Lost, Confused, Unkind (Sequel To "Freaked")
Chapter 58
A couple of hours & way too many beers later I found myself dancing with Shannon when Betty bumped into me from behind. "Where have you been?" I giggled. I could see Betty was completely wasted & upon further inspection I also saw she was attatched to a guy with long blonde hair! He leaned over her & spoke to me.
"I hope your boy is ready for the ass kicking of a lifetime on Sunday!" he grinned.
"Oh, hi Chris! I'm sure he's more than ready and he's NOT my boy!" I smiled. Shannon put his arm around my waist.
"Yeah Chris, besides I think it's you who should get ready for the ass whoopin'!" he laughed.
"Yeah yeah, we'll see!" Chris waved his hand dismissively.
While these two guys were debating the match I pulled Betty to one side. "What are you doing? Isn't he married?"
"Divorced!" she grinned stupidly.
"Oh right!" I smiled, "Nice huh?"
"Are you kidding me? He's totally gorgeous! Don't expect me to get into that cab with you & Sasha tonight!" She winked.
"You are such a slut!" I laughed.
"Ah you're only jealous!" She laughed & nudged me. Truth be known I was jealous! I wished I could just forget about everything & be normal! I decided to go & get another beer, I'd had too much already but I was beginning to piss myself off so I thought I'd try to drown it out! As I made my way to the bar someone caught hold of my arm & spun me around.
"Adam!" I laughed, "I'm getting another drink! Get off you clown!" I pulled free of his grip.
"How about you go & sit down & I get the drinks?" He pointed me in the direction of Sasha who was sitting with Trish & some of the other girls laughing their asses off at Shane O who had decided to dance on a table! I agreed & headed off to join them!
"Hey there!" Sasha said as I pulled up a chair beside her. "Have you seen Betty? I aint seen her in ages!" I laughed & pointed Betty out on the dance floor who now had a full on lip lock on Jericho!
"I think she's a little busy!" I laughed.
"Yeah, looks like she's having fun! How about you?"
"Yeah I'm having tuns of fun!" I lied, "I felt bad that I left you for so long though! You must be having a shitty night!"
"Hell no!" she laughed, "The entertainment alone was worth coming out for!" She gestured to Shane who was now joined on the table by Chris Benoit & Jay!
"One of them is gonna fall off I bet!"
"Yeah I go for Shane he's wasted!"
"Nah I reckon Jay will the first to hit the floor!" I giggled, "It's what he does best!"
"Here we go!" Adam put a beer down infront of me then handed out some more before sitting down next to me. "What are those idiots doing?" he laughed.
Sasha raised her eyebrows at me & I shook my head I knew what she was thinking! I took another gulp from my bottle.
"Oooh I love this song! Come on!" Trish said standing up.
"Oh no! Not me I'm knackered!" I laughed.
"I'll come!" Sasha got up & winked at me then followed Trish onto the dance floor.
"Looks like your other friend is enjoying herself!" Adam grinned.
"Betty? Oh yeah I think she's found her dream man! Her tongue has been hanging out all night!" I laughed.
Adam turned and looked at me, "So has mine!" he winked.
"Adam you're drunk!" I tried to laugh it off.
"So are you!" he smiled, "Man I haven't seen you this bad since that night in the hotel!"
I smiled as I recalled how everyone had piled into mine & Matt's room that night. Those times were the best times, nothing was the same anymore. "Yeah, great night that!"
Adam nodded. "Yep, the best!" I looked out across the dance floor at everyone enjoying themselves, getting on with their lives, "You ok?"
"Huh? Oh yeah, just thinking!" I forced a smile.
"Bec, I know it must have been hard for you…"
"It still is hard Adam believe me!" I turned away.
"I know! I'm sorry! I just wanted to say, if you ever need to talk you know where I am ok? You have my number right?"
"No, but Jeff does. Thanks Adam!" I hugged him.
"Anytime!" he smiled & took hold of my hand, squeezing it slightly.
"Man I'm beat!" Sasha wiped her brow & sat down. "Oh erm sorry am I interrupting something?" She looked from me to Adam and back again.
"No Sasha! You weren't!" I smiled sarcastically at her.
"She could have been!" Adam whispered in my ear & I gulped.
"Is um Betty still down there?" I asked, trying to ignore Adam's comment.
"I didn't see her. Shannon was asking about you though!" she winked at me.
"Shannon?"
"Yeah!" she giggled.
"Asking what about me exactly?"
"Um is she seeing anyone? Has she ever mentioned me? In other words he wants to ask you out!"
"He said that?" I was completely shocked!
"No but it was obvious!"
"Oh shut up Sasha! He doesn't!"
"Excuse me ladies, call of nature!" Adam smiled as he left the table.
"And I'd say he wasn't the only one!" Sasha said as she watched Adam make his way through the crowd.
"Oh yeah I know I'm just so irresistible! All the guys are after me!" I said sarcastically.
"Hello again!" Right on cue, Brian Kendrick appeared & sat down beside me. Sasha bit on her lip & turned away!
"Well ah I think I'll just um go get a drink….or something!" She stood up & I glared at her but still she left me there alone with Brian!
"Are you having a good time?" He smiled & suddenly I felt like such a bitch!
"Yeah thankyou! I haven't had this much fun in a long while!" I smiled, I figured the least I could do was talk to the guy!
"Will you be going to the 'post Mania' celebrations then?"
"Yeah probably, well if I can get a baby sitter! Are you?"
"Yeah for sure!" he smiled, man he had a gorgeous smile! It was to die for……I only just noticed! "Um would you like to dance?"
I was about to refuse him, until he smiled again! "Um yeah ok! But only if I'm not too drunk to walk!" I giggled. He stood up & held out his hand so I took it & he pulled me up! When we reached the dance floor he put his arms around my waist & I put mine around his neck & he looked into my eyes.
"I um….I really like you!" he said, smiling shyly.
"Oh Brian erm I don't think….well…."
"It's ok! I kinda figured you weren't really interested!"
I felt so bad! "Brian believe me it's not you! It's just, well I'm not really looking for anyone right now, if you know what I mean?"
"Yeah sure, I understand! Maybe when you are looking sometime, you can erm look my way?" He smiled.
I gave him a hug & kissed him on the cheek, "Aw you're so…"
"Don't say sweet…or cute either!" he laughed.
"Ok! Ok!" I laughed, "You're so um….nice then!"
"Hey Bec! Got a minute?"
"Oh hi Shan!"
"I don't think we were meant to have a dance tonight!" Brian smiled.
"Oh I'm sorry! Hey I promise you one at the after show on Sunday though ok?"
He smiled, "Yeah I'll keep you to that! Maybe we can talk, later tonight if you want?"
"Um, yeah sure ok!"
Shannon put his arms around my waist & pulled me close to him. I looked from side to side to see if anyone was watching. "Um Shannon you are drunker than me!" I laughed nervously.
"Yep!" he grinned, "It's just as well I am though!"
"Oh really? Why's that?"
"Well if I wasn't then I don't think I'd have the balls to do this!"
Before I knew it his lips were on mine & I just stood there in total shock! When I came to my senses I pushed him back slightly.
"SHANNON!" I stared at him, "Jesus!" I touched my lips.
"Bec!" Sasha grabbed my arm, "Come dance with me!" She started to pull me away.
"Can we talk, later?"
"Ah erm…..ok…..later Shannon!" I said still totally stunned by what had just happened.
"Woah! Intense huh?" Sasha smiled. "You looked a little uncomfortable, but if I was interrupting & you didn't want me to then I'm sorry!"
"Can we sit down?" I asked & she nodded & led me to the tables. "Jesus what's wrong with me?" I put my head in my hands. "Have I got a flashing neon light above my head saying 'she's available have a shot! You might get lucky?'"
Sasha laughed, "Yeah you could bottle whatever you got goin on tonight & sell it!" She winked & I shook my head, "What's wrong? It's not like any of these guys are exactly ugly! Jesus you should have a huge grin on your face right now!"
"I'm just not ready!"
"Sure you are, only there's a certain someone standing in your way isn't there?"
"Yeah, Matt!" I leaned my head on my arms.
"No that's not who I meant I you know it!" She took a drink from her bottle. "Jeff!"
"Oh don't start with the Jeff thing again! You're obsessed with him! I'm sure it's you who wants to jump into bed with the guy!" I moaned.
"Yeah whatever! But it's true & you know it is! Never mind trying to turn this on to me!"
"No, you're dead wrong!"
"So what's stopping you then? If you are so NOT into Jeff the way I think you are into Jeff then…"
"I'm NOT into Jeff! He's like…..like….my fucking brother or something for God's sake!"
"Ok, but well I'm not convinced! Whatever, it's none of my business!"
I got up, "I'm goin to the bathroom, I won't be long!" I didn't really need to go but I had to get out of there, she was driving me nuts! I was halfway to the bathroom when a hand grabbed hold of my arm.
"Wanna talk now?"
"Oh erm….I'm goin to the bathroom!"
"Ok, well see that door over there? I'll be out there in 5, if you don't show then I'll get the message ok?"
"Yeah, sure!"
"But you will show, right?" I looked into his eyes, over his shoulder I could see Sasha eyeing me suspiciously. 'Ok Sasha! I'll prove there's nothing between me & Jeff…just watch me!' I thought to myself. I put my hand on the back of his neck & Pulled him down to my height.
"Yeah I'll show!" I whispered in his ear. I ran my hand through his blonde hair & kissed his cheek softly.
Chapter 58
A couple of hours & way too many beers later I found myself dancing with Shannon when Betty bumped into me from behind. "Where have you been?" I giggled. I could see Betty was completely wasted & upon further inspection I also saw she was attatched to a guy with long blonde hair! He leaned over her & spoke to me.
"I hope your boy is ready for the ass kicking of a lifetime on Sunday!" he grinned.
"Oh, hi Chris! I'm sure he's more than ready and he's NOT my boy!" I smiled. Shannon put his arm around my waist.
"Yeah Chris, besides I think it's you who should get ready for the ass whoopin'!" he laughed.
"Yeah yeah, we'll see!" Chris waved his hand dismissively.
While these two guys were debating the match I pulled Betty to one side. "What are you doing? Isn't he married?"
"Divorced!" she grinned stupidly.
"Oh right!" I smiled, "Nice huh?"
"Are you kidding me? He's totally gorgeous! Don't expect me to get into that cab with you & Sasha tonight!" She winked.
"You are such a slut!" I laughed.
"Ah you're only jealous!" She laughed & nudged me. Truth be known I was jealous! I wished I could just forget about everything & be normal! I decided to go & get another beer, I'd had too much already but I was beginning to piss myself off so I thought I'd try to drown it out! As I made my way to the bar someone caught hold of my arm & spun me around.
"Adam!" I laughed, "I'm getting another drink! Get off you clown!" I pulled free of his grip.
"How about you go & sit down & I get the drinks?" He pointed me in the direction of Sasha who was sitting with Trish & some of the other girls laughing their asses off at Shane O who had decided to dance on a table! I agreed & headed off to join them!
"Hey there!" Sasha said as I pulled up a chair beside her. "Have you seen Betty? I aint seen her in ages!" I laughed & pointed Betty out on the dance floor who now had a full on lip lock on Jericho!
"I think she's a little busy!" I laughed.
"Yeah, looks like she's having fun! How about you?"
"Yeah I'm having tuns of fun!" I lied, "I felt bad that I left you for so long though! You must be having a shitty night!"
"Hell no!" she laughed, "The entertainment alone was worth coming out for!" She gestured to Shane who was now joined on the table by Chris Benoit & Jay!
"One of them is gonna fall off I bet!"
"Yeah I go for Shane he's wasted!"
"Nah I reckon Jay will the first to hit the floor!" I giggled, "It's what he does best!"
"Here we go!" Adam put a beer down infront of me then handed out some more before sitting down next to me. "What are those idiots doing?" he laughed.
Sasha raised her eyebrows at me & I shook my head I knew what she was thinking! I took another gulp from my bottle.
"Oooh I love this song! Come on!" Trish said standing up.
"Oh no! Not me I'm knackered!" I laughed.
"I'll come!" Sasha got up & winked at me then followed Trish onto the dance floor.
"Looks like your other friend is enjoying herself!" Adam grinned.
"Betty? Oh yeah I think she's found her dream man! Her tongue has been hanging out all night!" I laughed.
Adam turned and looked at me, "So has mine!" he winked.
"Adam you're drunk!" I tried to laugh it off.
"So are you!" he smiled, "Man I haven't seen you this bad since that night in the hotel!"
I smiled as I recalled how everyone had piled into mine & Matt's room that night. Those times were the best times, nothing was the same anymore. "Yeah, great night that!"
Adam nodded. "Yep, the best!" I looked out across the dance floor at everyone enjoying themselves, getting on with their lives, "You ok?"
"Huh? Oh yeah, just thinking!" I forced a smile.
"Bec, I know it must have been hard for you…"
"It still is hard Adam believe me!" I turned away.
"I know! I'm sorry! I just wanted to say, if you ever need to talk you know where I am ok? You have my number right?"
"No, but Jeff does. Thanks Adam!" I hugged him.
"Anytime!" he smiled & took hold of my hand, squeezing it slightly.
"Man I'm beat!" Sasha wiped her brow & sat down. "Oh erm sorry am I interrupting something?" She looked from me to Adam and back again.
"No Sasha! You weren't!" I smiled sarcastically at her.
"She could have been!" Adam whispered in my ear & I gulped.
"Is um Betty still down there?" I asked, trying to ignore Adam's comment.
"I didn't see her. Shannon was asking about you though!" she winked at me.
"Shannon?"
"Yeah!" she giggled.
"Asking what about me exactly?"
"Um is she seeing anyone? Has she ever mentioned me? In other words he wants to ask you out!"
"He said that?" I was completely shocked!
"No but it was obvious!"
"Oh shut up Sasha! He doesn't!"
"Excuse me ladies, call of nature!" Adam smiled as he left the table.
"And I'd say he wasn't the only one!" Sasha said as she watched Adam make his way through the crowd.
"Oh yeah I know I'm just so irresistible! All the guys are after me!" I said sarcastically.
"Hello again!" Right on cue, Brian Kendrick appeared & sat down beside me. Sasha bit on her lip & turned away!
"Well ah I think I'll just um go get a drink….or something!" She stood up & I glared at her but still she left me there alone with Brian!
"Are you having a good time?" He smiled & suddenly I felt like such a bitch!
"Yeah thankyou! I haven't had this much fun in a long while!" I smiled, I figured the least I could do was talk to the guy!
"Will you be going to the 'post Mania' celebrations then?"
"Yeah probably, well if I can get a baby sitter! Are you?"
"Yeah for sure!" he smiled, man he had a gorgeous smile! It was to die for……I only just noticed! "Um would you like to dance?"
I was about to refuse him, until he smiled again! "Um yeah ok! But only if I'm not too drunk to walk!" I giggled. He stood up & held out his hand so I took it & he pulled me up! When we reached the dance floor he put his arms around my waist & I put mine around his neck & he looked into my eyes.
"I um….I really like you!" he said, smiling shyly.
"Oh Brian erm I don't think….well…."
"It's ok! I kinda figured you weren't really interested!"
I felt so bad! "Brian believe me it's not you! It's just, well I'm not really looking for anyone right now, if you know what I mean?"
"Yeah sure, I understand! Maybe when you are looking sometime, you can erm look my way?" He smiled.
I gave him a hug & kissed him on the cheek, "Aw you're so…"
"Don't say sweet…or cute either!" he laughed.
"Ok! Ok!" I laughed, "You're so um….nice then!"
"Hey Bec! Got a minute?"
"Oh hi Shan!"
"I don't think we were meant to have a dance tonight!" Brian smiled.
"Oh I'm sorry! Hey I promise you one at the after show on Sunday though ok?"
He smiled, "Yeah I'll keep you to that! Maybe we can talk, later tonight if you want?"
"Um, yeah sure ok!"
Shannon put his arms around my waist & pulled me close to him. I looked from side to side to see if anyone was watching. "Um Shannon you are drunker than me!" I laughed nervously.
"Yep!" he grinned, "It's just as well I am though!"
"Oh really? Why's that?"
"Well if I wasn't then I don't think I'd have the balls to do this!"
Before I knew it his lips were on mine & I just stood there in total shock! When I came to my senses I pushed him back slightly.
"SHANNON!" I stared at him, "Jesus!" I touched my lips.
"Bec!" Sasha grabbed my arm, "Come dance with me!" She started to pull me away.
"Can we talk, later?"
"Ah erm…..ok…..later Shannon!" I said still totally stunned by what had just happened.
"Woah! Intense huh?" Sasha smiled. "You looked a little uncomfortable, but if I was interrupting & you didn't want me to then I'm sorry!"
"Can we sit down?" I asked & she nodded & led me to the tables. "Jesus what's wrong with me?" I put my head in my hands. "Have I got a flashing neon light above my head saying 'she's available have a shot! You might get lucky?'"
Sasha laughed, "Yeah you could bottle whatever you got goin on tonight & sell it!" She winked & I shook my head, "What's wrong? It's not like any of these guys are exactly ugly! Jesus you should have a huge grin on your face right now!"
"I'm just not ready!"
"Sure you are, only there's a certain someone standing in your way isn't there?"
"Yeah, Matt!" I leaned my head on my arms.
"No that's not who I meant I you know it!" She took a drink from her bottle. "Jeff!"
"Oh don't start with the Jeff thing again! You're obsessed with him! I'm sure it's you who wants to jump into bed with the guy!" I moaned.
"Yeah whatever! But it's true & you know it is! Never mind trying to turn this on to me!"
"No, you're dead wrong!"
"So what's stopping you then? If you are so NOT into Jeff the way I think you are into Jeff then…"
"I'm NOT into Jeff! He's like…..like….my fucking brother or something for God's sake!"
"Ok, but well I'm not convinced! Whatever, it's none of my business!"
I got up, "I'm goin to the bathroom, I won't be long!" I didn't really need to go but I had to get out of there, she was driving me nuts! I was halfway to the bathroom when a hand grabbed hold of my arm.
"Wanna talk now?"
"Oh erm….I'm goin to the bathroom!"
"Ok, well see that door over there? I'll be out there in 5, if you don't show then I'll get the message ok?"
"Yeah, sure!"
"But you will show, right?" I looked into his eyes, over his shoulder I could see Sasha eyeing me suspiciously. 'Ok Sasha! I'll prove there's nothing between me & Jeff…just watch me!' I thought to myself. I put my hand on the back of his neck & Pulled him down to my height.
"Yeah I'll show!" I whispered in his ear. I ran my hand through his blonde hair & kissed his cheek softly.