other shoe! Matt dumped his jacket on the floor & knelt down to help me.
"A rat? In the other room?"
"Oh um yeah I think I did!"
Matt tugged my shoe off & threw it on the floor. "Dunno why he's so bothered about them, that damn prarie dog of his is just an overgrown rat!" He smiled & knelt up between my legs, "I missed you today!" he kissed me, "Man you are soaking….what's this?" he tugged at the shit I was wearing.
"Oh um I spilled erm…coffee on my other shirt while they were moving the stuff up to this room, so I didn't have a spare but Jeff had this one um in the car!" I smiled sweetly trying to cover up my blatant lie!
"Oh right!" Matt didn't seem convinced!
"Yeah but I need to take a shower! We got caught in the storm & I'm freezing!" I kissed him again & stood up, pulling the wet shirt over my head & throwing it at him. "Here! You can use it to clean your boots!!" I laughed.
Matt shook his head & smiled, "Hey want me to come wash your back?" he grinned.
"No thanks!" I smiled & his face dropped, "But you can come & hold the soap for me if ya want!" I giggled & ran into the bathroom & Matt jumped up & followed me in.
We didn't have sex, well not fully! I just couldn't do it, not after I thought I'd seen Mick in town! I was devastated that maybe I was back to square one! We did fool around & Matt seemed ok with that, I figured he'd gone so long without sex that he probably didn't even notice!
We got dressed & while Matt was sorting out his laundry I laid on the bed & stretched out! It felt so good to be warm & dry again & I could've quite happily curled up & gone to sleep for a week! Matt crawled on the bed & leaned his head on my chest. "Got any laundry cause I'm going downstairs with this lot?"
"Oh those sweet nothing's you whisper!" I laughed, "Domesticated too! What a catch!" Matt prodded me playfully. "Yeah it's in a bag somewhere!" I yawned.
"I don't wanna move!" Matt snuggled his head into my breast & I giggled. "Man you should've seen the kids there today, it was manick!"
"Mmmm." I mumbled.
"There was this one girl almost peed her pants over Adam! Man he didn't know what to do! She was a wreck poor kid, totally freaking out!" he laughed.
"Poor Adam!" I smiled, "Go on then go do the laundry! And please don't turn my knickers blue!"
Matt laughed, "Well you could always do it?"
"Aww nooo I'm too knackered!"
"What have you been up to today then?"
"Oh nothin' much, sat around clothes shops while your brother tried on shirts mostly!" I laughed, "Oh and stood around while he was accosted by little girlies wanting his autograph!"
"Yeah?"
"Yeah! Oh but the highlight of the day was helping him to pick out nail varnish!!"
"God he is such a freak!" Matt laughed. "Ok well I guess since you had to spend the day with the space monkey next door then I suppose I could go turn your knickers blue!" he got off the bed.
"OY! HARDY! Come back here a minute!"
"That sounds promising!" he grinned & got back on the bed. "How can I be of service?"
"Kiss me! I've missed you!"
He kissed my lips softly, "I've missed you too!"
"I love you!" I smiled.
He smiled & kissed me again, "Well I guess this laundry ain't gonna do its self!" he stood up.
"Yeah I guess." I sighed. He left a couple of minutes later & I rolled over on the bed & looked out of the window. It was still pouring down outside & I sighed again. I should just stop telling him I loved him! It felt like every time I did tell him I just got shot down & I didn't know why I even bothered!
I was dozing off on the bed when I suddenly remembered the phone call & my eyes snapped wide open. I got off the bed & dragged my tired legs out of the door to Jeff's room. I knocked & he shouted that it was open so I went inside & closed the door behind me. He was stretched out on his front on the bed writing something & thankfully as Matt put it his Jocks were well hidden!!
"Only me!" I said as I stood in the entrance to the room.
"Hello me!" Jeff smiled & sat up, putting the open & pad of paper to one side. "You feeling any better now?"
I folded my arms across my chest, "Not much! I'm still a bit freaked! Have you had a phone call yet?"
He shook his head. "Nope, not heard a thing sorry!" I sighed & rolled my eyes. "Come & sit down!" I sat next to him on the bed, bent one knee up & hugged my leg with both arms! It was then I noticed I hadn't even put any shoes on! God maybe I was losing the damn plot!
"Do you think we should call them back then?"
"Nah I think someone will call when they have the time, try not to worry yeah?"
I sighed again, "I'm so scared Jeff!" he took hold of my hand, "I'm scared for me & I'm scared that he's gonna hurt you or Matt! I just feel so useless! I don't know what to do!"
"Hey come on! He's not going to hurt any of us! Trust me I won't let that happen & neither will Matt!"
"What if…." I paused & turned to look at him, "What if it's just me Jeff?"
"I don't get you?"
"Well I'm starting to think that maybe it's me, maybe I'm imagining it all, going crazy or something?"
"TIME OUT!!" Jeff shook his head! "That's not possible because if it is then I'm just as crazy as you are because I saw the damn manic everywhere and I don't believe for a second that you're any crazier than I am!"
"Oh great! I definitely need a shrink then!" I smiled.
"Watch it!" Jeff nudged me playfully.
Just then the cell phone rang on the bedside cabinet & we just looked at each other. "You wanna answer it?" I shook my head so he reached over the bed & grabbed the phone.
"Hello? Yes this is Jeff Hardy!" I gulped & reached for his free hand. "Yes that's right it was regarding a case she handled a few months back." "Yeah sure it was…" My mind went into overdrive as I listened to Jeff recall the details of everything that had happened back in Cameron. He squeezed my hand tightly & I was so glad I wasn't doing this alone! "Well we were wondering if you could possibly tell us if he's still in jail, his name is….yes I understand that but we have reason to bel……yes sir I do understand but if you'd just let me exp…..but we aren't in Cameron right now & we wont be back for 3 weeks….but I'm trying to tell you there could be some danger here if you don't tell us where he is!" He let go of my hand & stood up, running his fingers through his hair. "Sir I appreciate that really I do but this is very impor….yeah? Well thanks for nothin' asshole!!" he threw the phone onto the bed & rubbed his face.
"He wouldn't tell you?"
"Nope! Fucking jackass says it's privillaged information that he can't possibly give out over the phone!" I bit on my lip, "Son of a bitch wouldn't even let me explain!" He sat down beside me, "I'm sorry!"
"It's not your fault Jeff!"
"He said if we could go in person then maybe they could help us but until then…" he shrugged his shoulders.
"I guess ahh…" I looked to the celing to try & hide the tears but I blinked and one fell down my cheek. "We'll just have to wait until we go….." Jeff took me in his arms as the tears started to stream down my face & I sobbed into his chest.
Chapter 24
I'd only been in my room for 5 minutes when there was a knock on the door. I'd taken off one soaking shoe so I hobbled over to answer it & found Matt standing in the corridor!
"You'll have to try harder to get rid of me!" he smiled.
"Come in you idiot!" I laughed.
"They gave me the damn key to 205! I just walked in on my brother in his jocks!" Matt shuddered & I laughed, "Jeff says you saw a rat?"
"Huh?" I said as I sat on the edge of the bed trying to pull off the other shoe! Matt dumped his jacket on the floor & knelt down to help me.
"A rat? In the other room?"
"Oh um yeah I think I did!"
Matt tugged my shoe off & threw it on the floor. "Dunno why he's so bothered about them, that damn prarie dog of his is just an overgrown rat!" He smiled & knelt up between my legs, "I missed you today!" he kissed me, "Man you are soaking….what's this?" he tugged at the shit I was wearing.
"Oh um I spilled erm…coffee on my other shirt while they were moving the stuff up to this room, so I didn't have a spare but Jeff had this one um in the car!" I smiled sweetly trying to cover up my blatant lie!
"Oh right!" Matt didn't seem convinced!
"Yeah but I need to take a shower! We got caught in the storm & I'm freezing!" I kissed him again & stood up, pulling the wet shirt over my head & throwing it at him. "Here! You can use it to clean your boots!!" I laughed.
Matt shook his head & smiled, "Hey want me to come wash your back?" he grinned.
"No thanks!" I smiled & his face dropped, "But you can come & hold the soap for me if ya want!" I giggled & ran into the bathroom & Matt jumped up & followed me in.
We didn't have sex, well not fully! I just couldn't do it, not after I thought I'd seen Mick in town! I was devastated that maybe I was back to square one! We did fool around & Matt seemed ok with that, I figured he'd gone so long without sex that he probably didn't even notice!
We got dressed & while Matt was sorting out his laundry I laid on the bed & stretched out! It felt so good to be warm & dry again & I could've quite happily curled up & gone to sleep for a week! Matt crawled on the bed & leaned his head on my chest. "Got any laundry cause I'm going downstairs with this lot?"
"Oh those sweet nothing's you whisper!" I laughed, "Domesticated too! What a catch!" Matt prodded me playfully. "Yeah it's in a bag somewhere!" I yawned.
"I don't wanna move!" Matt snuggled his head into my breast & I giggled. "Man you should've seen the kids there today, it was manick!"
"Mmmm." I mumbled.
"There was this one girl almost peed her pants over Adam! Man he didn't know what to do! She was a wreck poor kid, totally freaking out!" he laughed.
"Poor Adam!" I smiled, "Go on then go do the laundry! And please don't turn my knickers blue!"
Matt laughed, "Well you could always do it?"
"Aww nooo I'm too knackered!"
"What have you been up to today then?"
"Oh nothin' much, sat around clothes shops while your brother tried on shirts mostly!" I laughed, "Oh and stood around while he was accosted by little girlies wanting his autograph!"
"Yeah?"
"Yeah! Oh but the highlight of the day was helping him to pick out nail varnish!!"
"God he is such a freak!" Matt laughed. "Ok well I guess since you had to spend the day with the space monkey next door then I suppose I could go turn your knickers blue!" he got off the bed.
"OY! HARDY! Come back here a minute!"
"That sounds promising!" he grinned & got back on the bed. "How can I be of service?"
"Kiss me! I've missed you!"
He kissed my lips softly, "I've missed you too!"
"I love you!" I smiled.
He smiled & kissed me again, "Well I guess this laundry ain't gonna do its self!" he stood up.
"Yeah I guess." I sighed. He left a couple of minutes later & I rolled over on the bed & looked out of the window. It was still pouring down outside & I sighed again. I should just stop telling him I loved him! It felt like every time I did tell him I just got shot down & I didn't know why I even bothered!
I was dozing off on the bed when I suddenly remembered the phone call & my eyes snapped wide open. I got off the bed & dragged my tired legs out of the door to Jeff's room. I knocked & he shouted that it was open so I went inside & closed the door behind me. He was stretched out on his front on the bed writing something & thankfully as Matt put it his Jocks were well hidden!!
"Only me!" I said as I stood in the entrance to the room.
"Hello me!" Jeff smiled & sat up, putting the open & pad of paper to one side. "You feeling any better now?"
I folded my arms across my chest, "Not much! I'm still a bit freaked! Have you had a phone call yet?"
He shook his head. "Nope, not heard a thing sorry!" I sighed & rolled my eyes. "Come & sit down!" I sat next to him on the bed, bent one knee up & hugged my leg with both arms! It was then I noticed I hadn't even put any shoes on! God maybe I was losing the damn plot!
"Do you think we should call them back then?"
"Nah I think someone will call when they have the time, try not to worry yeah?"
I sighed again, "I'm so scared Jeff!" he took hold of my hand, "I'm scared for me & I'm scared that he's gonna hurt you or Matt! I just feel so useless! I don't know what to do!"
"Hey come on! He's not going to hurt any of us! Trust me I won't let that happen & neither will Matt!"
"What if…." I paused & turned to look at him, "What if it's just me Jeff?"
"I don't get you?"
"Well I'm starting to think that maybe it's me, maybe I'm imagining it all, going crazy or something?"
"TIME OUT!!" Jeff shook his head! "That's not possible because if it is then I'm just as crazy as you are because I saw the damn manic everywhere and I don't believe for a second that you're any crazier than I am!"
"Oh great! I definitely need a shrink then!" I smiled.
"Watch it!" Jeff nudged me playfully.
Just then the cell phone rang on the bedside cabinet & we just looked at each other. "You wanna answer it?" I shook my head so he reached over the bed & grabbed the phone.
"Hello? Yes this is Jeff Hardy!" I gulped & reached for his free hand. "Yes that's right it was regarding a case she handled a few months back." "Yeah sure it was…" My mind went into overdrive as I listened to Jeff recall the details of everything that had happened back in Cameron. He squeezed my hand tightly & I was so glad I wasn't doing this alone! "Well we were wondering if you could possibly tell us if he's still in jail, his name is….yes I understand that but we have reason to bel……yes sir I do understand but if you'd just let me exp…..but we aren't in Cameron right now & we wont be back for 3 weeks….but I'm trying to tell you there could be some danger here if you don't tell us where he is!" He let go of my hand & stood up, running his fingers through his hair. "Sir I appreciate that really I do but this is very impor….yeah? Well thanks for nothin' asshole!!" he threw the phone onto the bed & rubbed his face.
"He wouldn't tell you?"
"Nope! Fucking jackass says it's privillaged information that he can't possibly give out over the phone!" I bit on my lip, "Son of a bitch wouldn't even let me explain!" He sat down beside me, "I'm sorry!"
"It's not your fault Jeff!"
"He said if we could go in person then maybe they could help us but until then…" he shrugged his shoulders.
"I guess ahh…" I looked to the celing to try & hide the tears but I blinked and one fell down my cheek. "We'll just have to wait until we go….." Jeff took me in his arms as the tears started to stream down my face & I sobbed into his chest.