Lost, Confused, Unkind (Sequel To "Freaked")
Chapter 77
Betty was still out on the porch completely unconscious but at least Sasha had had the sense to get her on the bench & throw a blanket over her - ok so on further inspection it was a table cloth but hey, the thought was there! Jeff had puked his guts up 3 times on the way home & Chris kept telling him what a disgusting pig he was! We managed to get him upstairs & threw him onto my bed! Sasha was curled up on one of the chairs in the living room with Jeff's jacket over her! Dwayne was half on the couch & half on the floor with the empty Vodka bottle still in his hand & for some reason one of Jude's bibs on his head! I smiled & Chris shook his head. We lifted his legs up onto the couch & I took the bib off his head, he didn't even stir until I tried to take the bottle from his hand!
"SON OF A BITCH!" He yelled & sat up, wide eyed, blinking.
"It's just me D go back to sleep!" I whispered, trying hard not to burst out laughing at him!
"Oh……ok!" his eyes snapped shut & he fell back onto the sofa! I gave up & just left him where he landed! I kissed his cheek before I left the room, man I was going to miss this guy so much!
Chris wasn't in the kitchen so I grabbed my cigarettes & went outside. He was sitting on the bench with Betty's head in his lap, stroking her hair as she slept. I lit my cigarette. It was starting to get light!
"What time is it?" I sat down opposite Chris & Betty with my ass on the deck.
"It was 4am when we dumped Jeff so I'm guessing 4:20 at the most!"
"Jesus!" I shook my head & continued to smoke.
"Quite a night!" Chris smiled.
"You could say that!"
"Where the hell was Rocky when I went looking for him?"
"God knows, he got a bottle of vodka wherever he ended up!" I sniggered & Chris did the same!
"I've never seen him under the influence, it must have been fun!" he chewed on his gum & continued to stroke Betty's hair. She was oblivious to all this attention she was getting!
"Well if it's fun to hear 'Baby One More Time' Rocky style then I guess you're right!" I smiled.
"You're kidding?" I shook my head, "Dwayne sang Brittany Spears? Man I wish I'd seen that!"
"Don't! I'm still traumatized!" I brought my legs up to my chest & leaned my head back on the rail.
"So what's the beef with you & Jeff?"
"Ah well, ask me something I DO know then maybe we can talk!"
"Oh it's like that huh?"
"Yeah it's most definitely like that!" I laughed, "It's the weirdest proposal of marriage I've ever had!"
"You are kidding me? He asked you to marry him?" Chris' eyes widened!
I nodded, "Yep he's full of surprises!"
"Well what did you say?"
"Chris….what do you think I said? Man he couldn't even walk! I'm hardly hanging the rest of my life on a proposal he makes while he's almost unconscious!" I laughed. "Ah well even if he'd been sober I'd have turned him down!"
"How come?"
"It's complicated! You don't wanna know trust me!" I threw my cigarette end over the rail, "Anyway what about you two? I'm sick of talking about Jeff!" Chris looked down at Betty & smiled, "Well come on! Spill it! Are you still gonna see her again after you leave?"
"Does she want to?"
I laughed, "MEN!"
"What?"
"Jesus Chris the girl would crawl over broken glass for you man!"
"Yeah?"
"Yeah!" I shook my head.
"Well then yes I do hope I can still see her!"
"That's good!" I smiled, "That's great! It's like the best news I've heard in ages!"
He started to laugh & I gave him a strange look, "Oh I'm sorry it's the ah Brittany thing…..kinda stuck in my head!"
I started to laugh, "God what a fucking night! He is gonna be ILL in the morning! You'll have to carry his ass to the ring on Raw!"
"Yeah you can help me!"
"I doubt I'll be there!"
"How come?"
"I'm going back to England! Tomorrow hopefully!"
"Oh right!" Chris looked up at the stars fading in the morning light, "Does Jeff know?"
I shook my head, "Not yet. There was no point in telling him tonight the state he was in!" I sighed & he nodded.
"Tell me to butt out but is it because of Matt, y'know the 'thing' that isn't going on with you & Jeff?"
I smiled, "Yeah some of it!"
"You must miss him?"
"Yeah I do! I miss him like crazy even after all this time!" I sighed, "It got a little easier but………ah well!"
"I can't imagine it y'know? It must have been hell!"
"It still is believe me! Some days I don't even wanna get out of bed! It hurts…." I patted my chest with my fist.
"Oh I'm sorry I didn't mean to……."
"No that's ok! Really! I don't get to talk about him all that much, well not to people that knew him anyway!" I smiled, "Jeff & Gilbert……well sometimes I think it's easier for them to just pretend Matt was never here, rather than remember that he's gone!"
Chris nodded, "I could tell you some stories about that idiot!" He laughed & I did the same.
"I'd like that sometime!"
"Anytime!" he smiled, "He was a great guy y'know? We all still kinda miss him at work!"
"I'm glad everyone thinks about him!"
"Oh we do!" He smiled.
"God life huh? What a shit heap!"
"Oh I dunno about that!" He smiled & looked down at Betty, "It seems to be picking up right now!" He looked back at me, "It'll get better for you y'know?"
"Yeah well I guess we'll just have to wait and see!" I folded my arms around my legs & rested my head on my knees.
"Jeff is gutted about ah…." He nodded towards my wrists & when I looked they were a nice shade of purple!
"I know he didn't mean it!"
"He wouldn't do it again either!"
"How do you know?" I smiled.
"Well because I kinda smacked him out before Dwayne got to him!" he grinned & I laughed.
"You did?" He nodded, "Well maybe he needed smacking out!" I winked at Chris. "Yeah I know he wouldn't do it again, he's not like that! It was just one of those crazy heat of the moment things!" I Waved my hand in the air & smiled.
"Not many would be as cool about it as you're being that's for sure! Hell he even gets forgiven!" Chris smiled. "He does love you though I know that much!"
"What are you his promotional manager all of a sudden?" I smiled.
"Nope, just a friend!" He chewed on his gum & smiled.
"Well I know he loves me! I've known that for a lot longer than I should've done!"
Chris raised his eyebrows but I just smiled, "I love him too ya know, truth be known!"
"Ok so now I'm confused!"
"Well don't be!" I stood up & dusted off my ass, "Are you gonna wake up sleeping beauty there or you want me to?"
"Is there anywhere for us to crash in there?"
"Yeah you can have the guest room!"
"Ah well…." He carefully lifted Betty's head & stood up. "I'll carry her in, she'll never even know!"
"Before you do….." I put my arms around him & hugged him tightly, "I'm gonna miss you guys!" I said over his shoulder.
"Well stay then!" He laughed & squeezed me.
"It's not that easy!"
"Looks pretty simple to me!" He looked me in the eye, "OK I'm gonna say one thing here…..it's just that, well you maybe only fall in love once in a life time man! It seems like you're getting a second chance & you're running away from it! You & Jeff could be great together!"
'Yeah maybe on the outside! But it'll all turn out ok in the end I guess! Everything happens for a reason as they say! Me & Jeff can't be together, simple as that!" I smiled, "Come on then or none of us are going to get any sleep!" He didn't let go of me, "Chris thankyou for tonight, for being the only one with brains enough not to drink themselves into oblivion!" I laughed.
"It should be me thanking you!"
"Why what did I ever do?"
"You introduced me to Betty!" he kissed my cheek.
"Man you wrestlers are just big old soft shits at heart aren't you!" I laughed, "I'm glad I've done something right for a damn change! Come on then I'll show you where the bed is!"
"Oh man BED! That sounds like heaven! I'm fucking exhausted!" He smiled, lifted Betty (complete with table cloth!!) into his arms & we went inside.
Chapter 77
Betty was still out on the porch completely unconscious but at least Sasha had had the sense to get her on the bench & throw a blanket over her - ok so on further inspection it was a table cloth but hey, the thought was there! Jeff had puked his guts up 3 times on the way home & Chris kept telling him what a disgusting pig he was! We managed to get him upstairs & threw him onto my bed! Sasha was curled up on one of the chairs in the living room with Jeff's jacket over her! Dwayne was half on the couch & half on the floor with the empty Vodka bottle still in his hand & for some reason one of Jude's bibs on his head! I smiled & Chris shook his head. We lifted his legs up onto the couch & I took the bib off his head, he didn't even stir until I tried to take the bottle from his hand!
"SON OF A BITCH!" He yelled & sat up, wide eyed, blinking.
"It's just me D go back to sleep!" I whispered, trying hard not to burst out laughing at him!
"Oh……ok!" his eyes snapped shut & he fell back onto the sofa! I gave up & just left him where he landed! I kissed his cheek before I left the room, man I was going to miss this guy so much!
Chris wasn't in the kitchen so I grabbed my cigarettes & went outside. He was sitting on the bench with Betty's head in his lap, stroking her hair as she slept. I lit my cigarette. It was starting to get light!
"What time is it?" I sat down opposite Chris & Betty with my ass on the deck.
"It was 4am when we dumped Jeff so I'm guessing 4:20 at the most!"
"Jesus!" I shook my head & continued to smoke.
"Quite a night!" Chris smiled.
"You could say that!"
"Where the hell was Rocky when I went looking for him?"
"God knows, he got a bottle of vodka wherever he ended up!" I sniggered & Chris did the same!
"I've never seen him under the influence, it must have been fun!" he chewed on his gum & continued to stroke Betty's hair. She was oblivious to all this attention she was getting!
"Well if it's fun to hear 'Baby One More Time' Rocky style then I guess you're right!" I smiled.
"You're kidding?" I shook my head, "Dwayne sang Brittany Spears? Man I wish I'd seen that!"
"Don't! I'm still traumatized!" I brought my legs up to my chest & leaned my head back on the rail.
"So what's the beef with you & Jeff?"
"Ah well, ask me something I DO know then maybe we can talk!"
"Oh it's like that huh?"
"Yeah it's most definitely like that!" I laughed, "It's the weirdest proposal of marriage I've ever had!"
"You are kidding me? He asked you to marry him?" Chris' eyes widened!
I nodded, "Yep he's full of surprises!"
"Well what did you say?"
"Chris….what do you think I said? Man he couldn't even walk! I'm hardly hanging the rest of my life on a proposal he makes while he's almost unconscious!" I laughed. "Ah well even if he'd been sober I'd have turned him down!"
"How come?"
"It's complicated! You don't wanna know trust me!" I threw my cigarette end over the rail, "Anyway what about you two? I'm sick of talking about Jeff!" Chris looked down at Betty & smiled, "Well come on! Spill it! Are you still gonna see her again after you leave?"
"Does she want to?"
I laughed, "MEN!"
"What?"
"Jesus Chris the girl would crawl over broken glass for you man!"
"Yeah?"
"Yeah!" I shook my head.
"Well then yes I do hope I can still see her!"
"That's good!" I smiled, "That's great! It's like the best news I've heard in ages!"
He started to laugh & I gave him a strange look, "Oh I'm sorry it's the ah Brittany thing…..kinda stuck in my head!"
I started to laugh, "God what a fucking night! He is gonna be ILL in the morning! You'll have to carry his ass to the ring on Raw!"
"Yeah you can help me!"
"I doubt I'll be there!"
"How come?"
"I'm going back to England! Tomorrow hopefully!"
"Oh right!" Chris looked up at the stars fading in the morning light, "Does Jeff know?"
I shook my head, "Not yet. There was no point in telling him tonight the state he was in!" I sighed & he nodded.
"Tell me to butt out but is it because of Matt, y'know the 'thing' that isn't going on with you & Jeff?"
I smiled, "Yeah some of it!"
"You must miss him?"
"Yeah I do! I miss him like crazy even after all this time!" I sighed, "It got a little easier but………ah well!"
"I can't imagine it y'know? It must have been hell!"
"It still is believe me! Some days I don't even wanna get out of bed! It hurts…." I patted my chest with my fist.
"Oh I'm sorry I didn't mean to……."
"No that's ok! Really! I don't get to talk about him all that much, well not to people that knew him anyway!" I smiled, "Jeff & Gilbert……well sometimes I think it's easier for them to just pretend Matt was never here, rather than remember that he's gone!"
Chris nodded, "I could tell you some stories about that idiot!" He laughed & I did the same.
"I'd like that sometime!"
"Anytime!" he smiled, "He was a great guy y'know? We all still kinda miss him at work!"
"I'm glad everyone thinks about him!"
"Oh we do!" He smiled.
"God life huh? What a shit heap!"
"Oh I dunno about that!" He smiled & looked down at Betty, "It seems to be picking up right now!" He looked back at me, "It'll get better for you y'know?"
"Yeah well I guess we'll just have to wait and see!" I folded my arms around my legs & rested my head on my knees.
"Jeff is gutted about ah…." He nodded towards my wrists & when I looked they were a nice shade of purple!
"I know he didn't mean it!"
"He wouldn't do it again either!"
"How do you know?" I smiled.
"Well because I kinda smacked him out before Dwayne got to him!" he grinned & I laughed.
"You did?" He nodded, "Well maybe he needed smacking out!" I winked at Chris. "Yeah I know he wouldn't do it again, he's not like that! It was just one of those crazy heat of the moment things!" I Waved my hand in the air & smiled.
"Not many would be as cool about it as you're being that's for sure! Hell he even gets forgiven!" Chris smiled. "He does love you though I know that much!"
"What are you his promotional manager all of a sudden?" I smiled.
"Nope, just a friend!" He chewed on his gum & smiled.
"Well I know he loves me! I've known that for a lot longer than I should've done!"
Chris raised his eyebrows but I just smiled, "I love him too ya know, truth be known!"
"Ok so now I'm confused!"
"Well don't be!" I stood up & dusted off my ass, "Are you gonna wake up sleeping beauty there or you want me to?"
"Is there anywhere for us to crash in there?"
"Yeah you can have the guest room!"
"Ah well…." He carefully lifted Betty's head & stood up. "I'll carry her in, she'll never even know!"
"Before you do….." I put my arms around him & hugged him tightly, "I'm gonna miss you guys!" I said over his shoulder.
"Well stay then!" He laughed & squeezed me.
"It's not that easy!"
"Looks pretty simple to me!" He looked me in the eye, "OK I'm gonna say one thing here…..it's just that, well you maybe only fall in love once in a life time man! It seems like you're getting a second chance & you're running away from it! You & Jeff could be great together!"
'Yeah maybe on the outside! But it'll all turn out ok in the end I guess! Everything happens for a reason as they say! Me & Jeff can't be together, simple as that!" I smiled, "Come on then or none of us are going to get any sleep!" He didn't let go of me, "Chris thankyou for tonight, for being the only one with brains enough not to drink themselves into oblivion!" I laughed.
"It should be me thanking you!"
"Why what did I ever do?"
"You introduced me to Betty!" he kissed my cheek.
"Man you wrestlers are just big old soft shits at heart aren't you!" I laughed, "I'm glad I've done something right for a damn change! Come on then I'll show you where the bed is!"
"Oh man BED! That sounds like heaven! I'm fucking exhausted!" He smiled, lifted Betty (complete with table cloth!!) into his arms & we went inside.