~Glass~
DA's Notes------------------------------------------------------------------ -----------------------
Sorry about the spelling mistakes, I'm really actually quite young (young enough for it to be considered REALLY weird that I'm into yaoi) but that doesn't matter, I would rather be considered a bad punctuator/speller (which I know I am) than be let of for it because I'm young which brings me to the subject off the 'don't blame me' thing. It was just a joke, y'know sarcasm but of course you can't write sarcasm the truth be told it would be a lot easier if you could, but you can't, so there ya go.
P.S. Thank you, shella, for the review. I was beginning to think no one else would read my story because of neohowler (no offence, you gave me your honest opinion and I respect that).
P.S.x2 I have just eaten three large slices of chocolate cake and man am I stuffed.
P.S.x3 I wish I knew what a dubby attitude was.
P.S.x4 I am sorry for P.S.x2 and 3. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ---------------------------
CHAPTER 2: A LOSS
Shinji was now rapped up in a blanket at the kitchen table with dark patches under his eyes. Misato put a mug of green tea in front of him.
*Why is it that every one that comes in contact with the EVAs ends up like this* Misato's thoughts started to drift off as she stared into Shinji's eyes, they were like burnt pits as if the loss of his 'friend' had squeezed every last drop of hope and humanity out of his soul. Like he was dieing slowly and painfully in his own personal hell. Misato felt useless. She couldn't help him any more.
Shinji took a sip of his tea; he didn't even notice the waves of perfume like steam that were lifting of the surface of the green tinted liquid.
"Asuka go to the bathroom and get the thermometer, it.it's in the cupboard.above the sink." Misato asked as her hang over started to affect her memory.
Asuka went into the bathroom, the air was damp and steamy Misato had had a bath earlier and the ventilation wasn't working; so the room maintained it's moist atmosphere. She walked over to the cupboard and opened the door. Rummaging around she found a packet of band aids some of Misato's extra absorbent tampons and finally she found at the very back of the cupboard a very dusty thermometer after washing it under some cold water she went back to the kitchen where Misato had her hand over Shinji's forehead.
"Where were you Asuka? I've been waiting for ages!" Misato said whilst grabbing the Thermometer from her hand.
"WELL IF THAT'S THE THANKS I GET FOR HELPING THEN MABEY I SHOULDN'T HELP!!" Asuka screamed angrily.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
*He loved me, the only person that ever loved me and I killed him; how ironic, life is always screwing me. I can't take it any more.*
//You killed him, he did not want to die, it's your fault//
//why did you kill him? //
"No."
//why did you kill him?//
//Shinji, you disappointed me// his father's voice echoed throw the cold, morbid, empty space that was the last of Shinji's sanity.
//YOU IDIOT WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO SELF-ABSORBED ALL YOU THINK ABOUT IS YOURSELF!!!// Asuka's voice came from nowhere.
"I just want to be with him, with him I was someone I had an identity." Shinji's words were cut short as Misato tried relentlessly to get him out of his trance
"Shinji are you all right," Misato asked her eyes full of concern. "You were calling out for someone."
Shinji looked down at the floor; not wanting to make eye contact with her. Misato seemed worried as she took the thermometer out of this mouth.
"Well your temperature seems fine." Misato said slightly puzzled.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
As Asuka sat in front of the television she could her Misato trying to figure out what was wrong with Shinji. She was watching 'slayers' and started turning the sound down when naga began to laugh.
"Shinji just tell me what's wrong you know you can tell me anything." In the kitchen Misato was interrogating Shinji, she was determined to get an answer.
With out warning Shinji burst in to tears. Misato felt horrible, she tried to console him but it wasn't exactly working; Tears started to well in her eyes, too.
"Shinji, why are you making this so difficult." Misato asked in-between sobs.
She walked in to the lounge where Asuka was laughing idiotically at one of the characters how was banging her head of a pillar (actually happened in an episode).
"Asuka, I'm taking Shinji to the doctors can you feed pen-pen?" Misato asked
"WHAT WHY DO I HAVE TO DO IT I DO EVERYTHING AROUND HERE!" Asuka shouted.
"Asuka, I'm taking Shinji to the doctors okay, and someone has to feed him so.so that is a direct order." Misato commanded, wincing shortly after realising what she had said.
"I have to do everything, 'Asuka get the thermometer', ' Asuka feed pen- pen.'" Asuka said while stomping into the kitchen. " If it weren't for me this place would fall apart."
On the car ride to the doctors Misato desperately tried to make conversation; but Shinji was completely mute. Misato tried to think of a positive thing to talk about.
"So Shinji I heard that NERV is being shut down, now there is no use for the EVAs life can begin getting back to normal for every one." Misato began.
But Shinji's mind was elsewhere.
"Shinji, seeing as how it's so late would you like to stay over at my apartment it's not very big but there is room enough for two."
"I don't want to intrude."
"Not at all, in fact, I would enjoy your company it gets lonely there sometimes."
"I guess so, Kaworu thank you."
"Not at all, shin-chan."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Shinji, Shinji, we're here." Misato said softly and tapped him on the shoulder.
"Yes Misato." Shinji said in a quiet, sad voice.
They got out the car and walked in the doors it was clean and there was a distanced smell of medicine in the air. Shinji didn't like it, it felt unfamiliar to him. They walked up to the desk near the front entrance.
"Names please." Came a voice from the behind the desk.
"Katsuragi and Ikari we.we don't have an appointment." Misato said looking slightly worried.
"You're in luck we have an appointment free in about an hour; if you would like to take a seat over there." The lady said pointing to a small room.
They walked into the room, where Misato started to read a magazine occasionally glancing at Shinji for any signs of life.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
"When will they get back anyway?" Asuka asked herself. "I'm starving."
She walked through to the kitchen where she got herself a large sandwich filled with mayonnaise olives and some pepperoni. She took a large bit out of it before heading back in to the lounge. She was board of watching television so she switched the set of.
"Oh there is nothing to do." She complained walking down the corridor past Shinji's room. She stopped and looked back at the door.
"I wonder if." Asuka thought about this for a second.
She opened the door, the room was dark the curtains were closed. She walked in as she got to Shinji's bed she saw that he had left his diary on it.
"Ha! what an idiot, leaving his diary out like that." Asuka said as wicked ideas started to pop up in her head.
She sat down and tried to open it but it was locked so she found an old hair clip and got to work. She twisted and turned the small object until it finally opened.
It went all the way back to just before he came to NERV. Asuka had been forced to practice her reading and writing in Japanese and now she didn't have annoying synchronization tests to go to she had more than enough time on her hands to improve at it. She read.
March 23rd
I'm going to go to Tokyo 3 tomorrow, father will be there I don't know whether that is good news or bad; but I'm looking forward to it. I will have to move school, which is just as well seeing as how no one here likes me any way.
Asuka skimmed until she found something strange.
"Huh m.my name"
April 18th
A girl called Asuka has arrived she is the second child she is very competitive and moody but that's girls for you. She is kind of like the opposite of Rai I am just guessing but I don't think there going to be very good friends.
She skipped ahead even more and then something even more strange caught her eye a name.Kaworu Nagisa.
"Him, why is he writing about him before we found out he was an angel?"
September 2nd
Today was rather relaxing I meet someone new he is the fifth child his name is Kaworu Nagisa it was late-afternoon when I met him. We were on the seashore at the time. The sun was setting behind the hills; it was nice to finally met a new friend after the others moved away but he is not like the others, when I was with him I felt safe relaxed as if we were the only two beings in existence I think he might be more than a friend. Asuka's eyes grew wider .I think I'm in love with him.
Asuka shut the diary with a loud snap. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
"Know seeing Katsuragi and Ikari." Called a voice from the doorway of the waiting room.
"Finally," Misato said impatiently "come along, Shinji."
They were led into a room where a man was sitting putting away some medical tools.
"Ah, hello what seems to be the problem?" The man asked with a smile on his face.
"Hello, this is Shinji, he doesn't seem well, but his temperature is fine and he won't tell anyone what the problem is." Misato said seriously.
"I see, miss Katsuragi has there been vomiting or any other since of physical illness?"
"No.at least I don't think so."
"Okay then," The man said getting out his seat "Shinji could you sit here for a moment please." The doctor continued, pointing to a chair at one side of the room.
Shinji got on to the set he looked around at some of the posters in the room while the man got out a small surgical flash light and some other tools. The man walked over to Shinji.
"Open your mouth please." The man asked switching on the light.
"Oh and miss Katsuragi could you wait out side."
Later.
The doctor came through the door.
"I've figured out the problem, miss Katsuragi, if you would like to come back in now."
Misato rushed eagerly back into the room.
"It seems Shinji here is suffering from depression."
"Depression?" Misato repeated.
"Yes miss Katsuragi so what do you think might be causing it?"
Misato instantaneously knew why Shinji was the way he was.
"K.Kaworu Nagisa." Misato stammered.
"What was that?" The doctor asked.
"Oh nothing, so is there anything you can do for him?
"Well, I could put him on antidepressants but there would be a risk, so what I suggest is a therapist."
"Oh well thank you for your time." Misato said.
Author's notes/ramblings---------------------------------------------------- -------
Now time for some explanations: Misato did think that it was the EVA that had caused Shinji's odd mood, however it is not your imagination that she later thinks he is ill. You see she changes her mind once he starts acting uuuum really y'know.freaky. This is kind of AUy so Asuka was never catatonic, that there for leaves her free for a bunch of stuff I have in store for her fragile little character*evil laugh* Thought I couldn't make Shinji any more depressed, think again (it's really not intentional, I just can't help it). R+R pleaz.
DA's Notes------------------------------------------------------------------ -----------------------
Sorry about the spelling mistakes, I'm really actually quite young (young enough for it to be considered REALLY weird that I'm into yaoi) but that doesn't matter, I would rather be considered a bad punctuator/speller (which I know I am) than be let of for it because I'm young which brings me to the subject off the 'don't blame me' thing. It was just a joke, y'know sarcasm but of course you can't write sarcasm the truth be told it would be a lot easier if you could, but you can't, so there ya go.
P.S. Thank you, shella, for the review. I was beginning to think no one else would read my story because of neohowler (no offence, you gave me your honest opinion and I respect that).
P.S.x2 I have just eaten three large slices of chocolate cake and man am I stuffed.
P.S.x3 I wish I knew what a dubby attitude was.
P.S.x4 I am sorry for P.S.x2 and 3. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- ---------------------------
CHAPTER 2: A LOSS
Shinji was now rapped up in a blanket at the kitchen table with dark patches under his eyes. Misato put a mug of green tea in front of him.
*Why is it that every one that comes in contact with the EVAs ends up like this* Misato's thoughts started to drift off as she stared into Shinji's eyes, they were like burnt pits as if the loss of his 'friend' had squeezed every last drop of hope and humanity out of his soul. Like he was dieing slowly and painfully in his own personal hell. Misato felt useless. She couldn't help him any more.
Shinji took a sip of his tea; he didn't even notice the waves of perfume like steam that were lifting of the surface of the green tinted liquid.
"Asuka go to the bathroom and get the thermometer, it.it's in the cupboard.above the sink." Misato asked as her hang over started to affect her memory.
Asuka went into the bathroom, the air was damp and steamy Misato had had a bath earlier and the ventilation wasn't working; so the room maintained it's moist atmosphere. She walked over to the cupboard and opened the door. Rummaging around she found a packet of band aids some of Misato's extra absorbent tampons and finally she found at the very back of the cupboard a very dusty thermometer after washing it under some cold water she went back to the kitchen where Misato had her hand over Shinji's forehead.
"Where were you Asuka? I've been waiting for ages!" Misato said whilst grabbing the Thermometer from her hand.
"WELL IF THAT'S THE THANKS I GET FOR HELPING THEN MABEY I SHOULDN'T HELP!!" Asuka screamed angrily.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
*He loved me, the only person that ever loved me and I killed him; how ironic, life is always screwing me. I can't take it any more.*
//You killed him, he did not want to die, it's your fault//
//why did you kill him? //
"No."
//why did you kill him?//
//Shinji, you disappointed me// his father's voice echoed throw the cold, morbid, empty space that was the last of Shinji's sanity.
//YOU IDIOT WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO SELF-ABSORBED ALL YOU THINK ABOUT IS YOURSELF!!!// Asuka's voice came from nowhere.
"I just want to be with him, with him I was someone I had an identity." Shinji's words were cut short as Misato tried relentlessly to get him out of his trance
"Shinji are you all right," Misato asked her eyes full of concern. "You were calling out for someone."
Shinji looked down at the floor; not wanting to make eye contact with her. Misato seemed worried as she took the thermometer out of this mouth.
"Well your temperature seems fine." Misato said slightly puzzled.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
As Asuka sat in front of the television she could her Misato trying to figure out what was wrong with Shinji. She was watching 'slayers' and started turning the sound down when naga began to laugh.
"Shinji just tell me what's wrong you know you can tell me anything." In the kitchen Misato was interrogating Shinji, she was determined to get an answer.
With out warning Shinji burst in to tears. Misato felt horrible, she tried to console him but it wasn't exactly working; Tears started to well in her eyes, too.
"Shinji, why are you making this so difficult." Misato asked in-between sobs.
She walked in to the lounge where Asuka was laughing idiotically at one of the characters how was banging her head of a pillar (actually happened in an episode).
"Asuka, I'm taking Shinji to the doctors can you feed pen-pen?" Misato asked
"WHAT WHY DO I HAVE TO DO IT I DO EVERYTHING AROUND HERE!" Asuka shouted.
"Asuka, I'm taking Shinji to the doctors okay, and someone has to feed him so.so that is a direct order." Misato commanded, wincing shortly after realising what she had said.
"I have to do everything, 'Asuka get the thermometer', ' Asuka feed pen- pen.'" Asuka said while stomping into the kitchen. " If it weren't for me this place would fall apart."
On the car ride to the doctors Misato desperately tried to make conversation; but Shinji was completely mute. Misato tried to think of a positive thing to talk about.
"So Shinji I heard that NERV is being shut down, now there is no use for the EVAs life can begin getting back to normal for every one." Misato began.
But Shinji's mind was elsewhere.
"Shinji, seeing as how it's so late would you like to stay over at my apartment it's not very big but there is room enough for two."
"I don't want to intrude."
"Not at all, in fact, I would enjoy your company it gets lonely there sometimes."
"I guess so, Kaworu thank you."
"Not at all, shin-chan."
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Shinji, Shinji, we're here." Misato said softly and tapped him on the shoulder.
"Yes Misato." Shinji said in a quiet, sad voice.
They got out the car and walked in the doors it was clean and there was a distanced smell of medicine in the air. Shinji didn't like it, it felt unfamiliar to him. They walked up to the desk near the front entrance.
"Names please." Came a voice from the behind the desk.
"Katsuragi and Ikari we.we don't have an appointment." Misato said looking slightly worried.
"You're in luck we have an appointment free in about an hour; if you would like to take a seat over there." The lady said pointing to a small room.
They walked into the room, where Misato started to read a magazine occasionally glancing at Shinji for any signs of life.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
"When will they get back anyway?" Asuka asked herself. "I'm starving."
She walked through to the kitchen where she got herself a large sandwich filled with mayonnaise olives and some pepperoni. She took a large bit out of it before heading back in to the lounge. She was board of watching television so she switched the set of.
"Oh there is nothing to do." She complained walking down the corridor past Shinji's room. She stopped and looked back at the door.
"I wonder if." Asuka thought about this for a second.
She opened the door, the room was dark the curtains were closed. She walked in as she got to Shinji's bed she saw that he had left his diary on it.
"Ha! what an idiot, leaving his diary out like that." Asuka said as wicked ideas started to pop up in her head.
She sat down and tried to open it but it was locked so she found an old hair clip and got to work. She twisted and turned the small object until it finally opened.
It went all the way back to just before he came to NERV. Asuka had been forced to practice her reading and writing in Japanese and now she didn't have annoying synchronization tests to go to she had more than enough time on her hands to improve at it. She read.
March 23rd
I'm going to go to Tokyo 3 tomorrow, father will be there I don't know whether that is good news or bad; but I'm looking forward to it. I will have to move school, which is just as well seeing as how no one here likes me any way.
Asuka skimmed until she found something strange.
"Huh m.my name"
April 18th
A girl called Asuka has arrived she is the second child she is very competitive and moody but that's girls for you. She is kind of like the opposite of Rai I am just guessing but I don't think there going to be very good friends.
She skipped ahead even more and then something even more strange caught her eye a name.Kaworu Nagisa.
"Him, why is he writing about him before we found out he was an angel?"
September 2nd
Today was rather relaxing I meet someone new he is the fifth child his name is Kaworu Nagisa it was late-afternoon when I met him. We were on the seashore at the time. The sun was setting behind the hills; it was nice to finally met a new friend after the others moved away but he is not like the others, when I was with him I felt safe relaxed as if we were the only two beings in existence I think he might be more than a friend. Asuka's eyes grew wider .I think I'm in love with him.
Asuka shut the diary with a loud snap. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
"Know seeing Katsuragi and Ikari." Called a voice from the doorway of the waiting room.
"Finally," Misato said impatiently "come along, Shinji."
They were led into a room where a man was sitting putting away some medical tools.
"Ah, hello what seems to be the problem?" The man asked with a smile on his face.
"Hello, this is Shinji, he doesn't seem well, but his temperature is fine and he won't tell anyone what the problem is." Misato said seriously.
"I see, miss Katsuragi has there been vomiting or any other since of physical illness?"
"No.at least I don't think so."
"Okay then," The man said getting out his seat "Shinji could you sit here for a moment please." The doctor continued, pointing to a chair at one side of the room.
Shinji got on to the set he looked around at some of the posters in the room while the man got out a small surgical flash light and some other tools. The man walked over to Shinji.
"Open your mouth please." The man asked switching on the light.
"Oh and miss Katsuragi could you wait out side."
Later.
The doctor came through the door.
"I've figured out the problem, miss Katsuragi, if you would like to come back in now."
Misato rushed eagerly back into the room.
"It seems Shinji here is suffering from depression."
"Depression?" Misato repeated.
"Yes miss Katsuragi so what do you think might be causing it?"
Misato instantaneously knew why Shinji was the way he was.
"K.Kaworu Nagisa." Misato stammered.
"What was that?" The doctor asked.
"Oh nothing, so is there anything you can do for him?
"Well, I could put him on antidepressants but there would be a risk, so what I suggest is a therapist."
"Oh well thank you for your time." Misato said.
Author's notes/ramblings---------------------------------------------------- -------
Now time for some explanations: Misato did think that it was the EVA that had caused Shinji's odd mood, however it is not your imagination that she later thinks he is ill. You see she changes her mind once he starts acting uuuum really y'know.freaky. This is kind of AUy so Asuka was never catatonic, that there for leaves her free for a bunch of stuff I have in store for her fragile little character*evil laugh* Thought I couldn't make Shinji any more depressed, think again (it's really not intentional, I just can't help it). R+R pleaz.