Lost, Confused, Unkind (Sequel To "Freaked")
Chapter 37
"Ma'am I'm going to have to ask you to step back please!" a fire fighter tried to usher me away & I shrugged him off.
Dwayne slumped onto the ground & put his head in his hands. "Dwayne?" I put my hands to my mouth. He looked up at me with tears in his eyes. "Oh no! No! No!"
"We got him out!"
"What?"
"We got him Bec!" he sighed & rubbed his face, "We got him!"
Without thinking I hobbled towards the burning car, the heat & the smell were overpowering & I almost gagged again. "MATT!" I screamed.
"Ma'am please!" another fire fighter grabbed my arm & started to lead me away but he was met by a huge guy who took my arm from him & gently pushed the fireman backwards!
"Her boyfriend? Where is he?"
"Brock?"
"Sir I can't tell you anything right now! I don't know anything!"
"Well how about you go & find out & the lady will stay here with me until you come back ok?"
The fireman thought about arguing but then turned and ran around the other side of the car.
"Th……thankyou Brock!"
He nodded in the direction that the fireman had ran & on the ground I saw Matt with Jeff kneeling beside him among the paramedics! I just took off! I needed to see they were alright! When I reached them the firefighter stood up, "Ma'am PLEASE!"
"MATT!" I yelled & tried to see past the dumbass who was hell bent on keeping me from him. "GET OUT OF MY WAY!" I shoved at him & knelt down beside Matt, "Matt? Matt? Can you hear me?"
His eyes fluttered open as the medics lifted him onto a gurney & stood up with them.
"Matt?"
"Hey!" he said weakly & started to cough up blood.
"Oh Matt! Oh God no!" I leaned over the gurney & held him as we walked to the ambulance.
"Don't cry!" He coughed again, "I hate it when you …." He closed his eyes & winced then opened them again, "when you cry!"
"It's gonna be ok bro!" Jeff walked at the other side of him, "Hang in there we're getting you to the hospital!" He patted Matt's hand.
Matt forced a smile, "See, I'm gonna be ok!"
The ride in the back of the ambulance seemed to take forever. Matt slipped in & out of conciousness & they kept putting an oxygen mask over his face. When we got there they wheeled him away leaving me & Jeff in the corridor.
"Sir you need to be seen by a doctor! You too ma'am!"
"We're fine!" Jeff snapped. He was black from the fire & he had several cuts on his face & a huge gash in his arm that was dripping blood onto the floor.
"Yes well all the same…."
Two nurses came with wheelchairs & we both reluctantly sat in them. Jeff reached out & grabbed my hand as they pushed us down the corridor & I squeezed it tightly.
"He's a fighter Bec! He's gonna be ok!"
"This…" I pulled at my shirt which was soaked in Matt's blood, "This is not fine or OK Jeff!" I sobbed.
He was about to say something when he was stopped by a doctor.
"He has internal injuries & we need to get him to surgery now. Who's his next of kin?"
I put my head on my good arm & sobbed as they had Jeff sign the consent forms. We were separated for about an hour while the nurses fixed us up. My shoulder had been dislocated but had snapped back into place, probably when Adam pulled me from the car. I had a badly sprained ankle which they bandaged up & about 17 cuts that needed stitching, 26 stitches altogether. I didn't even need painkillers, I just felt numb. I'd stopped sobbing & now I just sat perfectly still while they cleaned & stitched the cuts in my head & neck & arms.
Once they finished I hobbled out to be met by Jeff who looked to have had more stitches than I had!
"Have you heard? Is he out of surgery?"
Jeff shook his head, "All we can do is wait! Come on let's go & let the others know what's going on!"
We went into the waiting room where about 10 guys waited for news, and sat down with them. An hour passed, two, three. I just sat with my head on Jeff's shoulder watching every single second of the clock tick by slowly. We told the others to go back to the hotel but Dwayne & Shane & Shannon wouldn't budge. Jeff had called his dad & Shane had someone send a car for him. It was getting light by the time Gilbert walked into the hospital & Jeff immediately filled him in on everything that had happened. I thought the poor guy was going to collapse. Dwayne kept us supplied with coffee's all night, we were all exhausted but Jeff & Dwayne looked as though they had been in the accident with us they were so beat up! I'd discovered from one of the medics that we'd hit a tree at a considerable force. Jeff asked me what had happened but I couldn't tell him, not until I knew Matt was ok! I just said it happened so fast I couldn't remember.
6 hours after Matt had gone to surgery some of the guys started to wander back in & I was being hugged by people I didn't even know! One person to walk through the doors was Vince McMahon himself! We exchanged pleasantries & I said Matt would be very greatful for him coming down….blah blah blah! It felt like my mouth was detatched from the rest of my body & I'd just trained it to say the right thing! 6 hours & 45 minutes after Matt had been whisked away from us 2 surgeons came into the waiting room & asked Gilbert & Jeff to go into a private room. They declined & said whatever had to be said could be said infront of his friends. There was now about 20 other guys there all waiting for news on Matt including me!
One of the surgeons cleared his throat & began a whole long technical speech that I couldn't understand. The words I did hear were 'lungs', 'kidney' and 'irrepairable damage'. I focused on the surgeon trying to take in what he was saying but it didn't seem to matter anyway. I saw Gilbert hugging Jeff and this whole new feeling of calm came over me, it was as if this wasn't really happening, I was about to wake up snuggled up next to Matt in a hotel bed somewhere! I stood up & looked at Jeff.
"Is he dead?"
"Perhaps we could take this young lady into a private room?" The surgeon suggested.
"No, there's no need for that I'm ok! I just want to know that's all!"
"No he's not dead!" the other surgeon said, "But if we could just explain…"
"Can I go & see him then?" I saw Jeff & Gilbert look at each other then at me.
"Take her to a room Jeff!" Dwayne said from behind me, "Just…" he wiped a tear from his cheek & I looked around & noticed other people were crying too & I couldn't understand why!
Jeff took my arm & led me into a room away from everyone, "Bec, sit down for a minute!"
"He's ok isn't he Jeff? They said so! Out there they said he wasn't dead! Why are you crying?"
"Bec…" he sniffed & pulled up a chair beside me, "I need you to listen to me now, I mean REALLY listen ok?"
The tears flowed down his face but I just didn't understand what was going on, I couldn't grasp the situation at all. I slowly nodded my head & Jeff took a deep breath, "Matt…' he gulped, "He might not wake up ok?"
"Of course he will Jeff you said so yourself he's a fighter!"
Jeff swallowed hard again & wiped his face, "No Bec, IF he wakes up…" he sniffed, "It won't be for very long, he's too beat up…." Jeff put his head in his hands & sobbed. Slowly I started to comprehend what he was talking about, then I couldn't breathe!
"No!" I gasped for air, "NO Jeff NO!" I grabbed his arm, "He has to be ok! You tell me we're gonna take him home Jeff! TELL ME!" he shook his head. "NO!" I started to cry, "This isn't happening! Jeff don't let this happen! He can't die!" I sobbed & Jeff threw his arms around me.
"I can't help him Bec! I can't! I can't!" he sobbed.
We didn't know Gilbert had come into the room until we felt his arms around us, all three of us sobbed for a very long time.
Chapter 37
"Ma'am I'm going to have to ask you to step back please!" a fire fighter tried to usher me away & I shrugged him off.
Dwayne slumped onto the ground & put his head in his hands. "Dwayne?" I put my hands to my mouth. He looked up at me with tears in his eyes. "Oh no! No! No!"
"We got him out!"
"What?"
"We got him Bec!" he sighed & rubbed his face, "We got him!"
Without thinking I hobbled towards the burning car, the heat & the smell were overpowering & I almost gagged again. "MATT!" I screamed.
"Ma'am please!" another fire fighter grabbed my arm & started to lead me away but he was met by a huge guy who took my arm from him & gently pushed the fireman backwards!
"Her boyfriend? Where is he?"
"Brock?"
"Sir I can't tell you anything right now! I don't know anything!"
"Well how about you go & find out & the lady will stay here with me until you come back ok?"
The fireman thought about arguing but then turned and ran around the other side of the car.
"Th……thankyou Brock!"
He nodded in the direction that the fireman had ran & on the ground I saw Matt with Jeff kneeling beside him among the paramedics! I just took off! I needed to see they were alright! When I reached them the firefighter stood up, "Ma'am PLEASE!"
"MATT!" I yelled & tried to see past the dumbass who was hell bent on keeping me from him. "GET OUT OF MY WAY!" I shoved at him & knelt down beside Matt, "Matt? Matt? Can you hear me?"
His eyes fluttered open as the medics lifted him onto a gurney & stood up with them.
"Matt?"
"Hey!" he said weakly & started to cough up blood.
"Oh Matt! Oh God no!" I leaned over the gurney & held him as we walked to the ambulance.
"Don't cry!" He coughed again, "I hate it when you …." He closed his eyes & winced then opened them again, "when you cry!"
"It's gonna be ok bro!" Jeff walked at the other side of him, "Hang in there we're getting you to the hospital!" He patted Matt's hand.
Matt forced a smile, "See, I'm gonna be ok!"
The ride in the back of the ambulance seemed to take forever. Matt slipped in & out of conciousness & they kept putting an oxygen mask over his face. When we got there they wheeled him away leaving me & Jeff in the corridor.
"Sir you need to be seen by a doctor! You too ma'am!"
"We're fine!" Jeff snapped. He was black from the fire & he had several cuts on his face & a huge gash in his arm that was dripping blood onto the floor.
"Yes well all the same…."
Two nurses came with wheelchairs & we both reluctantly sat in them. Jeff reached out & grabbed my hand as they pushed us down the corridor & I squeezed it tightly.
"He's a fighter Bec! He's gonna be ok!"
"This…" I pulled at my shirt which was soaked in Matt's blood, "This is not fine or OK Jeff!" I sobbed.
He was about to say something when he was stopped by a doctor.
"He has internal injuries & we need to get him to surgery now. Who's his next of kin?"
I put my head on my good arm & sobbed as they had Jeff sign the consent forms. We were separated for about an hour while the nurses fixed us up. My shoulder had been dislocated but had snapped back into place, probably when Adam pulled me from the car. I had a badly sprained ankle which they bandaged up & about 17 cuts that needed stitching, 26 stitches altogether. I didn't even need painkillers, I just felt numb. I'd stopped sobbing & now I just sat perfectly still while they cleaned & stitched the cuts in my head & neck & arms.
Once they finished I hobbled out to be met by Jeff who looked to have had more stitches than I had!
"Have you heard? Is he out of surgery?"
Jeff shook his head, "All we can do is wait! Come on let's go & let the others know what's going on!"
We went into the waiting room where about 10 guys waited for news, and sat down with them. An hour passed, two, three. I just sat with my head on Jeff's shoulder watching every single second of the clock tick by slowly. We told the others to go back to the hotel but Dwayne & Shane & Shannon wouldn't budge. Jeff had called his dad & Shane had someone send a car for him. It was getting light by the time Gilbert walked into the hospital & Jeff immediately filled him in on everything that had happened. I thought the poor guy was going to collapse. Dwayne kept us supplied with coffee's all night, we were all exhausted but Jeff & Dwayne looked as though they had been in the accident with us they were so beat up! I'd discovered from one of the medics that we'd hit a tree at a considerable force. Jeff asked me what had happened but I couldn't tell him, not until I knew Matt was ok! I just said it happened so fast I couldn't remember.
6 hours after Matt had gone to surgery some of the guys started to wander back in & I was being hugged by people I didn't even know! One person to walk through the doors was Vince McMahon himself! We exchanged pleasantries & I said Matt would be very greatful for him coming down….blah blah blah! It felt like my mouth was detatched from the rest of my body & I'd just trained it to say the right thing! 6 hours & 45 minutes after Matt had been whisked away from us 2 surgeons came into the waiting room & asked Gilbert & Jeff to go into a private room. They declined & said whatever had to be said could be said infront of his friends. There was now about 20 other guys there all waiting for news on Matt including me!
One of the surgeons cleared his throat & began a whole long technical speech that I couldn't understand. The words I did hear were 'lungs', 'kidney' and 'irrepairable damage'. I focused on the surgeon trying to take in what he was saying but it didn't seem to matter anyway. I saw Gilbert hugging Jeff and this whole new feeling of calm came over me, it was as if this wasn't really happening, I was about to wake up snuggled up next to Matt in a hotel bed somewhere! I stood up & looked at Jeff.
"Is he dead?"
"Perhaps we could take this young lady into a private room?" The surgeon suggested.
"No, there's no need for that I'm ok! I just want to know that's all!"
"No he's not dead!" the other surgeon said, "But if we could just explain…"
"Can I go & see him then?" I saw Jeff & Gilbert look at each other then at me.
"Take her to a room Jeff!" Dwayne said from behind me, "Just…" he wiped a tear from his cheek & I looked around & noticed other people were crying too & I couldn't understand why!
Jeff took my arm & led me into a room away from everyone, "Bec, sit down for a minute!"
"He's ok isn't he Jeff? They said so! Out there they said he wasn't dead! Why are you crying?"
"Bec…" he sniffed & pulled up a chair beside me, "I need you to listen to me now, I mean REALLY listen ok?"
The tears flowed down his face but I just didn't understand what was going on, I couldn't grasp the situation at all. I slowly nodded my head & Jeff took a deep breath, "Matt…' he gulped, "He might not wake up ok?"
"Of course he will Jeff you said so yourself he's a fighter!"
Jeff swallowed hard again & wiped his face, "No Bec, IF he wakes up…" he sniffed, "It won't be for very long, he's too beat up…." Jeff put his head in his hands & sobbed. Slowly I started to comprehend what he was talking about, then I couldn't breathe!
"No!" I gasped for air, "NO Jeff NO!" I grabbed his arm, "He has to be ok! You tell me we're gonna take him home Jeff! TELL ME!" he shook his head. "NO!" I started to cry, "This isn't happening! Jeff don't let this happen! He can't die!" I sobbed & Jeff threw his arms around me.
"I can't help him Bec! I can't! I can't!" he sobbed.
We didn't know Gilbert had come into the room until we felt his arms around us, all three of us sobbed for a very long time.