Lost, confused, Unkind (Sequel To "freaked")
Chapter 51
6 weeks later & I'd had enough of hospital food & my mother to last me a lifetime! I was sick of lying in my bed or sitting staring out of the window, I was halfway through counting the flowers in the garden before I realized what I was doing & stopped myself! I was going insane! Betty came to see me whenever she could, and Mary, but Gilbert hardly ever came! I couldn't blame him, I guess he didn't like hospitals much either! Mum drove me crazier than a shithouse rat! She meant well but damn if I hadn't heard enough about when she had me or my sister or my younger brother, waters breaking, legs akimbo - I really thought about just making a run for it on more than one occasion! I had to ask her to go & get a coffee the day Dwayne came to see me, she was so embarrassing! Adam & Shane came to see me once too & Shannon had been 4 or 5 times which was a welcome break from the constant verbal onslaught from my mother! I had one more scarey moment when, 3 weeks after they'd stopped the labour I started to get pain again, but it was only for a couple of hours & then it stopped on it's own! Somebody up there was definitely watching over me that was for sure!
So, 6 weeks on & I was sitting in the chair by the window listening to my mother recount every detail of when my sister had my niece & the pain started in my stomach again.
"What's the matter?" Mum came over and knelt at my feet.
"Nothing, just the same as before it'll go away in a minute!"
She helped me back onto the bed. "Should I go & get a nurse? Call Jeff?"
"No Mum! Stoop bloody fussing for God's sake I'm fine!"
But 4 hours later the pain was stronger than ever and coming every half hour! The nurses kept comming in & checking on me and 6 hours after I'd had the first pain they told Mum to go & call whoever she needed to call! I was in labour! I'd never felt pain like it in my life, it was unbareable even after the pethadine injection! The contractions were down to 3 minutes apart when Jeff burst through the door like a madman! He came straight to the bed & hugged me. "I got here as soon as I could!"
"I can smell that! Dude have you just got out of the ring?" I winced as I got another pain!
"Um yeah well I didn't have time for a shower did I! You ok?"
"DO I LOOK OK TO YOU?" I snapped at him & he just took me in his arms as he sat on the bed. Mum was timing every contraction & I wanted to get up & throttle her!
"2 minutes!!" She announced cheerfully & I took a deep breath & bit on my lip before I said something I'd regret!
Jeff didn't speak, he just sat there rubbing my back and stroking my hair as I lay with my head on his chest. He tried to be so calm but I could hear his heart beat going crazy & he was shaking slightly aswell! Ii think he was as scared as I was!
"Oh that one was only one minute!" Mum giggled.
"I swear to God!" I said through gritted teeth,
"Shhhhh!" Jeff smiled.
"I think I need the nurses Jeff!"
"I'll go!" Mum jumped up & left the room.
"Thank God! She is driving me crazy….OW!"
"Take deep breaths!" Jeff rubbed my back until the pain subsided.
"I'm scared!" I started to cry.
"Hey come on! Is that another one already?" I nodded, "Oh shit! Erm….ok…erm……" he leaned over & pressed the buzzer.
"I want Matt!" I sobbed.
"I know sweetheart! Shh…..it'll soon be over!" He stroked my hair, "you want me to stay or wait outside?"
"Stay!" Was all I managed to get out before another contraction made me cry out! The look on Jeff's face every time I got a contraction was priceless & if I hadn't been in so much pain I would have laughed my ass off! Big tough-guy wrestler & here he was like a rabbit in the headlights shitting his pants every time I winced!
4 hours later & I was still in agony & I was exhausted, I had nothing left!
"Come on!" Jeff rubbed my back.
"FUCK OFF JEFF! What do you know about it?" I shouted between the pains! I didn't mean it but I just couldn't help it, I was sick of everyone 'cheering me on' like they were at a football game!
"One more big push!" Sasha (the nurse who'd become my friend) said.
"I can't do it! I can't!" Jeff squeezed my hand, he was as white as a sheet & looked as exhausted as I felt! "I want Matt!" I started crying again.
"Come on you can do it! Once more and then you can go to sleep! Squeeze my hand!" Jeff smiled.
"Oh come on love don't whimp out now! Women do this every day!" Mum remarked.
"Get her out of here!" I said to Jeff but it was too late! I got another contraction & everyone urged me to push. With my last ounce of strength I managed to push harder than I thought I could & then I felt relief! I lay my head back on the pillow & closed my eyes trying to get my breath back. Jeff lifted my head to his chest & hugged me.
"You've done it! It's over!" he whispered.
"I feel like shit!" I laughed, "I bet I look worse!"
Jeff looked into my eyes, "Nah, you still look beautiful!" he kissed my forehead & I got some strange looks from Sasha & my Mum!
"What is it?" I asked & Jeff leaned his head back as Sasha mouthed, 'BOY'. He hugged my tightly, "Is something wrong?" I started to panic.
"NO! No!" When I looked at him he was crying! "It's a boy Bec!"
I got goosebumps all over my body as I cried and laughed at the same time!" A boy?" He nodded & kissed my forehead again. Tears flowed down my cheeks as I sobbed into his chest!
"So do you have a name for this little fella then?" Sasha asked as she handed me a tiny bundle wrapped in a towel & I just stared at him, all wrinkled, with no eyebrows or hair! One tiny hand poking through the towel that didn't even have a nail on it's little finger!
"Yeah what did you & Matt pick for him?" Jeff said as he stared at his nephew.
I smiled, "Jude!"
"Jude?" Jeff laughed, "Wow!" he wiped his face.
"Oh sweetheart he's beautiful!" Mum kissed me forehead & pulled the towel down to get a closer look. "Can I hold him?"
"No not yet! I think Jeff might like to hold him first!" Mum smiled & nodded.
I handed the tiny bundle to Jeff & he held him awkwardly, like a guy that had never held a baby before! He looked even smaller in Jeff's arms, "Will he need to go into an incubator?" I asked Sasha, "He's so tiny!"
"No I doubt it! His temperature is a little low but we will just need to put him in a heated crib for a few hours!"
I looked back at Jeff who had a fresh wave of tears running down his face! He looked up at the celing, "Finally you got something right bro!" he smiled through his tears!
Chapter 51
6 weeks later & I'd had enough of hospital food & my mother to last me a lifetime! I was sick of lying in my bed or sitting staring out of the window, I was halfway through counting the flowers in the garden before I realized what I was doing & stopped myself! I was going insane! Betty came to see me whenever she could, and Mary, but Gilbert hardly ever came! I couldn't blame him, I guess he didn't like hospitals much either! Mum drove me crazier than a shithouse rat! She meant well but damn if I hadn't heard enough about when she had me or my sister or my younger brother, waters breaking, legs akimbo - I really thought about just making a run for it on more than one occasion! I had to ask her to go & get a coffee the day Dwayne came to see me, she was so embarrassing! Adam & Shane came to see me once too & Shannon had been 4 or 5 times which was a welcome break from the constant verbal onslaught from my mother! I had one more scarey moment when, 3 weeks after they'd stopped the labour I started to get pain again, but it was only for a couple of hours & then it stopped on it's own! Somebody up there was definitely watching over me that was for sure!
So, 6 weeks on & I was sitting in the chair by the window listening to my mother recount every detail of when my sister had my niece & the pain started in my stomach again.
"What's the matter?" Mum came over and knelt at my feet.
"Nothing, just the same as before it'll go away in a minute!"
She helped me back onto the bed. "Should I go & get a nurse? Call Jeff?"
"No Mum! Stoop bloody fussing for God's sake I'm fine!"
But 4 hours later the pain was stronger than ever and coming every half hour! The nurses kept comming in & checking on me and 6 hours after I'd had the first pain they told Mum to go & call whoever she needed to call! I was in labour! I'd never felt pain like it in my life, it was unbareable even after the pethadine injection! The contractions were down to 3 minutes apart when Jeff burst through the door like a madman! He came straight to the bed & hugged me. "I got here as soon as I could!"
"I can smell that! Dude have you just got out of the ring?" I winced as I got another pain!
"Um yeah well I didn't have time for a shower did I! You ok?"
"DO I LOOK OK TO YOU?" I snapped at him & he just took me in his arms as he sat on the bed. Mum was timing every contraction & I wanted to get up & throttle her!
"2 minutes!!" She announced cheerfully & I took a deep breath & bit on my lip before I said something I'd regret!
Jeff didn't speak, he just sat there rubbing my back and stroking my hair as I lay with my head on his chest. He tried to be so calm but I could hear his heart beat going crazy & he was shaking slightly aswell! Ii think he was as scared as I was!
"Oh that one was only one minute!" Mum giggled.
"I swear to God!" I said through gritted teeth,
"Shhhhh!" Jeff smiled.
"I think I need the nurses Jeff!"
"I'll go!" Mum jumped up & left the room.
"Thank God! She is driving me crazy….OW!"
"Take deep breaths!" Jeff rubbed my back until the pain subsided.
"I'm scared!" I started to cry.
"Hey come on! Is that another one already?" I nodded, "Oh shit! Erm….ok…erm……" he leaned over & pressed the buzzer.
"I want Matt!" I sobbed.
"I know sweetheart! Shh…..it'll soon be over!" He stroked my hair, "you want me to stay or wait outside?"
"Stay!" Was all I managed to get out before another contraction made me cry out! The look on Jeff's face every time I got a contraction was priceless & if I hadn't been in so much pain I would have laughed my ass off! Big tough-guy wrestler & here he was like a rabbit in the headlights shitting his pants every time I winced!
4 hours later & I was still in agony & I was exhausted, I had nothing left!
"Come on!" Jeff rubbed my back.
"FUCK OFF JEFF! What do you know about it?" I shouted between the pains! I didn't mean it but I just couldn't help it, I was sick of everyone 'cheering me on' like they were at a football game!
"One more big push!" Sasha (the nurse who'd become my friend) said.
"I can't do it! I can't!" Jeff squeezed my hand, he was as white as a sheet & looked as exhausted as I felt! "I want Matt!" I started crying again.
"Come on you can do it! Once more and then you can go to sleep! Squeeze my hand!" Jeff smiled.
"Oh come on love don't whimp out now! Women do this every day!" Mum remarked.
"Get her out of here!" I said to Jeff but it was too late! I got another contraction & everyone urged me to push. With my last ounce of strength I managed to push harder than I thought I could & then I felt relief! I lay my head back on the pillow & closed my eyes trying to get my breath back. Jeff lifted my head to his chest & hugged me.
"You've done it! It's over!" he whispered.
"I feel like shit!" I laughed, "I bet I look worse!"
Jeff looked into my eyes, "Nah, you still look beautiful!" he kissed my forehead & I got some strange looks from Sasha & my Mum!
"What is it?" I asked & Jeff leaned his head back as Sasha mouthed, 'BOY'. He hugged my tightly, "Is something wrong?" I started to panic.
"NO! No!" When I looked at him he was crying! "It's a boy Bec!"
I got goosebumps all over my body as I cried and laughed at the same time!" A boy?" He nodded & kissed my forehead again. Tears flowed down my cheeks as I sobbed into his chest!
"So do you have a name for this little fella then?" Sasha asked as she handed me a tiny bundle wrapped in a towel & I just stared at him, all wrinkled, with no eyebrows or hair! One tiny hand poking through the towel that didn't even have a nail on it's little finger!
"Yeah what did you & Matt pick for him?" Jeff said as he stared at his nephew.
I smiled, "Jude!"
"Jude?" Jeff laughed, "Wow!" he wiped his face.
"Oh sweetheart he's beautiful!" Mum kissed me forehead & pulled the towel down to get a closer look. "Can I hold him?"
"No not yet! I think Jeff might like to hold him first!" Mum smiled & nodded.
I handed the tiny bundle to Jeff & he held him awkwardly, like a guy that had never held a baby before! He looked even smaller in Jeff's arms, "Will he need to go into an incubator?" I asked Sasha, "He's so tiny!"
"No I doubt it! His temperature is a little low but we will just need to put him in a heated crib for a few hours!"
I looked back at Jeff who had a fresh wave of tears running down his face! He looked up at the celing, "Finally you got something right bro!" he smiled through his tears!