Lost, Confused, Unkind (Sequel To "Freaked")
Chapter 55
The next day I didn't crawl out of bed until 11am! When Sasha arrived at 11:30 I had intended on being washed & dressed but it hadn't worked out that way! She looked me up & down as I put a cup of coffee infront of her & sat down with mine.
"Rough night with Jude?"
"Nope! Just a rough night period!" I sighed, "Jeff took Jude in his room for the night & I still couldn't sleep!"
"Where is the little guy?"
"Well Jeff got up with him, Jeff gave him his breakfast, Jeff got him dressed & Jeff took him out for a walk!"
Sasha nodded & took a sip from her cup. "So it's like that then huh?"
I ran a hand through my hair, "Yep, it's like that!" I forced a smile, "Jeff IS Super Mom!"
Sasha looked up at me, "Well? Come on get it off your chest!"
"Ah it's just me being pissy! Ignore me! I'm gonna get dressed!" I stood up.
"He's only trying to help y'know?"
I stopped & turned around, "Yeah I know he is, it's just………" I sighed.
"Go on!"
"Well I feel like such a bad mother! Jeff comes home & does everything right y'know? And when he's home I hardly see either of them anymore!"
"So tell him!"
"Ah I couldn't do that!" I sat back down & put my head in my hands, "It's not post natal depression, I know that's what you're thinking but you're wrong! I'm just fed up! Sick of looking at the same 4 walls I guess!"
"I thought you went out with Dwayne the other week?"
I laughed sarcastically, "That would be almost 4 weeks ago! He took us out for a picnic & Jude screamed every time Dwayne opened his mouth or even looked at him! Yeah terrific day!" I sighed, "Besides you, Betty & Dwayne, everyone else that comes here doesn't wanna see me anymore! I open the door & the first thing I'm greeted with is "Where's Jude?" or "Where's the little guy!" Oh God I just realized how fucking pathetic I sound!" I put my head on my arms.
"Hun it's not pathetic to feel like this! But it does sound like PND! I'd be happier if you saw a doctor!"
"That isn't what it is Sasha!"
"Oh yeah? Insomnia? Walking around in you night wear all day? Crying at any given moment?"
"I don't cry at any given moment!"
"That's not what I heard!" She took another mouthful of her coffee.
"What do you mean that's not what you………………oh wait! I get it! You & Jeff been having a little discussion about me now is that it?"
"Paranoia!"
I glared at Sasha, "Well perhaps you'd like me to leave when Jeff gets back & you two can talk about me all fucking day!" I stood up.
"Lashing out irrationally!"
Sasha calmly remarked & right on cue I burst into tears! She stood up & Hugged me, "I'm sorry!" I whimpered.
"Don't be sorry! Just go & see a doctor ok? Before it gets any worse!" I nodded my head, "Promise?"
"Yeah!" I wiped my face & sniffed, "If you can come with me?"
"Of course I will! I wanna make sure you actually get there don't I?" She smiled, "Now go & get dressed & put your face on because we are going out for lunch, my treat!"
I did as she asked & felt much better after I'd had a shower & put some make up on! I threw on my jeans & a white t-shirt & looked in the full length mirror on the back of the bedroom door.
"Not as thin as you used to be huh girlie!" I said to myself & patted my belly. Then I tied up my hair & went back downstairs.
I heard Sasha laughing her ass off as I approached the kitchen door & I thought Jeff had come back but when I went in it wasn't Jeff at all!
"Oh my God! I might have known who was making her giggle like a school girl! What are you doing here?" I smiled, "And please tell me Rocky didn't just rear his ugly head then!"
"Pheweeee! Look at you!" Dwayne smiled & hugged me. "You look great!" He kissed my cheek & Sasha winked from behind him. "Little thing going on in Charlotte this weekend……..y'know the tiny weeny Pay Per View?"
I put a hand to my mouth, "Oh yeah…….Wrestlemania!"
"Damn right! But hey it's no big deal, I mean anyone can forget Wrestlemania!" He smiled.
"Ok! Ok!" I held up my hands, "So I forgot Wrestlemania!" I laughed.
"So Bec & I were just going to go for lunch if…." A knock on the door interrupted Sasha.
"Only meeee!" A voice called out.
Sasha & I looked at each other, "Betty!" We laughed as Betty walked in!
"Oh all this pie & here's me without a spoon!" Dwayne said under his breath & I nudged him in the ribs! "So, where am I taking you ladies for lunch then?"
We all looked at each other, "Oh we're going for lunch?" Betty asked.
"Looks like it!" Sasha smiled & grabbed her purse.
"I warn you D, these two have expensive tastes! See a man in this much Leather & they automatically think he's a big hot shot movie star or something!"
"Do you wanna walk?" he raised his eyebrow at me.
"Hey! Watch it!" I poked his eyebrow, "He's sneaking out again! Did we forget to take our pills this morning?"
Dwayne smiled, "Ok I'll go start the car while you three fight over the eye!" He smiled sarcastiacally at me & went to the door. My jaw dropped!
"DWAYNE JOHNSON!" I picked up a cusion & threw it at him but all I hit was the back of the door as he closed it behind him!
"The eye?" Betty said looking confused.
"Yeah it was that movie, years ago, ya know the one where's the three witches only have one glass eye between them?"
"What?" Betty shook her head & headed for the door, "You guys are too weird!"
"Oh yeah! Wasn't it Jason & The Argonaughts?" Sasha said, smiling.
"Nah I think it was Clash Of The Titans!" I quickly scribbled Jeff a note on a scrap piece of paper.
"Or one of those Sinbad ones?" Sasha said, squinting her eyes.
"Hm…….I still think it was Clash Of The Titans!"
"GUYS!! Come out here & look at the view!!" Betty called from outside so Sasha & I hurried out of the door. There was Dwayne leaning into the back seat of his rented BMW clearing out empty Coke cans & sandwich wrappers with his leather-clad ass sticking out of the door! The three of us stood in a line on the porch with our heads to one side & we may as well have had our tongues hanging out too!
"Wow man he's……"
"Married!" I sighed & gave Betty a sideways glance!
"That's a damn shame!" Sasha sighed & Betty & I both leaned forward to look at her!
"Sasha so are you!"
"Yeah well I can look! If I ever stop looking at an ass that fine please check for my pulse cause I'm probably dead!"
"Mmmmm!" Betty & I said together & we all went back to staring at Dwayne!
"Erm excuse me ladies but I am RIGHT HERE!" Dwayne said as he stood up.
"MMM Yeah we know!" Sasha sighed.
"Oh relax!" I said as we headed down the steps, "You know you love it!" I winked at him, "Besides it's not like we're gonna jump you in the car or anything! I promise!" I laughed.
"I'm making no promises!" Betty said under her breath & I giggled.
"Down girl!" I said through gritted teeth, "Besides, I saw him first!" I pulled a face at her!
"What?" Dwayne asked.
"Oh nothing! I bit on my lip & smiled, "I said I've got quite a thirst!" I coughed, "I hope wherever we're going aint too far that's all!"
Betty & Sasha laughed at me as we all pilled into his car!
Chapter 55
The next day I didn't crawl out of bed until 11am! When Sasha arrived at 11:30 I had intended on being washed & dressed but it hadn't worked out that way! She looked me up & down as I put a cup of coffee infront of her & sat down with mine.
"Rough night with Jude?"
"Nope! Just a rough night period!" I sighed, "Jeff took Jude in his room for the night & I still couldn't sleep!"
"Where is the little guy?"
"Well Jeff got up with him, Jeff gave him his breakfast, Jeff got him dressed & Jeff took him out for a walk!"
Sasha nodded & took a sip from her cup. "So it's like that then huh?"
I ran a hand through my hair, "Yep, it's like that!" I forced a smile, "Jeff IS Super Mom!"
Sasha looked up at me, "Well? Come on get it off your chest!"
"Ah it's just me being pissy! Ignore me! I'm gonna get dressed!" I stood up.
"He's only trying to help y'know?"
I stopped & turned around, "Yeah I know he is, it's just………" I sighed.
"Go on!"
"Well I feel like such a bad mother! Jeff comes home & does everything right y'know? And when he's home I hardly see either of them anymore!"
"So tell him!"
"Ah I couldn't do that!" I sat back down & put my head in my hands, "It's not post natal depression, I know that's what you're thinking but you're wrong! I'm just fed up! Sick of looking at the same 4 walls I guess!"
"I thought you went out with Dwayne the other week?"
I laughed sarcastically, "That would be almost 4 weeks ago! He took us out for a picnic & Jude screamed every time Dwayne opened his mouth or even looked at him! Yeah terrific day!" I sighed, "Besides you, Betty & Dwayne, everyone else that comes here doesn't wanna see me anymore! I open the door & the first thing I'm greeted with is "Where's Jude?" or "Where's the little guy!" Oh God I just realized how fucking pathetic I sound!" I put my head on my arms.
"Hun it's not pathetic to feel like this! But it does sound like PND! I'd be happier if you saw a doctor!"
"That isn't what it is Sasha!"
"Oh yeah? Insomnia? Walking around in you night wear all day? Crying at any given moment?"
"I don't cry at any given moment!"
"That's not what I heard!" She took another mouthful of her coffee.
"What do you mean that's not what you………………oh wait! I get it! You & Jeff been having a little discussion about me now is that it?"
"Paranoia!"
I glared at Sasha, "Well perhaps you'd like me to leave when Jeff gets back & you two can talk about me all fucking day!" I stood up.
"Lashing out irrationally!"
Sasha calmly remarked & right on cue I burst into tears! She stood up & Hugged me, "I'm sorry!" I whimpered.
"Don't be sorry! Just go & see a doctor ok? Before it gets any worse!" I nodded my head, "Promise?"
"Yeah!" I wiped my face & sniffed, "If you can come with me?"
"Of course I will! I wanna make sure you actually get there don't I?" She smiled, "Now go & get dressed & put your face on because we are going out for lunch, my treat!"
I did as she asked & felt much better after I'd had a shower & put some make up on! I threw on my jeans & a white t-shirt & looked in the full length mirror on the back of the bedroom door.
"Not as thin as you used to be huh girlie!" I said to myself & patted my belly. Then I tied up my hair & went back downstairs.
I heard Sasha laughing her ass off as I approached the kitchen door & I thought Jeff had come back but when I went in it wasn't Jeff at all!
"Oh my God! I might have known who was making her giggle like a school girl! What are you doing here?" I smiled, "And please tell me Rocky didn't just rear his ugly head then!"
"Pheweeee! Look at you!" Dwayne smiled & hugged me. "You look great!" He kissed my cheek & Sasha winked from behind him. "Little thing going on in Charlotte this weekend……..y'know the tiny weeny Pay Per View?"
I put a hand to my mouth, "Oh yeah…….Wrestlemania!"
"Damn right! But hey it's no big deal, I mean anyone can forget Wrestlemania!" He smiled.
"Ok! Ok!" I held up my hands, "So I forgot Wrestlemania!" I laughed.
"So Bec & I were just going to go for lunch if…." A knock on the door interrupted Sasha.
"Only meeee!" A voice called out.
Sasha & I looked at each other, "Betty!" We laughed as Betty walked in!
"Oh all this pie & here's me without a spoon!" Dwayne said under his breath & I nudged him in the ribs! "So, where am I taking you ladies for lunch then?"
We all looked at each other, "Oh we're going for lunch?" Betty asked.
"Looks like it!" Sasha smiled & grabbed her purse.
"I warn you D, these two have expensive tastes! See a man in this much Leather & they automatically think he's a big hot shot movie star or something!"
"Do you wanna walk?" he raised his eyebrow at me.
"Hey! Watch it!" I poked his eyebrow, "He's sneaking out again! Did we forget to take our pills this morning?"
Dwayne smiled, "Ok I'll go start the car while you three fight over the eye!" He smiled sarcastiacally at me & went to the door. My jaw dropped!
"DWAYNE JOHNSON!" I picked up a cusion & threw it at him but all I hit was the back of the door as he closed it behind him!
"The eye?" Betty said looking confused.
"Yeah it was that movie, years ago, ya know the one where's the three witches only have one glass eye between them?"
"What?" Betty shook her head & headed for the door, "You guys are too weird!"
"Oh yeah! Wasn't it Jason & The Argonaughts?" Sasha said, smiling.
"Nah I think it was Clash Of The Titans!" I quickly scribbled Jeff a note on a scrap piece of paper.
"Or one of those Sinbad ones?" Sasha said, squinting her eyes.
"Hm…….I still think it was Clash Of The Titans!"
"GUYS!! Come out here & look at the view!!" Betty called from outside so Sasha & I hurried out of the door. There was Dwayne leaning into the back seat of his rented BMW clearing out empty Coke cans & sandwich wrappers with his leather-clad ass sticking out of the door! The three of us stood in a line on the porch with our heads to one side & we may as well have had our tongues hanging out too!
"Wow man he's……"
"Married!" I sighed & gave Betty a sideways glance!
"That's a damn shame!" Sasha sighed & Betty & I both leaned forward to look at her!
"Sasha so are you!"
"Yeah well I can look! If I ever stop looking at an ass that fine please check for my pulse cause I'm probably dead!"
"Mmmmm!" Betty & I said together & we all went back to staring at Dwayne!
"Erm excuse me ladies but I am RIGHT HERE!" Dwayne said as he stood up.
"MMM Yeah we know!" Sasha sighed.
"Oh relax!" I said as we headed down the steps, "You know you love it!" I winked at him, "Besides it's not like we're gonna jump you in the car or anything! I promise!" I laughed.
"I'm making no promises!" Betty said under her breath & I giggled.
"Down girl!" I said through gritted teeth, "Besides, I saw him first!" I pulled a face at her!
"What?" Dwayne asked.
"Oh nothing! I bit on my lip & smiled, "I said I've got quite a thirst!" I coughed, "I hope wherever we're going aint too far that's all!"
Betty & Sasha laughed at me as we all pilled into his car!