Lost, Confused, Unkind (Sequel To "Freaked")
Chapter 28
I didn't know where I was going to sleep I just knew I had to get out of there & fast! My head started to ache & I felt sick, but most of all I felt angry! I'd clung so long to the hope that maybe he did actually love me but just couldn't say the words & now that hope was all shot to hell! I stood in the corridor & looked around at all the closed doors. There was no way I could bunk in with Jeff for the night after the way Matt had reacted earlier! I shouldn't have cared what he thought, not any more, but I did. I loved him still & there was no getting away from that, regardless of how he felt about me I could never deny my feelings for him, no matter how much I didn't like him very much at that moment in time! So Dwayne was out of the question aswell after the little bombshell Shane had dropped on me earlier! Truth was I didn't want to leave Matt, not for good, I just needed some space & sleeping in Dwayne's room wasn't going to help either of us! I went in the elevator down to reception but I knew it was a lost cause! It was 4am & no way was I getting another room at this time of the morning, but the fact was I didn't know where else to go! I leaned on the desk & looked at the empty seats behind it then put my head on my arms & started to cry! Truth be told I don't think I was crying because of the argument with Matt I was just emotionally & physically exhausted & I didn't know if I could go on much longer without having some sort of breakdown! I'd been so unkind to Matt back upstairs & I hadn't meant to hurt him, it was a combination of the alchohol and the emotional stress I'd been under these past few days!
I stayed there, almost asleep on my feet with the tears soaking my arms & the desk, I was past caring, I was too far gone. I didn't move until I heard a voice behind me.
"Come back upstairs." I quickly wiped my face & tried to stop crying before Matt saw me but it was no use.
"No thanks I'm fine here!"
"OK, well here's the key to the room, you can at least get some sleep & I'll stay down here instead." I looked at the key in Matt's outstretched hand & went to take it, but as I reached out he grabbed my hand. "I'm so sorry Bec!" I just looked at our hands locked together, suspended between us & all I wanted to do was to be in his arms, "I don't want us to fight!" he sighed.
"Me either." I gulped & looked at the floor. "I didn't mean to be such a bitch, it's the drink!" I smiled but a tear rolled down my cheek. Matt pulled on my hand so we were standing with our faces inches apart.
"It's not like I'm saying never Bec……it's just.."
"It doesn't matter."
"But I…" He started but I cut him off with a kiss, when we parted he smiled at me & wiped my wet face with his hand.
"You're incredible you know that?"
"How's that?"
"Because I thought I'd blown it!" he looked into my eyes, "I don't want to lose you Bec!"
"I'm not going anywhere!" I smiled & finally I felt his arms around me & I grabbed onto him tightly. As we stood there in the hotel lobby it felt like we were the only two people in the world. Nothing & No one else mattered, it was just me & Matt and I wanted it to stay that way forever.
"I love you so much!" I said over his shoulder & then I felt something whiz past my face just missing me by millimeters! I jumped back from Matt, "What was that?" I looked around on the floor.
"What was what?"
"Something almost hit me in the face! Just then when we were standing there it….." my voice trailed off when I saw something on the floor & I immediately went to pick it up. When I bent down I saw that it was a room key. "What the?" I picked it up & held it up for Matt while I scanned the lobby for any signs that we weren't alone. "It's a room key! It almost hit me in the damn head!" I turned around & around looking for whoever could have thrown it but there was no sign of anyone else in the lobby!
Matt turned the key ring over & then stared at me with a confused look on his face, "205?" he said quietly, wrinkling his brow.
"205? But that's…." I stopped & looked around the lobby again, "Jeff?" I called out but still nothing to even suggest anyone was with us! Suddenly my legs started to move before my brain had even told me where I was going! I ran to the elevator & frantically pressed the button.
"Bec? What's going on here?" Matt ran after me.
"I'll explain later, we have to get to Jeff NOW!"
The elevator still hadn't opened so I ran for the stairs with Matt following close behind. We raced up two flights of stairs & burst into the corridor. I looked in both directions to get my bearings & then I sprinted in the direction of 205. I didn't know why but something was wrong, terribly wrong! We got to his door & I hammered on it. "JEFF!!" I shouted & then looked down at my feet at the pool of water where I stood. "Matt!" I pointed at the carpet & his eyes widened.
"What the? JEFF!" he yelled & banged on the door.
"The key! Where's the key?" Matt still had it in his hand & he fumbled to get it into the lock. We both burst through the door at the same time & Jeff was nowhere to be seen. The place was flooded though & I could hear water running in the bathroom. I raced for the door & stopped dead in my tracks as I saw Jeff's face under water in the over flowing bathtub! Matt & I immediately ran to the tub & started to pull him out of the water. Tears stung my eyes as I tried to help Matt drag him out of the tub and onto the floor, he was just a dead weight!
Matt lay him on the floor & started CPR, I just stood with my hands on my head, pleading to God for Jeff to be alive & sobbing!
Adam ran into the room in his boxer shorts with his hair all over the place.
"What's goin on there's water…….HOLY SHIT WHAT'S HAPPENED?"
"Call an ambulance! NOW!" Matt yelled & Adam ran out of the room faster than I'd ever seen anyone run in my life! "HES NOT BREATHING!" Matt screamed in a total panick as he continued to frantically pump Jeff's chest with his hands.
I gasped & took a step backwards, "No no no no! It's all my fault!" I sobbed.
"COME ON JEFF DAMMIT!" Matt yelled. Dwayne ran into the bathroom & grabbed hold of me.
"What's happened? Jesus is he ok?" He bent down at Matt's side. "PUT HIM ON HIS SIDE!" he yelled at Matt.
"What?" Matt snapped.
"HIS SIDE!" Dwayne pushed Matt out of the way & rolled Jeff onto his side, "It's water in his lungs, we need to get it out!"
Matt ran around to Jeff's head & stuck two of his fingers into his mouth while Dwayne thumped on Jeff's back. Jeff looked pale & he looked dead & I was about to pass out when everything happened at once. Adam ran in & I turned to look at him, taking my eyes off Jeff for just a second then I heard gagging & when I looked back Jeff was spewing up a fountain of puke everywhere!
"COME ON JEFF! THAT'S IT!" Matt yelled, completely covered in his brother's vomit. I held my breath as Dwayne stopped thumping the hell out of Jeff's back & Matt got down on the floor to put his ear to Jeff's mouth. Finally after what felt like an hour but was actually only a few seconds Jeff gasped for a breath & started coughing. The look on Matt's face was utter relief, I'd never seen a man look like he did at that moment when his brother took a breath! He lifted Jeff's head onto his lap & cradled his younger sibling in his arms.
Chapter 28
I didn't know where I was going to sleep I just knew I had to get out of there & fast! My head started to ache & I felt sick, but most of all I felt angry! I'd clung so long to the hope that maybe he did actually love me but just couldn't say the words & now that hope was all shot to hell! I stood in the corridor & looked around at all the closed doors. There was no way I could bunk in with Jeff for the night after the way Matt had reacted earlier! I shouldn't have cared what he thought, not any more, but I did. I loved him still & there was no getting away from that, regardless of how he felt about me I could never deny my feelings for him, no matter how much I didn't like him very much at that moment in time! So Dwayne was out of the question aswell after the little bombshell Shane had dropped on me earlier! Truth was I didn't want to leave Matt, not for good, I just needed some space & sleeping in Dwayne's room wasn't going to help either of us! I went in the elevator down to reception but I knew it was a lost cause! It was 4am & no way was I getting another room at this time of the morning, but the fact was I didn't know where else to go! I leaned on the desk & looked at the empty seats behind it then put my head on my arms & started to cry! Truth be told I don't think I was crying because of the argument with Matt I was just emotionally & physically exhausted & I didn't know if I could go on much longer without having some sort of breakdown! I'd been so unkind to Matt back upstairs & I hadn't meant to hurt him, it was a combination of the alchohol and the emotional stress I'd been under these past few days!
I stayed there, almost asleep on my feet with the tears soaking my arms & the desk, I was past caring, I was too far gone. I didn't move until I heard a voice behind me.
"Come back upstairs." I quickly wiped my face & tried to stop crying before Matt saw me but it was no use.
"No thanks I'm fine here!"
"OK, well here's the key to the room, you can at least get some sleep & I'll stay down here instead." I looked at the key in Matt's outstretched hand & went to take it, but as I reached out he grabbed my hand. "I'm so sorry Bec!" I just looked at our hands locked together, suspended between us & all I wanted to do was to be in his arms, "I don't want us to fight!" he sighed.
"Me either." I gulped & looked at the floor. "I didn't mean to be such a bitch, it's the drink!" I smiled but a tear rolled down my cheek. Matt pulled on my hand so we were standing with our faces inches apart.
"It's not like I'm saying never Bec……it's just.."
"It doesn't matter."
"But I…" He started but I cut him off with a kiss, when we parted he smiled at me & wiped my wet face with his hand.
"You're incredible you know that?"
"How's that?"
"Because I thought I'd blown it!" he looked into my eyes, "I don't want to lose you Bec!"
"I'm not going anywhere!" I smiled & finally I felt his arms around me & I grabbed onto him tightly. As we stood there in the hotel lobby it felt like we were the only two people in the world. Nothing & No one else mattered, it was just me & Matt and I wanted it to stay that way forever.
"I love you so much!" I said over his shoulder & then I felt something whiz past my face just missing me by millimeters! I jumped back from Matt, "What was that?" I looked around on the floor.
"What was what?"
"Something almost hit me in the face! Just then when we were standing there it….." my voice trailed off when I saw something on the floor & I immediately went to pick it up. When I bent down I saw that it was a room key. "What the?" I picked it up & held it up for Matt while I scanned the lobby for any signs that we weren't alone. "It's a room key! It almost hit me in the damn head!" I turned around & around looking for whoever could have thrown it but there was no sign of anyone else in the lobby!
Matt turned the key ring over & then stared at me with a confused look on his face, "205?" he said quietly, wrinkling his brow.
"205? But that's…." I stopped & looked around the lobby again, "Jeff?" I called out but still nothing to even suggest anyone was with us! Suddenly my legs started to move before my brain had even told me where I was going! I ran to the elevator & frantically pressed the button.
"Bec? What's going on here?" Matt ran after me.
"I'll explain later, we have to get to Jeff NOW!"
The elevator still hadn't opened so I ran for the stairs with Matt following close behind. We raced up two flights of stairs & burst into the corridor. I looked in both directions to get my bearings & then I sprinted in the direction of 205. I didn't know why but something was wrong, terribly wrong! We got to his door & I hammered on it. "JEFF!!" I shouted & then looked down at my feet at the pool of water where I stood. "Matt!" I pointed at the carpet & his eyes widened.
"What the? JEFF!" he yelled & banged on the door.
"The key! Where's the key?" Matt still had it in his hand & he fumbled to get it into the lock. We both burst through the door at the same time & Jeff was nowhere to be seen. The place was flooded though & I could hear water running in the bathroom. I raced for the door & stopped dead in my tracks as I saw Jeff's face under water in the over flowing bathtub! Matt & I immediately ran to the tub & started to pull him out of the water. Tears stung my eyes as I tried to help Matt drag him out of the tub and onto the floor, he was just a dead weight!
Matt lay him on the floor & started CPR, I just stood with my hands on my head, pleading to God for Jeff to be alive & sobbing!
Adam ran into the room in his boxer shorts with his hair all over the place.
"What's goin on there's water…….HOLY SHIT WHAT'S HAPPENED?"
"Call an ambulance! NOW!" Matt yelled & Adam ran out of the room faster than I'd ever seen anyone run in my life! "HES NOT BREATHING!" Matt screamed in a total panick as he continued to frantically pump Jeff's chest with his hands.
I gasped & took a step backwards, "No no no no! It's all my fault!" I sobbed.
"COME ON JEFF DAMMIT!" Matt yelled. Dwayne ran into the bathroom & grabbed hold of me.
"What's happened? Jesus is he ok?" He bent down at Matt's side. "PUT HIM ON HIS SIDE!" he yelled at Matt.
"What?" Matt snapped.
"HIS SIDE!" Dwayne pushed Matt out of the way & rolled Jeff onto his side, "It's water in his lungs, we need to get it out!"
Matt ran around to Jeff's head & stuck two of his fingers into his mouth while Dwayne thumped on Jeff's back. Jeff looked pale & he looked dead & I was about to pass out when everything happened at once. Adam ran in & I turned to look at him, taking my eyes off Jeff for just a second then I heard gagging & when I looked back Jeff was spewing up a fountain of puke everywhere!
"COME ON JEFF! THAT'S IT!" Matt yelled, completely covered in his brother's vomit. I held my breath as Dwayne stopped thumping the hell out of Jeff's back & Matt got down on the floor to put his ear to Jeff's mouth. Finally after what felt like an hour but was actually only a few seconds Jeff gasped for a breath & started coughing. The look on Matt's face was utter relief, I'd never seen a man look like he did at that moment when his brother took a breath! He lifted Jeff's head onto his lap & cradled his younger sibling in his arms.