Lost, Confused, Unkind (Sequel To "Freaked")
Chapter 48
Four days later and I was on my way to the hospital once again, only this time I was alone. Jeff was working & he said he would try & get back in time to come with me but he hadn't made it. I took his car & drove there myself. I was relying on him way too much anyway & I figured it was about time I did something on my own. As I sat in the waiting room I still didn't know if I wanted to find out the baby's sex or not! I wanted it to be a boy so badly, so what would I do if it was a girl? Would it be better to know now & be prepared? My head was spinning as I sat there chewing on my thumbnail. The last thing I needed was Mrs 'Know-All' sitting down beside me, but there she was, larger than life & twice as loud!
"Oh hello again!" She grinned at me as she sat down & I cringed.
"Hi!"
"You here for another scan?"
"Yep." I turned away. I thought about saying no actually I'm here for a cheeseburger and a beer but I figured why make her any worse than she already was!
"Your partner not with you today?"
"No he's working." (Why me?)
"Oh I see!" she shuffled her huge ass around in her seat & rubbed her enormous belly with one hand & her back with the other! As I looked at her a sense of panick welled up inside of me. Was that what I was destined to become? God help me! "Pheweee I can't wait until this is over!" She sighed. I forced a smile at her & wished she would just go into labour immediately so they could wheel her away on a trolley! "I don't mean to pry or anything but was there a problem last time you were here?"
"No."
"Ah I just saw you got a bit upset and….."
"There's nothing wrong with the baby! I just don't like hospitals much that's all!"
"Well you'll get used to them by the time little one comes!" she smiled.
"Oh I don't think I will actually! Don't you find it a little uncomfortable that people die in hospitals?"
She gave me a perculiar look, "Oh right! Hadn't much thought about it that way!" She shuffled again & I thought she was finally going to give it a rest but no! "It's a shame your partner couldn't be here this time! The second scan is so much clearer!"
I'd had enough, I stood up & poked a finger at her, "Look lady for your information my partner is…."
"HERE!" Jeff quickly made his way around the chairs, "Hi again!" He smiled awkwardly at the woman & then kissed my cheek, "I'm sorry! She's been a little stressed lately!" he took hold of my arm & my jaw dropped! "Come along, darling!" he said through clenched teeth as he led me away. "She was only trying to be friendly!" he said as we stood by the vending machine.
"Oh the nosey bitch was driving me crazy! Anyway how did you get here?"
"Betty brought me!"
"Betty?"
"Yeah well Shannon's not home & Dad was out in the truck so I happened to bump into her & she offered! Why?"
"Oh….um nothing! How come you bumped into her anyway?"
"Erm….she was coming to see you! She thought your scan was this morning so she was wondering how it went that's all! Why the 20 questions?" He gave me a puzzled look.
"No reason!"
A nurse came out & called my name so Jeff took my hand & led me into the room. Everything was as it should be except my blood preassure was a little high, nothing major! At the last minute I decided I didn't want to know the baby's sex! If I changed my mind they could always tell me at a later date! When we came out Jeff looked at me & raised his eyebrows.
"You need to slow down a little if your blood preassure is high!"
I let out a laugh! "Jeff if I go any slower I'd stop! Don't worry! It's probably just that silly cow winding me up before I went in there!"
"Ok! Ok!" Jeff held up his hands.
"Let me drive back, you look beat!"
"Yeah I am! I was up at 4am this morning! I didn't think I'd get back in time!"
We walked outside to the car. He'd gotten up at 4am to make it home for the scan, it scared me! Maybe he was getting a bit too involved with this baby, or maybe it was just me?
We got into the car & set off for home, Jeff leaned his head back on the seat & closed his eyes.
"You needn't have gotten up that early just to make it back for the scan y'know?"
He opened his eyes & sat up. "Ah it's no big deal, I wanted to!" he smiled.
"Yeah but 4am when you've been working shows for the last 4 days!"
"I didn't mind really!" he sighed, "I promised…" he paused, "Ah it doesn't matter!"
"No, go on!"
He took a deep breath, "I promised Matt I'd be here for you & I want to keep my word! I want to be here when you need me!"
"You do enough for me already!"
"Yeah well if I could do more I would!"
"What you mean like have the baby for me ya mean?" I smirked.
"Yeah sure!" he laughed.
"Yeah right!"
"I- would!"
"That's just the sort of thing guys say cause they know it's impossible!"
"No I really mean it!" He grinned.
"What a guy!" I laughed as we pulled into the driveway.
***
So the weeks went by, same old, same old. Jeff was at work & I was home with Gilbert except most days Betty came over, which was good! She always managed to put a smile on my face no matter how shitty I was feeling & it was nice to have someone to talk to other than Jeff! Sure I saw Shannon once in a while but he wasn't very comfortable talking about Matt or the baby! So, having Betty as a friend really helped me a lot! She did have it bad for Jeff though & I didn't much like the way I felt about that!
Being almost 7 months pregnant was no fun! I felt huge & I felt tired, my ankles swelled up & I looked like shit most days & felt twice as bad!
One day I was waving Betty off when Jeff's car pulled into the driveway so, naturally she stopped to talk to him. I went inside & left them to it. I had a nervous feeling in my stomach whenever those two were together & no matter how hard I tried to ignore it, it would still be there, eating away at me!
2 minutes later Jeff came inside & dumped his bags on the floor. I hadn't seen him in 8 days and although he'd called me every day I'd still missed him like crazy so I hugged him & kissed his cheek.
"Woah! Did that get bigger in a week?" Jeff held me at arms length & stared at my belly!
"Don't! I feel like an elephant!" I laughed.
"Well that's ok! I kinda like elephants!" he winked & kissed my cheek.
"Coffee?"
"Yeah please! I'm beat!" He slumped into a chair. "Check out this beauty!" He pulled up his shirt to reveal a huge bruise across his ribs.
"Jesus Jeff! How the hell did that happen?"
"Well I did a Swanton & landed on the security wall…ouch!" he jumped as I gently touched it with my fingertips. "Didn't you watch Monday night?"
"Yeah I watched but the second you start to climb up anything I close my eyes & hopefully by the time I open them again you're getting up!" I pulled a face at him & he laughed. "Maybe you should get that checked out though, you could have broken a rib!"
"It's been checked over, they do have hospitals in Minnesota y'know!" he smiled, "They are just badly bruised, I have to keep them strapped up but I couldn't drive with the damn bandage on so I took it off!" He winced as he moved in the chair, "Anyway the good news is it's gotten me the week off work!"
"Really?"
"Yeah I can hang around & drive you nuts for a week!"
"Great! Oh well Betty comes over most days though!"
"That's cool! She's a nice girl Betty!" He looked up at me through his fringe, "I was thinking about maybe asking her out sometime?"
I gulped, "Oh right, yeah!" That would be, erm nice!"
"You wouldn't mind?" he stood up & I turned my back on him.
"Mind? Why would I mind?" I started to make the coffee's.
"Um I dunno?"
"Jesus Jeff I don't mind! You spend way too much time fussing over me! Sure go out with Betty! Go & get a life! You don't have to run everything by me!" He put both of his hands on my hips from behind & I took a deep breath.
"I thought maybe it would bother you!"
"Why would it bother me?"
"Because," he turned me around to face him & put his hand on my cheek, "Because of this…." He leaned in & kissed my lips. At first I resisted but it felt so right, so I closed my eyes & just let it happen. I put my hands on the back of his neck as his tongue slid into my mouth & I forgot about everything in an instant.
Chapter 48
Four days later and I was on my way to the hospital once again, only this time I was alone. Jeff was working & he said he would try & get back in time to come with me but he hadn't made it. I took his car & drove there myself. I was relying on him way too much anyway & I figured it was about time I did something on my own. As I sat in the waiting room I still didn't know if I wanted to find out the baby's sex or not! I wanted it to be a boy so badly, so what would I do if it was a girl? Would it be better to know now & be prepared? My head was spinning as I sat there chewing on my thumbnail. The last thing I needed was Mrs 'Know-All' sitting down beside me, but there she was, larger than life & twice as loud!
"Oh hello again!" She grinned at me as she sat down & I cringed.
"Hi!"
"You here for another scan?"
"Yep." I turned away. I thought about saying no actually I'm here for a cheeseburger and a beer but I figured why make her any worse than she already was!
"Your partner not with you today?"
"No he's working." (Why me?)
"Oh I see!" she shuffled her huge ass around in her seat & rubbed her enormous belly with one hand & her back with the other! As I looked at her a sense of panick welled up inside of me. Was that what I was destined to become? God help me! "Pheweee I can't wait until this is over!" She sighed. I forced a smile at her & wished she would just go into labour immediately so they could wheel her away on a trolley! "I don't mean to pry or anything but was there a problem last time you were here?"
"No."
"Ah I just saw you got a bit upset and….."
"There's nothing wrong with the baby! I just don't like hospitals much that's all!"
"Well you'll get used to them by the time little one comes!" she smiled.
"Oh I don't think I will actually! Don't you find it a little uncomfortable that people die in hospitals?"
She gave me a perculiar look, "Oh right! Hadn't much thought about it that way!" She shuffled again & I thought she was finally going to give it a rest but no! "It's a shame your partner couldn't be here this time! The second scan is so much clearer!"
I'd had enough, I stood up & poked a finger at her, "Look lady for your information my partner is…."
"HERE!" Jeff quickly made his way around the chairs, "Hi again!" He smiled awkwardly at the woman & then kissed my cheek, "I'm sorry! She's been a little stressed lately!" he took hold of my arm & my jaw dropped! "Come along, darling!" he said through clenched teeth as he led me away. "She was only trying to be friendly!" he said as we stood by the vending machine.
"Oh the nosey bitch was driving me crazy! Anyway how did you get here?"
"Betty brought me!"
"Betty?"
"Yeah well Shannon's not home & Dad was out in the truck so I happened to bump into her & she offered! Why?"
"Oh….um nothing! How come you bumped into her anyway?"
"Erm….she was coming to see you! She thought your scan was this morning so she was wondering how it went that's all! Why the 20 questions?" He gave me a puzzled look.
"No reason!"
A nurse came out & called my name so Jeff took my hand & led me into the room. Everything was as it should be except my blood preassure was a little high, nothing major! At the last minute I decided I didn't want to know the baby's sex! If I changed my mind they could always tell me at a later date! When we came out Jeff looked at me & raised his eyebrows.
"You need to slow down a little if your blood preassure is high!"
I let out a laugh! "Jeff if I go any slower I'd stop! Don't worry! It's probably just that silly cow winding me up before I went in there!"
"Ok! Ok!" Jeff held up his hands.
"Let me drive back, you look beat!"
"Yeah I am! I was up at 4am this morning! I didn't think I'd get back in time!"
We walked outside to the car. He'd gotten up at 4am to make it home for the scan, it scared me! Maybe he was getting a bit too involved with this baby, or maybe it was just me?
We got into the car & set off for home, Jeff leaned his head back on the seat & closed his eyes.
"You needn't have gotten up that early just to make it back for the scan y'know?"
He opened his eyes & sat up. "Ah it's no big deal, I wanted to!" he smiled.
"Yeah but 4am when you've been working shows for the last 4 days!"
"I didn't mind really!" he sighed, "I promised…" he paused, "Ah it doesn't matter!"
"No, go on!"
He took a deep breath, "I promised Matt I'd be here for you & I want to keep my word! I want to be here when you need me!"
"You do enough for me already!"
"Yeah well if I could do more I would!"
"What you mean like have the baby for me ya mean?" I smirked.
"Yeah sure!" he laughed.
"Yeah right!"
"I- would!"
"That's just the sort of thing guys say cause they know it's impossible!"
"No I really mean it!" He grinned.
"What a guy!" I laughed as we pulled into the driveway.
***
So the weeks went by, same old, same old. Jeff was at work & I was home with Gilbert except most days Betty came over, which was good! She always managed to put a smile on my face no matter how shitty I was feeling & it was nice to have someone to talk to other than Jeff! Sure I saw Shannon once in a while but he wasn't very comfortable talking about Matt or the baby! So, having Betty as a friend really helped me a lot! She did have it bad for Jeff though & I didn't much like the way I felt about that!
Being almost 7 months pregnant was no fun! I felt huge & I felt tired, my ankles swelled up & I looked like shit most days & felt twice as bad!
One day I was waving Betty off when Jeff's car pulled into the driveway so, naturally she stopped to talk to him. I went inside & left them to it. I had a nervous feeling in my stomach whenever those two were together & no matter how hard I tried to ignore it, it would still be there, eating away at me!
2 minutes later Jeff came inside & dumped his bags on the floor. I hadn't seen him in 8 days and although he'd called me every day I'd still missed him like crazy so I hugged him & kissed his cheek.
"Woah! Did that get bigger in a week?" Jeff held me at arms length & stared at my belly!
"Don't! I feel like an elephant!" I laughed.
"Well that's ok! I kinda like elephants!" he winked & kissed my cheek.
"Coffee?"
"Yeah please! I'm beat!" He slumped into a chair. "Check out this beauty!" He pulled up his shirt to reveal a huge bruise across his ribs.
"Jesus Jeff! How the hell did that happen?"
"Well I did a Swanton & landed on the security wall…ouch!" he jumped as I gently touched it with my fingertips. "Didn't you watch Monday night?"
"Yeah I watched but the second you start to climb up anything I close my eyes & hopefully by the time I open them again you're getting up!" I pulled a face at him & he laughed. "Maybe you should get that checked out though, you could have broken a rib!"
"It's been checked over, they do have hospitals in Minnesota y'know!" he smiled, "They are just badly bruised, I have to keep them strapped up but I couldn't drive with the damn bandage on so I took it off!" He winced as he moved in the chair, "Anyway the good news is it's gotten me the week off work!"
"Really?"
"Yeah I can hang around & drive you nuts for a week!"
"Great! Oh well Betty comes over most days though!"
"That's cool! She's a nice girl Betty!" He looked up at me through his fringe, "I was thinking about maybe asking her out sometime?"
I gulped, "Oh right, yeah!" That would be, erm nice!"
"You wouldn't mind?" he stood up & I turned my back on him.
"Mind? Why would I mind?" I started to make the coffee's.
"Um I dunno?"
"Jesus Jeff I don't mind! You spend way too much time fussing over me! Sure go out with Betty! Go & get a life! You don't have to run everything by me!" He put both of his hands on my hips from behind & I took a deep breath.
"I thought maybe it would bother you!"
"Why would it bother me?"
"Because," he turned me around to face him & put his hand on my cheek, "Because of this…." He leaned in & kissed my lips. At first I resisted but it felt so right, so I closed my eyes & just let it happen. I put my hands on the back of his neck as his tongue slid into my mouth & I forgot about everything in an instant.