Lost, Confused, Unkind (Sequel To "Freaked")
Chapter 60
"I was worried about you!" Jeff said as he moved my legs onto his lap when he sat down.
"So I heard! There was no need!"
"Where did you stay?"
"Oh erm over at the Jameson's with Betty!"
"How come you didn't just come home then? It's not that far!"
"Well because….because it was late & I'd had way too much to drink! I didn't wanna roll in here & wake up the whole house!"
"Ah right. Do you want a coffee?"
"No thanks! I think I'll just curl up here & die!" I snuggled my head further into the douvet & closed my eyes.
"Oh can I have my cell?" Jeff asked, "I need to call Shane O!"
"I wouldn't call him now he was wasted!" I laughed, "But yeah it's in my bag, help yourself!"
He picked up my purse & plonked it on my legs as he rummaged in it. "It's not here!"
"Sure it is!" I sat up & sighed. "Give it here!" I took the bag from his hands & started pulling everything out & he was right, it wasn't there! My stomach lurched, "Shit Jeff!" I looked at him sheepishly.
"Aw man! Please tell me you haven't lost it!" He stood up & I bit on my lip, "Aw Bec! How can you be so…..urgh! MAN!" he ran a hand through his hair, I'd never seen him this pissed at me! "Ok well maybe you left it at Betty's, call her & see!"
"I can't call her at this hour!"
Jeff sighed & put his hands on his hips, "Ya know, we wouldn't have this problem if you would just get your own God damn cell phone!" he raised his voice.
"You know fine well why I won't have one!" I snapped, "Besides if you hadn't insisted I took yours so that you could check my every fucking move then this wouldn't have happened!" I threw the douvet onto the floor & stormed upstairs to my room. Jude was fast asleep in his cot & I stared down at him. He looked so much like Matt now it was uncanny! Tears welled up in my eyes when I thought about what I'd done the night before. "I'm sorry baby!" I whispered & touched Jude's cheek then I got into bed & cried myself to sleep.
***
Later that day I went down to the arena with Betty & Andrew (The Jameson's eldest) and I left Jude with Mary. As we walked down the corridor we bumped into Shannon & all said 'Hi!' When Betty was distracted by Andrew pulling on her sleeve & pointing out Brock Lesner, Shannon pressed something into my hand.
"Thanks!" I smiled.
"No problem!"
He started to walk away when I realized I had something to give him too. "Oh Shan!" I rummaged in my bag & pulled out the screwed up shirt & handed it to him. He shook his head & smiled as he walked away.
"What's that?" Betty asked when she turned around.
"Jeff's cell!" I put it into my purse & we went to find the main arena.
Most of the day was spent either watching the guys go through their game plan in the ring or watching Betty & Chris all over each other! Their's was more than a one nighter by the looks of things! I was sitting staring into space when Jeff trotted over to me after his warm up & I held out his cell.
"You found it!" he smiled.
"Yep." I said & turned away.
"Listen I'm sorry about having a go at you before! I didn't mean it!"
"Hey guys!" Chris said as he joined us. "What's up?"
"Nothin much! You?" Jeff shook his hand.
"Hm well I kinda have my hands full with Bec's friend if ya know what I mean!" he winked.
"Where is Betty?" I asked.
"Oh she just took Andrew to find the bathroom." Chris grinned & nudged Jeff, "Did Bec look as rough as Betty did this morning when she got up?" he laughed.
"Well she looked rough by the time she got home! She didn't say you stayed at Betty's! You should've come over for breakfast!"
My stomach churned & I held my breath. "I didn't man! Betty stayed with me, at the hotel!"
Jeff looked at me, "Tell me again where you stayed last night?" Chris looked from one of us to the other & he realized he'd put his foot in it! "Well?"
"Hey guys! All set for tomorrow?" Adam asked as he walked over. My eyes widened & I gulped. Jeff looked Adam up & down & studied him for a moment. Then he looked back at me & I looked at my feet. He looked at each one of us again then walked away with his head down.
"What did I do?" Adam asked.
"Beats me!" Chris patted him on the shoulder, "well I'm gonna get back to work! Catch you guys later!" he wandered off.
I put my head in my hands & sighed. "What? What's up with Jeff?" Adam asked & I looked up at him through my fingers.
"The shirt!"
"What?"
"You're wearing the shirt I went home in this morning Adam!"
"Oh shit! Right!"
"I'd say we've been busted wouldn't you?" I ran a hand through my hair.
"Well I spilled coffee on my other one, when Shannon brought this back for me I changed cause it was all I had with me!" He sat down beside me & I still didn't look up. "So what does he think you shouldn't have a life now is that it? Because of Matt?"
"I think there's more to it than that!" I stood up, "I'll see you later."
"Yeah I hope so!" He smiled, "Hey listen I'm sorry!" I nodded & went off to find Jeff.
I eventually found him in his locker room & he turned his back on me when I walked in.
"Jeff?" He didn't answer, "So what are you not speaking to me now?" Still he remained silent, he just started grabbing stuff out of the locker & stuffing it into his bag. "I'm sorry ok! I shouldn't have lied to you!" He sighed. "Jeff, why the hell are you so pissed at me? So yeah I spent the night with a guy! Jesus I'm human!"
"I just don't get it!" He put his hands on his hips & looked at the floor.
"Get what?"
He turned around, "How come it's so easy with Adam & yet so fucking difficult………….ah forget it!" he turned his back again.
"With you is that what you were going to say?"
"I said FORGET IT!" he slung his bag over his shoulder & stormed past me & out of the door. I sat down on the bench & rubbed my face. Why did all this shit have to happen to me?
"Hey how did it go I saw him leaving!" Adam came in & sat beside me.
"Ah it's um complicated!" I forced a smile.
"Unlike us huh?" he smiled & rubbed my leg. "Are you & Jeff…………"
"No! No we're not!"
"Hey guys! What's up with Jeff? He almost knocked me over in the hall!" Dwayne said as he walked over to a locker & threw his bag inside.
"Apparently it's complicated!" Adam stood up.
"Ah right! HEY! Nice shirt man!" Dwayne tugged at Adam's sleeve & Adam became a little flustered.
"I'm um….just….gonna….um…..go!" he smiled & left quickly.
Dwayne raised his eyebrows at me. "Don't start!"
"Hey did I say anything?" He sat down, "I kinda figured you were with someone, but I'd never have picked Copeland in a million years!" he laughed.
"It's not funny! Jeff's throwing some sort of hissey fit & now I feel like such a bitch!"
"You're not a bitch!" He smiled.
"No? Well try slut then cause I know that's what he's thinking!" Tears welled up in my eyes.
"And why is it so important what Jeff thinks?" Dwayne put his arm around my shoulders & I burst into tears. "Ok!" He held me tightly, "I think I get it, infact I think I got it a while ago didn't I?" I didn't say anything, "You really care about Jeff don't you?"
"It's such a mess Dwayne!"
"Ok! Ok! Shhhh, so you thought sleeping with Adam would achieve what?"
"There was no reason!" I whined & wiped my face, "It just kinda happened! I wasn't thinking, hell I was so wasted! But it just………..well I felt human again, for a little while anyway!" I sniffed, "But I still miss Matt so much Dwayne! You can't even know how much!" I started sobbing again & he hugged me.
Chapter 60
"I was worried about you!" Jeff said as he moved my legs onto his lap when he sat down.
"So I heard! There was no need!"
"Where did you stay?"
"Oh erm over at the Jameson's with Betty!"
"How come you didn't just come home then? It's not that far!"
"Well because….because it was late & I'd had way too much to drink! I didn't wanna roll in here & wake up the whole house!"
"Ah right. Do you want a coffee?"
"No thanks! I think I'll just curl up here & die!" I snuggled my head further into the douvet & closed my eyes.
"Oh can I have my cell?" Jeff asked, "I need to call Shane O!"
"I wouldn't call him now he was wasted!" I laughed, "But yeah it's in my bag, help yourself!"
He picked up my purse & plonked it on my legs as he rummaged in it. "It's not here!"
"Sure it is!" I sat up & sighed. "Give it here!" I took the bag from his hands & started pulling everything out & he was right, it wasn't there! My stomach lurched, "Shit Jeff!" I looked at him sheepishly.
"Aw man! Please tell me you haven't lost it!" He stood up & I bit on my lip, "Aw Bec! How can you be so…..urgh! MAN!" he ran a hand through his hair, I'd never seen him this pissed at me! "Ok well maybe you left it at Betty's, call her & see!"
"I can't call her at this hour!"
Jeff sighed & put his hands on his hips, "Ya know, we wouldn't have this problem if you would just get your own God damn cell phone!" he raised his voice.
"You know fine well why I won't have one!" I snapped, "Besides if you hadn't insisted I took yours so that you could check my every fucking move then this wouldn't have happened!" I threw the douvet onto the floor & stormed upstairs to my room. Jude was fast asleep in his cot & I stared down at him. He looked so much like Matt now it was uncanny! Tears welled up in my eyes when I thought about what I'd done the night before. "I'm sorry baby!" I whispered & touched Jude's cheek then I got into bed & cried myself to sleep.
***
Later that day I went down to the arena with Betty & Andrew (The Jameson's eldest) and I left Jude with Mary. As we walked down the corridor we bumped into Shannon & all said 'Hi!' When Betty was distracted by Andrew pulling on her sleeve & pointing out Brock Lesner, Shannon pressed something into my hand.
"Thanks!" I smiled.
"No problem!"
He started to walk away when I realized I had something to give him too. "Oh Shan!" I rummaged in my bag & pulled out the screwed up shirt & handed it to him. He shook his head & smiled as he walked away.
"What's that?" Betty asked when she turned around.
"Jeff's cell!" I put it into my purse & we went to find the main arena.
Most of the day was spent either watching the guys go through their game plan in the ring or watching Betty & Chris all over each other! Their's was more than a one nighter by the looks of things! I was sitting staring into space when Jeff trotted over to me after his warm up & I held out his cell.
"You found it!" he smiled.
"Yep." I said & turned away.
"Listen I'm sorry about having a go at you before! I didn't mean it!"
"Hey guys!" Chris said as he joined us. "What's up?"
"Nothin much! You?" Jeff shook his hand.
"Hm well I kinda have my hands full with Bec's friend if ya know what I mean!" he winked.
"Where is Betty?" I asked.
"Oh she just took Andrew to find the bathroom." Chris grinned & nudged Jeff, "Did Bec look as rough as Betty did this morning when she got up?" he laughed.
"Well she looked rough by the time she got home! She didn't say you stayed at Betty's! You should've come over for breakfast!"
My stomach churned & I held my breath. "I didn't man! Betty stayed with me, at the hotel!"
Jeff looked at me, "Tell me again where you stayed last night?" Chris looked from one of us to the other & he realized he'd put his foot in it! "Well?"
"Hey guys! All set for tomorrow?" Adam asked as he walked over. My eyes widened & I gulped. Jeff looked Adam up & down & studied him for a moment. Then he looked back at me & I looked at my feet. He looked at each one of us again then walked away with his head down.
"What did I do?" Adam asked.
"Beats me!" Chris patted him on the shoulder, "well I'm gonna get back to work! Catch you guys later!" he wandered off.
I put my head in my hands & sighed. "What? What's up with Jeff?" Adam asked & I looked up at him through my fingers.
"The shirt!"
"What?"
"You're wearing the shirt I went home in this morning Adam!"
"Oh shit! Right!"
"I'd say we've been busted wouldn't you?" I ran a hand through my hair.
"Well I spilled coffee on my other one, when Shannon brought this back for me I changed cause it was all I had with me!" He sat down beside me & I still didn't look up. "So what does he think you shouldn't have a life now is that it? Because of Matt?"
"I think there's more to it than that!" I stood up, "I'll see you later."
"Yeah I hope so!" He smiled, "Hey listen I'm sorry!" I nodded & went off to find Jeff.
I eventually found him in his locker room & he turned his back on me when I walked in.
"Jeff?" He didn't answer, "So what are you not speaking to me now?" Still he remained silent, he just started grabbing stuff out of the locker & stuffing it into his bag. "I'm sorry ok! I shouldn't have lied to you!" He sighed. "Jeff, why the hell are you so pissed at me? So yeah I spent the night with a guy! Jesus I'm human!"
"I just don't get it!" He put his hands on his hips & looked at the floor.
"Get what?"
He turned around, "How come it's so easy with Adam & yet so fucking difficult………….ah forget it!" he turned his back again.
"With you is that what you were going to say?"
"I said FORGET IT!" he slung his bag over his shoulder & stormed past me & out of the door. I sat down on the bench & rubbed my face. Why did all this shit have to happen to me?
"Hey how did it go I saw him leaving!" Adam came in & sat beside me.
"Ah it's um complicated!" I forced a smile.
"Unlike us huh?" he smiled & rubbed my leg. "Are you & Jeff…………"
"No! No we're not!"
"Hey guys! What's up with Jeff? He almost knocked me over in the hall!" Dwayne said as he walked over to a locker & threw his bag inside.
"Apparently it's complicated!" Adam stood up.
"Ah right! HEY! Nice shirt man!" Dwayne tugged at Adam's sleeve & Adam became a little flustered.
"I'm um….just….gonna….um…..go!" he smiled & left quickly.
Dwayne raised his eyebrows at me. "Don't start!"
"Hey did I say anything?" He sat down, "I kinda figured you were with someone, but I'd never have picked Copeland in a million years!" he laughed.
"It's not funny! Jeff's throwing some sort of hissey fit & now I feel like such a bitch!"
"You're not a bitch!" He smiled.
"No? Well try slut then cause I know that's what he's thinking!" Tears welled up in my eyes.
"And why is it so important what Jeff thinks?" Dwayne put his arm around my shoulders & I burst into tears. "Ok!" He held me tightly, "I think I get it, infact I think I got it a while ago didn't I?" I didn't say anything, "You really care about Jeff don't you?"
"It's such a mess Dwayne!"
"Ok! Ok! Shhhh, so you thought sleeping with Adam would achieve what?"
"There was no reason!" I whined & wiped my face, "It just kinda happened! I wasn't thinking, hell I was so wasted! But it just………..well I felt human again, for a little while anyway!" I sniffed, "But I still miss Matt so much Dwayne! You can't even know how much!" I started sobbing again & he hugged me.