Lost, Confused, Unkind (Sequel To "Freaked")
Chapter 35
(Disclaimer - I do not own music or lyrics to any songs mentioned in this chapter)
He caught me off guard & I took a step backwards putting a hand to my mouth! When I looked over his shoulder Shane had gone & Dwayne stood in his place with Jeff. I saw Dwayne pat Jeff on the shoulder & go inside, Jeff remained unable to move. He licked his lips as if he was concentrating, or maybe he was just waiting to hear my answer!
I tore my eyes away from Jeff & looked down at Matt, kneeling there patiently waiting for me to answer his shocking question!
"Matt…I….I….erm….I don't……"
"Ok! Ok! I understand! You need time to think about it & that's cool! I can wait!" He smiled & stood up.
"It's just too fast! Let me get my breath!" I smiled & he hugged me. I looked over his shoulder to see Jeff looking at the ground & then he went back inside, thumping the door as he passed it. He thought I'd said yes!
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The show was great & I couldn't stop smiling! A few people I passed smiled & a few of the girls commented on how totally adorable the whole story was! I didn't even know these people & I was slightly embarrassed!
Backstage I stood & watched the show on a monitor with Shane.
"Well I can quite honestly say I've never seen you smile so much!" Shane grinned as we watched a match going on between Victoria & Jackie.
"Oh don't you start! I'm getting embarrassed!" I laughed, "Total strangers are telling me how lucky I am to have a guy like Matt!"
"Well do you think you're lucky?"
"I've always thought that Shane! It just took him a while to catch on!"
Shane laughed, "Ah I always knew you two were made for each other!" He put his arm around my shoulders & gave me a squeeze, "Didn't I just say that the other night? Huh? Am I not right as per usual?" He winked & I playfully nudged him in the ribs.
"Right about what?" Matt said as he came up behind me & put his arm around my waist before kissing me on the cheek. Shane moved his arm from my shoulders.
"Well I was just telling Bec the other night how good you two looked together!"
"Oh well then I can't argue with you there boss!" He turned me around & kissed me.
"Hey guys!" I looked up to see Jeff standing nearby. "Wish me luck I'm up next!"
Matt walked over to his brother & hugged him. It made me smile to see them like that again & Jeff smiled at me over Matt's shoulder! 'Thankyou!' I mouthed at him & he winked. When they parted I stepped forward & put my arms around Jeff, I guess it was a test to gauge Matt's reaction more than anything else! Jeff looked a little nervous that I'd hugged him & he glanced over to Matt with a worried smile on his face!
"Good luck ugly ass!" I smiled & kissed him on the cheek.
"Hey watch it! I have a nice ass!"
"Yeah well Trish seems to think so!" I laughed.
"Trish huh?" He pursed his lips & nodded thoughtfully, then his music started & he ran off towards the curtain! When I looked at Matt he was laughing & shaking his head - Just the kind of reaction I was hoping for!!
The match went exceptionally well & Shane even commented that he'd never seen Matt so fired up & into a match as he was that night! He said it was probably his best match ever!! He got a little beat up by half the Raw rosta coming to Jeff's aid, but never the less it worked & it was a job well done!
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Before we left I gave everyone a hug & went to the car while Matt said his goodbyes. I saw him at the door, hugging Jeff again before he came over & dumped a bag in the trunk & got into the passenger seat. He smiled, leaned over & kissed me.
"What did I do to deserve that?" I giggled.
"You're still here!" Matt said softly before starting the car.
We were halfway back to the hotel when he pulled over into a dark turn off to a field!
"What are we doing here?"
"I can't wait any longer!" he winked & got out of the car. I laughed & followed him into the field giggling.
"You're crazy you know that?"
"Not crazy, just IN LOVE!!"
"Shhhh! Matt! Someone might hear you!"
"I don't care! I LOVE THIS WOMAN!" He said, spinning around with his arms outstretched!
"What if the others go past & see the car!" I laughed as he lifted me off my feet.
"They won't! They are all going to a club, even Dwayne! Shane hired it for a couple of hours cuz it's Steph's birthday!"
"Oh? Why weren't we invited?"
"We were! But I thought we might have more important things to do tonight!"
"Oh we do huh?"
He kissed me, "Yeah we do!" He kissed me again & gently lay me down on the dirt. "I can't believe I've been so stupid!"
"Me too! I mean with the pills & everything! I'm really sorry!"
"Have you taken one today?"
"No I threw them in the garbage why?"
"Ahh right….well….." he rummaged in the pocket of his jeans, "Maybe we can throw these away too then?" He held up a box of condoms.
"Are you completely crazy?"
"Nope!" He threw them over his shoulder into the field.
"MAAAAATT!"
"Well I thought we should let nature take it's course!"
"You HAVE lost your mind!"
"Ah no see I believe in living for the moment & I wanna see what fate has in store for us tonight!"
"You've been drinking? On drugs?" He shook his head & grinned at me, "Ok! Somebody HELP ME! My boyfriend's been taken over by aliens!!"
"No, just taken over by leeeerrve!:"
"Oh now you're scaring me!!"
"What?"
"You've gone all weird on me!" I laughed.
"I love you!" he said softly & kissed my lips.
"I love you too, so much! I never thought I'd hear those words from you!"
"I promise from now on you will hear them every day for the rest of your life!" He slowly unbuttoned my jeans & kissed my stomach as he slid them off over my ankles,, He rolled them up & carefully placed them under my head. He took off his jeans & boxers & threw them to the ground & then leaned down & started to slide my knickers down my legs, kissing me all the time. He put them onto his pile of clothes and then slipped back up, parting my legs & licking me inside. Making me moan, but I pulled him up to my face.
"I want YOU!" I said as I looked into his eyes & I didn't have to ask twice! Once he was inside me we looked at each other without moving, "Matt. Are you sure about this? I mean about everything?" I asked as I brushed some of his hair from his face.
"Yes. I've never been more sure of anything in my life!" He kissed me, his tongue sliding deep into my mouth & I put my arms around his neck to hold him there. Slowly he started to move & my breathing got heavier.
"I love you Bec!" he panted as he stared into my eyes. I could've cried I was so happy. We rolled around in the corner of the field locked together in our love, lost in each other. I finally had him! He was mine & I couldn't believe it!
"Bec I love you!" he panted again as I rolled him onto his back for a third time & took over the rhythm, "I love you, don't stop!" he moaned as I quickened the pace, "Ah……Oh God! I love you!" He rolled me onto my back & thrust into me deep & hard as he came. I was about 5 seconds behind him & I dug my nails into his back & screamed out his name!
We lay in each other's arms still half naked, looking up at the stars as we lay in a Texas field!
"Man that was intense!" I sighed.
"Hey I think we just made a baby!" Matt grinned.
"Are you completley nuts? Matt you're starting to worry me! I don't know what's come over you!" I giggled.
"No I'm serious! I have this amazing feeling…."
"That's because you just got your rocks off dude!"
Matt looked a little deflated, "Ok, but if it's a boy can we call him Jude?"
"What?" I leaned up on my elbows & looked at him lying on his back, smiling like a little kid!
"Jude? I've always liked that name, y'know from the Beatles song? Man my mom was nuts over the Beatles & she drove us crazy with that song!" he laughed.
"You mean Hey Jude right?"
"Yeah…..Hey Jude!" he started singing, "Don't make it bad…..take a sad song & make it better…"
I giggled & joined in, "Remember to let her into your heart, then you can staaaart, to make it better!" We continued to sing the entire song as we got dressed & he put his arm around me to walk back to the car. We laughed & he took me in his arms as we leaned against the car door.
"And what if it's a girl?!" I giggled, "Oh God now look at me! You have got me sucked into your illusion!!" I playfully punched him in the arm & he laughed.
"Hey it could be both! There's twins on Mom's side of the family!"
"Now he tells me!"
He kissed me, it was so intense, so full of love that it made me shiver.
"Have I told you I love you today?" he smiled.
"Once or twice but hey keep it coming, you have some lost time to make up for!" I laughed. He kissed me again then we got into the car.
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Chapter 35
(Disclaimer - I do not own music or lyrics to any songs mentioned in this chapter)
He caught me off guard & I took a step backwards putting a hand to my mouth! When I looked over his shoulder Shane had gone & Dwayne stood in his place with Jeff. I saw Dwayne pat Jeff on the shoulder & go inside, Jeff remained unable to move. He licked his lips as if he was concentrating, or maybe he was just waiting to hear my answer!
I tore my eyes away from Jeff & looked down at Matt, kneeling there patiently waiting for me to answer his shocking question!
"Matt…I….I….erm….I don't……"
"Ok! Ok! I understand! You need time to think about it & that's cool! I can wait!" He smiled & stood up.
"It's just too fast! Let me get my breath!" I smiled & he hugged me. I looked over his shoulder to see Jeff looking at the ground & then he went back inside, thumping the door as he passed it. He thought I'd said yes!
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The show was great & I couldn't stop smiling! A few people I passed smiled & a few of the girls commented on how totally adorable the whole story was! I didn't even know these people & I was slightly embarrassed!
Backstage I stood & watched the show on a monitor with Shane.
"Well I can quite honestly say I've never seen you smile so much!" Shane grinned as we watched a match going on between Victoria & Jackie.
"Oh don't you start! I'm getting embarrassed!" I laughed, "Total strangers are telling me how lucky I am to have a guy like Matt!"
"Well do you think you're lucky?"
"I've always thought that Shane! It just took him a while to catch on!"
Shane laughed, "Ah I always knew you two were made for each other!" He put his arm around my shoulders & gave me a squeeze, "Didn't I just say that the other night? Huh? Am I not right as per usual?" He winked & I playfully nudged him in the ribs.
"Right about what?" Matt said as he came up behind me & put his arm around my waist before kissing me on the cheek. Shane moved his arm from my shoulders.
"Well I was just telling Bec the other night how good you two looked together!"
"Oh well then I can't argue with you there boss!" He turned me around & kissed me.
"Hey guys!" I looked up to see Jeff standing nearby. "Wish me luck I'm up next!"
Matt walked over to his brother & hugged him. It made me smile to see them like that again & Jeff smiled at me over Matt's shoulder! 'Thankyou!' I mouthed at him & he winked. When they parted I stepped forward & put my arms around Jeff, I guess it was a test to gauge Matt's reaction more than anything else! Jeff looked a little nervous that I'd hugged him & he glanced over to Matt with a worried smile on his face!
"Good luck ugly ass!" I smiled & kissed him on the cheek.
"Hey watch it! I have a nice ass!"
"Yeah well Trish seems to think so!" I laughed.
"Trish huh?" He pursed his lips & nodded thoughtfully, then his music started & he ran off towards the curtain! When I looked at Matt he was laughing & shaking his head - Just the kind of reaction I was hoping for!!
The match went exceptionally well & Shane even commented that he'd never seen Matt so fired up & into a match as he was that night! He said it was probably his best match ever!! He got a little beat up by half the Raw rosta coming to Jeff's aid, but never the less it worked & it was a job well done!
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Before we left I gave everyone a hug & went to the car while Matt said his goodbyes. I saw him at the door, hugging Jeff again before he came over & dumped a bag in the trunk & got into the passenger seat. He smiled, leaned over & kissed me.
"What did I do to deserve that?" I giggled.
"You're still here!" Matt said softly before starting the car.
We were halfway back to the hotel when he pulled over into a dark turn off to a field!
"What are we doing here?"
"I can't wait any longer!" he winked & got out of the car. I laughed & followed him into the field giggling.
"You're crazy you know that?"
"Not crazy, just IN LOVE!!"
"Shhhh! Matt! Someone might hear you!"
"I don't care! I LOVE THIS WOMAN!" He said, spinning around with his arms outstretched!
"What if the others go past & see the car!" I laughed as he lifted me off my feet.
"They won't! They are all going to a club, even Dwayne! Shane hired it for a couple of hours cuz it's Steph's birthday!"
"Oh? Why weren't we invited?"
"We were! But I thought we might have more important things to do tonight!"
"Oh we do huh?"
He kissed me, "Yeah we do!" He kissed me again & gently lay me down on the dirt. "I can't believe I've been so stupid!"
"Me too! I mean with the pills & everything! I'm really sorry!"
"Have you taken one today?"
"No I threw them in the garbage why?"
"Ahh right….well….." he rummaged in the pocket of his jeans, "Maybe we can throw these away too then?" He held up a box of condoms.
"Are you completely crazy?"
"Nope!" He threw them over his shoulder into the field.
"MAAAAATT!"
"Well I thought we should let nature take it's course!"
"You HAVE lost your mind!"
"Ah no see I believe in living for the moment & I wanna see what fate has in store for us tonight!"
"You've been drinking? On drugs?" He shook his head & grinned at me, "Ok! Somebody HELP ME! My boyfriend's been taken over by aliens!!"
"No, just taken over by leeeerrve!:"
"Oh now you're scaring me!!"
"What?"
"You've gone all weird on me!" I laughed.
"I love you!" he said softly & kissed my lips.
"I love you too, so much! I never thought I'd hear those words from you!"
"I promise from now on you will hear them every day for the rest of your life!" He slowly unbuttoned my jeans & kissed my stomach as he slid them off over my ankles,, He rolled them up & carefully placed them under my head. He took off his jeans & boxers & threw them to the ground & then leaned down & started to slide my knickers down my legs, kissing me all the time. He put them onto his pile of clothes and then slipped back up, parting my legs & licking me inside. Making me moan, but I pulled him up to my face.
"I want YOU!" I said as I looked into his eyes & I didn't have to ask twice! Once he was inside me we looked at each other without moving, "Matt. Are you sure about this? I mean about everything?" I asked as I brushed some of his hair from his face.
"Yes. I've never been more sure of anything in my life!" He kissed me, his tongue sliding deep into my mouth & I put my arms around his neck to hold him there. Slowly he started to move & my breathing got heavier.
"I love you Bec!" he panted as he stared into my eyes. I could've cried I was so happy. We rolled around in the corner of the field locked together in our love, lost in each other. I finally had him! He was mine & I couldn't believe it!
"Bec I love you!" he panted again as I rolled him onto his back for a third time & took over the rhythm, "I love you, don't stop!" he moaned as I quickened the pace, "Ah……Oh God! I love you!" He rolled me onto my back & thrust into me deep & hard as he came. I was about 5 seconds behind him & I dug my nails into his back & screamed out his name!
We lay in each other's arms still half naked, looking up at the stars as we lay in a Texas field!
"Man that was intense!" I sighed.
"Hey I think we just made a baby!" Matt grinned.
"Are you completley nuts? Matt you're starting to worry me! I don't know what's come over you!" I giggled.
"No I'm serious! I have this amazing feeling…."
"That's because you just got your rocks off dude!"
Matt looked a little deflated, "Ok, but if it's a boy can we call him Jude?"
"What?" I leaned up on my elbows & looked at him lying on his back, smiling like a little kid!
"Jude? I've always liked that name, y'know from the Beatles song? Man my mom was nuts over the Beatles & she drove us crazy with that song!" he laughed.
"You mean Hey Jude right?"
"Yeah…..Hey Jude!" he started singing, "Don't make it bad…..take a sad song & make it better…"
I giggled & joined in, "Remember to let her into your heart, then you can staaaart, to make it better!" We continued to sing the entire song as we got dressed & he put his arm around me to walk back to the car. We laughed & he took me in his arms as we leaned against the car door.
"And what if it's a girl?!" I giggled, "Oh God now look at me! You have got me sucked into your illusion!!" I playfully punched him in the arm & he laughed.
"Hey it could be both! There's twins on Mom's side of the family!"
"Now he tells me!"
He kissed me, it was so intense, so full of love that it made me shiver.
"Have I told you I love you today?" he smiled.
"Once or twice but hey keep it coming, you have some lost time to make up for!" I laughed. He kissed me again then we got into the car.
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