'Bout the title of this chapter, uuuumm couldn't think of any thing to call
this one but quit frankly I don't care; so I don't see why you should---
(scowls) don't give me that look. I know that look, it means you think I'm
crazy doesn't it---well you're damn right I am! *Scowl turns to sweet smile
or is it just the fact that I'm insane* .anyhoo, ignore my mental peanut
gallery she'll go away in a minute *you think you can defeat me; you have
no chance, little girl* so what does that make you a middle aged balding
man? *NO I'm just like you, y'see I'm insane* oh, looks like me and my mind
have a little more in common thank I thought *isn't that a paradox?* quiet
you, or I'll block you out like usual! *Ooh, I'm so scared* that's it out
you go!
Enjoy chapter three I hope, I think you will find it a bit weirder than the last one; this is where I show my lack of patients for dark-fics. Don't get me wrong, I like them I just can't stand ones that are as long as mine, I thought I told you not to give me that look. Well it was my brains idea. I can't take the blame for all of this. She's out of control I tell ya, out of control!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CHAPTER 3: IRONY
"OH MY GOD" Asuka yelled "HE HE'S GAY?!"
Asuka didn't want to read anymore but something in her subconscious was forcing her to. She opened the diary again; and read on.
September 3rd
I'm at Kaworu's apartment it was late and this way Misato doesn't have to pick me up at the geofront. Earlier we were in the public baths together and he told me he loves me it made me feel warm inside I don't know if I have the courage to tell him the same. I hope that no one find out about my feelings for him, especially Asuka.
"WHAT'S THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN???!!!"
Asuka stopped screaming as she saw that there was no writing after that. It had been his last diary entry. Asuka felt sad for him, she tried to block it out, but she couldn't; she had tears in her eyes. She saw at the space for that day he had written something else; but it had been scribble in and she couldn't make out what it said, in Shinji's dark room, then she heard a screeching noise out side; it was Misato's car. As quick as she could she locked the diary and ran through in to the kitchen.
"Hello Asuka we're back."
"'Bought time, so what's the matter with the baka" Asuka said hiding her true feelings quite well.
"The doctor said it was depression."
"That all?"
"Yes, but Asuka," Misato hesitated for a moment "Shinji will have to go see a. different type of doctor for a while."
"You mean he needs a psychiatrist to sort out his fucked-up mind."
"ASUKA!!" Misato yelled.
"What? I'm just telling the truth." She stated matter-of-factly.
Misato looked at her with disgust in her eyes. But she was distracted from this by a loud thud in Shinji's room.
"SHINJI!!" Misato screamed in a desperate panic.
Shinji was throwing the most amazing tantrum you've probably ever seen. He chucked his school bag across the room and then a lamp (which smashed on the wall).
"SHINJI, SHIJNI, STOP IT!!" Misato ordered as she tried to restrain him.
With this Shinji fell to the floor crying, tears flowing down his cheeks. Misato felt so stressed she thought her head could explode. But she was too concerned for that to happen.
"Kaworu could you tell me again wh.what you told me in the bath?"
"Ai shiteiru Shinji kun."
"Thank you, Kaworu."
"You don't have to thank me It's true and I will forever."
Shinji began to cry. Kaworu could tell they were not tears of sadness he leaned down to Shinji and pressed his lips to the other boys. Shinji felt like he was in a dream he was dizzy light headed but in bliss, he dared not move away.
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"Shinji, are you okay." Rai asked in her monotone.
"Rai, when did you get here?" Shinji asked confused even to exactly where he was.
"Misato asked me to come over." Rai explained.
"Oh w.well where is she?" he asked for no real reason other than the fact that he liked to hear her talk; she reminded him of Kaworu.
"She is still here, in the kitchen." She explained again.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
"So when does he have an appointment with the special doctor, Misato?
"Asuka, you could try to be a little more sympathetic."
"I could, but I don't want to."
"Misato is right I have never seen Shinji this bad." Rai said as she entered the room
"DID I ASK YOU WONDER GIRL?!"
"No but it's a fact, I just thought you would like to know."
"Well you were wrong, weren't you?"
"Stop it you two." Misato ordered.
"Oh and Rai could I speak to you alone for a second."
"Yes miss Katsuragi."
As they left the room Rai distinctly heard Asuka mutter under her breath. "Suck up." She chose to ignore this comment.
When they reached Misato's room Rai felt an unwelcome atmosphere.
"Miss Katsuragi what do you want to talk to me about."
"It's about the last angel."
"What about, Tabris."
"Kaworu was a very close friend to Shinji and I was wondering if you knew anything about there relationship."
Rai knew that they were in love and she felt a bit embarrassed to tell Misato this; but she felt it necessary.
"Yes ma'am, they were in love."
This hit Misato like a bullet. Although she had been suspicious of this she was not prepared for proof. She felt tears welling in her eyes because she knew what it was like to lose the one you're in love with, or even to kill them yourself?
"Are you alright?" Rai asked confused by Misato's dramatic reaction.
"I.I'm fine I just need a moment."
"Kaworu do you ever feel alone like you're the only person in existence?"
"Only when I'm not with you, Shinji kun."
"Kaworu I.I" Shinji stammered.
Kaworu looked down on Shinji how was curled up next to him with his head on Kaworu's chest, his crimson eyes sparkling in the moonlight that shone brightly through the window. Shinji felt like he was in a dream, he stopped to think about this /what if this is all a dream/ Shinji paused /even if it is I may as well enjoy it/. Shinji started to undress Kaworu after removing his shirt Kaworu took of Shinji's tank top. Shinji lay on Kaworu's body the warmth was something he had needed for along time.
"Kaworu I was wondering.could you kiss me again like you did earlier."
Without so much as a word Kaworu bent down and kissed Shinji he felt an electric thrill ripple through his body He felt Kaworu's tongue tickle his lips. Without knowing it the two boys were lost in their kiss.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
*I can't believe it in my wildest dreams I never thought Shinji was gay or.*
Asuka was confused by her discovery to say the least; she always thought Shinji had had a crush on her. It didn't make sense she paused a second. why did she care so much why should she have to worry if he was gay or not after all it wasn't like she liked him in anyway. Asuka knew she was lying to her self but she was so good at repressing memories that this should have been a piece of cake.
"No.no I can't have any feelings for baka boy I just can't." Asuka said in an unconvincing whisper.
Asuka tried to get a picture of Shinji out of her head, she had been realizing just how cute he really was not in a strong masculine sort of a way; but still. Her bath had gone cold and her body had started to go numb she got up and pulled the plug out the bathtub. As the water drained away she dried her self with a towel.
"And even if I did, what difference would it make I.I don't care." Asuka growled to the empty room as if trying to prove something but even she didn't know what.
After putting her clothes and exiting the bathroom she decided to ask Rai if she knew anything about it even though Asuka hated her she couldn't tell Misato.
"Rai.Rai hay where are you wonder girl?"
"What is the problem Asuka?" Rai asked from the doorway of the kitchen.
"Where were you I've been waiting; I need to talk to you."
"About what?"
"It's just something I need to know that's all."
Asuka lead Rai into her room, she was beginning to get confused by everyone's reactions to the news.
"Well you see Rai I.I found out something about Shinji that you might want to know." Asuka said seriously.
"Is it about his relationship with Nagisa kun?"
Asuka's eyes grew large.
"How.how do you know?"
"Nagisa kun told me he loved Shinji. He asked me take care of him and make sure he does not get hurt."
Asuka blinked *why did Kaworu ask her to take care of him* she pondered. She stood there for a second or two while her mind raced trying to comprehend the emotion she was feeling *jealousy?* she thought *am I jealous of wonder girl?*
"If that is all you wanted to talk to me about; then may I leave?" Rai questioned.
"wh.why did he ask you?"
"Because him and I are the same." For the first time a glimpse of emotion sparkled in her eyes.
*What was that?* Asuka thought *what emotion?* she couldn't quit put her finger on it. It was like Rai was mocking her laughing at her even.
"YOU BITCH!" Asuka yelled and with a loud smack she slapped Rai across her left check, Rai with her check now a pail tone of scarlet, simply walked back out the room.
Author's notes/ramblings---------------------------------------------------- ---------------------
Guess what, there was this e-mail that I got from someone and it was just a list of useless facts and one of them was that it is anatomically impossible for a human to lick their own elbow, so I tried to do this for my self---and I tried and tried and tried and every time I failed and now due to all the twisting and licking and stretching I did (get rid of the first part of my notes and that sounds REALLY kinky) my neck, jaw, shoulder and pretty much the rest of my arm are in agony. The next fact was that 99.9 percent of the people who read the statement had tried to do it (and so far I doubt there has been any success)---*cautious look* you were going to try it weren't you HA! I knew it; it's true it's true! R&R, tell me what you think of the story (pleaz)
P.S. The next chapy will be REALLY weird.well you've been warned *HA HA AND I TOLD THEM YOU COULDN'T KEEP ME OUT FOREVER BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA their coming to take me away ha ha, their coming to take me away. The nice young men, in the clean white coats, their coming to take me away ho ho he he ha ha!* Excuse me a moment.
Blessed be.
~Druidangel
Enjoy chapter three I hope, I think you will find it a bit weirder than the last one; this is where I show my lack of patients for dark-fics. Don't get me wrong, I like them I just can't stand ones that are as long as mine, I thought I told you not to give me that look. Well it was my brains idea. I can't take the blame for all of this. She's out of control I tell ya, out of control!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CHAPTER 3: IRONY
"OH MY GOD" Asuka yelled "HE HE'S GAY?!"
Asuka didn't want to read anymore but something in her subconscious was forcing her to. She opened the diary again; and read on.
September 3rd
I'm at Kaworu's apartment it was late and this way Misato doesn't have to pick me up at the geofront. Earlier we were in the public baths together and he told me he loves me it made me feel warm inside I don't know if I have the courage to tell him the same. I hope that no one find out about my feelings for him, especially Asuka.
"WHAT'S THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN???!!!"
Asuka stopped screaming as she saw that there was no writing after that. It had been his last diary entry. Asuka felt sad for him, she tried to block it out, but she couldn't; she had tears in her eyes. She saw at the space for that day he had written something else; but it had been scribble in and she couldn't make out what it said, in Shinji's dark room, then she heard a screeching noise out side; it was Misato's car. As quick as she could she locked the diary and ran through in to the kitchen.
"Hello Asuka we're back."
"'Bought time, so what's the matter with the baka" Asuka said hiding her true feelings quite well.
"The doctor said it was depression."
"That all?"
"Yes, but Asuka," Misato hesitated for a moment "Shinji will have to go see a. different type of doctor for a while."
"You mean he needs a psychiatrist to sort out his fucked-up mind."
"ASUKA!!" Misato yelled.
"What? I'm just telling the truth." She stated matter-of-factly.
Misato looked at her with disgust in her eyes. But she was distracted from this by a loud thud in Shinji's room.
"SHINJI!!" Misato screamed in a desperate panic.
Shinji was throwing the most amazing tantrum you've probably ever seen. He chucked his school bag across the room and then a lamp (which smashed on the wall).
"SHINJI, SHIJNI, STOP IT!!" Misato ordered as she tried to restrain him.
With this Shinji fell to the floor crying, tears flowing down his cheeks. Misato felt so stressed she thought her head could explode. But she was too concerned for that to happen.
"Kaworu could you tell me again wh.what you told me in the bath?"
"Ai shiteiru Shinji kun."
"Thank you, Kaworu."
"You don't have to thank me It's true and I will forever."
Shinji began to cry. Kaworu could tell they were not tears of sadness he leaned down to Shinji and pressed his lips to the other boys. Shinji felt like he was in a dream he was dizzy light headed but in bliss, he dared not move away.
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"Shinji, are you okay." Rai asked in her monotone.
"Rai, when did you get here?" Shinji asked confused even to exactly where he was.
"Misato asked me to come over." Rai explained.
"Oh w.well where is she?" he asked for no real reason other than the fact that he liked to hear her talk; she reminded him of Kaworu.
"She is still here, in the kitchen." She explained again.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
"So when does he have an appointment with the special doctor, Misato?
"Asuka, you could try to be a little more sympathetic."
"I could, but I don't want to."
"Misato is right I have never seen Shinji this bad." Rai said as she entered the room
"DID I ASK YOU WONDER GIRL?!"
"No but it's a fact, I just thought you would like to know."
"Well you were wrong, weren't you?"
"Stop it you two." Misato ordered.
"Oh and Rai could I speak to you alone for a second."
"Yes miss Katsuragi."
As they left the room Rai distinctly heard Asuka mutter under her breath. "Suck up." She chose to ignore this comment.
When they reached Misato's room Rai felt an unwelcome atmosphere.
"Miss Katsuragi what do you want to talk to me about."
"It's about the last angel."
"What about, Tabris."
"Kaworu was a very close friend to Shinji and I was wondering if you knew anything about there relationship."
Rai knew that they were in love and she felt a bit embarrassed to tell Misato this; but she felt it necessary.
"Yes ma'am, they were in love."
This hit Misato like a bullet. Although she had been suspicious of this she was not prepared for proof. She felt tears welling in her eyes because she knew what it was like to lose the one you're in love with, or even to kill them yourself?
"Are you alright?" Rai asked confused by Misato's dramatic reaction.
"I.I'm fine I just need a moment."
"Kaworu do you ever feel alone like you're the only person in existence?"
"Only when I'm not with you, Shinji kun."
"Kaworu I.I" Shinji stammered.
Kaworu looked down on Shinji how was curled up next to him with his head on Kaworu's chest, his crimson eyes sparkling in the moonlight that shone brightly through the window. Shinji felt like he was in a dream, he stopped to think about this /what if this is all a dream/ Shinji paused /even if it is I may as well enjoy it/. Shinji started to undress Kaworu after removing his shirt Kaworu took of Shinji's tank top. Shinji lay on Kaworu's body the warmth was something he had needed for along time.
"Kaworu I was wondering.could you kiss me again like you did earlier."
Without so much as a word Kaworu bent down and kissed Shinji he felt an electric thrill ripple through his body He felt Kaworu's tongue tickle his lips. Without knowing it the two boys were lost in their kiss.
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
*I can't believe it in my wildest dreams I never thought Shinji was gay or.*
Asuka was confused by her discovery to say the least; she always thought Shinji had had a crush on her. It didn't make sense she paused a second. why did she care so much why should she have to worry if he was gay or not after all it wasn't like she liked him in anyway. Asuka knew she was lying to her self but she was so good at repressing memories that this should have been a piece of cake.
"No.no I can't have any feelings for baka boy I just can't." Asuka said in an unconvincing whisper.
Asuka tried to get a picture of Shinji out of her head, she had been realizing just how cute he really was not in a strong masculine sort of a way; but still. Her bath had gone cold and her body had started to go numb she got up and pulled the plug out the bathtub. As the water drained away she dried her self with a towel.
"And even if I did, what difference would it make I.I don't care." Asuka growled to the empty room as if trying to prove something but even she didn't know what.
After putting her clothes and exiting the bathroom she decided to ask Rai if she knew anything about it even though Asuka hated her she couldn't tell Misato.
"Rai.Rai hay where are you wonder girl?"
"What is the problem Asuka?" Rai asked from the doorway of the kitchen.
"Where were you I've been waiting; I need to talk to you."
"About what?"
"It's just something I need to know that's all."
Asuka lead Rai into her room, she was beginning to get confused by everyone's reactions to the news.
"Well you see Rai I.I found out something about Shinji that you might want to know." Asuka said seriously.
"Is it about his relationship with Nagisa kun?"
Asuka's eyes grew large.
"How.how do you know?"
"Nagisa kun told me he loved Shinji. He asked me take care of him and make sure he does not get hurt."
Asuka blinked *why did Kaworu ask her to take care of him* she pondered. She stood there for a second or two while her mind raced trying to comprehend the emotion she was feeling *jealousy?* she thought *am I jealous of wonder girl?*
"If that is all you wanted to talk to me about; then may I leave?" Rai questioned.
"wh.why did he ask you?"
"Because him and I are the same." For the first time a glimpse of emotion sparkled in her eyes.
*What was that?* Asuka thought *what emotion?* she couldn't quit put her finger on it. It was like Rai was mocking her laughing at her even.
"YOU BITCH!" Asuka yelled and with a loud smack she slapped Rai across her left check, Rai with her check now a pail tone of scarlet, simply walked back out the room.
Author's notes/ramblings---------------------------------------------------- ---------------------
Guess what, there was this e-mail that I got from someone and it was just a list of useless facts and one of them was that it is anatomically impossible for a human to lick their own elbow, so I tried to do this for my self---and I tried and tried and tried and every time I failed and now due to all the twisting and licking and stretching I did (get rid of the first part of my notes and that sounds REALLY kinky) my neck, jaw, shoulder and pretty much the rest of my arm are in agony. The next fact was that 99.9 percent of the people who read the statement had tried to do it (and so far I doubt there has been any success)---*cautious look* you were going to try it weren't you HA! I knew it; it's true it's true! R&R, tell me what you think of the story (pleaz)
P.S. The next chapy will be REALLY weird.well you've been warned *HA HA AND I TOLD THEM YOU COULDN'T KEEP ME OUT FOREVER BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA their coming to take me away ha ha, their coming to take me away. The nice young men, in the clean white coats, their coming to take me away ho ho he he ha ha!* Excuse me a moment.
Blessed be.
~Druidangel